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Title: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: Holden on April 05, 2020, 01:58:46 am
Herr Hauser and Senor Raul,

I have a question for you.Asking for a friend  :-\

Hopefully you would be kind enough to respond.If your parents had threatened you that either you get married or else they will never speak to you again and disown and disinhert you and adopt someone else in your place as their legal heir and never ever help you again in any way at all ,or ever see you again, then what would you have done?

What do you think Schopenhauer would have done?(Mind you,in this scenario he loses all his inheritance if he refuses to marry ). Essentially, what I am trying to ask is that do you think Schopenhauer was strong enough to withstand this economic blow and work to earn his daily bread and live all alone in the world?Are you?No help from parents or any of the other relatives.You are completely on your own , financially, socially, emotionally.
Schopenhauer does not get so much as a penny,if he says no to marriage.You get zero support from your parents and relatives.

Could you be the much-awaited Ubermensch  :-\

Thanks.
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: Holden on April 05, 2020, 02:31:03 am
https://youtu.be/g4xQ2CP-T1U
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: raul on April 05, 2020, 10:32:28 am
Holden,

Your question is very important and also very difficult. My circumnstances were very different. What would have I done if my parents threatened me to get married or else they would have never spoken to me again?

My father worked almost all his life and my mother worked until she got pregnant. All the money my father got was because he knew how to save what he earned. Things were different then. But we were never rich. I I don´t know what I would have done. Above all I have no genius, no nothing.

From the little I read about Schopenhauer is that he was a genius and he knew that. He knew he was right. Things would have been different. He would have had to earn his daily bread or commit suicide. Either way the thinking minority would have never read his master works. The world would have never known and read the man from Danzig. I am sure many geniuses were lost this way.

Stay safe.
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: Silenus on April 06, 2020, 12:51:34 pm
Holden & Raul,
How are you two holding up? Quarantine is quite ok for "introverts" such as us. What I am curious about is food & other supplies- have either of you experienced shortages in basic necessities?

I have stocked up on rice, beans and frozen vegetables. I have major concerns about the stability of global supply chains.

Take care.
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: raul on April 06, 2020, 03:27:51 pm
Silenus,

Thank you for your words. I hope you are taking care over there. You have done well in stocking up on rice, beans and frozen vegetables. I also hope you are able to have access to medical services. 

We are in Holy Week and most activities in the past decreased because most went to the countryside but today things are different. I buy basic things really. Here most of the basic products come from Argentina and Brazil because the national production does not supply much. There is no food sovereignty in this country. The municipality market is working without health measures. The curfew will probably continue until May. But the economy will suffer and those in power will take advantage of this situation.

Due to this confinement most business activities stopped and although there is a government support it is not enough because many here survive on a daily basis. Besides those in power don´t really care much about the population. The health authorities reacted very late to this huge crisis.

The health authorities are threatening people with the message: Your life or the oven. That is to say, there is a huge oven used by the SENAD, (Secretaría Nacional Antidrogas) similar to the DEA in the U.S. This device used to burn confiscated drugs will be used for cremation. 

What else can I say? This could be one of my last messages in this board. The capital has the majority of the infected so I will not avoid the bug.

Take care.
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: Gorticide :: Admin Elder Warrior on April 06, 2020, 08:38:17 pm
Herr Holden,

Quote from: Holden
If your parents had threatened you that either you get married or else they will never speak to you again and disown and disinherit you and adopt someone else in your place as their legal heir and never ever help you again in any way at all ,or ever see you again, then what would you have done?

What do you think Schopenhauer would have done?(Mind you,in this scenario he loses all his inheritance if he refuses to marry ). Essentially, what I am trying to ask is that do you think Schopenhauer was strong enough to withstand this economic blow and work to earn his daily bread and live all alone in the world?Are you?No help from parents or any of the other relatives.You are completely on your own , financially, socially, emotionally.

Schopenhauer does not get so much as a penny,if he says no to marriage.You get zero support from your parents and relatives.

Do I think Arthur Schopenhauer was strong enough to withstand this economic blow and work to earn his daily bread and live all alone in the world?

Schopenhauer would have "worked" for his gruel, and I suspect he would have been something of a scrapper before someone in the mob buried him in a ditch after a dispute.

Schopenhauer does not get so much as a penny,if he says no to marriage.You get zero support from your parents and relatives.

There are countless men in such a situation but have no hope of being in a position to refuse "marriage" as there is no woman foolish enough to attach herself to him.  Schopenhauer was in a unique position, and he seized it.  His parents groomed him for international commerce, hence the languages and the education in England for a spell, where he learned to hate, yes hate, what we would call the State Church of England.

I wish to harness a lifetime of "rejection" and humiliating coming to terms with romantic delusion in order to nurture a dark and morbid cynicism that not even death or torture could rob from me.  It is time for us to allow our most demented senses of humor take the reigns of the Control Panel in Our Central Nervous Systems.

I am thinking along the lines of, how to greet the Grim Reaper with only 2 days notice? 

or something more "Eastern," such as "What would you DO during the last five minutes of your life?"

What was the shape of your face before you were born?

I have a question.  What is the Will to Know?  Suppose my thirst for knowledge is what motivates the organism-as-a-whole to secure sustenance, and all the illusions about "humanity" as a more noble kind of Creature are necessary in order for us to endure the true nature of our interconnected reality: WORMs-DEPENDENT-UPON-GLOBAL-ECONOMY.

We may have to forgive ourselves for having been worms, yet conditioned to believe we were gods.  Such worms would benefit from a strong dose of self-deprecating humor.

My head might choose marriage for inheritance, but I am a difficult creature for even myself to get along with consistently, so, before too long, the marriage would prove to be a disaster.   I have come to terms with the horror I would feel upon intentionally imposing life on another generation simply in hopes of teaching someone Algebras and Codes.

On the other hand, I sympathize with those of aristocratic upbringing, of an eccentric bent, who might refuse the traditional path of marriage in order to embrace a more noble path, such as obscure education or devotion to some radical religious cult. 

What would a wealthy Pythagoras do?  Would he erect a formal school, or would his "cult" be quite small?  I suspect that we will have to be our own Pythagorases.  We have to be Schopenhauers-minus-the-financial-security.

It is not hard to imagine.  After all, most of the individuals-in-the-flesh who Schopenhauer admired in his written work seemed to have walked a path that did not lead to material wealth, but, rather, might be more accessible to one with more time to reflect, one who is ostracized by the dissimilarity of tastes and preferences.
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: Gorticide :: Admin Elder Warrior on April 07, 2020, 09:36:13 pm
On second thought, maybe Arthur Schopenhauer was simply not suited for marriage.  I suppose had his parents insisted he marry, he might have succumbed.  He was rather practical. 

Maybe some of us are just too quarrelsome, sensitive, or otherwise peculiarly wired to be forced into traditional, purely biological or socially-defined roles.  No one really knows the nature of reality.  If one is steadfast against matrimony in order to spare oneself the thorny emotional entanglements, then this would be betrayed in one's mannerisms.  In other words, there would be no "getting along," there would be discord.   Or, perhaps, some kind of partnership develops.  It appears you are speaking of business-oriented marriages between parents, as opposed to actual chemically-inspired pair-bondings, which would be the more difficult to resist.

I am "too deep" for marriage or anything like military service.  My intellectual honesty puts me in danger, for I wish to speak as a unique and autonomous entity, not simply be instructed, trained, directed, ordered about ...

I'm not fucking around.  I tried the "playing house" cohabitation with concubine, two canines, and a kitten, and I witnessed that House of Cards tumble down along with my own sanity --- but in the midst of it, there was an intellectual rebirth.  Another part of me was continuing to pursue education in Mathematics and Computer Programming.  The monk in me is fond, not only of mind-altering substances (connecting me to the spirit that moves in all things), but also of life-long learning.

Programming enhanced my interest in mathematics, and visa versa.

A monkish-type man does not attract the ladies since he does not sell his leisure for money, nor does he believe in "financial security" nor in the "security of matrimony" nor in the future of the species or any other organic life, for that matter.

My outlook may be rather grim, but it is not foreign to individual members of our species to have come to similar conclusions. 

If an individual man or woman, for that matter, found fulfillment and stimulation within their own Inner Life, and they gracefully dodged the trappings of traditional lifestyles, then they will not only reap the rewards of solitary existence (less bickering over petty and meaningless BS), but would also be free to explore darker aspects of true boredom, without shame, without fear of being judged.

One shows defiance in refusing the social trappings which turn one's life into a lie.

Dangerous are those who do not wish to read their scripts, those who do not know their place, and do not know who they are supposed to be.
Title: To Mr.Silenus
Post by: Holden on April 08, 2020, 05:44:18 pm
Hello Mr.Silenus,
I am alright.I am still on TB meds so Corona did not come as a complete surprise to me.
It's always mourning in my mind, to borrow a line from Sweeney Todd.I am studying maths and philosophy,thanks to Herr Hauser.

I hope you are safe and wish you wrote more often here.I am reading Cioran's biography.

Many more people die due to TB every year over here but it's Corona which is all the rage at the moment.

I keep my head down,mind my own business.Time is taking its course,as Cioran would say.
This is a very populus and a very poor nation.Bad things are in the offing.

I get strange dreams every single night without exception.
I am about to go to bed and I am sure a nightmare awaits me.

You know Schopenhauer wrote on eternal recurrence much before Nietzsche.The man who WANTS LIFE shall have it eternally.I just yearn for the void.

Take care.
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: Holden on April 09, 2020, 04:25:33 pm
Herr Hauser,
Thanks a lot for your advise.
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: Gorticide :: Admin Elder Warrior on April 09, 2020, 07:51:07 pm
Schopenhauer might try to make it work, but his temperament would have doomed him to heavy brooding spells, unless the woman had a great sense of humor.  More likely, he would have suffered the fate of a man hated by his wife and mocked by the town.  He might have been accidentally murdered by ruffians while they mocked him in the rain, then left him in a ditch after beating him to a pulp.

Without the frugal lifestyle to stretch that odd inheritance, I suspect poor Arthur would have been crucified by the mob.

Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: Holden on April 11, 2020, 03:32:24 pm
You suspect right,Herr Hauser.In the other thread I left the link for a movie based on a book by Hardy who was greatly inspired by Schopenhauer.

In the book ,Jude is a working man and he wants to be a scholar.He studies on his own.In the end,he dies alone,while his wife leaves to attend a party ,though she knows full well that he is dead.Jude the Obscure.
Title: To Senor Raul
Post by: Holden on July 03, 2020, 07:57:51 am
"I have therefore become an official in a social insurance agency... Outwardly, I fulfill my duties satisfactorily at the office ; not my inner duties, however, and every unfulfilled inner duty becomes a misfortune that never leaves."

Franz Kafka  (Diary, 1911)
Title: To Senor Raul
Post by: Holden on July 03, 2020, 10:09:58 am
"Days passed in futility, powers wasting away in waiting, and, in spite of all this idleness, throbbing, gnawing pains in my head."

Franz Kafka (Diary, 1915)
Title: Senor Raul
Post by: Holden on July 03, 2020, 11:19:16 am
“Isolation is a way to know ourselves.”

— Franz Kafka
Title: Senor Raul
Post by: Holden on July 03, 2020, 12:06:03 pm
"July 1.  The wish for an unthinking, reckless solitude. To be face to face only with myself."

Franz Kafka
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: Holden on July 03, 2020, 12:09:06 pm
"It's only because of their stupidity that they're able to be so sure of themselves."

― Franz Kafka, The Trial
Title: Senor Raul
Post by: Holden on July 03, 2020, 12:11:27 pm
"... the best is undoubtedly not to love anyone, and for this we need to start from ourselves first."

Albert Caraco, Post Mortem
Title: Senor Raul
Post by: Holden on July 03, 2020, 12:14:24 pm
"What I need for my writing is seclusion, not 'like a hermit' - that wouldn't be enough - but like a dead man."

―  Franz Kafka  (Letter to Felice, June 1913)
Title: Senor Raul
Post by: Holden on July 03, 2020, 12:16:51 pm
"I went to the woods because I wished to live deliberately, to front only the essential facts of life, and see if I could not learn what it had to teach, and not, when I came to die, discover that I had not lived."
 
Henry David Thoreau, Walden
Title: Senor Raul
Post by: Holden on July 03, 2020, 12:20:53 pm

"My story isn't pleasant, it's not sweet and harmonious like the invented stories; it tastes of folly and bewilderment, of madness and dream, like the life of all people who no longer want to lie to themselves."

Hermann Hesse  (Demian, 1919)
Title: Steppenwolf
Post by: Holden on July 03, 2020, 12:24:02 pm
"I am in truth the Steppenwolf that I often call myself ; that beast astray who finds neither home nor joy nor nourishment in a world that is strange and incomprehensible to him.”

― Hermann Hesse
Title: Senor Raul
Post by: Holden on July 03, 2020, 12:27:23 pm
"I just can't get used to life."

Eugene Ionesco
Title: Mainlander
Post by: Holden on July 03, 2020, 02:06:56 pm
"The knowledge that life is worthless is the flower of all human wisdom.”

-Philipp Mainlander
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: raul on July 04, 2020, 07:10:58 am
Holden,

Thank you for the quotes. They are most illuminating. I do not have quotes to share in the board.

I must have always said that existence is evil many times. If one spells backward evil you have live and also vile. If you add the letter d, you have devil. English is a wonderful language to build many words this way.

I only expect the worst here. At any time Saint Death will come. In fact every time I go to the pharmacy or supermaerket the security guard “kills” me with his thermometer. It is like shooting someone with a gun.

Stay well.
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: Holden on July 04, 2020, 04:37:49 pm
Senor Raul,

My apologies for not writing sooner to you.Busy fighting with my inner demons. The monsoon( rainy season) has hit the city and hit it hard.
There are millions living in cardboard houses.There are quite a few very big predators in the city and I am a small fish, a minnow.

As someone keenly interested in history you might like to know that India lost a war with India back in '62 and a great deal of territory and until about the mid 1980s Indian economy was almost as big as China.

I wouldn't  want the country to go to war with them. They clearly are more powerful at the moment. But then, I am in a minority of one.
I have been doing a lot of thinking. About all sorts of things. Most of the things make me sad.

I like the rains, the sound of falling water. It feels like the world is about to end but it never does,does it?
I have been getting my TB medicines through on-line pharmacy, because of the drugs are not available locally.

I hope your eyes get better, or at the very least, do not get worse.
Here is something you might enjoy;

https://youtu.be/pNcipLHJ0po

Please take care.
Title: Say No to Life by Carlo Michelstaedter
Post by: raul on July 05, 2020, 08:01:16 am
Holden,

Thank you for the link about Papa Doc Duvalier. Yes, we all have our demons. The demons are not only outside of us but also inside us as you well know.

It is good to hear that you are taking your medication without problems. I can say that you are war veteran because you are doing your best to avoid the predators wherever they are. 

As I age my eyes will suffer more. I have glaucoma, presbyopia, myopia and diabetes so my situation will get worse over time. I also suffer from sinusitis. As I say at any time I expect to get infected by the virus and end my earthly existence.

This week an 18-year old girl who was taking insulin was taken from Ciudad del Este, a city on the border with Brazil, to the city capital. She did not survive because of her condition. But also the hospital did not have the equipment to treat her for the virus. She died in the capital. And at the same time an 82-year old man was released from the hospital after recovering from COVID-19.

I heard of the long conflict that India has had with China. We will see what happens between the elephant and the dragon. By the way I read that in China they found that a new swine flu could become a new pandemic. The U.S. government has bought most of the world´s remdesivir, an antiviral drug for the COVID-19. It is very expensive, around US$ 400 per vial. Other countries are all excluded from accessing the drug. Business is business.

I understand that you would not want India to go to war. The problem is that India is a nuclear power. I am sure there are among the Indian military those who are eager to push the button and launch the warheads.

Like you most of the things make me sad. The Christians say that the true purpose of life is to prepare for life after death, so they saw domestic duties, family, houses, wage earning as barriers, whereas the the eremitic life, was the school of heaven.

Stay safe.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jHvBzmXtpxQ
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: Holden on July 05, 2020, 06:07:04 pm
Senor Raul,

Thanks for the video and the message.I have been thinking of some of the works by Dickens. He wrote in the Victorian England and though the ending of most of his books is unrealistically happy,the beginnings are always sad. Death at a very young age was the norm at that time.

People had as many as 8 or 10 kids and most of them died very soon. Maybe if I were born in that era I would have died already.But the modern medicine prolongs our misery.Dickens often wrote about orphans and how they were mistreated by their step-parents.
For instance,David Copperfield's father dies even before he was born. Then, he was happy with his mother but the mother decided to remarry when he was about four or five and the step father mistreated him a lot and sent him to a factory to work from which he runs away.

People were hanged for petty crimes and every hanging was like a super-hit movie. It was attended by great crowds.In his books, the head master of the school beats the students to a pulp, and because more often than not the child is an orphan there is no one there to protect him.And then there is the villan who is always scheming and trying to make money and force beautiful women to marry him.
I don’t care for the endings of his books but it do like the first part of his books.
Van Gogh once said he is postponing his suicide because he first wants to real A Christmas Carol.

Among the Paraguayan youth which profession at present is the most popular at the moment?
Take care.
Title: The Last Hangman
Post by: raul on July 06, 2020, 06:45:28 am
Holden,

Your post reminded me of a tragic event that happened last week. On Friday, in Capiatá, a town near the capital, a police officer in the early hours of the morning killed his two children, his parents-in law, his 16-year old sister-in-law and then killed himself. The mother, like many women, is working in Spain. The police says that he killed them under the influence of alcohol.

Had I been born a century ago I would have died also very fast. The hangings remind me of a movie I saw many years ago. It was about Albert Pierrepoint (1905-1992). The movie was The Last Hangman. He executed more than 500 criminals.  After WW2 he executed German war criminals. Some say he showed a lot of respect to each criminal he executed and he made sure his executions were quick and humane. He combined his job as an executioner with his work as a pub owner. His father and uncle were also executioners.

With the pandemic many things have changed here. The most popular jobs were in marketing, community managers, industrial technicians, nurses, computer technicians, cashiers, and call centers.

As for the coronavirus here the elite has already decreed our physical elimination regardless of all these health measures imposed on us. I do not hate my fellow human beings for following these measures to the letter. I hate myself for complying with them. I am no different from the sheeple.

Stay well.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=W5zf8Xb7Wbc


Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: Holden on July 08, 2020, 04:50:49 pm
Senor Raul,
I tried to read Joyce’s Ulysses but could not hack it about 12 years back. Its language was way too erudite for me. Now, I have managed to understand a little book.Its a strange book because the main characters are like shadowy puppets,they are not aware of themselves.
They are looking for sex, all of them, almost all the time. Strange book. And yet not so strange given the kind of life that I have had myself. Although I would definitely say that the book is no walk in the park.
When I go to bed ,its like I am getting ready to go to the movies.The most vivid dreams you could imagine. Except for the fact that I don’t have popcorn in the bed, its exactly like watching a movie.Although in these movies I am often also a character and feel pain and anxiety and what not.
The most vivid dreams one could possibly imagine.
Joyce, so I am told, has had a very difficult life. Why is it that most writers have very sad lives? I think everyone has a sad life, the only difference is, the writers, obviously enough, write about it.
When I was into that story, it was surreal, set sometime in 1905 in Dublin which I think is the capital of Ireland and the Catholic Church is said to be very powerful there. Almost omnipotent. Now its a rich country but at that point in time most of the people were very poor and lived very sad and tragic lives.
I wonder if Latin is taught in Paraguayan schools because it was taught in the Irish schools of the period and one of the lead characters Stephen ,is very good at it.
Take care my friend.
Title: Michael Collins eliminates the Cairo Gang
Post by: raul on July 09, 2020, 08:40:20 am
Holden,

Thank you for your words. From what you tell me Joyce´s book is really strange with strange characters. Ireland reminds me of a movie I saw twenty years ago about Michael Collins and the Irish Republican Army and their struggle against the British Empire. Irish actor Liam Neeson played Michael Collins.

Yes, most writers had sad lives. You yourself have given many examples. Lucidity is a heavy burden for most of them.
I remember reading that in April 1951, the Iranian writer Sadegh Hedayat gassed himself in an apartment in Paris. Before that he attemped to commit suicide by throwing himself into the Marne. He failed because a couple was having
sex in a boat and they stopped to pull him out.

Hedayat said that “there were times when I wished I could be endowed after death with large hands, with long sensitive
fingers: I would carefully collect together all the atoms of my body and hold them tightly in my hands to prevent them, my property, from passing into the bodies of rabble-men.”

Would there be any room for future lucid writers after this pandemic? I doubt it. For the first time I heard a Paraguayan doctor speak about the “new normality”. This means a new step towards a dictatorship more brutal than the ones I read about. By the way a meteor was spotted burning up in the sky over China in October last year. Some say that when meteors appear it is a bad omen.

Latin was taught in secondary schools but in the 1990s the Ministry of Education changed the program and Latin was removed. I know that in the Faculty of Philosophy of the National University basic Latin is taught.  Apart from that Latin is taught in Catholic seminaries.

Most nights I can´t sleep well. I have panic attacks.  I get up and walk in my room and look out of the window. Well, life is a nightmare.

Take care.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=l-L3zeCNzH8
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: Holden on July 11, 2020, 12:42:59 pm
Senor Raul,

Your last message was very deep. There are very few people who are as knowledgeable about the dark side of the human history as you are.Here, many people are dying due to the virus but it does not matter- far more are being born every single day simultaneously.

I mentioned the book by Joyce because the book was surreal and depicts what is called Stream of Consciousness.I am not a stranger to panic attacks, what I do is, I don’t try to fight it, I try to observe it as if it were taking place in another man.

I am very happy that you write here on this message board for I get to learn a lot of things from your messages. I do fall asleep but I get the most weird dreams one could possibly imagine.Speaking of strange dreams, one of my favourite authors is Philip K. Dick.

