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Re: tid-bits
« on: October 25, 2020, 07:44:17 pm »
Quote from: Bukowski
And what hurts is the steadily diminishing humanity of those fighting to hold jobs they don't want but fear the alternative worse. People simply empty out. They are bodies with fearful and obedient minds. The color leaves the eye. The voice becomes ugly. And the body. The hair. The fingernails. The shoes. Everything does.

As a young man I could not believe that people could give their lives over to those conditions. As an old man, I still can't believe it. What do they do it for? Sex? TV? An automobile on monthly payments? Or children? Children who are just going to do the same things that they did?

Thanks Silenus.  Going through these tidbits, I notice that there was a certain resentment building up as far back as two years ago.  Part of me suddenly did not want to "play this game anymore."   Now I see that this living arrangement is what is best considering the situation.   There is a certain dynamic between parent and child, but these dynamics change over time.  Maybe I have a lifetime's fill of memories of being dominated by parents and authorities who got off on bull-headeded baboon family politics. 

Now that child is well over 50 years old.  By now, he's not pulling as many punches, so to speak.  That is, the look in my eyes gives me away, my intelligence has burdened me with a certain pride.   I was able to elude marriage simply because I would make such a poor prospect as a husband (not a good catch, a daydreamer).   And yet I have not been spared the minor aggravations of petty bickering that most couples must endure in their cohabitation.

If my life were a sitcom on the TV, well, then it might be funny to watch (as entertainment, as comedy), but the actual lived experience reveals we are each these porcupines Schopenhauer wrote about.   Our personalities are the needles, and we poke one another with these needles when we stand too close.

When we do not know how we can "go on like this," and yet continue to do so, this is what makes life so ridiculous, says Schopenhauer.

A married philosopher belongs in comedy (Schopenhauer).

What does this make the philosopher-as-caretaker for his aging mother?  Only humor can save me now.  We are getting along better ... as I "govern my reactions," that is, as I develop some gentleness in my gruff mannerisms.
« Last Edit: October 25, 2020, 08:38:14 pm by Sticks and Stones »
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