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The Question, "Why Mathematics?" Itself
« on: September 25, 2020, 03:59:30 pm »
Why Mathematics?  Because it is an affordable addiction where a handful of texts might consume many years of "boredom," "despair," or "anxiety" --- sitting ducks for the Machinery preying upon the realm between the ears.
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Re: The Question, "Why Mathematics?" Itself
« Reply #1 on: April 13, 2021, 03:00:42 pm »
I am trying to build foundations of sound mathematics, one brick at a time,in my mind.I have not been posting anything about it because it is still very much a “work in progress”.It is as if ,when it comes to math, you speak fluent German and I barely know the alphabet.But I am trying to change that,one letter at a time.

You mentioned once that you find it strange that when you read mathematical or programming related works, the author never speaks about his suffering and ailments.

Well, Gauss in his mathematical notebooks,during a period in his life,when he had lost his first (still quite young) wife,Napoleon had annexed the German territory he lived in(his benefactor,who had funded his education,died indirectly as a result of Napoleon's war) and he was supposed to contribute to the French treasury a rather handsome amount,writes:

It would be so some much better to cease to exist than go on with such a miserable life.

Maybe you knew that already.


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Re: The Question, "Why Mathematics?" Itself
« Reply #2 on: April 14, 2021, 06:12:02 am »
I was not aware of these notebooks.  Everything has been reduced to a hobby, for me.

My heart is very heavy, and I have been emotionally confused, if this even makes sense.

There came a point where I had stopped writing down the secrets of my heart, and my frustrations have been building.

That I was able to revisit and relearn the fundamental structure and methods was due to some kind of grace.    This grace seems to have vanished from my life.    Fear and anxiety greet me in the morning.  I resorted to what I call "hydro-therapy" early this morning (4:30 AM or so), which is simply laying my snake body in a tub of hot-to-warm water, allowing my animal being to curl up and splash water over my head, into my face.   I do not do this very often, but this seems to help with the "morning terrors."

The only benefit to having suffered through years of agonizing confusion is that the Animal Being seems to have learned a bit about healing and reconstituting.

I know that my mind is fairly coherent, and I have never projected myself as being on the level of a Gauss.  No, I do not even consider myself a "mathematician".   Holden, you see what a farce human society is.   I have written some elegant programs, and the process forced me to learn --- and from these experiences I have gained some insight.    I am more than a dabbler, but seeing myself as a math hobbyist is all this society will allow.    I do not wish to be viewed as delusional.

My spirit is rebellious and defiant.    There is agony in my heart.   At this point, I do wish to continue with the solution notebooks for those exercises in the selected texts, but I have been far too restless.  One may not have a choice in such matters.  That is, my nervous system has been unable to reproduce the temperament necessary for the kind of devotion I had previously.

I do not know.  Maybe I have not been able to get beyond "Why Bother?"

I no longer feel secure.   Ever since I was thrown into the psychiatric treatment center last summer, upon seeing how the medical establishment "treats" those of us delivered into their "authority" has produced anxiety and fear in me.   I have a great deal of anger and resentment toward those who have been given such great authority.    I wonder if it will all come to a head.

I am almost certain that, were Arthur Schopenhauer born in the United States, he might have been destroyed by the plague of hatred here.   He had great comapssion for those catching Hell in the Slave States.   I wonder if he would have been   brutally murdered by the Deep State were he "Born in the USA".   >:(

This world has broken my heart.   I am "Broken Spirit" - remember?

Now I will work on a grocery list.   The guilt trips my mother tries to lay on me (for having engaged in a few alcoholic inebriation sessions) is difficult to cope with.   I have had people in my life who only see me as this Creature prone to bizarre behavior when intoxicated, and I have resentments towards those who feed into Alcoholics Anonymous bullshi.   I had broken off communications with "The Aborigine" after realizing he also saw me this way, and that he even suggested getting back to the AA fold.   I resent those kinds of thoughtless suggestions, where even otherwise intelligent people pay homage to things they do not really know about.