He experimented with drugs when he was young and because of that or because of some other reasons he started to develop the belief, like Descartes, that the world we see around us is a mirage and that the Roman Empire still very much exists in the form the Roman Catholic Church and that it has all been conjured up by a deceiving demon.

Please take care.
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: raul on July 12, 2020, 07:47:18 am
Holden,

Thank you for your message. Here the number of infected people is increasing if we are to believe what the Ministry of Health informs. But I know, as you say, many babies are being born every single day. If the authorities really want people to be afraid of the CCP virus, then they should let people take a look at the bodies in the morgue if they do not infect.

Last week I caught a cold and one of my neighbors realizing that he is very afraid of being near me. 

Why did the creators of this laboratory come up with the idea of turning a hominid into a sentient human? Why insert a spark of intelligence on the homo sapiens? Maybe millions of years ago our consciousness, as some say, started with a pandemic. I heard Javier Sierra, a Spanish researcher, say that in South Africa fossil remains of bacteria were found. Their age is 3.8 billion years. It is near the 4 billion years when life started on this Earth. In his view life started out of this planet and that life permeates the entire universe so we, humans, are the result of this infection, so to speak.

My knowledge of our dark side is limited, I admit. I would have to be in Tacumbú, the state prison, to meet my sad and bitter fellow human prisoners to have at least of glimpse of the wretched misery of our human condition.

If I end up one of these days as a beggar on a wheelchair, what would happen? Will they spit at me, stab me or put a bullet in my head? Nonetheless, I will end up as food for the worms.Most stay away from beggars. I suppose they are afraid of becoming one of them.

I do not forget these thugs in power who are orchestrating this virus madness. What these people are doing is eugenics, in my view. I am sure they are applauding what is happening in this planet. Weeding out the so-called unfit is clearly the purpose.

We look so ridiculous wearing these face masks. These thugs in power must have thought this out very carefully since Earth is a laboratory for human behavior. To them we are a plague worthy of eliminating.

I have just heard that in Serbia people took to the streets against the president because this guy wanted to extend the lockdown. So he had to back down. I am afraid this is only a temporary measure. Here the Paraguayan congress will declare the use of face masks mandatory and if someone is caught breaking the law people will be fined with the purchase of 5 face masks plus a fine of around 90 dollars. Business is business.

Yes, as Joyce mentions, the world around is a mirage. The Roman Empire still exists in the form of laws specially and the Catholic Church inherited the customs, traditions and the laws from Rome. I agree. This world has been conjured up by thousands and thousands of deceiving demons.

Please take a look at stoicworkshop.com. You and the readers of this blog may find the quotes interesting.
I quote the following:

“Always reflect that soon you will be no one, and nowhere. “ Marcus Aurelius

“In short, know this: Human lives are brief and trivial. Yesterday, a blob of semen; tomorrow embalming fluid, ash.”  Marcus Aurelius

Stay safe.
Title: To Senor Raul from John the Savage
Post by: Holden on July 13, 2020, 03:24:22 pm
Senor Raul,

Thanks for the message.I always look forward to reading your messages.Well,you know not just English but also Spanish which is one of the most important languages. I wish I knew Spanish too, but I am afraid the society leaves me with no time for such pursuits.

My society is a lot like Huxley’s The Brave New World. And I am John the Savage.

Here people try to use different drugs as Soma to forget all their troubles but it does not work in the long run.The demons will devour them all eventually. Sex is as common place as it is in the book.Everyone thinks, in the book, that it is the Savage who would have the most sex but he is the most chaste of them all.To them he is a sentimental fool.

In the book there is a very rigid hierarchy system,they have the top administrators, the worker bees and so on and so forth and its the same here.

I think very soon people might reproduce only by way of test tubes and there will be no place for the kind of “frivolous things” that I tend to write here. It would all be considered as a wastage of computer memory.
Well, I’d rather be the savage than become civilised like these folks chasing the next skirt, the next promotion and the next overseas vacation.

Please take care of yourself. I hope your health gets better and that you have enough resources to at least live a life of basic comforts.

PS: Loved that Aurelius quote.Thanks.
Title: Procession of Verges - Dance of Death
Post by: raul on July 14, 2020, 07:27:07 am
Holden,

I hope you are not having problems with your medication. I wish I could speak German. I would have been able to read many authors like Herman Hesse, Stefan Zweig, Thomas Mann, and others in the original language.
Bear in mind that from now on that you and people like you who dare to think and utter forbidden thoughts have become a highly endangered species.

Those who do not have jobs, careers, prospects, will be viewed as a burden to society, unworthy of living, etc. It has happened before, is happening now and it will continue to happen.

I agree with you that in a near future people will reproduce only by way of tubes. I remember many years ago when I heard that in 1978 Louise Joy Brown was the first to be conceived via in vitro fertilization in Manchester, England. Later her sister was born the same way. In 2006 Louise gave birth to a baby boy but in the natural way. With cloning technology things must have changed a lot specially for military purpses. I heard that many couples go to special clinics that deal with specialize in the use of hormones. 

Nevertheless, women will still decide to give birth to babies. We are part of an infection called life and life is doomed to continue to multiply in this unverse. This is nothing new. 

The title of my post is Procession of Verges - Dance of Death. Verges is located in Girona, Catalonia in Spain. The town is famous for its Dansa de la Mort or Dance of Death in Catalan. They are celebrated every Holy Week and it has been performed since the Middle Ages. The dances of death became popular after the Black Death. The authorities made these Grim Reapers dance to remind everyone in town that sooner or later all of us will be dancing to its tune. It is done every Holy Week as part of the cortege that Jesus made on his way to Golgotha after leaving Pontius Pilate´s palace. It reminds us that we are all skeletons on our way to the cemetery. When the plague ceased the survivors organized this dance of skeletons so they won´t forget it but in these modern times it has become a popular festivity.

By the way I learned that quarantine was the term used in Venice.They used that word because the authorities were desperate before the advance of the plague. They were inspired by the struggle that Jesus fought against the devil during forty nights and forty days. They first isolated houses, ships and whole populations. The sick did not receive any treatment, the dead fell without anyone burying them. It meant surrendering all these territories to Satan itself.

Stay well.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pRj1dmaCslI
Title: Propaganda
Post by: Ibra on July 15, 2020, 03:58:26 am
to senor Raul,

I've just downloaded the "Propaganda" book (http://whale.to/b/bernays.pdf (http://whale.to/b/bernays.pdf)) and from the index and the first page i read, I remembered your favorite farm analogy.

Quote from: bernays
THE conscious  and  intelligent  manipulation  of  the  organized   habits   and   opinions   of   the   masses   is   an   important  element  in  democratic  society.  Those  who  manipulate  this  unseen  mechanism  of  society  constitute  an  invisible  government  which  is  the  true  ruling  power of our country.

yes yes "democratic society" is a the magic word to do whatever you like like killing millions for oil and sugarcoat it with "democracy". damn democracy, plain old dictatorship is more sincere at this stage.

Bernays was Freud nephew and from Wikipedia (https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Edward_Bernays) page he is deep down with the intelligence as usual.

Quote from: Wikipedia
Edward Louis Bernays (/bərˈneɪz/; German: [bɛɐ̯ˈnaɪs]; November 22, 1891 − March 9, 1995) was an Austrian-American pioneer in the field of public relations and propaganda, referred to in his obituary as "the father of public relations".[3] Bernays was named one of the 100 most influential Americans of the 20th century by Life.[4] He was the subject of a full length biography by Larry Tye called The Father of Spin (1999) and later an award-winning 2002 documentary for the BBC by Adam Curtis called The Century of the Self.

His best-known campaigns include a 1929 effort to promote female smoking by branding cigarettes as feminist "Torches of Freedom" and his work for the United Fruit Company connected with the CIA-orchestrated overthrow of the democratically elected Guatemalan government in 1954. He worked for dozens of major American corporations including Procter & Gamble and General Electric, and for government agencies, politicians, and non-profit organizations

I didn't read much of the book, but i think it is a great book if we removed the hypocritical tongue-in-cheek words such democracy, social justice, education, etc. it shows the human as they really are, a cattle. I think humans can't be even likened to wild animals, we mere cattle.

a fun fact: CEO and co-founder of Netflix is Bernays' nephew.

hang on there Senor, the s-h-i-t yet to hit the fan. I wanna see when the masses see what they really are. sadly they act in denial every single time.

Have a good day
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: Holden on July 15, 2020, 12:14:05 pm
Senor Raul,


Dance of Death.Danse Macabre. That phrase reminds me of the institution of marriage.Anna Karenina is a great book by Tolstoy. If one wishes to learn the true nature of the WOMAN, that is the place. Anna is married to an aristocrat who is noble and kind and provides for her in every possible way. She is having every kind of luxury available and they even have a child together.

And what does she do?She goes right ahead and has an affair with an army officer and even, makes a baby with him while still being married to her husband.
These days they look down upon those who read the classics ,I don’t care, they teach me a great deal. Lord Russell once said he was never much into reading the classics,well, its obvious once one looks at his tattered love life.

Tolstoy destroys all the illusions one might have about women,one sentence at a time.

I have no doubt in my mind that had I not come across books like these , and would have made the mistake of getting married, my wife would have turned me into a card-carrying cuckold.

I was telling you about Ulysses, well, in that book ,whenever the lover of his wife comes to his house to sleep with her,Leopold Bloom, asks the lover if he should use room spray to freshen up the air..I am not sure if he imagines that or this scene really takes place. The book ,like I said, is complicated.

I get my medicines using a e-pharmacy website. So far ,so good.

Take care.
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: raul on July 15, 2020, 03:46:16 pm
Ibra,

Thank you for your most interesting post. I hope you and your family are allright. You write many illuminating comments.

Holden says that my knowledge of history is vast. No, it is not. I am just an aficionado. In Spanish we have a word aficionado when someone is not a professional. The word amateur in English would be its equivalent. I am an aficionado in historic events. Here many ridicule me, mock me or laugh at me when I sometimes recall historic issues or events.
They say it is a waste of time. I understand their view. They have wives and children and the maintenance is their concern and I do not have wives and children. To the establishment/system I am a nonentity.

Indeed I heard of Edward Bernays. He is considered to be one of the masterminds in the use of campaign advertising/political campaigns. I read that in the U.S. in the 1920s it was taboo for women to smoke in public. George Hill, president of the American Tobacco Company hired him to persuade women to start smoking. So he sent groups of women to light Lucky Strike cigarettes in front of the photographers in a parade in New York City in April 1929. For the feminists smoking cigarretes was lighting torches of freedom, so they said. This is where all started. And he worked for the United Fruit Company to remove Jacobo Arbenz, the Guatemalan president who was an obstacle in 1954. The corporation had a lot of power in Central America and the words banana republics began to be used since that time.

Bernays reminds me of those documentaries about the Nazis and their use of propaganda. Dr. Josef Goebbels was truly a diabolical genius. He is the one who coined that expression iron curtain meaning that whole countries would fall under the control of the Soviet Union. Those who know say that for Goebbels the most effective propaganda did not use lies all the time. He understood that there are half truths, limited truths and truths out of context.

Two of my favorite Goebbels´s quotes are:

“A lie told once remains a lie but a lie told a thousand times becomes the truth”.

 “Work is not mankind´s curse, but his blessing. A man becomes man through labor. It elevates him, makes him great and aware, raises him above all other creatures.”

It is extremely difficult to acknowledge that we are subject to manipulation, deception and control from the moment we come to this world.  We live in this part of the world under a costume democracy. Well, in my view, Nazism, communism and democracy are labels to control the modern human caged primates living in these overcrowded cities.  We consume, breed, multiply and infest.  And now we are paying the consequences because the Chinese manmade pestilence was launched against millions living in these overcrowded cages.

I wonder, Ibra, if the masses will see what they really are and as you say they act in denial every single time. Humans are very resilient creatures. I heard a sociologist, talking about the mob, say that “whoever can supply them with illusions is easily their master; whoever attempts to destroy their illusions is always their victim.”
We are rats in a laboratory. Let us see how much punishment we can endure and accept without resorting to rebellion.

Stay safe.
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: Holden on July 18, 2020, 04:13:10 pm
Senor Raul,

When I was in the first flush of the youth very few authors could echo the intensity of the agony that I felt. One author whom I found to be like minded was Tennessee Williams.My God he could write some very sad tales. i remember once, many years back, when I was working in a hotel and there was a city wide strike. There were no buses or trains to go around so all the workers were well nigh prisoners in the hotel that day, meaning they could not leave even after their shifts got over.

The owners of the hotel of course loved it and gave the workers more tasks to perform. After my shift got over, they were thinking, I too would stay back ,but no ,oh not not me, I took my bag(which was full of books and magazines) and went on foot for a while, the streets were completely deserted and I was alone, I liked it that way.

Well, I came across a bench and I sat on it,took out a book. It was in that period that I was reading Williams(Circa 2005).  He could write some very sad tales, believe you me.

Street Car called Desire. Well, that's pretty sad. The nice woman ends up going to a mental hospital.
But I am quite sure he wrote some tales which were ever more poignant though i have mostly forgotten them.

Anyway, just wanted to share.

Take care.
Title: Sad scenes in the Warsaw Ghetto - 1942
Post by: raul on July 19, 2020, 07:33:22 am
Holden,

Thank you for your message. I trust you are taking care of your health.

Here when some people tell me to take care of my body because I have diabetes, high blood pressure and weight problems, I just remain quiet. I have already contracted a lethal virus and it is called in Latin tedium vitae. No cure for that.

As for the virus we are zombies hooked to the mass media. It reminds of me of Agent Smith in Matrix and people will defend it with their lives if necessary.

I think that you have become an accomplished writer in the board and if you have saved all the posts, you may publish them under a pen name. Of course there are consequences for going against the current.

You know that the mafia specially in the U.S. and Italy has a very strict code of silence called omerta. One must never speak or squeal in front of the authorities or the police. Those who violate this code are and will be severely punished.
In this world nobody can go against optimism. We must escape from negative thoughts. We must remain in silence or we will suffer a vendetta.

Regarding your experience working in a hotel; what can I say? Work seems good but it is not. If it was good, the hell on Earth that was Auschwitz, the gulags, the laogai in China, the killing fields in Cambodya, would have abolished it; the really bad Nazis, Soviets or Cambodyans would have condemned the prisoners to rest but not to work but the slogan, in this case Auschwitz, the Nazis chose was «Arbeit macht frei» (work sets you free). It was a lie. What can we expect of something so adored by the demons? Evil people do evil things and one of them was to make people work.

Take care.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WmsLT5tt6ig
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: Holden on July 21, 2020, 01:18:17 pm
Senor Raul,

Today my boss humiliated me in the office,not an exceptional things really.But what was new was that instead of answering him back I started to think deeply and to feel the raw emotions of fear and anger.My boss is also a part of the nature,he is not? And so, it makes sense to think that Nature itself wants to cause me grief. Its not him as a person but him as a manifestation of Nature who wants to humiliate me and make me cry in pain.

Today a lot of my peers were promoted and but not me. I do not seek promotions.

Take care.
Title: Mom waking up baby Avery
Post by: raul on July 21, 2020, 05:40:24 pm
Holden,

I am sorry to hear that your boss did this unforgiving thing to you. Most would get angry or give him the middle finger behind his back. You are too kind to him. I hope he is able to consider your gesture.

You say you do not seek promotions. That´s allright. You will have, in my view, fewer problems and fewer responsibilities at work.

Although I rant, whine or complain about the misery of our human condition, I like babies. I like the littles ones but at the same time it saddens me that they will have a bleak, gloomy and  bitter future.

Stay safe and sound.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=t8GSsNHv0Io



Title: To Senor Raul
Post by: Holden on July 24, 2020, 02:23:00 pm

Senor Raul,

The problem with the babies is that they remain babies for not more than 18 years and after that they are adults belonging to the supreme predator species.
Mommy waking up the baby..well the mother woke the baby from its eternal slumber,yes, she is the material cause of all the decades of misery that the baby will have to put up with.But she is not the exclusive cause of the manifestation of the baby.There are other nefarious causes too.

Children are brought forth into the world without a thought about their well being.Children are no innocent angles,they are like wild beasts.I saw the kid of my cousin hitting her with his plastic sword in earnest.

Some babies might look cute some of the time but what about the ugly babies? No one wants to hug them or to play with them.
This existence of ours cursed.Cursed, I tell you.

Take care.
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: raul on July 25, 2020, 06:17:38 am
Holden,

Thank you for your response. I trust you are taking care of your health.
Indeed, children, as you say, are brought forth into the world without a thought about their well-being. I suppose that when I see the babies and enjoy their presence I am following my programming.  Babies touch people´s hearts and from a survival point of view their cuteness helps them get food, shelter and protection until they become less vulnerable. I read that there are studies that adults prefer to give a toy or even adopt cute babies.

On ugly babies, well, what can I say?  In this wretched world babies with abnormalities suffer terribly because they are more likely to be physically and mentally abused. This is nothing new. Mothers will respond less because their children are less cute. From time to time I see in the streets men and women who were born with severe physical disabilities. They must have had a bitter, sad and terrible childhood.

Yes, babies will become adults and belong to the supreme predator species called homo sapiens sapiens. I must have looked cute like this baby in the video to my parents. But now in thoughts, at least, I am no different from my psychopathic fellow human beings. Babies grow up and hurt people in time. I know because I have hurt people too. There are times I imagine myself kicking some of neighbors from the bus and hear the sound of the tires crushing their skulls. Is it wrong to feel this way? It is indeed but sometimes I don´t really care. To the so-called polite society just for admitting this sad fact many would like to put me, if I were born in India, in Lumbini Park Mental Hospital.

In reality it would have been better not to have been born.

Stay safe.

P.S. You and the readers of this blog may find this article interesting.

https://www.theatlantic.com/magazine/archive/2017/06/when-your-child-is-a-psychopath/524502/
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: Holden on July 26, 2020, 03:06:33 pm
Senor Raul,

It’s raining and it’s the middle of the night. I like this kind of atmosphere -it makes me feel as if the ends of days is here. If you like babies then you would love India for its full of babies.
People dump new born babies in the trash can here as they have no money to feed them.A cat that lives in this building has given birth to five kittens.When I saw them, two of them were playing together, two were being feed milk by the mother-cat and one was sleeping. Nice scene.

Only the same cat had given birth to another set of four kittens only a few months back and in all probability they are dead now already. There is no love.Emotions and feeling are mechanical too.
Some one treats me nicely,I like him. Someone mistreats me, I hate him. Its all mechanical.
Tears are mechanical too.

You have often spoken about the Gnostic religion,well, Philip K.Dick .the writer,was into that a great deal too.
Maybe we are just machines,that feel pain and weep. The idea is to destroy the assembly line itself.

Take care.
Title: I`m Nobody - Who are you?
Post by: raul on July 27, 2020, 06:32:31 am
Holden,

Thank you for your patience in reading my scribblings.

I am fond of babies only from far away. I am not so sociable as to take care of even one of them. I read that psychologists say we must be biologically programmed to love them. They say that humans seek to nurture and protect infants even if we have never seen a baby before.

I have read only very basic things about the Gnostics. In Gnosticism we have the duality of spirit and matter. The world and the flesh are evil and they are in opposition to God. The final purpose in life, in their view, is liberation from matter. The Gnostics believe that the spirit is in bondage to the flesh in this life. Wine and meat are forbidden, and marriage is a licensed fornication. In their view, Jehovah is not the true god but a demiurge. Jehovah is perverse, jealous, and evil. This world soaked in crime and blood is the work of Jehovah.

Sex is mechanical. We are in heat 24/7/365. We only think of copulating. The older we get the more we think of sex.
I see a father and his son selling fruits in the street. Does he ever think of his son´s future? I think not. What is the father going to tell him about wearing a face mask for at least 2 or 3 years? We are zombies following our programming. We are the property of those who made our minds and bodies. 

I read a little about the Desert Fathers. For them solitude was not merely an escape from distractions; it was a teaching presence. There are many stories about these hermits and one of them is the following:

“An abbot, head of two hundred monks, had a great reputation in the world and Christ decided to visit him. He approached the porter in the guise of an old and poor man and asked for an audience. The abbot was in conversation when the porter approached him and said he was too busy to see the old man. So Christ waited patiently at the door. At about five o’clock in the afternoon, a rich man arrived and the porter hastened to announce him. The abbot came to the door to greet him and Christ humbly approached saying: ‘I wish to speak with you, Father Abbot.’ But the abbot did not even reply, but pushed the old man aside and ushered in the rich man to a welcoming feast.
After the meal, the abbot escorted his visitor to the gate and said his farewell then turned and went back inside, forgetting the patient old man who stood there waiting to speak with him.
As night fell, Christ showed himself to the porter and said: ‘Say to the abbot: “If you want worldly glory, then because of your past good deeds and the way you have lived I will send to you visitors from the four corners of the earth to flatter and be flattered by you. But as for the riches of my kingdom, you shall not taste them.”

Stay well.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Ev15wAJkzwM
Title: To Senor Raul
Post by: Holden on July 30, 2020, 04:22:21 pm
Senor Raul,
I think this is something which you might find interesting:
https://youtu.be/OyFg291i8Ak

Take care.
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: Holden on July 30, 2020, 04:32:06 pm
The society is strange.I ,of course,mean,the Indian society.They force everyone to get married.

How much copulation is enough?

Even once is far too much.They say even nine billions is also not enough.

I eat bread,I sleep,drink water,and worry,I see no point ,no objective in a human life.

Why consign another sentient creature to such misery?

When we die, would we really be dead?

