{∅, {∅}, {∅, {∅}}} : Rage Against the Meat Grinder

I started Monday ... 4 full days per week.  I will not waste our energy complaining about the mind-numbing waste of time it is, since it would drain me of what little motivation I have left at the end of the day.  Only two days into it and I understand the wisdom of my initial outrage upon hearing this was to be my fate.

All I can do is take your advice as far us studying what I am interested in at night.  What I am interested in is programming and mathematics, and, fortunately for me I am under no pressure to study what an employer or professor demands I study, but to study what others might advise me against:  C++ ... STL ... Generic programming ... Someone might question why I would study this.   None of that matters.  After much exploration and soul searching over the last 6 months, this is where I am at.   A little at a time ...

My motivation has humble roots.  Inspired by Sage and the modules/libraries using Python (like SymPy and NumPy), I was motivated to return to C++ and see about doing some math with it, and I am pleased to find the potential is there.  With the same spirit you approach mathematics, I understand that I can spend a life-time studying ...

THIS is my motivation not to seek oblivion in alcohol, not the threat of being screened by case manager or probation officer and reported as non-compliant to a judge. 

What I am trapped in now is a nation-wide phenomenon which is pretty much a hall of mirrors ... "12 Steps ... "  The Therap-eutic (the letters r-a-p-e get astericked out) State.  Rather than actually confront those who make a living off the misery of others, where their clients are pretty much mandated to attend with the threat of jail as a consequence of non-compliance, I am conserving energy and just trying not to become brain-dead from the empty the****utic "recovery" rhetoric. 

I'll be leaving a trail of posts directing me to some basics and fundamentals not covered in the texts I have collected.

Don't mind me when I do that, since I am most likely preparing little sessions I can print out, carry in my pocket, and chew on through-out the day.   

~ Unbroken Spirit

Post Scriptum:  Confusion is the only honest state one can be in.

Do you know what the problem with gorts is?  They are determined to have a coherent story, it is the consistency of the information that matters for a good story, not its completeness.Indeed, you will find that knowing little makes it easier to fit everything you know into a coherent pattern.  THEY SUPPRESS DOUBT AND AMBIGUITY.
For them family, faith and flag is sufficient.Not for me,NEVER for me.Confusion will be my Epitaph.

Yes, it is a waste of energy to attempt to point out ambiguity or confuse the narrative with complexity since this will only be met with accusations of "intellectualizing".  It's best to ignore parrots who chant mantras.  I am resisting in a non-aggressive manner.  I don't know what I would do if this were indefinite.  I just hope I am not brain-dead by the end of it!