{∅, {∅}, {∅, {∅}}} : Rage Against the Meat Grinder

It does not compute --- the friskiness and ever-present longing below the threshold ... There is still an 11-year-old Presence in this 55-year-old Being, like poor old Pink (Herr Floyd) ...

Maybe I ought to try to get into some of Michel Houellebecq's work.  Knowing what you do about my day-to-day reality, Holden, which novel of his novels do you think would speak to me most directly?

I remember reading up to a part where the protagonist is staying in a monastery.   I started over.  I've noticed that I prefer reading aloud, even if only out of defiance against "oppressive silence".

I know it seems odd for a 55-year-old to say, but I find myself unable to read "the dirty parts" out loud.   

There is something about the P-word that sounds so moronic to me.  I prefer the word "cooter".  The stuff about "Indigenous 'Europeans' " reminds of an actual person whose name escapes my memory. 

I did a search for "indigenous europeans Italian female author" to find her name immediately:  Oriana Fallaci.   She was the kind of writer/journalist who angered many, bringing danger to herself for the sake of "standing up to machismo bullies."

After September 11, 2001, Fallaci wrote three books critical of Islamic extremists and Islam in general, and in both writing and interviews warned that Europe was "too tolerant of Muslims". The first book was The Rage and the Pride (initially a four-page article in Corriere della Sera, the major national newspaper in Italy). In this book, she calls for the destruction of what is now called Islam.

She wrote that "sons of Allah breed like rats", and in a Wall Street Journal interview in 2005, she said that Europe was no longer Europe but "Eurabia".

Fallaci received criticism as well as support in Italy, where her books have sold over one million copies.  At the first European Social Forum, which was held in Florence in November 2002, Fallaci invited the people of Florence to cease commercial operations and stay home. Furthermore, she compared the ESF to the Nazi occupation of Florence. Protest organizers declared, "We have done it for Oriana, because she hasn't spoken in public for the last 12 years, and hasn't been laughing in the last 50"

Also, I had been reading Nell Painter's "The History of White People" back in 2011 while living in a multicultural barrio (hometown).  See H-148: Scribbling Madness, Book One. 

From "Literary Experiment" :

From my notes:

2011.05.06

I wish I had had access to Nell Irvin Painter’s research when I was a teenager, for it answers many questions and validates my intuitive sense of kinship with the original indigenous Native “Indians” of North America. There are parallels between Caesar’s war of conquest and the “Indian” wars of North America, with Gauls/Germans cast as Native Aborigines and Vercingetorix as the Seneca Chief Pontiac, the Apache Chief Geronimo, or the Lakota (Sioux) Chief Sitting Bull at Wounded Knee: all valiant, but all defeated. What happened to the indigenous peoples of North America 500 years ago happened to indigenous peoples of Northern Europe thousands of years ago. Caesar’s Gallic War foreshadows and parallels chapters in the history of the United States of America, in which colonizing “Americans” play Caesar’s imperial role.

It really is something:

The novel put me in a sort of trance when I was reading it. Apart from everything else, I found it deeply lyrical.Pain deep in the heart. The whole world looks like a wound to me. Now there are contraceptives, there are things like the one I’m on that erase all libido. Well, maybe we will disappear soon and that would be that.