Senor Raul and Mr.Silenus,
I thank both of you for your posts from the bottom of my heart.
Horror ,for me, is not a distraction but a means to intensify philosophical thoughts.
I would recommend to both of you,if I may, a novel called Pet Semetary by Stephen King.
I know most of his books are no good.
But this one really is full of real life horror.
It's got an Antinatalist angle to it.Sort of.
A kid dies.The father tries to resurrect him as he is very ,very grief striken.
Only what comes back is no longer the sweet child that was lost..
I read it in 2017 when I was going through a terrible time due to the conspiracy of my office colleagues against me. It really resonated with me as it's about primal grief and loss.
We are all stuck in a horror movie/novel.
The fools think they are in some kind of romantic comedy.
Keep well.