Take care.
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: Holden on July 31, 2020, 03:24:55 am
Everyday the wives cheat on hubbies and the hubbies cheat on their wifies but they still get married and have kids.
I ,of course, do not blame them , they have as much say in the matter as the door knob has in being a door knob. I am fully aware of the fact that I do not marry ,not because I am a better logician than the others or I possess an advanced degree in things like prepositional and predicate logic (my degree only qualifies me to serve food and water to you ) ,but because of the way I am configured.

There is no reason for blame and none for praise.
Title: Dead can dance - Baraka
Post by: raul on July 31, 2020, 08:46:11 am
Holden,

Thank you for the link.     I don´t think any of us in this board, at least, were born “to serve food and water to you” or me or anyone else in this world. But this is the world we were brought into. 

To those who happen to read this board for the first time, I will use this expression in Latin, Memento Mori, you are to die. Our time on Earth grows shorter with each passing second. Once browsing the Wikipendia I found out that “Mary, Queen of Scots, owned a large watch carved in the form of a silver skull, embellished with the lines of Horace: “Pale death knocks with the same tempo upon the huts of the poor and the towers of the King.”

For many no copulation is enough on this Earth. A health study says that sex can be considered light exercise. It also lowers blood pressure, burns calories, increases heart health and strengthens muscles, reduces risks of heart disease, stroke and hypertension and last but not least increase libido. This study says that our bodies release oxytocin, called, the love hormone and endorphins during orgasm.  The combination of these hormones act as a sedative. We are hardwired for sex.

Ever heard of the Koro Syndrome? I read this is a headache for Chinese men because this syndrome causes the male reproductive organ to to become a female reproductive organ. They feel that their pennis is becoming reduced in size to the point it disappears. It is more considered a psychological disorder.

Yesterday I heard they performed a C-section to a woman who gave birth to baby in a public hospital and days before a baby died because there was no intensive care unit in another hospital. One dead baby is tragic to the parents but irrelevant in this world where thousands die every second. Copulation is encouraged at all levels. After all who will pay the retirement for the elderly? Who will consume the needless gadgets that the market bombards us with even with this pandemic?

You write: I eat bread,I sleep,drink water,and worry.I see no point, no objective in a human life. Why consign another sentient creature to such misery? I must add that you read, write and think deeply while millions do not do that at all. You ask the one million dollar question. Most would get angry specially if they are parents or grandparents.  Here babies are considered bendiciones, blessings.


https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lGCWVuzzrSQ

Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: Holden on August 03, 2020, 04:44:24 pm
To Senor Raul,
“If our life were without end and free from pain, it would possibly not occur to anyone to ask why the world exists, and why it does so in precisely this way, but everything would be taken purely as a matter of course.”

~ Schopenhauer (The World as Will and Representation)
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: Holden on August 04, 2020, 03:08:35 pm
To die,to sleep,no more...but in that sleep of death what dreams may come..

Hamlet.
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: Holden on August 04, 2020, 03:13:05 pm
In quantum physics, entangled particles remain connected so that actions performed on one affect the other, even when separated by great distances. ...
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: Holden on August 05, 2020, 03:02:32 pm
Its raining a lot here.People in power wish to privatise everything.
A famous actor here has committed suicide, but everyone says it's not a suicide ,that he was killed by his girlfriend who is an actress.

My mother, like most devout Hindus believes in reincarnation.
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: Holden on August 05, 2020, 03:08:00 pm
My father is a bit more honest than her and sometimes confesses that he does not understand what the heck is life all about.

I saw a kid in his mid-teens carrying heavy water containers.Very thin.
His master works his very hard .If you wanna make him smile -you only need to crack the joke that slavery has been abolished.

Why are the suicides called cowards?
I could never understand that.It takes a great deal of courage to do what they do.
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: Holden on August 05, 2020, 03:14:33 pm
The actress I told you about ,after the death of her lover, withdrew millions of dollars from his bank account and is now on the run and in hiding.

She has hired one of the most expensive advocates in the country..

I think if Schopenhauer had as much po-rn as there is now then he would have cared about chasing the skirt at all.
Its sad.What is sad you ask?
Well,all of it.Every bit .

Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: gorticide on August 05, 2020, 07:36:13 pm
Very thoughtful posts, Holden of Northern India.
Title: Cathars being burnt at the stake
Post by: raul on August 06, 2020, 06:18:54 am
Holden,

Thank you for your posts. They are very enlightening.

Yesterday I heard a sad story on a radio station. A woman called a journalist asking for money for her niece. The niece is 13 years old. She was born with severe disabilities. She is in a wheelchair and does not speak and is unable to move. Her diapers are changed every day. And she is suffering from convulsions. The family needs the money because the girl is unable to eat and urinate so the doctors need to perform a gastronomy button. The aunt said she phoned all the politicians she knew but got no answer. 

Life is tragic, isn´t it?

Stay safe.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IYGL6Y7MKj8
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: Holden on August 06, 2020, 03:03:05 pm
Senor Raul,
Its very hard to sort things out.As they say the road to hell is paved with good intensions.

Many kids are not planned and even planning is not the solution...

I like to hide as the world is a scary place.

Its important to stay dead once one is dead.
There are many kids like the one you described.

There will always be kids like that in the world.

Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: raul on August 06, 2020, 06:10:42 pm
Holden,

Thank you for your patience in reading my posts. I thank all the members of the board, Hentrich, Silenus, Ibra, etc.

From now on I will remain silent. As they say in English I wish you the best.

Stay safe and sound.
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: Holden on August 07, 2020, 05:10:01 pm
Senor Raul,
You writing here has been of great value to me.I hope you would write here from time to time when you feel like it.

There are very few people who are as honest as you are.
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: Holden on August 09, 2020, 04:51:40 am
“I would like to be alone, alone, alone. And in my house there is a daily parade of people to whom I have nothing to say. We would have to change neighborhood, city, country, continent, etc., etc. "

 Cioran, Notebooks
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: Holden on August 10, 2020, 12:09:52 pm
Under the Volcano is a very sad book.
Sadness is an emotion that has been with me a long time.

The other day I woke up and found my upper arm to be covered by insect and mosquito bites.

My blood is their food.I got a mosquito net and now sleep within it.

I can see mosquitoes trying to get in,trying to feed on my blood.

Many get get married,a one time friend,told me,because they are bored.
I am not bored.I hardly ever get bored.

It want to lay bare the idiocy of all sentient existence.
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: Holden on August 12, 2020, 03:10:04 pm
Sometimes I think of the ancient Rome.How much suffering that city must have witnessed.

It has been so many cruel kings and the common people are also no better.

So,much misery everywhere.
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: Holden on August 13, 2020, 03:23:52 pm
I think of the Roman emperors.Caligula.. Nero..some of then just went mad with power. Its the same pattern that gets repeatedly.

How many conspiracies have been hatched..are being hatched for power?

Every night ,like a child, I pray before falling asleep.I pray for ever lasting sleep.I am disappointed every morning.

Day are passing by.Rome itself could not withstand Time.

But what afterwards? Romans opened their veins in a hot bath tub.

If nature can bring us into being,why not twice or a million times?

To live is to suffer.To suffer a great deal.
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: Holden on August 14, 2020, 04:41:40 pm
In my case,the natural programming has failed. I see people obsessed with getting married,begetting children.
Title: Pride and Prejudice and Schopenhauer
Post by: Holden on August 15, 2020, 04:39:24 pm
Schopenhauer had started working on his magnum opus when ,the English novel Pride and Prejudice.The novel is about landed gentry and Schopenhauer could easily have been the Protagonist.
Unlike Mr.Darcy, who in the end, falls in love with the 2nd eldest Miss Bennet, Schopenhauer deconstructed the whole idea of romantic love and “holy matrimony”.

I can writes volumes on the subject. As a child I was quite close to two of my cousins ,both of whom are married and have given birth to children. They are both very pretty, indeed, some would call them beautiful and yet they harbour a great deal of rancour in their hearts.Most women are know are that way.m opus
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: Holden on August 17, 2020, 02:59:30 am
Schopenhauer talked about how Dante got his idea of hell from human existence, but when he got to the idea of heaven, he couldn't even imagine a bliss state without discomfort.  Even the highest pleasure we attain just leaves us stuck in some treadmill, which reverts to pain.

James
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: raul on August 18, 2020, 06:19:28 am
Holden,

I hope you are allright there. I also hope your boss has given you some peace at work.

What can I say? I am seeing, as you are too, the triumph of stupidity over reason. This is nothing new. However if reason prevailed would we have history books?

Wearing the muzzles and social distancing are mandatory. Breathing has become a crime now. Nobody wants to die. And yet in this country between 8,000 and 9,000 people die of cancer every year.

Well, this is much worse than Orwell had predicted in 1984. Hail Big Brother! I have nothing to add your insights. I read many years ago an article in Spanish about a Polish journalist, Ryszard Kapuściński, He also traveled to India. I read his book Travels with Herodotus.

Kapuściński  mentions that according to Herodotus there was a tribe called the Trausians. “Trausian customs are basically identical with those found elsewhere in Thrace, except for what they do at birth and death. Whenever a baby is born, its relatives gather around and grieve for the troubles it is going to have to endure now that it has been born, and they recount all the sufferings of human life. When anyone dies, however, they bury him in high spirits and with jubilation, on the grounds that he has been released from so many ills and is now in a perfectly happy state.

Stay well.

Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: Holden on August 18, 2020, 12:39:31 pm
If only people understood how luck shapes the most integral part of our existence, maybe they'd be a lot more stoic and noble. From winning the geographical, genetic and economic lottery. Some are lucky others aren't. No reason or meaning to it.

From-James
Title: To Senor Raul
Post by: Holden on August 20, 2020, 04:42:41 pm
Senor Raul,
Thank you for your message.Much appreciated as always.

I feel confused most of the time.
My thoughts are terribly muddled.

Most people choose to embrace one dogma or another. I don't want to have any of that.

Existence ,I find is so perplexing, that I can very easily spend the rest of my life thinking about it.

Please take care of your eyes and please do write here ,from time to time, when you feel like it.

Corona is a life form too and like the human beings,it too wants to prosper and multiply.
Take care.
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: raul on August 21, 2020, 07:37:20 am
Holden,

Thank you for your message. I am sure you are taking care of yourself given the difficult circumstances you are living with. I hope your folks have ceased their wedding plans for you.

If the virus does not catch me any other disease will catch me sooner or later. Well, life caught me. Last week I had strong pains in the chest. Maybe it is a signal that my end is near but who knows?

When I was a teenager I used to watch many films directed by a famous French oceanographer called Jacques Cousteau. He died in 1997. He even won an Oscar for a documentary. I read than in an interview Cousteau said in 1991 in an interview that he was in favor of human population control and population decrease. In his words world population must be stabilized and to do that “we must eliminate 350,000 people per day.” I suppose Monsieur Cousteau must be happy in his grave with the China bug.

Yes, life is perplexing as you say. You are among the few who think about this issue. In my last message I quoted a paragraph from this Polish journalist Ryszard Kapuściński. He traveled to China in the 1950s and he wrote the following about Lao-Tzu:

“Confucius holds that man, being born into society, has certain obligations. The most important are those of carrying out the commands of the authorities and submissiveness to one’s parents. Also—respect for ancestors and tradition; the strict observance of the rules of etiquette; fealty to the existing order; and resistance to change. The Confucian man is loyal and docile vis-ŕ-vis those in power. If you obediently and conscientiously hew to their dictates, says the master, you will survive.

Lao-Tzu (if he existed) recommends a different stance. The creator of Taoism advises keeping oneself at a remove from
everything. Nothing lasts, says the master. So do not become attached to anything. All that exists will perish; therefore rise above it, maintain your distance, do not try to become somebody, do not try to pursue or possess something. Act through inaction: your strength is weakness and helplessness; your wisdom, naďveté and ignorance. If you want to survive, become useless, unnecessary to everyone. Live far from others, become a hermit, be satisfied with a bowl of rice, a sip of water. And most important—observe the Tao. But what is Tao? It’s impossible to say, because the essence of Tao is its vagueness and inexpressibleness: “If Tao lets itself be defined as Tao, then it is not genuine Tao,” says the master. Tao is a path, not a heading, and to observe Tao is to keep to that path and walk straight ahead.”


I can say Lao-Tzu was an interesting and wise man. Can millions of men and women in this age of entertainment and endless distractions be satisfied with a bowl of rice and a sip of water? I think not.

Stay well.
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: Holden on August 21, 2020, 04:49:48 pm
Senor Raul,
I hope you have seen a doctor about your malady. I am myself being unable to eat properly, what I mean is that when I eat bread or rice,excessive amount of mucous is formed in my body and I am forced to spit it out.

Something similar, though more aggressive,was taking place in me before my hospitalisation last year in November.

When I eat fruits I don't feel like throwing up.
I have bought some kidney beans today and will experiment and see if I can hold them down.

I guess they eat a lot of beans in Paraguay.

I don't want to get hospitalised again.

You write about Toaism.Its a great philosophy. In fact, I am trying to incorporate in my everyday life.

Please take care,and if possible,please see a doctor ,if you have not done so already.
Title: Tao Te Ching (for Raul & Holden)
Post by: Silenus on August 22, 2020, 09:52:15 am
Give up learning, and put an end to your troubles.

Is there a difference between yes and no?
Is there a difference between good and evil?
Must I fear what others fear? What nonsense!
Other people are contented, enjoying the sacrificial feast of the ox.
In spring some go to the park, and climb the terrace,
But I alone am drifting not knowing where I am.
Like a new-born babe before it learns to smile,
I am alone, without a place to go.

Other have more than they need, but I alone have nothing.
I am a fool. Oh, yes! I am confused.
Other men are clear and bright,
But I alone am dim and weak.
Other men are sharp and clever,
But I alone am dull and stupid.
Oh, I drift like the waves of the sea.
Without direction, like the restless wind.

Everyone else is busy,
But I alone am aimless and depressed.
I am different.
I am nourished by the great mother.

- Tao Te Ching Chp. 20
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: raul on August 22, 2020, 03:48:00 pm
Holden,

I hope you never set foot in a hospital again. But I am sure you will have medical checkups from time to time to see how you are doing.

Right now I am only taking medication for my high blood pressure and my prostate problem. I also have liver problems.
I just don´t feel like consulting any doctor at this moment.  The only thing certain, as you well know, is death. Will I miss this world? I will miss few people, few things and certainly I will miss this board. But that´s life.

I am a bad person and I have served my time here and I want to not come back to this cage called Earth, a planet run by demons and devils. How long have we been at war? Millenia, millennia and millennia.

Yes, people a lot of beans here. It is part of the Paraguayan cuisine. One of the dishes is Jopara. It is cooked with beans, carrot, pumpkin and mandioca (cassava). Jopara is eaten on October 1st to keep away “Karai Octubre” (in English Mr. October); a myth consisting of a rural man in a straw hat that brings sadness, misery, hunger and disgrace to the homes he enters.

I read Ryszard Kapuściński ´s book, Travels with Herodotus and I only underlined some of his paragraphs. I thought them interesting.

I quote another of his interesting words:

“Sometimes, tired of reading Mao, I would pick up Chuang Tzu’s book. Chuang Tzu, a fervent Taoist, scorned all worldliness and held up Hui Shi, a great Taoist sage, as an example. When Jao, a legendary ruler of China, proposed that he should assume power, he washed his ears, which had been defiled by such a notion, and took refuge on the desolate mountain of K’i-Shan. For Chuang Tzu, as for the biblical Kohelet, the external world was nothing, mere vanity: “In conflict with things or in harmony with them, they pursue their course to the end, with the speed of a galloping horse which cannot be stopped;—is it not sad? To be constantly toiling all one’s lifetime, without seeing the fruit of one’s labor, and to be weary and worn out with his labor, without knowing where he is going to: is it not a deplorable case? Men may say, ‘But it is not death’; yet of what advantage is this? When the body is decomposed, the mind will be the same along with it: must not the case be pronounced very deplorable?”
Chuang Tzu is beset by doubts and uncertainties: “Speech is not only the exhaling of air. Speech is meant to convey something, but what that is has not been fully determined. Is there really something like speech, or is there nothing at all like it? Can one see it as distinct from the warbling of birds, or not?”


Take care.
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: raul on August 22, 2020, 04:03:41 pm
Silenus,

Thank you for sharing these words by Tao Te Ching. I hope you are allright there.

I have shared with Holden things I have read in Travels with Herodotus by the Polish journalist Ryszard Kapuściński and again let me share some paragraphs I remember:

He opens it, reads, and learns that in Corinth, after thirty years of bloodthirsty rule, the tyrant called Cypselus died and was succeeded by his son, Periander, who would in time turn out to be even more bloodthirsty than his father. This Periander, when he was still a dictator-in-training, wanted to learn how to stay in power, and so sent a messenger to the dictator of Miletus, old Thrasybulus, asking him for advice on how best to keep a people in slavish fear and subjugation.

Thrasybulus, writes Herodotus, took the man sent by Periander out of the city and into a field where there were crops growing. As he walked through the grain, he kept questioning the messenger and getting him to repeat over and over again what he had come from Corinth to ask. Meanwhile, every time he saw an ear of grain standing higher than the rest, he broke it off and threw it away, and he went on doing this until he had destroyed the choicest, tallest stems in the crop. After this walk across the field, Thrasybulus sent Periander’s man back home, without having offered him any advice. When the man got back to Corinth, Periander was eager to hear Thrasybulus’ recommendations, but the agent said that he had not made any at all. In fact, he said, he was surprised that Periander had sent him to a man of that kind—a lunatic who destroyed his own property—and he described what he had seen Thrasybulus doing.

Periander, however, understood Thrasybulus’ actions. He realized that he had been advising him to kill outstanding citizens, and from then on he treated his people with unremitting brutality. If Cypselus had left anything undone during his spell of slaughter and persecution, Periander finished the job.


Stay well.
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: Holden on August 24, 2020, 04:46:21 pm
Senor Raul,

My thoughts  have no weight and like feathers in the wind they float hither and tither.I wish to gather them together and present them to you.

Thank you for your kind words..I am feeling better now.

You often mention the Cathars.Just today I came to know that ,unlike most Christians and like most Hindus,the believed ,not in final judgement but in reincarnation.

Take care.


Title: The Cathars: We are beings from other worlds.
Post by: raul on August 24, 2020, 06:54:32 pm
Holden,

Thank you for your response. Here it is just a matter of time to get hit by the China bug. So far we have had 205 deaths, if we are to believe the numbers given by the Ministry of Health. Next time I will be one of them.

I read about the Cathars a few years ago. It was a book written by Stephen O´Shea. Then I read a book by a Spanish author, Antoni Dalmau, who wrote a novel on the Cathars. I underlined a few paragraphs:

“Unlike what Catholics preached in the temple, everything, from time to time, was governed by two principles, one good and one evil. He also said that this earthly world - and everything visible: the sky, the sea and the fish, The sun, the moon and the stars, snow and rain, all living things-was the work of the evil god. On the other hand, beyond that world of corruption and evil, where life is so precarious and painful, where wars, epidemics and death reign, there is another formed by incorruptible spirits that the God of truth and justice had created at the beginning of time.

At the beginning of all things, the Evil One set out to rise to heaven and establish his throne there because he wanted to resemble the Most High. It was a great battle, terrible and bloody, but Satan was defeated and fell, and there are those who say that in his fall the crystal firmament containing the Earth and the seven heavens that the devil himself had created was broken. Thus, the Prince of Darkness was forced to remain for years and years at the gates of paradise, always thinking and striving to enter. Until one day, using surprise and deception, he managed to penetrate the kingdom. There he addressed the spirits created by Heavenly Father, convinced them that they lived in subjection, and offered them earthly goods that they did not know. In short, he made them believe that they would be like gods.

In this way, Satan dragged a third of the creatures of Heaven, which fell like a thick rain, more stuck than the tips of the fresh grass of our meadows. So it happened for nine days and nine nights and, along with the spirits seduced by the foreign god, there were others who fell carelessly, as if dragged by a kind of vertigo. Until the Father of Heaven, warned by the faithful spirits of what was happening, rose from his throne, set his foot above the hole through which the sinful spirits slid, and warned those who remained that, if they moved, they would NEVER EVER REST; and the falling spirits: "you may go, for the time being."

Once fallen to Earth, the heavenly spirits remembered the good they had lost and grieved for the evil they had encountered. Seeing them so sorrowful, the devil told them to sing a song to the Lord, as they had custom. They answered what we read in the Psalms: "How can we sing songs to the Lord in a foreign land?». There was even one who turned without fear to the evil God and asked him, " Why did you deceive us and make us leave heaven to follow you?
The devil answered him that they would never return to heaven, for he intended to cover each of those spirits with a robe of skin, made of land of oblivion, from which they could never get out: bodies of flesh in which they would lose the memory of the goods and the joy they had enjoyed in heaven.

When the time of grace came, God sent his son into the world to preach his father's Kingdom. That is, he came to remember the heavenly homeland to the Sleeping Souls and prisoners in the fur robe and to teach them the liberating gesture that could return them to Eternity and free them from evil and time. This gesture of freedom and salvation is the baptism by the spirit, the Consolament, which Christ transmitted to his apostles with the laying on of hands.

Stay well.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_X5D9FP01BI
Title: To Mr.Silenus
Post by: Holden on August 25, 2020, 04:40:37 pm
Mr.Silenus,
 I hope you are doing well.I am reading Cioran's Tears and Saints.
The fact that you do not view employment as the most important thing in life is very inspiring.

Ciroran in New Gods writes something to the effect that all political systems are superfluous, once one begins to exist then there is no cure for that.

I hope that in the future too you would continue to look down upon wage slavery.

