Thanks Holden. That clip is rich.
"He's so shaggy, he'll get in everyone's way. Barks so loud. In short, he's a filthy animal. Very well, but the animal has a human history, a human soul"
"... feeling what people say about him - which an ordinary dog can't do ..."
I'm going to try to jump into some math and programming this morning as a way to distract myself from thinking of reasons to do myself in.

I'm a stubborn animal who never saw a doctor for follow up after xrays at hospital. Now I am still using a crutch outside (with work-boots on), a walker in kitchen and bathroom. To be blunt, the foot is not doing so well. We are in a heat wave (up to 96-98 degrees F). I've been able to water the garden. I've been picking the zucchinis small, the way Maman likes them. Inebriation is at a minimum, and communications with my ruffian associates are fairly smooth.
I would write more, but I want to reboot this machine into Funtoo operating system, as I prefer compiling code in there. Trust me, I have been out of codemode so long that I actually have to get back to the basics ... declaring the variables I use and all that with a Beginner's Mind. Always with a Beginner's Mind. Maybe this is just the way we keep ourselves humble and honest and patient. I do not get "better" at writing code. My methods return to me, and I just go into my own zone. Nothing gets any easier, and that's OK. My understanding deepens, but there is no great difference.
Everything is slow going.
Maybe I ought to approach writing code the way some approach s
ex ... with mathematics as the foreplay.
Others may want to just bust it out quick and move on. I want to move slowly. Enjoy the process. I better stop here. I have much to complain about, but I want to remove my head from my a
ss as gently as possible this morning. I even got some sleep.