I try to eat very little now, enough for sustenance. I'm a twig now at around 140 pounds and 6'3"; if I turn to the side I may just disappear from perception altogether.
May I ask what tobacco you purchase? I've recently bought a 6 oz. bag of "Largo" brand, as it's the only bagged tobacco sold by the convenience store. Cheap and tastes fine.
I'm sorry I missed this post. I've been somewhat rattled, irritated, and braindead from troubleshooting wireless network in new installation of Funtoo (1.3) Linux with OpenRC init system (NON-SYSTEMD). The installation took a week as each piece of software, right down to the kernel is compiled on the machine itself. I really wonder why I even bother sometimes. I guess I'm just one curious string-bean of an ape-man.
I certainly do consider our species a sort of disease to the earth, and yet we came out of the primal soup like everything else. It's hard to feel too responsible.
As for the tobacco, the brand of pipe tobacco I purchase is only good when fluffy. "The GOOD STUFF Pipe Tobacco" RED. One pound bag for $21 from a kind store-owner from India. It sells elswhere (just down the road) for $30, and I used to get it in the Asbury Park area (Belmar, to be exact) for $35 per pound. I get 2 pounds per month. When it gets stale, I don't mind spilling some on the ground.
It's good when fresh (fluffy). It helps to mix all the tobacco together and then store in sealed containers.
I don't skimp so much on the rolling papers, as I prefer using RAW classics. So I order a few 500-packs of those every few months or so. I used to get 2 pounds of tobacco every other month, but lately I have been smoking more (or smoking less of whole rollies) and having to get 2 bags per month. Maybe I ought to discover a way to conserve or recycle half smoked rollies; or one day invest in a pipe. I daydream of some Native American style longish pipe ... Maybe I'm a "stupid white man" who was never taught how to smoke properly, never exposed to any Sacred Pipes, the likes known by
Black Elk's ilk.
When the tobacco gets a little stale, no matter how I roll, it's just not that enjoyable. When fresh, and I roll calmly, not too tight, not too loose, then I smoke as happily as a jailbird who just got a bag of Bugler from the commissary. I would prefer Buglar or, better still, Natural American Spirit, but those are close to $50 per can (far less than a pound). It's not even close to funny. I buy one pack of Natural American Spirit [black pack = Perique] per month, the same day I pick up my 2 pounds of "GOOD STUFF Pipe Tobacco".
I don't mind smoking cheap tobacco. The money people spend on class A cigarettes is scary. After paying a few of my mom's bills and stocking up on some groceries, I get coffee beans, tobacco, pencils or notebooks, etc .... I wish I could grow some herbs. There has to be a way to medicate ourselves without having to live in a tent.
I don't blame the guy who lives in a yurt in the mountains smoking his homegrown, letting his teeth fall out.
I'm glad to hear I'm not the only one deciding that I can get by without breakfast. I've grown to like prunes from the time I wake up until after noon when I break "fast". I'm down to about 122 pounds when I've been closer to 135 most of my life (5'7"). I don't care anymore. I've never been into lifting weights or doing push-ups. It is good not to care about such things. If I make homemade pizza and eat it daily for one week, I can get close to 130 pounds, but, goddamn, I can't eat like that all the time as my mom has to eat to, and she can't eat the pizza ... Plus, there's no way I'm putting the oven up beyond 400 F in the summer. Steel Cut Oats of any variety are a Life Saver. They revive the Will to Live, especially when the colder weather returns.
I agree with you and Holden that we probably do not have to eat as much as we think, especially if we are not doing a great deal of labor.
I'll keep this post short as I am feeling distracted by technical annoyances. I'm tracking down a technical problem, and feeling "obsessed." Nothing is fun anymore. I'm not having "fun" with funtoo, but it my choice to explore this. I won't go into details as it is quite boring stuff.
I think of Marvin the depressed robot from Hitchhiker's Guide to the Galaxy/Universe, whatever it is.
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UPDATE: It turns out, that while the official Funtoo documentation strongly suggests using NetworkManager, and while this has worked smoothly for Artix [Arch Linux - OpenRC initialization system] and Slackware 14.2 current [Linux - using BSD style files rc init system] and even Funtoo 1.2, for this present Funtoo 1.3 (with experimental concepts of "kits" with "flavors" and "mix-ins"), I used a combination of command line tools: wpa_supplicant, iw, ip, and good ole' ping.
The thing is, Funtoo has made it possible for me to install 2 desktop managers, both Gnome and KDE Plasma ... so it was suggested to let them use their GUI-applets via NetworkManager. There's a wpa_gui applet that runs in Plasma, where I just choose wlan0 and the router (connection to access point): Schopenhauer. That's the name of the router access point which is reached by the wireless network interface card on the actual machine. They call it a freakin' SSID. Am I man'splainin'? It is most likely all quite boring to most people, but, well, working around it and finding I can do it in a slightly more direct way removing NetworkManager from the "default run-level", and adding wpa_supplicant and dhcpcd). It's kind of fun too, I suppose for, at least a second or two.
Thank goodness, after several days and nights searching frantically through important systems directories for configuration files I may have tweaked or even created, I came across a very clear and well-explained method, which is quite a rare find. The internet access is like a connection to a Great Oracle, but finding the guidance you seek requires very generic questions not too specific. I was searching for a specific Funtoo solution, but found a far more generic solution (from way back in 2013) with the query, "
How to connect to a WPA/WPA2 WiFi network using Linux command line?" (not exactly ... but close enough for government work)
- Stay Dry, but not too dry.
Yet another UPDATE: While the above method worked, for a more permanent solution, I do not use wpa_passphrase to generate the file /etc/wpa_supplicant/wpa_supplicant.conf but create it manually where I replace my "secret key" with "******":
ctrl_interface=DIR=/var/run/wpa_supplicant GROUP=wheel
update_config=1
country=us
network={
ssid="Schopenhauer"
scan_ssid=1
psk="*******"
proto=RSN
key_mgmt=WPA-PSK
}
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I just have to be sure my "user" - mwh - is in group "wheel"
usermod -aG wheel mwh
Be sure that you did as root:
rc-update add wpa_supplicant default
rc-update add dhcpcd default
rc-update delete NetworkManager
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Of course, neither network-manager-applets in Gnome nor in Plasma (KDE) will show up in task bar, but as root you can ping external 8.8.8.8, and as regular user you can connect to the internet, using web-browsers, wget, etc. upon boot/login.