I despize the fact that all my research about these things in the early 1990's has not made it into the current hospital scenarios.   It sickens me the way people submit to the authority of the medical establishment.

Maybe the doctors and such (from India and elsewhere) are really thugs underneath the vaneer of medical professionals.  It is a creepy world, Holden, as you are well aware.

Were I born in India, maybe I would have self-destructed by now.
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Re: The Question, "Why Mathematics?" Itself
« Reply #3 on: May 01, 2021, 12:37:09 pm »
I wish to be the mathematician Schopenhauer would have been,had he put his mind to it.
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« Reply #4 on: July 23, 2021, 12:16:41 pm »
I found something which might be of interest to Holden in an unlikely place, although it should not surprise me at all.   From github "Learn AI from Scratch" (please don't let that turn you off to the mathematics ... and please never forget that Computer Science itself is a branch of Mathematics).   I would understand any prejudices you might have towards Artificial Intelligence and Digital Computers, and yet the theorists and thinkers in those disciplines can often be the most deeply mathematically-oriented folks on the planet.    8)

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Re: The Question, "Why Mathematics?" Itself
« Reply #5 on: July 28, 2021, 12:58:56 pm »
Book recommendation for Herr Hauser:

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Husserl and Mathematics explains the development of Husserl's phenomenological method in the context of his engagement in modern mathematics and its foundations. Drawing on his correspondence and other written sources, Mirja Hartimo details Husserl's knowledge of a wide range of perspectives on the foundations of mathematics, including those of Hilbert, Brouwer and Weyl, as well as his awareness of the new developments in the subject during the 1930s. Hartimo examines how Husserl's philosophical views responded to these changes, and offers a pluralistic and open-ended picture of Husserl's phenomenology of mathematics. Her study shows Husserl's phenomenology to be a method capable of both shedding light on and internally criticizing scientific practices and concepts.
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Re: The Question, "Why Mathematics?" Itself
« Reply #6 on: July 29, 2021, 05:42:51 am »
Thanks for the heads-up, Holden.  I will be checking out the PDF file of the text.   Husserlian phenomenology plays a prominent role in the defeat of the Mind Parasites in Colin Wilson's Lovecraftian tale.
It is exciting stuff, that there has been so much research in regard to Husserl's earliest writings on mathematics.   One could really spend a lifetime going through these kinds of things, making for a rich inner life; but the industrialists and their ilk continue to view the masses as cattle to be fed into the meat-grinder.

There has always been something about Edmund Husserl's writings which demand my respect, if only for his attempt at intellectual honesty.   I'm afraid I would have been in serious trouble were I one of his students, having to witness his betrayal by Heidegger.  Surely I would have been confused during those transitions.

There were some interesting things happening in Germany at the time, to say the least.  Nothing that is so, is so.  I would have been one confused and distraught basket-case, I suppose.   Who knows why some men are permitted to study mathematics and invent new fields/disciplines, while others are destined to carry ammunition like a mule.

Our entire world is suspect, and the objective reality of all this "history playing itself out in the so-called real world" is questionable.   We are free to consider these things.  We will not be thrown off the grass.  Recall the Weirdo-Rejectionist thread in our Humor Forum where I mention something Virginia Woolf had written in A Room of Our Own to the effect that sitting around reading in a relaxed manner may be considered one of the most deviant activities as it displays a total disdain for the work ethic and those who judge us by our “position” or lack of position in the work force.

Virginia Woolf asks, “If truth is not to be found on the shelves of the British Museum, where, I asked myself, picking up a notebook and pencil, is truth?”

Could the truth be hiding in our heads somewhere?

Lock up your libraries if you like; but there is no gate, no lock, no bolt that you can set upon the freedom of my mind.

At least there are those who do recognize contemplation as a kind of vocation.  By the sound of the conservatives, who want everyone on some kind of clock, filling some position as a clerk or laborer, one would think that they consider thinking to be downright subversive or even a criminal activity, a challenge to the authority of the corporate state and its masters, the International Bankers.
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Things They Will Never Tell YouArthur Schopenhauer has been the most radical and defiant of all troublemakers.

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