Take care.
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: gorticide on August 26, 2020, 04:22:52 am
i had been held in a state of psychiatric incarceration since 08 August and was released just after noon on 25 August

and so it goes


a copy (precious to me) of Cioran's The Trouble with Being Born was stolen by a spontaeous disciple (i don't mind) while i was transferred to hospital from asylum after passing out from "psychiatric medication" ... we are Generation Guinea Pig and I wish to declare some kind of spiritual/intellectual/psychological/emotional Insurrection


- mic check
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: Gorticide :: Admin Elder Warrior on August 26, 2020, 05:41:04 am
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Title: To Herr Hauser
Post by: Holden on August 27, 2020, 02:57:23 pm
I am very sorry to hear about this sad episode. I hope that you were treated properly by the staff and the doctors of the facility.I also hope they took requisite precautions against the virus and that there was someone to look after your mother in your absence.

I hope that they leave you alone now to study mathematics and programming and to think deep thoughts.

I reckon, it must have been quite agonizing for you.I am glad that Cioran was there with you ,to keep you company.I was thinking that maybe you are occupied with certain mathematical problems.

Well, you know it far better than I do, life is a tricky business.You should try to get over this episode.It might help if you write about it.Writing seems to help me.Its very therapeutic.You introduced to me it back in the spring of 2014.

I hope your garden is okay. The plants would have waited for your return.As Cioran say and you also say, being a plant could be such bliss.

Being a human being means,as the Buddha tells us,mandatory. I would only add that the suffering could be of two kind-it could be voluntary and it could also be involuntary.

Most people choose the latter. They are dragged into the mire by the goddess of suffering,kicking and screaming.But there are some,who, embrace the goddess,who,to use a very precise word, acquiesce.
Title: A Song for Herr Hauser
Post by: Holden on August 27, 2020, 04:27:34 pm
This song reminds me of you, the 'fighter' in the last paragraph.

https://youtu.be/IdvGqDhpTOs
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: Gorticide :: Admin Elder Warrior on August 28, 2020, 04:57:27 am
Just to let you know, I have printed out this entire thread and have been reading it carefully from the beginning.  It is all quite powerful and the only material that can get me through long dark nights of the soul.  Thank you few great souls for your sincerity and generosity in posting such deep thoughts.  I am stunned that such a phenomenon as this exists, and hardly can take credit for it.

Peace.

PS:  Thanks for the song.  Musicians are really pulling me through these days of World-Pain.



 :)
Title: To Holden
Post by: Silenus on August 28, 2020, 05:12:33 pm
Hi Holden,
  I made a personal vow to work as little as possible and to remain poor for the rest of my life. And no doubt there will be times when I do have to work, but I never hesitate to walk away from any of it.

 I think there has always been something of a contrarian in me: while many see success in being a careerist, having a car, material worth, etc., my success is in having wanted none of it.

 The common look of success here is that of exhaustion. The common feeling of success here is the accumulation of monetary debt. I don't know how our Overlords were able to convince people that debt is a necessary "part of life," but they succeeded. As Gary in Mendham would say, this civilization is barbaric. Sometimes I fantasize of walking in it's ruins.

 When I was a child, everyone warned me of the dangers of slipping in poverty. But one can learn to see it as a "blessing," especially in a mad-cap world such as this.

 I hope you too will break the shackles one day, even if it is for just that one day. Be well.
Title: To Senor Raul
Post by: Holden on August 29, 2020, 05:06:24 pm
Senor Raul,

Thank you for the message.Clearly you are very learned. A maid servant supposedly once told to Cioran that she only believes in God when she has a toothache.
Pain,suffering, agony, that is our lot.

When I see around me I manage to gather together many reasons for believing in a Tormentor, not even one for believing in a good God.
Not one reason. Those Cathars were right,but of course, they were brutally exterminated.

I sometimes like to think of the first human being who might have come with the idea of a good God.What farce!

As a kid I was taught that man is a social animal.If that is true that I am clearly not a man ,for  I am anything but social.

I feel like King Lear,betrayed by his daughters, he is in the middle of a storm and raves and raves..

Take care.
Title: The misery of the human condition - Pope Innocent III
Post by: raul on August 30, 2020, 07:08:35 am
Holden,
Thank you for your response. I am not learned. I wish I could read and learn like you. I only underlined some interesting paragraphs from this Spanish author, Antoni Dalmau about the Cathars. Author Stephen O´Shea wrote the following:

“For the Cathars, the world was not the handiwork of a good god. It was wholly the creation of a force of darkness, immanent in all things. Matter was corrupt, therefore irrelevant to salvation. Little if any attention had to be paid to the elaborate systems set up to bully people into obeying the man with the sharpest sword, the fattest wallet, or the biggest stick of incense. Worldly authority was a fraud, and worldly authority based on some divine sanction, such as the Church claimed, was outright hypocrisy.”

Others say that “since the commandments are the instrument of the Evil Creator to keep the light trapped in the bodies, the Gnostics systematically commit the most unimaginable sins. They practice Christian rituals, such as Mass the other way around, and by sinning in this way, they believe that they exhaust all the possibilities of matter, thus they should no longer be reincarnated in another life. The more they sin the closer they are to breaking the cycle of rebirth, a cycle that condemns man to the Earth. By sinning, you can return to the kingdom of light, which is up there, beyond the tenth heaven. The most serious sin for them is procreation.”

The not so innocent Pope Innocent III who ordered the Cathars exterminated also said the following about the misery of the human condition:
 
. . .with tears in my eyes I shall take up first what a man is made of; second what a man does; and finally what man is to be.

. . . . Man was formed of dust, slime, and ashes; what is even more vile, of the filthiest seed. He was conceived from the itch of the flesh, in the heat of passion and the stench of lust, and worse yet, with the stain of sin. He was born to toil, dread and trouble; and more wretched still, was born only to die. He commits depraved acts by which he offends God, his neighbor, and himself; shameful acts by which he defiles his name, his person, and his conscience; and vain acts by which he ignores all things important, useful, and necessary. He will become fuel for those fires which are forever hot and burn forever bright; food for the worm which forever nibbles and digests; a mass of rottenness which will forever stink and reek.
 

One thing is clear and that we are only pawns in this prison planet.

I think that you are a menace to your mindless fellow human beings. You think too much and you write dark thoughts.

Take care.

P.S. You and the readers of this blog may find the full text of Pope Innocent III below in the link.

http://home.ubalt.edu/ntygfit/ai_03_illuminating_love/ai_03_tell/innocentIII_misery.htm

Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: Silenus on August 31, 2020, 12:09:38 pm
Raul,
  Thank you for the text of Pope Innocent's. I think it is interesting how he writes like a Gnostic and meditates upon death as one, yet ordered the extermination of the Cathars. I wonder if he hated the truth of his own thoughts so much that he desired to kill others who shared in his grief.

Take care.
Title: To Mr.Silenus
Post by: Holden on September 01, 2020, 04:00:07 pm
Mr.Silenus,

I found your vow to be most interesting. Would mind telling me how old you were when you took the vow and what was the chief reason for doing so.

Sometimes I think of the 19th century Russian Nihilists.They are portrayed almost always as restless and believing in nothing.
One of my aunts died today. Cancer. I met her by accident about 6 months back in a hospital. She was frail, and was about 61 years old.

Dead.What was that all about? A life filled to the brim with misery. She leaves behind two daughters and a husband. What ,I wonder, is the meaning of her corpse?

I must confess I do not understand this world. The question which is pertinent here is the reason for my incomprehension. Is it because I am not sharp enough to figure out what its all about, or is it because the world, fundamentally, irrevocably , is irrational.

One of her daughters is a dentist. She fills tooth cavities.But this existential cavity which devours everything,how is that to be filled?
It only keeps getting bigger, it keeps getting deeper.

Keep well.
Title: To Senor Raul
Post by: Holden on September 02, 2020, 01:43:17 pm
Senor Raul,

Thank you for the message. I gather from it that men,like us, have been trying to comprehend this world, this existence, for thousands of years. As I have written before, about the age of fifteen, there was a marked change in my consciousness.

I gained a great ability to "suffer". I spent many a night, ignoring my school books, trying to figure out the cause of my ailment. Little did I know then that this was to be a quest which would demand a life time's worth of effort.

In shipping, according to an ancient custom, the captain of  a drowning ship, can honorably go down with it too.I won't abandon my ship.When the waves come to take it in their eternal embrace, I would still be on it, ready to go down to the unfathomable depths with it.

This ,our Resistance,against,not  something as puny as the State but  the very nature of being itself, will leave a dent. A deep dent.

What I find particularly harrowing is the sheer number of people in the city, millions and millions of them, living in the streets,malnourished.But I am no Gandhi-I don't intend to be.

What we are up against is nefarious and its very noxious too.

Take care.

Title: Innocent III and Albert Caraco
Post by: raul on September 03, 2020, 07:19:03 am
Silenus,

Thank you for your response. I hope you are allright wherever you are.

For Lotario dei Conti di Segni aka Pope Innocent III the pope was “the sole earthly guardian of absolute, irrefragable truth. Disagreement with him was not dissent, it was treason.”  But no matter how poweful Innocent III was, in the end, like any human being he became a pile of bones.

He uttered: “Every cleric must obey the Pope, even if he commands what is evil; for no one may judge the Pope.” I read that Francis of Assissi swore obedience to him (he swore obedentia et reverentia). He was the pope who ordered that Jews and Muslims should wear special dresses so that they could be distinguished from Christians. He also mandated that Jews should not be appointed to public offices. The Fuhrer followed this example seven hundred years later in Germany.

Are we not at this moment wearing face masks like the yellow star worn by the Jews before going to the slaughterhouse? Are we not buying the tickets to get on the trains taking us to our updated Auschwitz, Treblinka or Sobibor?

I found Post Mortem by Albert Caraco in Spanish. The book is easy to read but difficult to translate into English. Below are some paragraphs:

Mother has died, I had forgotten her quite a while ago, her end restores her to my memory, even if it is for a few hours, let us meditate on this, before she falls into oblivion. I ask myself if I love her and I have to answer: No, I reproach her for having castrated me, really very little, but in short I inherited her temperament and this is even more serious, because she suffered from alkalosis and allergies, I suffer from them even more than she does and my ailments are countless, and besides... she threw me into the world and I profess to hate the world. 


I rarely reflect on my life, doing so awakens my sensitivity very little and I removed my complacency years ago, I am like the rock that the waves beat on, the sea is gray and the sky is black, the clouds pass and the works remain. I cling as much to the rejection of pain as to the rejection of happiness, I love nothing more than absolute indifference and now I am confused with it, my whole life is an apprenticeship in death, of course I do not have much merit and since I was a child I have never felt completely well, a prey to permanent malaises, and I subsist by dint of remedies.


So I will be a miserable?  As a Jew I apparently had to be, and most Jews are unfortunate, that is why they profess a delirious optimism, their love for life reminds me of the erections of the hanged men, and I am not far from thinking that they have the same origin. The rejection of the tragic, typical of slaves, and for too many centuries the Jews have been no more than that, that mentality allowed them to survive while making them perfectly ruinous, they consented to abjection in order to keep the garment, and they kept it, despite the abjection and those who imposed it on them.


Stay well.
Title: Re: Innocent III & Caraco
Post by: Silenus on September 03, 2020, 08:31:23 pm
Raul,
  Thank you very much for translating those fragments. If you ever were to think of translating sentences/paragraphs that stand out to you, please do share them.

Yes, Judaism is a religion of sadness. They try and reject a tragic life of woe & violence with a refusal to look at it, to look at something Other and that in itself is tragic.
Title: Forgotten Intimacy
Post by: Gorticide :: Admin Elder Warrior on September 04, 2020, 12:34:34 am
Reading these last few posts of this thread brought to mind an excerpt I placed in the "All Writing is Pig Shit" thread with heading ANIMISM AND THE SACRED WINDS.

Specifically:

The ancient aleph-beth, as the first thoroughly phonetic writing system, prioritized the human voice. The increasingly literate Israelites found themselves caught up in a vital relationship with an all powerful human voice. It was a voice that preceded and outlasted every individual life. The written text became a portable homeland for the Hebrew people. Many of the stories are about displacement and exile. (Abram 1996)

The Hebrews were the first real caretakers of this great and difficult magic – alphabetic literacy.

The pain, the sadness of this exile, is precisely the trace of what has been lost – FORGOTTEN INTIMACY.


I was unable to leave a link since the url address has the word shit in it.  I'm getting so sick of this Nanny software built into the editor on freeboards, but what can I complain about?  This message board is FREE!

You can find it by placing the following, piece by piece, into the URL address bar of whatever web browser you are using:

http://whybother.freeboards.org/what-now/

all-writing-is-pig-shit/

msg1005/#msg1005

You can also find it in entry for 2011.11.11 (https://xhentric.wordpress.com/the-book/12-the-steppenwolf-rediscovers-downtown-freehold-el-barrio/) (11 November 2011) in Dead End, Chapter 12 [The Steppenwolf Rediscovers Downtown Freehold (El Barrio)]

Just follow the 2011.11.11 hyperlink above, then Ctrl+F and type 2011.11.11

That will take you to the interesting notes on that tragically confusing religion which I learned in my studies of phenomenologist David Abrams.   

Take care and stay safe.

~ revived He Not Rich ~
Title: The semi-satisfied life
Post by: raul on September 04, 2020, 08:00:57 am
Holden,

Thank you for your response. A few, like you, Hentrich, Silenus, Ibra and others, as you say, have been trying to figure out the cause of our ailment. The problems of human existence are only a concern for a few. Millions, even in this time of pandemic, think only of home, children, money, and entertainment.

It is not easy see ourselves the way we should. We are selfish, short-sighted, narrow-minded little beings.We want to reach for the stars but we are chained to Earth. Like the three monkeys we shut our eyes, our ears and mouths. Yes, this world is a prison.

Last week an acquaintance told me that a friend of hers had lost her husband because of the China bug. The guy had also, using these medical terms, underlying medical conditions, and two years before her daughter died in Brazil due to cancer. This couple prayed to the Catholic saints for their 19-year-old daughter´s recovery but she died nonetheless.
The thing is that this acquaintance said any suffering was nothing compared to this family´s tragedy. I did not want to continue with the conversation because we would go nowhere. Beside this person often talks about work and family.

Spanish is a difficult language and we forget the origins of “trabajar” (work) and familia (family). I learned that trabajar comes from the Latin word tripalliare. Tripalliare means torturing with the tripallium. Tripallium was a three-pointed trap that was used to tie horses or oxen and in that way shoeing them. It was also used as an instrument of torture against the slaves or prisoners.

Familia comes from the Latin word famulus. It means servant or slave. The word familia was equivalent to the patrimony and included not only the relatives but also the servants at the masters´ house in Ancient Rome.   

We are trapped by language.

P.S. You and the readers of this blog may find this article interesting.

https://aeon.co/essays/for-schopenhauer-happiness-is-a-state-of-semi-satisfaction

Title: ataraxia
Post by: Gorticide :: Admin Elder Warrior on September 04, 2020, 08:47:38 am
Raul,

While reading the essay on Schopenhauer and the concept of happiness I came across this word, ataraxiaThus the Stoic aims for ataraxia, a state of inner calmness and serenity however turbulent the world outside might be.

While held involuntarily in the psychiatric hospital, my father (age 79) had been kind enough to pick up two shirts, two pairs of pants, a hoody, and one book, at my request, from my mom's domicile.  While a reader of this blog might think that book would have been Schopenhauer's The World as Will and Representation, Volume 1, I knew that such a text would not be practical.  I opted for Cioran's The Trouble with Being Born.

Well, unfortunately, due to the pills I was forced to imbibe there, I suffered an episode where I passed out and lay unconscious for a good 10 minutes before being revived by ambulance [emergency respondents] employees.  I had already been incarcerated in the psychiatric detention center for a week, and was set to be discharged in a couple days.  I wanted to be assured that being sent to a regular hospital would not mess up my release.  I was told that I would still be released as planned.

While in the hospital, after having my heart tested (turned out I had low blood pressure and low sugar as side effect of medications for "bipolar disorder"), somehow my notebook and the Cioran book were stolen.  I hope that it was taken by other inmates who were interested in my unique rhetoric.  There were a small band of thinkers interested in the things I was saying.   I had been taking notes from The Trouble with Being Born then reading those quotes aloud (with commentary) while pacing the hallways at all hours of the night.

At one point I had come across this word, ataraxia.  It was a key concept in getting the fuck out of that place.

In the regular hospital I was always guarded by a nurse who followed me wherever I was transported.  I was not allowed out of my room/cell; that is, I could not wander the hallways.  Long story short, I had been lied to.  By the time I returned to the psychiatric jailhouse compound "hospital" ward, the tricky fuckers said I had to be taken in afresh as a new patient, thereby starting the entire process of "being observed" all over again.   They were a real set of liars who had the full support of some arbitrary judge. 

I was to contact them after release, and I still have not brought myself to do so since I have ceased taking their damn meds.  I am recovering from the trauma they caused me, and they certainly do not have my respect.  I have disdain and contempt for their entire profession, much like our friend Artaud, that admirer of Van Gogh who was branded a "drug addict."

At this point, I will end this transmission.  I just want to note that I have always been ever so slightly confused about why you or Holden address just one member of the board at a time.  I thought that this is what private messages are for.   I would prefer that, when people post here in the forums, that they address an audience, a general readership; and yet, Lovecraft did exchange letters ... We live in interesting times, so there is no correct nor incorrect way of corresponding on such a message board.

I just think that addressing one individual discourages others from chiming in.

Take care, my brothers in spirit.
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: raul on September 04, 2020, 04:22:12 pm
Hentrich,

Thank you for your response. Yes, we are living interesting times, or living apocalyptic times.
What you went through in the psychiatric hospital was really awful, to say the least. In my view they could have killed you there with their fake treatment. But you are a tough guy and they did not realize you have endured much. Had you stayed longer the doctors could have gone mad.

Most doctors are thugs. I am seeing them as thugs here. They are always causing fear and anxiety to the population. I have the impression that they want more dead people. Although I do not trust judges, prosecutors or attorneys, one of these days a sort of justice will come to all of them. I learned this expression in Latin: 

Fiat justitia ruat coelum.
Let Justice be done, though Heavens may fall.”

In one of those textbooks in secondary school I learned about a Lusitanian warrior called Viriatus who fought the Romans in Hispania or Iberia. He won many victories over the Romans. Later he was betrayed and murdered while sleeping. The assassins wanted the Romans to pay them for the murder. The answer to them was “Rome does not pay traitors”. These doctors, politicians, judges, prosecutors and businessmen, who are behind this virus madness now, will in turn pay the consequences. Their masters will get rid of each one of them because once again Rome does not pay traitors.

You write that you were to contact them after your release. Is that mandatory? Can you have legal problems? I hope not.

Stay well.
Title: Post Mortem - Albert Caraco
Post by: raul on September 05, 2020, 06:46:30 am

Silenus,

Here are some paragraphs by Albert Caraco from Post Mortem:

My hatred for this world is the most estimable thing in me, I hate the world as a sick person and as a Jew, here are two most respectable titles, I love death and I do well, most of the sick people do not love it enough and their rage to live makes them unworthy, on their side the Jews do not love it at all and their attachment to existence is the reason for the disgust they inspire in others. These two races of men lack perspective, reserve and modesty, neither the sick nor the Jews will ever have style, they are poor in the worst sense of the word, who when they need them, they arm themselves with their misery. 

Mother loved life, not excessively, but a little more than usual, she condemned d suicide and rejected the idea of death, even dared to say that one had to live everything as if one would never die, so we saw her quite unarmed and lacking greatness, she believed in her doctors who lied to her with impertinence and the proximity of nothingness did not arouse her suspicions. My esteem for her was reduced to half, she was only a poor woman, her beautiful qualities were denied, I suffer for that, her will to live and her hope to be cured made her fail her demise. 


Mother had been ill for years, she did not know for sure what she had, she complained about her throat, apparently she suffered from laryngitis and often her voice was a little hoarse, those kinds of symptoms are usually considered alarming, but she did not consider herself in danger. Only one doctor scared her in that respect, but he treated her so roughly that she got sick of the character, anyway he would not have been able to save her, lung cancer is incurable. So the poor woman carried her death in her like a child that should be born, making her, in turn, perish.

Mother improved a lot with old age and I believe I had a lot to do with it; her taste was right, although sometimes she lacked discernment, in her what she had acquired was not up to the natural, but her mistakes were of the most scarce kind, and she even stopped committing them in the last times. I rarely saw her looking better than in the summer of the Sixties, the expression "healthy air" was not inappropriate, the disease was already incubating, that rather new shade of melancholy gave her charm and a certain style, for me it was a pleasure to walk next to a person who fixed his gaze without any desire in between.
 
We spent the summer of the Sixties in Vichy, where Mother was cured of her throat, the shrewd doctors she had consulted spoke of laryngitis, nobody suspected that death was lurking in that noble woman. A month later, in Biarritz, she felt as a first alteration and her face sank imperceptibly, in winter she hoarsened and coughed more than usual.


The following year she had a last moment of beauty in that beautiful cathedral of Aix, one would have thought of the color of the place or the reflection of its decorations. I had just witnessed its sunset; it was the last flash of light. 



It seems to me that this is a rather unusual love language in a man who pretends not to love his mother, these contradictions are natural, I am full of meanders, in short I write and that says it all, I get lost in my own path. Love or lack of love? Let's put them together or one after the other, the truth is, I ignore it. While Father sheds a few tears, my eyes remain as dry as ever, it is true that I never cry, I should not be labeled as indifferent, my ideas forbid me the pathos, my style forbids me even to contemplate it. 
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: raul on September 06, 2020, 07:44:11 am
Paragraphs from Post Mortem by Albert Caraco

Menstruation, pregnancy and childbirth, and lactation cannot glorify such servitudes; they are disgusting and make many men tremble, even though they hide the horror they feel because they fear to be seen as monsters.  Men in love pretend to forget them, others keep silent, it is a subject that eludes and afflicts us all, Muslims claim that women will get rid of them when they are with us in Paradise, so there is little hope of cure, Jews thank God every day for having made them men.


