Hentrich,
Thanks for the post. you wrote " I apologize for not being able to think of anything original to post here", frankly, I found such freestyle posts of yours are more original and illuminating than any philosophical tomes. a first hand account of this miserable existence with unadulterated honesty is very rare to find.
I've been studying geometry for a while now but had to drop this endeavor too, the body is unwilling to commit to anything.
as leonard cohen says
"I followed the course
From chaos to art
Desire the horse
Depression the cart"
stay well