{∅, {∅}, {∅, {∅}}} : Rage Against the Meat Grinder

They want us to “Plug and Chug”, use mathematics to solve logistics problems and maybe build e-commerce websites.They do not want you to think about the square root of negative one.

But you do think about it.  In fact,I am quite sure that you are irresistibly drawn towards it and would not be able to help yourself even if you were paid a million dollars to keep away from it.

One of the few benefits of being a man of no means living on government-relief-funds [social security], forever penniless due to cost-of-living, is that, there are some days and weeks that I am, as you state, irresistibly drawn towards learning.  In fact, one of life's major disappointments seems to be just how little of the surface one might scratch.

With all the pain and anxiety that goes along with living, I have enjoyed learning and studying.  That's why I consider myself a contradiction.   This is what make me so depressed when I become "lost in the sauce" --- it is confounding how there is not really a solid personality residing inside the skin, that we are living processes, lived experience.  We ourselves may be a tale told by an idiot inside our own heads.

Maybe we can learn to have compassion for our own Inner Idiot.   We can hug our own animal body.   We can hold its hand and give it "emotional support."