Attention to women is therefore natural, we strive to comfort them from the misery that comes with their sex, commonly our laws serve to redouble it, starting with moral and religious laws, women seem to be their victims, even more deplorable by making them consent in their condition. For centuries, we have forced them into permanent pregnancy and instilled in them the most inhumane ideas: and what could be more atrocious than our ideal of fertility?  We degrade women to the level of impersonal instruments and force them to produce those to whom they immolate themselves. 


Blessed are the chaste! Blessed are the barren! Christ and Buddha were of the same opinion and since one and the other have died, how many of the billions of humans coming into the world seemed worthy of envy? A tiny number, no doubt. What did Plato say? That the happiest man of his time, the Great King of Persia, counted some few days as beautiful as a night without dreams. When I look at those who swear that life is a delight, I find them neither beautiful nor well-born, neither reasonable nor sensitive, neither fine nor wise, nor profound, but very similar to what they exalt. 



Noble beings seldom love life, they prefer reasons for living to life, and those who conform to life are always abject. What is desirable about life, when it is not sublime?  The pleasures of the body, not without wonder we see the ugliest and most unhealthy savoring them with a heightened rage and rushing into them with a fury that even abuse does not exhaust, the defeated nations are tidy in villains of the insatiable species, those beasts will at night make up for the servitudes that the day imposes upon them. Lord, deliver us from resembling the larvae! 

Mother had a quite similar philosophy to the one she professed in these pages, she did not want a second child and this resolution she took just after leaving her childhood: the vision of so many large families and all of them, unhappy, because they were numerous, dictated her the reasons of her behavior. His mistrust of love, from which he took me away, was not entirely alien to such motives, and he soon advised me of reasonable selfishness and armed me against all pleasures. The pupil returned his lessons to the teacher, the teacher finally gave up.

The story of an illness is of no interest and early death is a blessing.   Mother agonized for more than ten months, that began on November 1st, 1962 and ended during the night of September 8th and 9th, the prelude of her agony was frightening and we did not witness the conclusion, apparently less dramatic. In the early morning of November 1st, I saw at the foot of the bed a bucket full of blood and Father told me about it, the night before she did not look sick and towards the middle of the night she started to vomit abundantly, she looked like little less than a dying person.


Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: Holden on September 06, 2020, 02:58:24 pm
I have heard that in the Spanish speaking countries sometimes women like to put fireflies in their hair. Senor Raul,we are such vain creatures.
Women as well as men. Women and men are well matched for each other. I wonder if bull fights are popular in Paraguay.

People think so little, before getting married or having kids. I ,on the other hand, do not take them as unquestionable axioms. I have thought about them so frequently and so intensely that now those axioms  have been gutted through and through.

Women who are ,as they say, are "ready to pop" are feted and congratulated and the nameless tramp standing in the corner looking at the weird scene is despised and mocked. I think most married people would love to see the others get married too, because an unmarried person's very existence is a question mark in front of their choice to go through wedding and to breed.

I know better than to expect any kind of rational behaviour from human beings.  Senor, you might find it interesting to know that apart from the Cathars and the Bogomils, the Manicheans ( Augustine was ,to begin with, a Manichean), also abhorred child birth.

But we do not speak of such things in the polite company. Not unless one is a pariah. Like me. I speak these unacceptable things.

The wedding planners and the obstetricians..they will never tolerate such talk. Bad for business.

Take care.
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: Holden on September 07, 2020, 04:27:47 pm
Life seems so unreal except when I am in pain ,Mr.Silenus. It is pain which defines my life,one's life. Bodily pain as well as mental anguish.
And all this drama ,all this agony..for what exactly? People have children unthinkingly. Some of them have kids because the others are having kids and so the wheel of life keeps turning.

We maybe be more complicated but we are insects too.Where ever one looks its blood and gore. Animals tearing each other apart.
Wedding ceremonies are so funny. The man and the woman know very well that they would be sleeping with the others within days and yet they all pretend to be so solemn.There is nothing solemn about it. But is it ,I concede,very sad.

Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: Holden on September 07, 2020, 04:33:22 pm
https://youtu.be/7aFiSfBFXdk?t=8
Title: Post Mortem by Albert Caraco
Post by: raul on September 08, 2020, 07:15:56 am
Doctors followed one another like a flock of ravens, all of them impotent, all of them susceptible, jealous of one another, disputing over relationships, and even before death they did not forget their pride. These gentlemen have not changed so much since the times of Moličre, but today they will kill you for more money; Mother enriched that guild, as well as that of drug manufacturers, received several hundreds of different injections and absorbed an incalculable number of pills, so many as to annihilate a whole herd of cattle. At the time of her death, medicine boxes formed the pyramid. 

May these paintings be forgiven, I only portray the truth. I do not bear a grudge against doctors, they are poor men like their patients, who become insensitive out of obligation, even though I would have wished at times that their profession was only available to hopeful saints, and that the spectacle of our sufferings did not harden them to the point of increasing them.  The strangest thing was that they were laughing, at the very moment when one would have wept gladly: at the bedside of the dying they represented not life, but the nothingness of the world, victim of their grimace,
they did not even know how to comfort the one they could not cure.

I said, and I stand by it, I did not like Mother's family, but between ourselves, I think she felt the same way, she kept her relatives at a distance more and more, and twenty-five years ago we lost track of them. When she was young, she had very few points of similarity with those people, but in her maturity none of that survived, something that pleased me and I congratulated her for a change that gave her a better appearance.  I made her notice the vilely horrendous air of this or that, she readily admitted it.   

She possessed the art of making happy those who lived with her as well as those who worked for her, a double virtue of the best born women, all those who approached her were happy to have known her, she never offended anyone, the rejected deserved it. The sense of order took on the dimension of harmony, her qualities were strengthened over time as her judgment was sharpened, as for old age, she had no reason to fear it, she was approaching it when it still seemed so distant and it was only thanks to a merciless evil that age was brought down on her.

I feel that I am becoming too personal and I stop, as my modesty is again being claimed. The world is full of very nice and very remarkable women, several million families are convinced of this and not everything is illusion in such views, complacency certainly works miracles, but objectivity begins where outsiders proves us right. I just believe in the virtues of Mother, since there are those who are interested in her person and seem to be moved by her absence; courtesy does not go so far and lies would be exhausted. She will live in my writings and this is the way to pay my debt. 

Mother's dresses are of the best taste, and as I contemplate them I am overcome by a quite voluptuous melancholy; the world of women has its pleasant things and the sublime, which surpasses everything, does not replace them; accessories and trifles have a form of eloquence; their common denominator is happiness.  I love the glory of the chosen ones but, I must confess, the dressing table of a beautiful woman -all proportion kept- complements it, I ignore delights of existence, but I esteem them, and I was unable to cultivate them, my life is dark and militant… It's just that I had a piece of wall to watch over.   

I surprise myself inhaling Mother´s perfumes, they return it to me at once and you can already guess by what enchantment, it is a profound joy that by restoring a presence to me that contains a philosophy, I have recovered -like Marcel before me- the time, I have tasted the Sabbath and I refer the reader of my pages to those others in which I analyzed the work of Proust in the light of the Jewish mystics. Marcel was one of the architects of time, a true Assidonense. Many French people still need to understand him, for now they only enjoy him and in vain ask themselves: why does the charm operate? 

Mother's closet is full of treasures, Father, in fact, doesn't discover them, he sees in them only excuses for tears, everything hurts him, the slightest memory hurts him, the last few months hide the years, the mask of death dims the lights of a hundred times longer life, of two fantasies he chose the wrong one, and confused misery with supreme truth, I dare to tell him that he was fooling himself? What do the dark weeks prove? They only prove themselves and do not testify against the past or against the dream that will follow them forever. 

It was around 1960 when Mother became melancholic and that took on the most beautiful air in the world, that change whose cause I could not penetrate made it more endearing to my eyes, the shadows of death are the school of absolute coldness and eternal life would be the condiments of love. One loves the one who threatens tomorrow, and even more so the greater the threat, God does not love and is not an object of love, divine love is nonsense, it better, certainly, is not to love anyone and for that it is necessary to start by ourselves. He who makes a profession of hating himself breaks with sensitive attachments. 

When we think our feelings, our feelings fade away, it is enough that the look of the Spirit hangs over them to reduce them to ashes in the act.  Mother has died, either I hang myself or I forget her, I wanted to destroy myself, I felt that I had some books in my head, I decided to live as long as necessary and forget the annihilated one, my weekly agenda had no other purpose, it saved me the abyss from I was going to jump into.  We must bury our dead or we must follow them, immolate ourselves in their graves or turn our backs on them without shedding a single tear... 



Title: Yawar Mallku, Blood of the Condor
Post by: raul on September 08, 2020, 07:22:30 am
Holden,

Thank you for your response. Bull fights are popular but mostly in the countryside but here bullfights are different from the ones in Spain.

Yes, we, men and women, are vain creatures.  Here we have the tradition of quinceańeras, when a girl turn 15 there is a big party where the girl is in the process of becoming a woman. This is an important event. I have seen the pictures sometimes of their proud fathers and mothers. Will I tell them that their girl is ready for a future wedding? No, I won´t. It is not polite to say such things.

You say people think so little before getting married or having kids. In reality, we use our diiccks instead of our brains.  Most, in my view, agree to have children just to show they are already very mature.

Indeed it is improper to speak of unacceptable things in the polite company. An acquaintance refused to accept the truth of this law of life: Everything that is born must die. This person said that parents or grandparents must die before children die. This world shows that this is not always the case.

Yes, wedding planners, obstetricians, even those who are to retire soon will never tolerate such talk. After all who is going to pay for their retirement if there are no new generations of slaves?

We are irrational and cruel creatures. That is the way we have been made. I have always blamed the powers that be for their cruelty. But those below are also cruel. Everything is connected. Our true father is Cain because we enjoy killing each other.

Otto René Castillo (1936-1967), was a Guatemalan poet and guerrilla fighter. He joined the struggle as a chief of propaganda. Later he was captured by the army and taken to the barracks where he was tortured and burned alive with Nora Páiz, his partner.

Some lines in his poem, El gran Inconforme, The Great Nonconformist,say:

Nunca preguntes            Never ask a man if he suffers
A un hombre               because one always suffers in some    
Si sufre,                         way, on some road.
Porque siempre
Se está sufriendo
En alguna forma
Y en algún camino.

Take care.

P.S. Below is a scene of a movie called Yawar Mallku, Blood of the Condor, directed by Jorge Sanjinés in 1969, a Bolivian filmmaker. It is based on a true story where women of the Quechua community were being sterilized clandestinely by a so-called Progress Corps (in reality the U.S. Peace Corps). When the Quechua elders find out what is happening they attack the doctors but the attackers are captured and executed by the Bolivian military. This even happened in the 1960s.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=f3u3q6PGurk
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: Holden on September 08, 2020, 04:51:57 pm
It would be best,Senor Raul, if we are all sterilized,if the earth, this evil sphere which breeds monsters is itself sterilized for good.
Venus and Mars are much better compared to this unholy ground which is the breeding place for such strange life forms.I say no to life, a thousand times.

How difficult life is, how very stress-inducing. We breathe in anxiety and panic. Every organ of the human body can malfunction in zillions of ways.
But even the smallest and the weakest creature wants to live, to live for as long as possible and to breed too.

Once one has read Schopenhauer, there is no going back.There is no inherent pattern, our minds project one.
Then there is sheer bodily pain which can get so intense, so very intense, that one can easily go raving mad.

Take care.


https://youtu.be/tTyM9ctSU8g
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: Gorticide :: Admin Elder Warrior on September 08, 2020, 08:39:22 pm
Quote from: Holden
How difficult life is, how very stress-inducing.
We breathe in anxiety and panic.
Every organ of the human body can malfunction in zillions of ways.
But even the smallest and the weakest creature wants to live, to live for as long as possible and to breed too.

Once one has read Schopenhauer, there is no going back.
There is no inherent pattern, our minds project one.
Then there is sheer bodily pain which can get so intense,
so very intense, that one can easily go raving mad.

philo-poetic prose
toothaches make one paranoid about the nature of our own wiring

Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: raul on September 09, 2020, 03:28:35 pm
Holden,

Thank you for your response and your patience in reading my scribblings.  You say no to life a thousand times. You are an enlightenend human being, Holden, but milions do not think, act, and behave like you. What you write in this board will only be understood by a few. We live in a very twisted world.

You know in life there is always discrimination. I mean to say that there are the enlightened and unenlightened ones. Jesus, as I remember, had his apostles who understood his message. The Cathars had their perfectus, the only ones who preached while the common folks went about their daily business. You have the monks, nuns, the hermits and the anchorites who live far from the crowds.

Once I read about a man called Ramakrishna who was born the son of a poor Brahman on February 20, 1833 in Kamarpukur, in Bengal. Later in life he “became obsessed by the desire to see the reality which lay behind the image of Kali which he tended every day at the temple, and he fasted and prayed continuously. To humble himself, he cleaned out the temple privies with his bare hands and ate the remains of food which had been left by the beggars. He then swept and washed clean their eating place. He cultivated an indifference to worldly goods which he would express by taking a pile of coins in one hand and earth in the other, shouting ‘Money is dirt! dirt is money!’ before throwing both into the Ganges.”

Money is dirt! Dirt is money
uttered this man. Unfortunately only a few, would agree with him while millions, including me, would never throw money into a river.

I saw many years ago a movie called Dead Man Walking with actors Susan Sarandon and Sean Penn. It was the story of Catholic sister Helen Prejean who had a relationship with Mathew Poncelet, a prisoner on death row in Lousiana. He was sentenced to death for killing a man and raping and stabbing a girl 17 times. In one scene the victim´s father says to the Catholic sister: 

This is not a person. This is an animal.
Matthew Poncelet is God´s mistake. 

These are the words many would say against you or any other who write that it would be best if we are sterilized on this Earth. But they never would utter the words above to those who masterminded this biological attack aka pandemic.
Death is all around us and Death comes in different and strange ways. I read in a Paraguayan digital newspaper, Extra.com.py that one year and three month-baby fell into a bucket of water on Sunday while playing in his house in Minga Pora, a city 413 kilometers from the capital. His mom took him to the health center. There, a doctor confirmed that her baby had died. What an absurd death!

Also last month I saw a picture in the same digital newspaper. It shows the image of a cemetery, the grave´s s words on a small piece of wood in Spanish: “Teófila Villalba. Nació el 27-VII-1967. Murió el 02-VI-2020”, This woman was born on July 27,1967 and died on June 2,2020. The woman allegedly died of Covid-19. No visitors, nobody, all this because she was struck by the China bug.

Stay safe.
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: Holden on September 10, 2020, 01:53:09 pm
I must tell you-you are a man after my own heart, my Paraguayan friend.
I cannot help but admire the fact that you refused to get ensnared by any woman. Women over here,they are, all of them  radical feminists.The only time they are not is when they are sleeping with the boss or giving him a blow-job get the next promotion.

I don't even talk to women, let alone date them.
As you are a film connoisseur- I would request you to recommend some Mafia-themed movies.I have observed that such movies are quite close to the kind of reality we live in.

Take care.
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: raul on September 11, 2020, 08:06:58 am
Holden,

I think that without the invasion of India by the British Empire we would not be sharing your thoughts in this board.

I have seen these movies:

The Godfather (Part I-II and III) Al Pacino, Marlon Brando and Robert De Niro
Taxi Driver with Robert De Niro
Scarface with Al Pacino
Heat with Robert De Niro and Al Pacino
Carlito´s Way with Al Pacino and Sean Penn
American Gangster with Denzel Washington
No Country for Old Men
Collateral with Tom Cruise
The Lord of War with Nicholas Gage
The Irishman with Robert De Niro and Al Pacino
Eastern Promises with Viggo Mortensen
A History of Violence with Viggo Mortensen
Drive with Ryan Gosling and Bryan Cranston
In Bruges with Colin Farrell
Traffic
Blow with Johnny Depp
Public Enemies with Johnny Depp
The Wolf of Wall Street
 
I read a book by an Argentine author, Ernesto Sábato, Antes del Fin (Before the End) written in 1998. In one of the paragraphs he mentioned Bishop Hatto II and the Mouse Tower.  This man was the Archbishop of Mainz in Germany and restored the tower in 968. The legend has it that in the Mouse Tower Hatto II after having the starving peasants burned to death, was in turn locked in that tower in order to be eaten alive by the mice.

Then in another part of the book he writes:

This is what most men do with their dual existence: day and night. A poor office worker dreams of murdering his boss and during the day he greets him respectfully. The human being is essentially contradictory and even Descartes, cornerstone of rationalism, created the principles of his theory from the three dreams he had.What a beautiful beginning for a defender of reason!

He also writes:

Economic absolutism has emerged as a power. Invisible despot, it controls with its orders the dictatorship of hunger, which no longer respects ideologies or flags, and ends equally with men and women, with the projects of the young and the rest of our elders.

An example of the dehumanization to which this system is leading us is Brazil: while forty million hungry people populate the northeast, in Sao Paulo there are almost a million homeless children, who steal in the streets in order to eat something, forced to prostitute themselves in their childhood, killed by specialized commandos, kidnapped and killed in order to sell their organs to the laboratories of the world.

A Dominican priest, professor of theology at the University of San Pablo, told me that a study by the federal police revealed that in the last three years, four thousand six hundred children were murdered in the country.

Thousands of Latin American children are exported from their country of origin to Europe, the United States and Japan; and there are enough indications that prove the existence of sacrificed children, especially in Brazil, Honduras, Guatemala and Mexico.

It seems that the dignity of human life was not foreseen in the globalization plan. Anguish is the only thing that has reached levels never seen before. It is a world that lives in perversity, where a few count their achievements over the amputation of the life of the vast majority. Some poor devil has been made to believe that he belongs to the First World because he has access to the innumerable products of a supermarket. And while that poor wretch sleeps peacefully, locked up in his fortress of gadgets and trinkets, thousands of families must survive on a dollar a day. Millions are excluded from the great banquet of the economists.

Stay well.
Title: Post Mortem - Albert Caraco
Post by: raul on September 11, 2020, 08:15:00 am

Mother dreamed every night and throughout the night, as she implied, but did not tell me her dreams, her twilight life escaped me, maybe sometimes acted, women lie as they breathe, their dark side was unknown to me and is the rule of the game between mother and child. The dark side of women is more terrible than ours, in the West we pretend to ignore their darkness, the Middle Ages spoke - it is true-of Melusina, and Melusina is, in my opinion the most admirable female portrait, in that respect the West never got so far.

Man can live without the woman, the woman cannot, the woman hangs from man and man mistakenly imagines that he persecutes her, when it is she who calls him. The convents of men are worth infinitely more than the convents of women, men do not need love, the flesh does not torment them with the same force, man does not suffer from being a man, but for lack of money or power, woman suffers from being a woman and also from not being loved.  The beautiful appearances, the laughter, the games, the trifles and the graces, foam of the deep sea and beneath the foam a black world in which we no longer belong, but we belong to the species.

Man turned against the woman and if he had not resisted, the world would not have changed from the beginning.  Mother agreed on it and in general was more heir of Antigone than of Medea, one could reason with Mother, Mother harbored in her head a real man discreet, of good counsel and enlightened judgment, full of measure and righteousness. It is a pity that her illness would have ruined her most noble qualities, we killed her spirit to prevent her flesh from torturing her again and again, she suffered little and only in the hours preceding her death.

We are hypocrites, we deceive their fears and their hopes, it was the most horrible theater, our manners were imposed on us, and we did not dare to confront them, I regret that spiritual murder and I would have preferred euthanasia, I would have preferred not to deceive the sick lady and that she die voluntarily at the beginning of agony, that is my only remorse. Poor Mother, victim of charity, that did not save her from decay, we overwhelmed her with medicines that her head could not resist, she lived  alas! what a life, in  comparison a physical murder turns out to be a blessing.

And what should have been done? Would Mother have endured the enlightenment that we denied her?  She spoke of her old age and never of her death, she preferred to grow old to die with elegance, that's not the mood of a coquette lady, she liked living and when she was young, it seems that she had a lot of fun in Berlin from 1925 to 1929, she had had her share of joy and frivolity, that made her sober She judged me singularly tragic and, without condemning me, she did not fall into my pessimism, she confessed that every woman has resources that men don't even suspect. 


Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: Holden on September 11, 2020, 05:18:30 pm
Thanks for the response,Senor Raul.
I appreciate the list sent by you. There are a lot of mosquitoes here and they start biting me around 7 O'clock in the evening. I use a repellent to get rid of them but its not always effective.
 
I have been taking Omega-3 capsules to boost immunity. I am not very sure if it works  or not.
I could have done nothing about my birth.
But the very thought of marriage repels me.What kind of man would like to get married in a world such as ours?

The idea is to try to realise the fact that its not just "my life" that is problematic but all life.
Take care.
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: raul on September 12, 2020, 09:01:24 am
Holden,

It is good that you are taking care of your body. I hope you are not having problems with your medication. Here I went to buy some food in a small store and I forgot to wear my mask. So I expect to be fined at any time.

Here I have heard some interviews with some doctors in the alternative media. One of them, an Argentine doctor, Chinda Brandolino, said in an interview that the virus cannot be transmitted through the air as the health authorities have been saying. She says that the virus is in the vaccines for the flu. In Spain and Italy the vaccination campaigns started in November so in March most started suffering the symptons. Here the campaing was in May. She also says that the virus has not been isolated. 

That is the reason, she says, the mass media often reports of outbreaks because when a person gets the vaccine, three or four months later the he or she is starting to suffer the symptons. So there is a clear link between the virus and the vaccine. I found strange that the Ministry of Health spoke of outbreaks in September and October.  It is truly a diabolical plan. These measures such as the face masks and social distancing are just political measures to silence the people. I read in Rafapal, a blogger from Spain, that the World Bank purchased three years ago the tests kits. Also the PCR tests are not reliable because when the people test positive does not mean they are infected.

