Senor Raul,
I hope your eyes remain healthy.
You have had a rough life. But the important thing is that you have not procreated.That is important.You and I, we,are doomed.But at least we have not put anyone else in this kind of a situation.
While I was passing by the drawing room I just saw on TV that a young woman of about 30 was crying and saying "We love you" again and again over the dead body of one of the soilders who recently died.
I would never want to put any woman in such a situation.Also, love is a farce.I don't have any time to waste on women no matter how pretty.The prettier the woman,the more dangerous she is.
I wanna think about my being, my existence,while I still can.Paraguay and the US are so far away from where I am.
Sometimes I really drown is self-pity.Sometimes I think ,I delude myself,that I could have been so much better,in reality all I want to do is to stop existing.
Then again,before I cease to be, like good old Russell,I might want to check out a couple of math books.
Well,my friend ,take care of your eyes.And beware of ladies.