Generally, I simply wish to grant myself a license to slander the universe. There are so many cliched forms of advice, such as "think positive," or even "you have to be strong." (like Nietzsche's suggestion to "become harder.")
It's lame advice. If one hates this world, this life, other people, other animals, etc, why not allow ourselves to feel exactly how we feel? How do we REALLY feel?
On that note, I'm going to soak in a tub of water, reflecting upon the skeleton, veins, sinews, nerve endings, feeling toe heal ... I once read somewhere that a good prelude to a restful night's sleep is feeling a little sad - not deeply depressed, but, well, just sad in a way that isn't crippling, a good "tired of life."
Someone told me today that I "can't be weak in this life," that I must "be strong."
I find such advice ridiculous. We feel what we feel. I don't think it has to do with this so-called "mental strength" some people supposedly possess. Maybe the people who project a strong persona do not know enough to be scared and depressed.
The toe was merely bruised by the way and is healing rapidly. Still, though, the only foot gear that does not cause too much pain are the sandals.