Apart from the China bug, the Paraguayan People´s Army or EPP, a guerrilla group, has kidnapped Oscar Denis (74), and his indigenous assistant in the northern part of the country. Seńor Denis, a member of the Authentic Liberal Radical Party, was from 2012 to 2013 the Paraguayan vicepresident. The group demands the release of some of his leaders in prison and the distribution of food to indigenous communities for 2 million dollars. If their demands are not satisfied the group will execute him. Last week the regular army stormed a guerrilla camp in that part of the country and the result was the killing of two young girls, one of them was 11 and the other 12 years old.  They are said to be one of the leaders´children. The current president, Mario Abdo, went to the site, to show off believing that the leaders were killed.

Stay safe.
Title: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: Holden on September 14, 2020, 05:33:31 pm
Thanks for the message,Senor Raul.I accidentally ran into the biopic of one of Lovecraft's correspondents R.Howard.  HPL held Howard in high esteem and I was pleasantly surprised to find a man/writer who refused to get bullied to becoming a store clerk.

He died about the time HPL himself died. He often said, the road I walk, I walk alone.Certain kind of men are ,more or less, destined to walk alone. Lovecraft wrote to him a great deal, I guess.

There area a lot of militias in this country too,all of them fighting for one cause or another. What about the man who no longer believes in any causes at all.I tell you, this world it far stranger than I expected it to be.

Sometime back I lost a great deal of weight. It was because of my rather restrictive diet or the TB within me I cannot say for sure.
What I can tell you is that I felt like puking out whatever I ate.I  was terribly afraid because the last time that happened I ended up in a hospital for a month.

Well, I went to a store and bought different kinds of food-chocolate, ice-cream, noodles etc. With some amount to difficulty I could gulp all of that junk down.It appears to me that my body likes junk food. So, I have been eating all of that for the last few weeks and have regained the weight I lost.

My body, the machine, seems to like eating ice cream and chocolates!

Well, take care.

Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: Gorticide :: Admin Elder Warrior on September 14, 2020, 08:15:46 pm
I also love ice cream, particularly chocolate.   If you mix the ice cream with some milk and a couple bananas, you get quite a treat if you have access to one of those old style (or new) blenders. 

I must feed the machine which is my body an enormous amount, making my own pizza crust from scratch, like crackers but slightly thicker.  I fill in the gaps with peanut butter sandwiches.   To break fast, I slice several potatoes, fry them in some vegetable oil, then crack at least a few eggs on them.   Sprinkling with pepper, it awakens the savage who will eat through the toothache pain from rotting teeth still in gums.   Life is ridiculous, after all.

One thing I miss most when institutionalized is access to a kitchen.  To prepare Lentils ... or the flat bread Holden clued us in on.  Even when the food is delicious, there is something just all too captivating about being fed like an animal in a zoo.  I can only  imagine how much a student might benefit from such a feeding schedule.

By the way, I've been able to keep up away from 119 pounds, where my weight had fallen (at 5 ft 7 in), up near 135 or so, what had been my usual weight for decades.

It takes so much energy just feeding ourselves.  I imagine that "professionals" and "essential personnel" must rely on take-out or fast food.  I don't know how the representatives of the Industrial World maintain the farce of professionalism. 

What happens when the groceries stop appearing on the shelves in the World Market Place?  I am what I eat.  I fear that the process of becoming nothing will not be painless.   My appetite is strong, and I suspect that my endurance for fasting has never been truly tested.  I go without eating only when ill or just wired on coffee and cigarettes.   Otherwise, my existence revolves around food gathering, food storage, food preparation, cleaning up after myself --- and, of course, as smooth and natural as possible release of wastes.  Without irrigation technology and plumbing, the process would be more humbling, but, with a private functioning toilet, it can allow for calm, guiltless release of the fecal matter.   :P

I must be a sicko, talking about such things.
Title: Los Cuates de Sinaloa - Breaking Bad
Post by: raul on September 15, 2020, 11:12:10 am
Holden,

Thank you for your response. I hope you are having your medications. I also hope your boss is giving you a little peace there.

I told you about the kidnapping of this politician and his indigenous driver by a guerilla cell in the northern part of the country, Concepción, because it is the main news. The news also appeared in the New York Times. Yesterday the indigenous boy was released by the guerrilla movement. We will see what happens with the former Vice President. His propects do not look good at all. His kidnapping also helps the politicians to distract people.

I say this because I bear this expression in mind from time to time: Think badly and you will be right.

It is not the first kidnapping here but his case is different. Also we have the case of a 7 year-old girl, Juliette Le Droumaguet, who has been missing for 6 months. She has cognitive problems and is the daughter of a Frenchman and a Paraguayan woman. Honestly, I suspect the worst in her case.  I also suspect of the reasons the health authorities are not performing autopsy to COVID-19 patients. There could be cases of trade in human organs.

We are all prisoners here in this human farm. As prisoners we suffer from the Stockholm Syndrome where we comply with the rules and norms of our kidnappers aka state, church, police, banking and big business and now the dictatorship of these medical quacks. After all commercial medicine, so I heard, is the third cause of death worldwide. Most doctors are just medication prescribers.

Although I have diabetes I eat chocolate sometimes and also junk food. It is bad also for my liver, but what the fffucck.

Stay safe.

P.S. I forgot to add to my list a TV series, Breaking Bad. I only saw some episodes. It is worth watching. These Mexican singers, Los Cuates de Sinaloa, sang in one of the episodes.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4DPGjjCBcAg
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: Holden on September 15, 2020, 05:28:40 pm
I can only  imagine how much a student might benefit from such a feeding schedule.-Herr Hauser

A lot of the mothers of the students who prepare for engineering entrance tests in India feed their kids while the kids continue to study the books.
These kids get two,maybe three attempts to pass the test.

The thing is though, that even if they do pass the test,most of them, spend the next four years studying different branches of engineering, which admittedly,includes  fair amount of maths.Then,they get a job, generally from their college itself,and by the time they are in their mid twenties,,maybe late twenties ,they are married.

Like Tolstoy says in Kreutzer Sonata,if a man does not have much experience of women ,then he tends to fall for the first one who comes along. Now, these guys are quite bright, but most of them, they never study a single thing on  philosophy(which they think is meant only for the low iq folks,) or any kind of genuine literature (which they think is meant for women only).

Anyone, to go back to the main point I am trying to make -by their late twenties, they are married,by early thirties most of them have kids and a job and most of them ,even if they possess the inclination, which I doubt many of them do, would not get the time to study that which matters a great deal.

Now, myself, I am like Benjamin Button, I devoted my youth to that which is not taught in of the Indian schools. Now, with no kids and no wife, I am free to explore mathematics to my heart's content and I have the rest of my life to do that, however long it might turn out to be.

It is that "stuff" which is looked down upon,by the school teachers here, & I have spent a great deal of time learning,that they will never get to study.

I quite accept of the fact that even after,if and when that happens, I would have developed a deep understanding of mathematics, I'd never have the kinds of jobs which these engineers have, because I am already too old as regards the eligibility criteria of the firms and that's okay.

But I might I have real shot at dying as a man who was not altogether a patsy of the society and of the nature.Now,that, they will never have, not in a million years,not if they are going to feed their wife and kids ,which is the obligation which they have embraced themselves.

Before dying, I might yet show these patsies what real devotion to the life of study and contemplation is all about ,though my mother never fed me when I was studying.

https://youtu.be/xu8u9ZbCJgQ

Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: Holden on September 16, 2020, 06:11:42 am
my mother, poor fish,
wanting to be happy, beaten two or three times a
week, telling me to be happy: "Henry, smile!
why don't you ever smile?"

and then she would smile, to show me how, and it was the
saddest smile I ever saw
Charles Bukowski
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: Holden on September 16, 2020, 06:19:30 am
You can’t just go to work and do the tasks you’re paid to do - they want more. They want your flexibility, your cheerfulness, your team spirit, your ability to pretend that alienation is not an issue for you.
-Lucinda
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: Gorticide :: Admin Elder Warrior on September 16, 2020, 08:25:42 am
That Mexican song by Los Cuates de Sinaloa has some very dark humor in it. 

The Real World puffs itself up into significance.  It seems to make a mockery of any pretense to taking the Establishment seriously, blurring the lines of authority, order, dominance ... It begs the question, "What is ignorance?"

The musicians expose the world for what it is, and it appears to be a terrifying circus; and yet they seem to be taking it all in stride, as is their style, to be cool about it all, just shrugging their shoulders. 

There is a thin line between "sucker" and "gort," and this is where the very idea of ignorance is problematized, so to speak.   One may be seen as a sucker who remains ignorant of the underbelly of Industrialized Civilization, the violent and corrupt weapons trade fueled by drugs and drug money.  On the other hand, if that is all one respects, then one is missing out on the power of the inner life - the so-called intellectual, the cerebral, the spiritual.   I respect your intellectual powers, Senor Raul, and I also respect your well-rounded kind of intelligence.   You are no sucker, and certainly no gort.   You sympathize with how a sensitive soul might wish to hide in a Great Fortress of Solitude, so as not to have its most precious inner life trampled under foot by obedient thugs and machismo "bosses" ...
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: Gorticide :: Admin Elder Warrior on September 16, 2020, 10:41:42 am
I can only  imagine how much a student might benefit from such a feeding schedule.-Herr Hauser

What I meant was that, if the authorities put as much food/resources into actually educating the population, as opposed to simply isolating and medicating, there might be monastic hermitages where students might flourish.  More funds go into prisons than universities, and prisons, at least on the county jail level of Small Town, USA, are actually more reminiscent of mental hospitals minus the good chow.

What are our county jails but holding tanks for the poor, hungry, mostly angry and traumatized bodies making up the human family?
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: Holden on September 16, 2020, 12:29:48 pm
“All fled—all done, so lift me on the pyre—

The Feast is over, and the lamps expire.”

― Robert E. Howard
Title: The Thin Red Line - This Great Evil
Post by: raul on September 16, 2020, 03:24:33 pm
Mr. Gardener,

Thank you for your response. Yes, Los Cuates de Sinaloa have a dark humor. Cuates in Mexican Spanish means buddies or mates. Los Cuates can have a lot of fun writing songs if they ever come here.

I think that my intellectual powers are not that big. I think I have realized the madness of this world. We, prisoners are tied to decaying bodies, suffering the pain through diseases, old age and finally death.

I have in high regard what you, Holden, Ibra, Silenus have written in this board. My ignorance is vast and when my time comes I will go without knowing or understanding many issues. This world is no picnic, no paradise at all.

I read your post where you mention the Bill and Melinda Gates Foundation and the lethal results of their vaccination campaign in India. Here a Uruguayan journalist living here, Fernando Ferreira, found out that one of the Ministry of Health´s officials called Guillermo Sequera is linked to a Spanish group that is in turn linked to Bill Gates. Seńor Sequera is in charge of monitoring the pandemic.

The Minister of Health, Julio Mazzoleni, stated that children will start school only when they are all vaccinated. From what I read Gates´vaccines pose a serious risk to people´s health. One ingredient, so to speak, of the vaccine is aluminum. Apart from that the Ministry of Education acquired a software called Classroom from Microsoft for virtual classes around the country. The Minister says it was a donation. The virtual classes were a failure but I knew that was going to be the case. Vaccines and Classroom are linked.

Stay safe and if possible take a siesta.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Cb8rHfuN8rk
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: Gorticide :: Admin Elder Warrior on September 16, 2020, 05:19:10 pm
I would not have made a good soldier.  I've also come to embrace my abnormality on this Open Air Zoo Plantation as a badge of honor, a sign of ethical maturity, as opposed to a "chemical imbalance" or "mood disorder."  The fact that my "emotions" are intense and my thoughts "deep" does not justify my being slandered as a "nutcase" by anyone with a mouth to flap lips with.

Those who can be molded into soldiers are lionized, while those resistant to being trained and desensitized with such vulgar brutality will most always be demonized as the "sensitive loner." (the loser)
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: Holden on September 16, 2020, 05:25:39 pm
Senor Raul, thank you for the message.This game is rigged. We lost the day we were born.Most people have kids as a matter of course. They just do it and do not think about it at all. The poor, the slum-dweller does it too.I hide in my room as much as I can.Sometimes I touch the scar on by back from where the doctors had taken out pleural effusion from my lungs. Its like a battle scar ,you see. A battle with life, with the people around me,a battle that I always lose.

When I go out,that is, when I am required to go out,I not only wear a mask but also a face shield. There are patients all around my building, in fact, one was found just a few days back a couple of floors below mine.

I hope that your eyes are okay. Eyes are very precious.I don't know what this existence is all about. All I can say for sure is that its not pleasurable at all.

This friend of Lovecraft's, Mr.Howard, he shot himself the very day his mother passed.How can one hide on Earth, there is no place where one could hide. I reckon most people wish to get married because they are programmed to reproduce. But inside of my head, I guess they forgot to install the appropriate drivers.All I seek, all the time is solitude.

To think, to write ,to read. I do not think Schopenhauer was lonely in Frankfurt at all. Now, Cioran was in a live-in relationship, but Schopenhauer lived mostly alone and I think he liked it a lot. To think, to weep, to write and to brood alone..seeking anything beyond that is asking for trouble.

I cannot forget the horrors I have experienced, but neither can I recall them all vividly all the time. I think if I ever managed to do that then I would actually go out of my mind.

Take care, my Paraguayan friend.
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: Holden on September 17, 2020, 03:06:46 am
If the authorities put as much food/resources into actually educating the population, as opposed to simply isolating and medicating, there might be monastic hermitages where students might flourish. -Herr Hauser

We all can study gravity, we can learn what Newton found about, we can also try to make sure that we do not defy it in a way that might hurt us.However, to re-engineer how gravity functions in the state of nature is well beyond the human capability.

 

Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: raul on September 17, 2020, 06:59:48 am
Holden,

Thank you for your response. You are a veteran of many battles with life. I only see with my left eye and with glasses. I will not see a doctor at the moment because ophtalmologists only have phone consultations.

As for the China bug, what I am seeing here reminds of me of Dr. Goebbel´s words: If you tell a lie big enough and keep repeating it, people will eventually come to believe it. The mass media is bombarding us with the same message: stay at home, keep social distancing and wear masks. It is a matter of life and death, they say. Last month a doctor, member of the Minister of Health´s cabinet, was found happily partying with his girlfriend, a top model, and his buddies with no face masks and no social distancing. He was forced to resign.Some people wear face shields and masks. A face shield costs around 3 US dollars.

Yes, as you say, the game is rigged and we lost the day we were born. This world is a cosmic theater, a satanic circus, where we are treated as laboratory rats.

Indeed most people do not think about the children they are bringing to this world. That´s part of our programming. I remember my mother complaining that I was born with dark skin. Really funny. Again I found a quote by Dr.Goebbels: You can´t change the masses. They will always be the same: dumb, gluttonus and forgetful. Another of his quotes was: The mission of women is to be beautiful and to bring children into the world. Here I suppose he must have meant only German women and blond, blue-eyed children.

I mentioned this Polish journalist, Ryszard Kapuściński in some posts.

He wrote the following:

Herodotus offers no commentary, adding only, with a reporter’s sense of duty, several pieces of information about Massagetan customs, which were, after all, unfamiliar to the Greeks: If a Massagetan desires a woman, he hangs his quiver outside her wagon and has sex with her, with no fear of reprisal. The only imposed limit on life there is as follows. When a person becomes very old, all his relatives come together and sacrificially kill him and some livestock along with him; then they stew the meat and eat it. They believe that there is no more fortunate way to die, whereas anyone who dies after an illness is buried in the ground rather than eaten, and they regard it as a calamity that he did not get to be sacrificed.”

Hentrich downloaded many books from libgen so once I checked the library and I found this book by Gary Lachman. You, Hentrich and other readers of this blog may find it interesting.

Take care.

http://gen.lib.rus.ec/book/index.php?md5=31A34902FAAD635333F972F4872CAC87
Title: Post Mortem by Albert Caraco
Post by: raul on September 17, 2020, 07:20:08 am

I apologize for these details, but they seem to be important:  Mother was AB and I am A, in my paternal family it is thought that the group O dominated.  Poor Mother was destined to the diseases that called humorous, and doomed to die from malignant tumors, she believed herself healthy and I was proud of her temperament, I was not healthy and I am not healthy, since she carried me for nine months, that predisposes me to the same accidents, she had overcome her natural chaos, its admirable character was a defense, I have not overcome mine, so I must surely perish.

She said that she had the appeal of youth and that, if you look closely at her, the admiration she aroused at first was questioned. In my opinion, her charm came from other sources, which I would be unable to trace. She was a sovereign woman, and after a syncope she would immediately ask for her powders and makeup, terrified of not being liked.  She maintained her discipline of coquetry until the threshold of death, for she knew the world and was under no illusions as to its disposition towards women, who were condemned once they stop seducing.
 
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: Gorticide :: Admin Elder Warrior on September 17, 2020, 09:50:05 am
Thanks Raul.   I was able to convert to mobi format (https://cloudconvert.com/epub-to-mobi), so I can store it on a Kindle.   I will take a look at it, thanks to you and Library Genesis.

I was immediately reminded of A. Alverez's The Savage God.

It does seem inevitable for some of us, perhaps many of us.
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: Holden on September 17, 2020, 06:00:56 pm
Just coming back from the hospital.My next door neighbour who is also my boss' wife rang my door bell at 10 in the night. I found her weeping.She tells me her hubby is unconscious.

Called an ambulance.Most of them are busy with virus patients.Found one with great difficulty.Helped the responders to carry him to the vehicle.

Doctors declared the boss was brought dead.Pancreatic cancer.

The widow through the tears says you had promise me that you will never leave me and now you are gone..

His stomach had ballooned.He did not torment me as much as some of the other bosses.He was 51 years old.

He left behind a son,a high school student.He was planning to buy a car.
Dead.
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: Gorticide :: Admin Elder Warrior on September 17, 2020, 06:14:56 pm
Holden, you live as Dostoevsky wrote.
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: Holden on September 18, 2020, 12:47:07 pm
No hair left on his head due to Chemo Therapy. Pancreatic cancer is almost the most aggressive kind of cancer there is.
In the elevator while I was holding the gurney, I looked at him and he looked to me like a giant bug. A dead bug. A live bug looking at a dead one.

He knew hardly any math and could barely string three words together while drafting  a document-but what does it matter?
I am going to be a dead bug too in one of the elevators, one of these days.When I came home around three in the night, I was mighty scared. I could not sleep till half past six. I was sure that he would haunt me in my dreams. I even managed to drop my glass medicine bottle and it broke.

But as far as I can remember once I fell asleep,it was rather pleasant. Am I also destined to die as an innumerate? Its okay ,I am just a bug. He wanted his son to be a lawyer.

The wife told me he wanted to eat icecream just before he lost consciousness.What is going on here? My granny asks for a sugary mango drink, he asks for ice-cream. Insatiable Will-to-life? Would I be able to reject even a glass of water, when my time comes.. See, one has to die anyway, so why not reject the Will to Life,why not reject even a drop of water? The ice-cream did not save my colleague ,neither did the the juice save my granny.

I take Schopenhauer very seriously. I got about a thousand phone calls today.Everyone wants to listen to my sob story.  I just want one thing, Herr Hauser and Senor Raul, I just do not want to be alive in any form, not as a man, not as a bug, not even as a virus. I want out. My mum says the lesson to be learnt out of this story is that one must not stay unmarried. Last night was terrifying for me, but I know that I would never turn a woman into a window. I would die as I have lived -alone. Something funny-while I was laying on the sofa dying of fright last night ,I started to browse the internet and read a few articles about Putin, well, his antics did distract me ;D , that old Russian can always be counted upon to distract one from angst  ;D

https://youtu.be/1Gbu5eEmkQA
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: raul on September 19, 2020, 06:51:42 am
Holden,

Thank you for your words. I think you are a Samaritan. You helped your boss´s wife. Would I do the same for some neighbors who despise me? I am not so sure. The only time I helped someone was five months ago when an elderly man fell on the street and nobody was there to help him get up.

Now your boss is in peace, so to speak. I suppose the same could happen to me and probably nobody would help me get to a hospital and if I get to a hospital no doctors would assist me. I will end up dead. End of the story.

Take care.
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: Gorticide :: Admin Elder Warrior on September 19, 2020, 07:44:09 pm
Quote from: I
I also love ice cream, particularly chocolate.

A rich coffee ice cream is a close second to chocolate; and, if ever there is banana ice cream, that would trump even chocolate.
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: Holden on September 20, 2020, 03:35:38 am
A rich coffee ice cream is a close second to chocolate; and, if ever there is banana ice cream, that would trump even chocolate.
-Herr Hauser

If I ever managed to get the opportunity to meet you in person, I'd bring along a few tubs of banana ice cream for you.
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: Holden on September 20, 2020, 11:16:25 am
https://youtu.be/N3oCS85HvpY
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: Gorticide :: Admin Elder Warrior on September 20, 2020, 11:36:44 pm
In the book suggested by Senor Raul, The Dedalus book of literary suicides : dead letters, I came across a passage similar to notes taken in 2013 placed in DEAD END: Crazy Talk (https://xhentric.wordpress.com/the-book/18-crazy-talk/):

For Karl Kraus, psychoanalysis is the disease of the mind, for which it believes itself to be the cure. (Franzen 2013)

Something worth noting from Franzen’s The Kraus Project:

    Freud’s psychic architecture of id, ego, and superego is more mysterious and suggestive in German: the It, the I, and the Over-I. I’m not just the good old familiar me, I’m also an IT, a "thing" in the world.

    If you look too closely at the self, it disappears.


The above is from Franzen notes, when I had been reading Kraus's Anti-Freud/Anti-Psychoanalysis rants.  While reading the book Raul suggested, I discovered yet another connection:  Karl Kraus.

 It is all interconnected.  As the comedy unfolds throughout the generations, water eventually separates from the oil.

Also see references to Karl Kraus: 

(1) Essential Schopenhauer (http://whybother.freeboards.org/what-now/essential-schopenhauer/msg8016/#msg8016)

(2) Letters of Interest (http://whybother.freeboards.org/what-now/letters-of-interest/msg8013/#msg8013)
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: Holden on September 22, 2020, 01:58:25 am
“I don’t understand why we must do things in this world, why we must have friends and aspirations, hopes and dreams. Wouldn’t it be better to retreat to a faraway corner of the world, where all its noise and complications would be heard no more? Then we could renounce culture and ambitions; we would lose everything and gain nothing; for what is there to be gained from this world?”
― Emil Cioran, On the Heights of Despair
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: Gorticide :: Admin Elder Warrior on September 22, 2020, 07:38:14 am
From The Dedalus Book of Literary Suicides:

He [The Steppenwolf, i.e., Harry Hallar == Hermann Hesse] recognized the truth discovered in the Magic Theatre, that "the conquest of time and the escape from reality, or however else it may be that you choose to describe your longing, means simply the wish to be relieved of your so-called personality.  That is the prison where you lie."

"I would sample its tortures once more and shudder again at its senselessness.  I would traverse not once more, but often, the hell of my inner being."

And one day he would be "a better hand at the game."
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: Holden on September 22, 2020, 04:56:59 pm
Sometimes,heck,quite often,I find it difficult to understand some concepts in mathematics.Then, I try to understand why is it that I do not understand.The World or nature ,however, one may describe all that there is, it follows a certain pattern and I don't think anyone can alter it.Maybe the best thing I can do is to just observe it.

I hate talking to people. I think the best thing that can happen to me after I am dead is that I am completely forgotten, like I was never born in the first place.The world exists the way it does,necessarily-there is only one game in town. I  think it was the same when when Van Gogh painted or when Schopenhauer wrote.

I like Mr. Gary's videos when he talking about suffering and anti-natalism per se . Not when he trying to suggest how anti-natalism could be implemented. Or how the economy should function.
In the other message, you say that we would all pass away swiftly,well, I do hope so. However, sometimes, even a single second feels like an eternity to me.

Like Schopenhauer, I have reached the conclusion that suicide is pointless, except when the will itself has been denied.
Doing the laundry is so tiring.Maybe I would only wear Denim going forward.They say one never needs to wash it.Ever.
A shroud cum attire made of denim.

Take care.


Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: Holden on September 23, 2020, 04:09:52 pm
Senor Raul, my house is always in want of proper cleaning. I just do not have enough time and energy to clean it up. My father is having a terrible row with his boss in the office and is thinking of applying for voluntary retirement. I see him and I find that there is no light at the end of the tunnel.
I throw out the rubbish and the next day there is more. Mr.Gary is right when he says that the only true job on this planet is that of the garbage collector.
I hope your eyes are serving you well.Would you be so kind as to suggest something from the Paraguayan cuisine which is easy to cook, cheap as well as low in fat and sugar,because I dislike most of the food that I find over here.

To tell you the truth,I am confused most of the time and fail to make sense of the things which happen to me. I am afraid of most the people around me. I seem to be incapable to dealing with them at all.

What did Van Gogh say to his brother/to himself as he breathed his last? Sadness will last forever. It certainly seems to be true. At least in my case.My definition of heaven is to be left alone for all of eternity.

Life is a curse in the best of the circumstances. But to be born as a person who finds it terribly difficult to make sense of things is doubly a curse.

Take care and hope your eyes stay okay.
Title: For Senor Raul (Everyone Welcome to Comment and Respond)
Post by: Holden on September 24, 2020, 01:17:56 pm
https://youtu.be/w16bYZ-4nmE
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: Holden on September 24, 2020, 02:16:05 pm
https://youtu.be/1YhR5UfaAzM
Title: The Tragic Life of Ota Benga
Post by: raul on September 25, 2020, 06:01:37 am
Holden,

I agree with Mr. Gary when he says that the only true job is that of a garbage collector. Here I see them at night taking out the garbage. They are poorly paid and running health risks.

I hope your father is granted the voluntary retirement. 

My left eye is still serving me but if I am still alive in 5 years I will be already blind. Who knows if I will be here?

I once read about Karl Marx´s son-in-law, Paul Lafargue. Marx called him “Gorilla,” or “Negrillo,” because he was born in Cuba. Yes, the father of communism hated blacks. Lafargue and Laura committed a joint suicide the night of November 25–26, 1911. Lafargue administered an injection of potassium cyanide into Laura that night and in turn injected himself in the morning. Before he wrote the following:

“Healthy in mind and spirit, I kill myself before pitiless old age. For many years, I promised myself not to live past seventy years; I picked that year for my departure from this life and I prepared the mode of execution for my resolution: an injection of potassium cyanide.”

I have nothing to suggest about cheap food low in fat and sugar. Here most people eat of lot of meat, chicken, pork and fish. A relative suggested that I eat brown rice or /whole wheat pasta with tuna and lemon.

I am also afraid of most people. Yes, sadness will last forever or misery will never end.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xRtRCDUcvLk

Life is a punishment.

Stay well.
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: Gorticide :: Admin Elder Warrior on September 25, 2020, 10:09:53 am
Haunting video, Senor Raul.  Thank you.  This is a nightmare world.

A real life, not a Hollywood story, but an actual living cultural entity in the flesh ... so very far away from Home, through no fault of his own.  Lost and abandoned to Fate, he may have been empowered by his choice to exit.   That such people have existed and, to a strong degree, still exist today, people trapped by economic circumstances in "cages" where they are paraded around or used-as-a-tool by someone else (as their PROPERTY), that we live in such a world, can any pill "cure" that? 

That some men own football or soccer teams or armies of soldiers and weapons of mass destruction is alarming, but people are conditioned to accept this as reasonable.

 https://youtu.be/1hCkKyOdgMw
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: gorticide on September 25, 2020, 04:07:51 pm
the drum beats and scream in opening music for video about the tragic life of Ota Benga is hypnotic

Thank you Senor Raul
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: Holden on September 25, 2020, 04:47:18 pm
Senor Raul

Thank you for the message

In the evening today I was alone in the office & the widow of the colleague who recently died was leaving for her hometown
THE SUN HAD SET BUT IT WAS RATHER BRIGHT OUTSIDE AND I WAS FEELING TERRIBLY SAD
FROM TIME TO TIME THE MAN WHO DIED WAS KIND TO ME AND HIS WIFE WAS ALWAYS OFFERING ME FOOD TO EAT
PROBABLY IN THE HOPE THAT I WOULD HELP HER SICK HUSBAND WITH THE OFFICE WORK
THAT I DID DO AS MUCH AS I COULD
I TOOK CARE OF ALL OF THE PAPER WORK BUT SOMETIMES HE ASKED ME TO TALK TO SOME PEOPLE IN THE HEAD OFFICE AND IF I KNEW THOSE PEOPLE WERE SADISTS I REFUSED TO TALK TO THEM AND THAT MADE HIM VERY ANGRY

I KEEP WRESTLING WITH MATH PROBLEMS AND THEY SOMETIMES EVEN MANAGE TO KNOCK THEM OUT
ABOUT YOUR EYE IS THERE ANY NATIONAL HEALTH SERVICE IN PARAGUAY WHICH HAS GOVERNMENT FUNDED HOSPITALS UNDER IT AND YOU HELP YOU OUT BY PROVIDING PROPER TREATMENT TO YOUR EYES>

I MUST CONFESS I DO NOT UNDERSTAND MOST OF WHAT IS HAPPENING AROUND ME
ALL I CAN SAY IS THAT ITS ALL QUITE WEIRD
MR GARY HAS STARTED TO APPEAR AGED
HE HAS VISIBLY AGED OVER THE LAST FEW YEAR
I REMEMBER QUITE CLEARY THAT IN JUST ABOUT SIX YEARS BACK HE LOOK QUITE YOUNG
WELL MAYBE I AM LOOKING OLDER TOO

TAKE CARE OF YOUR EYES

(MY KEYBOARD IS MALFUNCTIONING)
Title: A video for Herr Hauser
Post by: Holden on September 26, 2020, 03:44:26 am
https://youtu.be/p8pX5qmI27U
Title: Hitler's First Springsteen Show
Post by: Gorticide :: Admin Elder Warrior on September 26, 2020, 01:51:59 pm
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xGJpu5AiYoE&t=141s
Title: Kevin Carter - Sudan famine
Post by: raul on September 26, 2020, 04:18:16 pm
Hentrich,

Thank you for your response.  Yes, we are living in a nightmare world.  And there is no pill cure once you are brought here. Millions and milions live also in cages but only the size and the circumnstances are different. I see some phone company call centers here where most of the workers are very young people. Until last year in the supermarkets the owners used to display the pictures of “Employee of the Month”.  Different cage, different zoo.

You mention soccer teams. You see, here, the soccer matches started two months ago and in the region this is the only country whose championship has started during this endless quarantine. Why is that? Because some of the soccer club presidents are very powerful politicians and businessmen. They boast about their power and wealth while most small shops already closed and they will never open again leaving thousands unemployed.

Many years ago I saw a movie The Death of Kevin Carter based on a true story. Kevin Carter, a South African, was a photojournalist who became very famous for taking a picture of the famine in Sudan. Years later he committed suicide but before he wrote a letter:

I´m really, really sorry. The pain of life overrides the joy to the point that joy does not exist. … depressed  … without phone, … money for rent … money!!! …  I am haunted by the vivid memories of killings and corpses and anger and pain … of starving and wounded children, of trigger-happy madmen, often police, of killer executioners … I have gone to join Ken if I am that lucky.


Drive safely.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VTsYLRDgYDM

Title: Dead Kennedys- Holiday in Cambodia
Post by: raul on September 26, 2020, 04:21:58 pm
Holden,

Thank you for your message. I will have a treatment to my eyes probably at the end of the year because medical consultations are limited. Doctors say, if we believe them, that all the hospitals are crowded with COVID-19 patients. The China virus is the only issue here. You have cancer, diabetes,AIDS, kidney or liver problems, you had better start praying if you are Christian or if you have no money to go to a private hospital.
You are a young man but aged in spirit. You have endured much in this life. Wrestling with math problems, as you say, is helping you deal with this fatality called life. It will also help you stay away from the sadists in the office, in the neighborhood or wherever you find them.  As Arthur said this world is a penal colony and we all are fellow sufferers.

Take care.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7sF8rkSPDH8&pbjreload=101
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: Gorticide :: Admin Elder Warrior on September 26, 2020, 11:17:00 pm
Another excerpt from The Dedalus Book of Literary Suicides:

As Malcom Cowley writes (about Harry Cosby), "he set himself the goal of going crazy in order to become a genius."
Title: Stael’s Germans were a nation of "Poets and Thinkers"
Post by: Gorticide :: Admin Elder Warrior on September 27, 2020, 10:45:33 pm
Thanks for the Dead Kennedy's song, Raul.

As for the video Holden posted with the young woman joking about how the German language is sometimes perceived as "ugly," some notes from Dead End, Chapter 6 (Complete and Ruthless Honesty (https://xhentric.wordpress.com/the-book/six/)) give a clue as the why this may be so:

2005.04.19

The dark image of a sinister, aggressive, predatory, and militarized Germany only became prevalent in this present century. Before this, it was plausible to present the German as an impractical, dreamy, sentimental being, looking out with mild blue eyes into a cloud of music and metaphysics and tobacco smoke.

Stael portrayed (for the Napoleonic French of the early 19th century) a Germany utterly unlike the grotesque image later drawn by the Allied propagandists of the two World Wars. Stael’s Germans were a nation of “Poets and Thinkers,” a people of kindly, impractical, other-worldly dreamers without national prejudices, and, strangley, in the light of later propaganda, “disinclined to war,” kind of like Kurt Vonnegut Jr., Robert M. Pirsig, or even myself, for that matter (each "German-American").
Title: To Senor Raul,The Paraguayan Philosopher
Post by: Holden on September 28, 2020, 01:46:55 pm
Senor Raul,

Thank you for your message. I only wish you get the best possible treatment for your eyes at the earliest. Here they do not play as much soccer as they play Cricket.
I,of course, have little interest in any kind of sports or sports starts. The movie stars and the sports ones here tend to get paired up and the labourer who can hardly afford to spare a penny, spends a lot of money on watching romantic comedies and cricket matches.

I do really hope and wish and pray that your eyes get better. I would like to continue to read what you have to say for as long as I am able.

As you suggested, I tried a little pasta today and it was rather good.

Seeing as you interested in Mafia themed movie, might I suggest-

https://youtu.be/nJzLS-mg0vo

Take care my dear friend and please do keep writing-its of the highest quality.
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: raul on September 29, 2020, 07:10:35 am
Holden,

Thank you for your response and the link. I will write in the board as long as I can. I only scribble. The real thing comes from you, Hentrich, Silenus, Ibra and others in the blog.
Yes, I like these Mafia movies, specially those based on real stories. But I would like to see some classic movies, specially Fritz Lang´s M A City Searches for a Murderer. The German filmmaker drew from the lives of some serial murderers for his film. One of them was Carl Grossmann who said in 1921 to a drinking buddy:

“I don’t work, just kill people and take their money. I am a butcher by profession, but I don’t slaughter cattle, I only slaughter women. I cut them into pieces and burn the pieces. I prick the horses’ eyes, I cut out the dogs’ eyes with a knife, and I kill little children with a stone.” Grossmann hanged himself in prison. The German police estimated that he killed at least between 20 and 50 people. Many of his victims became sausages he gave to hungry travelers in a train station in Silesia.

By the way I read that in India a man, Devender Sharma, admitted he murdered more than 50 taxi drivers and he dumped those bodies in a crocodile-infested canal. After dumping the bodies Sharma sold the taxis. He spent 16 years in jail in Jaipur, Rajasthan. In January of this year he was given a parole. But he did not return to prison. He was arrested in Delhi where he was living with a widow.

I don´t follow soccer but everywhere people talk about the so-called king soccer. The championship continues with no public in the stadiums because of the China virus.  Most of these soccer players even in pandemics make a lot of money here. Kicking a ball has its advantages. Today I heard that the president of the Paraguayan club Olimpia,Marcos Trovato, got a lifetime ban for match manipulation by FIFA.

This China bug is very clever. The authorities only allow social gatherings up to 10 people. So if you happen to have 11 people, that´s where the virus attacks or if the virus does not come the police pays you a visit. On the buses only 10 people must be standing and all the passengers must be seated. But from time to time I get on a bus and sometimes the bus is overcrowded. Does the the virus hit you when the bus is overcrowded? Who knows if the virus hits people in supermarkets? On Saturday and Sunday evenings you are not allowed to buy beer, wine or any kind of alcoholic beverages because the virus is lurking somewhere. Crreepy virus.

Besides you cannot shake hands because the virus can get you. Burial is not allowed because the dead body can infect people. According to an Italian doctor, Pasquale Bacco, this is not true because the virus can survive only when the cells are alive. One day we will be forbidden to farrt because the virus might come out of our hole. I read that in Germany two children died because of the face masks they wore and in the USA after the elections in November the pandemics will be over.

Stay safe and keep working on the maths.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qO6HPt-B_B4
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: Holden on October 02, 2020, 02:26:05 pm
Senor Raul,
 

Thanks for your message.Much appreciated. I see no future for myself. People who are around me wish to eat and reproduce.That is all they want to do.
I don't. I wish to understand this predicament I find myself in. But my search for knowledge, my humble efforts to try to get closer to the truth have no market value. Or maybe negative market value.You might find it hard to believe but in a country of close to a billion and a half people I have not even a single friend. But many,many enemies.

In the newspapers I sometimes read that "Mr. X passed away in his sleep". I do no know if its possible.Maybe.
An honest man cannot marry-you do see that,don't you? A man who has taken the Goddess of Truth as his bride must stay alone.

The machine that I am is feeling down tonight.I often wonder what,if any,purpose I am serving here on Earth. Unlike some of my cousins I am neither a doctor nor an engineer,
I am just a pessimistic thinker.That is the very last thing people like to come across.

You know, you might get away with being an atheist, but never with being an pessimist.

They would not let me be. They are cruel and heartless.

Take care.


Title: To Senor Raul(Hope You are Okay)
Post by: Holden on November 21, 2020, 02:29:40 pm
Senor Raul,

I hope you are okay.

"Where did I go wrong"?"What happened"?-Kaczynski's mother.

Whenever one part of my mind decides to think about any kind of long term project,another part thinks of a fatal meteor flying the planet.

They people who believe that can govern this place are deluded. It all out of control. It has always been.
This think there must be some substantial difference in the way the brains of the people on this message board are wired and the way the brain of a typical gort seems to function.

I have tried to spend my entire life in hiding and yet one cannot hide from the demons hidden inside one's own body.

Take care of your eyes.
Title: India Dung Festival - Diwali
Post by: raul on November 21, 2020, 03:34:29 pm
Holden,

I hope you are all right over there. This week I read that there is a custom in a village in Gumatapura in the state of Karnakata where people throw dung at each other as part of a religious celebration. The ceremony is called Gorehabba and marks the end of the festivity of the Diwali. It is believed, I read, that the goddess Beereshwara Swamy is present in the dung of the cows considered sacred in India. Where are the social distancing, the masks and the hand sanitizer? Hahahaha

In this country there is also more or less that kind of celebration but in the Paraguayan Congress where the politicians
do all kinds of sShit against people.

In October of 2018 Bruno Cangry Marabel, a Paraguayan young man, killed his female partner, her two children and her parents in downtown Asuncion. Last week he was sentenced to 40 years in prison. The thing is that he has his own fan club on Facebook and he impregnated a girl who went to visit him and now is a proud father.

On Tuesday almost 100,000 victims make sexual abuse compensation claims against the once respected Boy Scouts of America. Year after year this terrible situation has been concealed. These two cases are another example of the wretchedness of the human species.

Did evil exist on its own before the birth of the homo sapiens sapiens? Did we human beings give birth to evil? Is evil an integral part of us, separate from us, or maybe both?

Most can agree that the actions of dictators, generals, kings, queens, emperors, merchants of death such as Basil Zaharoff or the so-called Illuminati families or philanthropists like Bill Gates and his minions are extreme sins ending in the deaths of millions and the suffering of millions more. But, to them, are they not fulfilling some kind of destiny or plan they think is the correct or righteous one? Do they not believe they are doing good in the world and that they are inspired by the gods or chosen as many say?

Some say that what is one man’s evil can be another man’s good, even if the evil men’s actions are the result of psychopathic tendencies. These psychos probably believe they are doing what they are doing for a reason in their fractured and tortured minds.

Stay safe.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7pqjMNoz380
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: Holden on November 25, 2020, 12:13:54 pm
Senor Raul,

Thank you for the message.I hope you are keeping well.
I have never been a part of the Dung Festival celebrations. However,I think I am covered in existential dung from top to toe on all the days of the year.

Even if,by some sort of calculus it could be proven,without a shadow of a doubt,that Antinatalism,in its broader sense,would never come to fruition,I would still find it necessary to malign this creation as much as possible.

Take care.
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: Holden on November 26, 2020, 12:19:07 pm
https://youtu.be/eFLxfe3_dZ4
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: Holden on November 26, 2020, 12:55:14 pm
https://youtu.be/5zHVFXorF38
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: Holden on November 26, 2020, 12:57:56 pm
“Has it ever struck you that life is all memory, except for the one present moment that goes by you so quick you hardly catch it going?”― Tennessee Williams

Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: Holden on November 26, 2020, 01:05:37 pm
https://youtu.be/ZNXx3AFUWIM

To read myself to sleep..to forget the every present anguish in the last moment at least.
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: Holden on November 26, 2020, 01:17:58 pm
https://youtu.be/mXp99jJtyII

In the scene when he says I am exactly where I am supposed to be,it reminds me of Nietzsche's Amor Fati,very stoical. I mean, I know that there is no free will, not at the level of the individual,so Amor Fati, for me, boils down to accepting the entire chain of cause and effect-it could not have been any different. Not accepting the present plight  means rejecting the principle of sufficient reason,which is foolish.
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: Holden on November 27, 2020, 07:06:33 am
If we have truth, [it] cannot be harmed by investigation. If we have not truth, it ought to be harmed." J. Reuben Clark,
Title: Nepal´s black market organ trade
Post by: raul on November 27, 2020, 12:53:59 pm
Holden,

Thank you for your words and the links. I saw the English Patient in 1997 and Blood Diamond years ago.

Did you ask many questions at school when you were a child? If you did, probably you were considered a nuisance in class.  The system wants us to stop asking questions and play our role in the game, like the good girls and boys we are.

Had you been in times of the Bolsheviks you could have been deemed a counterrevolutionary. And counterrevolutionaries had to be exposed and rooted out.

This world is not a paradise. At this moment we are seeing it every day with the plandemic. This Earth is a sea of blood and tears. Of course these things do not happen at random. Human suffering is also created on purpose by unseen puppeteers. A total war has been declared on all of us. This is a world of victims and executioners. Wolves eat dogs.

I wonder if the aliens come to regard us as a virus, they know if pathogens are not eliminated they can go viral. I suppose if they think like good surgeons they might have already considered extreme measures.

Keep your eyes peeled.


https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=r2x985d3ODY
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: Holden on November 27, 2020, 01:20:53 pm
Senor Raul,

Quote
Did you ask many questions at school when you were a child? If you did, probably you were considered a nuisance in class.

I knew instinctively that I was never going to get any honest answers.I remember a history teacher in the middle school,there was a history teacher who was rather nice.Within months of having been appointed as a teacher he got married.That was his downfall. His wife,so I heard, bit the child of the neighbors with whom she had a dispute of some kind.

History teacher and yet he never learnt the seamy side of history that you know like the back of your hand.He paid dearly for his ignorance, I can tell you that.

I am battling the zeitgeist.It is not easy.

Take care.

 
https://youtu.be/r00ikilDxW4
Title: Maradona´s funeral
Post by: raul on November 27, 2020, 05:58:14 pm
Holden,

Thank you for your message and the link.

“Lay down your arms”, sings the young musician, well, that is what you “should” do. Be humble and obey your folks. Marry a nice young lady and bring children to this world. Make your folks proud of you. Make your bosses proud of you.  Last but not the least do not forget the Durga festival. Please contribute to it. Be a good Indian.  :D

I suppose history teachers, as most do, detached themselves from life and never learned the lessons. It happens all the time.  I do not know much about history except only some scenes, so to speak. Better late than never, I learned that nothing is what it seems.  For a long time I believed the crrap I was taught at home, at school, and everywhere. What a fool!

By the way maybe you heard of Diego Armando Maradona, a famous Argentinian soccer player. He died on Wednesday. He was 60 years old and died due to a heart attack.

The little I saw on the tube was that the Argentinian government encouraged the mourning for this guy in front of the Presidential Palace called the Pink House. Probably one million people attended the funeral. How strange! There are no classes, thousands of unemployed, and thousands are forbidden to attend their next of kin´s funerals.  Even people cannot cross the provinces to visit their relatives.

This China bug behaves in a strange way. It goes on holidays and only infects at night. What is the funny thing? People consent to this crrap. They clap their hands as if they were seals and believing everything the authorities tell them.

I learned that this world is in the hands of hard core criminals and lunatics released from the asylums. These creatures see people like you with the same clinical detachment that surgeons might have when operating on a patient´s growth: seeing it as something to be cut out.
 
Stay safe.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LCGeUCHKL8k
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: Holden on November 29, 2020, 07:49:55 am
Human suffering is also created on purpose by unseen puppeteers.-Senor Raul

Senor Raul,

The statement appears to be teleological.With due respect,this is a slippery slope. Why do  birds build the nest? One might say, for the young ones.
Why do  dogs dig small ditches with their paws? One might say,in order to hide the bone.

The problem with designs and purposes is that ,I suspect, the human mind is not a blank slate. That it has certain propensities.One of them is that of looking for,and finding, purposes/designs.

Why does one study mathematics? To get straight As.( Does one really?)

But there is something deeper going on here.Purposes might be projected by the human mind onto the external world but the question is-is there a purpose or a design per se?

That is an open question.

Take care.
P.S.: Sometimes music is just music :)

https://youtu.be/WtuIvFNvho4
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: Holden on November 29, 2020, 11:47:52 am
https://youtu.be/4gk49nIkA2k
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: Holden on November 29, 2020, 12:06:03 pm
https://youtu.be/mogwu_IN8As
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: Holden on November 29, 2020, 01:26:30 pm
https://youtu.be/JkGbB0XtH1w
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: Gorticide :: Admin Elder Warrior on November 29, 2020, 01:55:00 pm
Mother, will they put me in the firing line?
Is it just a waste of time?

Holden, I am going around and around, one step forward, two steps back ... learning along the way.  I am trying not to flood the board with technical details, since I figure this board has a "higher purpose."   And yet!

I feel I am circling around and around due to restless dissatisfaction.  When I fall down on the cot, I  hear my brain wishing to be released from the cycle of troubleshooting.  I feel as though I could come up for air only to find everyone I ever knew dead and gone.  I am slipping into the Void, wondering how many others like me are teetering on this ledge, with an ever-expanding (and murderous) resentment.

"Beware of the man who works hard to learn something, learns it, and finds himself no wiser than before. He is full of murderous resentment of people who are ignorant without having come by their ignorance the hard way."
-Kurt Vonnegut, Cat's Cradle
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: Holden on November 30, 2020, 05:37:52 am
Holden, I am going around and around, one step forward, two steps back ... learning along the way.  I am trying not to flood the board with technical details, since I figure this board has a "higher purpose."   And yet!

I do not think ,Herr Hauser, that you are wasting your time and resources by studying mathematics.
I think ,now you might be able to see things and make connections in mathematics that most cannot.I think you might end up finding some hitherto unknown connections even if you are not actively looking for them.

What else is there in the world apart from mathematics? A whole lot of misery and suffering.
I think you have been studying mathematics since you might have been about 3  and now you are in your early fifties. So,about half a century of studying mathematics.Anders Ericsson spent almost the whole of life studying to find out as to how long it takes someone to truly understand a subject and he says that once one has practiced something for about 10,000 hours, one starts to make connections which the others just cannot.

Take care and please do keep studying mathematics.
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: Holden on November 30, 2020, 08:34:02 am
Is there a pessimism of strength? An intellectual preference for the hard, gruesome, malevolent, and problematic aspects of existence. - Nietzsche
Title: A Video for Dear Senor Raul
Post by: Holden on November 30, 2020, 02:03:57 pm
https://youtu.be/KL6FE5HBK3U
Title: Aldous Huxley
Post by: raul on November 30, 2020, 03:08:26 pm
Holden,

Thank you for your response and the links.

You use the word teleological. Teleology, I read, means explanation by reference to some purpose, end, goal, or function. Traditionally, it was also describe as final causality in contrast with explanation solely in terms of efficient causes (the origin of a change or a state of rest in something).

I think there are puppeteers who stand in the shadows and pull the strings. They are the shepherds and we are the sheep.

Probably I suffer from paranoia, that is to say, I think that there are negative or hostile patterns in random events. Paranoia is deemed irrational fear. Is there a word for rational fear?

Well, what do I know? Maybe ignorance is a bliss.

Stay safe.

P.S. The Paraguayan Ministry of Health records the birth of almost 600 babies in this country given to birth by almost 600 rraped female children between the ages of 10 and 14. The Ministry also records the rrape of 10,000 minors between the ages of 15 and 19. It also records 8,000 abortions per year. The mainstream media does not report these brutal numbers.

I forgot to tell you in my last post that Diego Armando Maradona, the best soccer player in the world, used to beat his girlfriends and allegedly had sex with 14-year-old girls in Cuba while shaking hands with Fidel Castro. Some say that one should not speak ill of a dead person who is not able to defend him/herself. Fuckk it.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GLiz-DyG1uA
Title: Brave New World REVISITED
Post by: Gorticide :: Admin Elder Warrior on November 30, 2020, 09:21:59 pm
Huxley's Brave New World REVISITED (https://b-ok.cc/book/1102665/e6412b) is a small book that carries a strong punch.

see Habeas Corpus, Habeas Mentem, and Mental Independence (https://xhentric.wordpress.com/scholar-warrior/gort-busters/habeas-corpus-habeas-mentem-and-mental-independence/)

"It is perfectly possible for a man to be out of prison, and yet not free – to be under no physical constraint and yet to be a psychological captive, compelled to think, feel and act as the representatives of the national State, or of some private interest within the nation, want him to think, feel and act. There will never be such a thing as a writ of habeas mentem; for no sheriff or jailer can bring an illegally imprisoned mind into court, and no person whose mind has been made captive would [even] be in a position to complain of his captivity. The nature of psychological compulsion is such that those who act under constraint remain under the impression that they are acting on their own initiative. The victim of mind-manipulation does not know that he is a victim. To him, the walls of his prison are invisible, and he believes himself to be free. That he is not free is apparent only to other people. His servitude is strictly objective."

~ Aldous Huxley
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: Ibra on December 01, 2020, 06:48:49 am
a song for senior raul

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3u3JSEqNtlg (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3u3JSEqNtlg)





Title: To Senor Raul
Post by: Holden on December 02, 2020, 12:50:22 pm
Probably I suffer from paranoia, that is to say, I think that there are negative or hostile patterns in random events. Paranoia is deemed irrational fear. -Senor Raul

Senor Raul,

Thanks for the message.As far as I am concerned, you are one of the sanest men that I have ever come across.I agree with you that the universe is hostile for biological organisms and your assumption is a good one to hold in that it is quite pragmatic.

You mention that thousands of babies are being aborted in Paraguay,which I know is a predominately Catholic nation. And the Catholics are supposed to be pro-life,and anti-contraception,not to mention, anti-abortion.
What I wonder ,might be your thoughts on abortion.

In India ,of course,we have close to 16 million abortions in a year.
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Abortion_in_India

Now, Indians are ,refreshingly unsentimental ,when it comes to abortions.Its just like chewing a gum ,I guess.

I am not very sure if I actually heard my maternal grandmother say this or it is just a false memory,but I seem to very faintly recall her telling someone in my presence ,when I was about four, that my father wanted to get me aborted as he was still in college and thought that he lacked the financial resources to take care of a child when I was conceived but my granny told my parents  that they must have this child as it was their first ,if it were their second or third,she would have gladly  given her blessings for the abortion.

Very Cioran-like,is it not  :)

Take care and please do keep writing.

 




Title: Georgia Guidestones
Post by: raul on December 02, 2020, 02:24:48 pm
Holden,

Thank you for your words and the link. I think insanity is the norm and to become aware of this fact makes one miserable. Earth is a giant human madhouse.

So your father wanted to get you aborted? I should thank your grandmother for telling your folks to have you. But also you were brought to this vale of tears.

This country is predominantly Catholic but it also has many evangelical churches. Next week, on December 8 there will
be no pilgrims to Caacupé, the spiritual city, so that they can pay their promises to the Lady of Caacupé because the bishop there, I suppose, was forced by the authorities to tell people not to go supposedly because of the infections.

Indeed most Catholics and evangelicals are prolife in words but not in deeds. I mentioned these awful statistics because
they show how cruel our world is.   

I think that it is up to women to discuss and decide about abortions because after all they are the ones who are biologicall equipped to give birth.  In this country abortion is illegal except in cases of the threat to the life of the woman. A woman could be jailed from5 to 8 years in prison.

Those who study these abortion issues say that it is a form of depopulation. They say that the elites ruling us wants to lower the population to 500 million people and abortion is one of the ways to do it. Of course we also have the pandemic. This reminds me of the Georgia Guidestones. On the stone that points to the north, in English, the texts of the Guidestones are as follows:

MAINTAIN HUMANITY UNDER 500,000,000 IN PERPETUAL BALANCE WITH NATURE

GUIDE REPRODUCTION WISELY – IMPROVING FITNESS AND DIVERSITY

UNITE HUMANITY WITH A LIVING NEW LANGUAGE

RULE PASSION – FAITH – TRADITION – AND ALL THINGS WITH TEMPERED REASON

PROTECT PEOPLE AND NATIONS WITH FAIR LAWS AND JUST COURTS

LET ALL NATIONS RULE INTERNALLY RESOLVING EXTERNAL DISPUTES IN A WORLD COURT

AVOID PETTY LAWS AND USELESS OFFICIALS

BALANCE PERSONAL RIGHTS WITH SOCIAL DUTIES

PRIZE TRUTH – BEAUTY – LOVE – SEEKING HARMONY WITH THE INFINITE

BE NOT A CANCER ON THE EARTH – LEAVE ROOM FOR NATURE – LEAVE ROOM FOR NATURE

Keep your eyes peeled.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YNPpB_BRZJ8

P,S, I read that in China, according to the World Bank and World Health Organization, about five hundred Chinese women kill themselves every day.

Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: Holden on December 02, 2020, 02:26:18 pm
One must indeed make an ill reckoning of the worth of the journey (of life) if one can still wish that it should last longer than it actually does, for that would only be a prolongation of a perpetual contest with sheer hardships. -Kant
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: Holden on December 02, 2020, 02:27:19 pm
Now, if death is without all sensation, a dreamless sleep, as it were, it would be indeed a wonderful gain. For I think if anyone selected a night in which he had slept so soundly as to have no dream, and then compared this night with other nights and days of his life, and after serious consideration declared how many days and nights he had spent better and more pleasantly than this one, that not merely ordinary mortal, but the great king of Persia himself, would find these but a few in number as compared with all his other days and nights.- Plato, Apology
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: Holden on December 03, 2020, 02:02:40 pm
UNITE HUMANITY WITH A LIVING NEW LANGUAGE-Senor Raul

Senor Raul,what language might that be,I wonder-Esperanto?I think a lot of people, particularly the religious kind, have kids and all the paraphernalia of religion because they wish to keep themselves occupied and wish to forget the chaos at the center of it all.
For a time, maybe they forget. People of certain religious denominations having eight or more kids is not that uncommon.
Kids particularly keep them occupied. They need a lot of time investment.

But its a house of cards.The priests ,the kids, the religious rituals-in the end.Why the political projects-people tend to justify them because they wish to of believe that they are making the world better for their kids. But the world is what it is.

Not much difference between us and the ants. Hundreds of thousands of book have been written about theology related topics. What motivates such behavior? A mass of pain, a seething mass of pain.

https://youtu.be/e722D0mnxnw

Once I was foolish enough to write to Herr Hauser that I believed that maybe Nietzsche never read everything written by Schopenhauer.He ,of course, said nothing,as is his wont, when I say something very foolish.Nietzsche became a full professor at 24, and Enoch Powell, a man of formidable intellectual gifts and one of the brightest students Cambridge ever produced, wanted to become a professor before he was 24( keeping Nietzsche in mind,he also wanted to be India's Viceroy, but that's another story). Anyway, he managed to became a professor,but only at 25.

No,Nietzsche cannot be dismissed as a simpleton, only a simpleton would attempt such a dismissal and yet when is moved away from his Master,he also moved away from the goddess of Truth.

Take care.
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: raul on December 04, 2020, 12:51:55 pm
Holden,

Thank you for your words and the link. It must be an interesting movie. It must have been a strange trio, Salomé, Nietzsche and Paul Reé. The greatest female philosopher of our time, says Friedrich.

I read that a man called R.C. Christian was the one who gave the money for the construction of the Guidestones. Some say that it was really Ted Turner, founder of Cable News Network (   CNN) who put the money in Georgia, a state famous for its granite in the U.S.

From the little I read I have no idea what language will become the living new language. It could be Esperanto, but who knows?

We all at some time in life say,write or think foolish things. It is part of our human nature. It is better to realize one says foolish things than never realize at all.

Yes, thousands of books are being written about theological issues. In my view the real mystery is us, the homo sapiens. Why are we here? Are we necessary here on this Earth? Were human beings deliberately engineered to be the cattle of someone else? Is our planet just one big farm? If so, who or what is the farmer? Were our human fates laid out for us long before we, Homo sapiens, even existed?

We cry and we die, we age and we rot every single minute.  We have been born cursed.

Again from the little I read about the Gnostics, the creator of this sad world is the Prince of Darkness or the Demiurge.They believed that the body was evil and the spirit was good. The world we know is only a deception in order to keep the spirit jailed at the mercy of the god of this world. The Gnostics also write of the archons, a Greek word that means the rulers. They are the dark rulers of this world. Some say that the dark elites who control this world must be worshipping these awful creatures. One thing is certain and that is that these hellish creatures despise us and for them humans are only raw material.

The Gnostics say the world in which we live is not only opaque, heavy, and given over to death, but is above all a world born of a monumental machination; a world that was not foreseen, not desired, flawed in all its parts; a world in which every thing, every being, is the result of a cosmic misunderstanding.

Stay vigilant.

You and the readers of this blog may find the following interesting.

https://www.cathar.info/

Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: Holden on December 05, 2020, 02:16:04 pm
Senor Raul,

What did the Beatles sing?All we need is LOVE..

https://youtu.be/lZTOT6DKfZ8
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: Holden on December 05, 2020, 02:26:17 pm
As they say: The only way to win is not to play the game.
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: Holden on December 05, 2020, 03:24:36 pm
Senor Raul,

Thanks for your message and the link.
I agree with Nietzsche when he talks about the love of solitude and scorn for the masses and women and yet, when he says:

"The yellow ones": so are called the preachers of death, or "the black ones." But I will show them unto you in other colours besides.

There are the spiritually consumptive ones: hardly are they born when they begin to die, and long for doctrines of lassitude and renunciation.

They would fain be dead, and we should approve of their wish! Let us beware of awakening those dead ones, and of damaging those living coffins!

Shrouded in thick melancholy, and eager for the little casualties that bring death: thus do they wait, and clench their teeth.

"Life is only suffering": so say others, and lie not. Then see to it that ye cease! See to it that the life ceaseth which is only suffering!

"Let us go apart and beget no children!"

"Giving birth is troublesome,"—say others—"why still give birth? One beareth only the unfortunate!" And they also are preachers of death.

I embrace the title of the "Preacher of Death".

I am the Preacher of Death-Thus Spake Hegesias.

Take care.

https://youtu.be/-tHQ-T4fMNE


Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: raul on December 06, 2020, 04:36:34 am
Holden,

Thank you for the film trailer and the acoustic cover. There is no love in this world. This world is full of pain, sorrows, anguish, dementia and despair.

This week I saw a news report on the situation in Formosa, an Argentinian province near Paraguay. The governor does not allow people to cross the border with the pretext of the China bug. What struck me is the picture of a dead 23-year-old guy who tried to see his baby and girlfriend but died drowned on crossing the river.

In the Department of Guairá in this country, a 41-year-old guy, Roberto Ramos, arrived at his home on Friday noon where he had a strong argument with his wife and it ended in tragedy. The guy took a knife and plunged it into his wife several times. This tragic event was witnessed by their four children. Roberto left the place and with the knife tried to kill himself but he failed. Now he is in a health center.

Belén Caballero, a 21-year-old girl, found out that her biological parents left her abandoned in landfill called Cateura, near the capital, when she was 2 months old. She had a tough childhood, she says, and she was bullied by her classmates. Her foster father told her about forgiveness. She was found in March, 1999 in the midst of garbage in Cateura with her broken arm, the ear full of worms, with cigarette burns in the skin and a severe case of undernourishment. A journalist, Sever del Puerto, took her to the hospital and has taken care of her as if she was his own daughter. In October she went and met her mother and her seven brothers. She has a twin brother.

You once wrote: “I would very much like to disappear like the Buddha disappered in the forests while he was trying to think things through.” Well, one would like to vanish from this planet of misery.

Stay safe.
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: Holden on December 06, 2020, 03:07:45 pm
Senor Raul,

Thanks for the message.

A baby with an ear full of worms..what a pleasant thought :(

https://youtu.be/A8pTs3FPE0M

There might a grave problem at the very heart of Nietzsche's philosophy.This man called Richard Spencer claims to be inspired by Nietzsche and I find that he is indeed inspired by him. There is a commonality between him and Nietzsche. This is the commonality-they both assume that with the arrival of so-called Nihilism,after the "Death of God", all that would be left for men(noble men?) to do would be to binge watch Netflix and play Xbox all day long.

What am I missing here? Some might say Holden lives in a third world country and Spencer in an advanced one. But I won't buy that argument.It is superficial ,not to mention, plain wrong.

Life is configured and designed in a manner which makes it well- nigh impossible to reach the stage of "Netflix and Xbox Binge All Day Long". Merely breathing is struggle enough, just managing to keep the food down in one's stomach( I write this just after puking  my dinner out) is struggle enough-heroic enough,if you like.

They assume that some imaginary robots have taken out the garbage,done the dishes and washed the clothes-now, that I do not have to do all that-let me focus on resurrecting the Roman Empire-and this time,it would be doubly powerful :-\

Take care.

Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: Holden on December 07, 2020, 06:41:08 am
For Senor Raul:

https://youtu.be/0MpDZ4ThOkY
Title: For Mr.Silenus( A Symbol)
Post by: Holden on December 07, 2020, 08:07:14 am
https://ibb.co/MGpwtzB


(Antinatalist)
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: raul on December 08, 2020, 04:13:45 am
Holden,

Thank you for the links. Well, naughty priest having a threesome with naughty **** stars in church. The temptation of the flesh was too much. Now he´d better start looking for a new job.

I only read the Antichrist by Friedrich Nietszche and that was a long time ago.The rulers of this Earth could be viewed as the helpers of the Antichrist.

I am in the so-called Third World but in this part of the world none of the countries have nuclear weapons and above all none of them has borders with Pakistan and Communist China. You certainly live in a very dangerous country. I think the generals of the army of India are eager to push the nuclear button.

If I were God I would not have created poor creatures aware of their own mortality and of being inserted in awful human bodies that are destined to rot and vanish. I would not have created creatures that have to get up at 5 in the morning to earn a meager salary just to survive. 

Keep your eyes peeled.
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: Holden on December 08, 2020, 03:52:53 pm
https://youtu.be/cn60U3xdPp8
Title: Everything a Hunter and Everything Hunted( For Mr.Silenus)
Post by: Holden on December 08, 2020, 04:10:13 pm
Mr.Silenus,

In grade 11, I wanted to run away from home.The plan was to reach a port city somehow. Find a small boat in the port. Take it in the night and go off to some island in the ocean and live there somehow.When I was about 2 kilometers away from the house a thought came into my mind-wherever you might go, you can never run away from yourself,and you know that ,honestly, you will find no peace.

I turned back then. There is literally no where to go. One cannot outrun oneself and one's inner torment.

Take care.



https://youtu.be/OWxCgn3deTo
Title: A Sad Country (To Senor Raul)
Post by: Holden on December 08, 2020, 05:07:31 pm
Senor Raul,

Thanks for the message. You mention nuclear weapons. Well, it is a country which remained enslaved for close to a thousand years. Its temples demolished. Its libraries, some of the greatest in the ancient world, burnt to a cinder. Its men forced to embrace an alien creed,by the sword. Its women compelled to choose between r-a-p-e and self-immolation.
https://youtu.be/HrjK67yi-Ug

Its customs and traditions mocked merciless for centuries. There is, no doubt, deeply seated inferiority complex in its people. Some of them have decided that it could be overcome by way of nukes. I,for one, think, as an individual, I'd choose the Upanishads and the Buddha over these.

Take care.

Title: Lack of empathy
Post by: raul on December 09, 2020, 04:09:19 am
Holden,

Thank you for your words. I hope you are not having problems with your medication.

In the link below the title of this video in Spanish is "EL VÍDEO QUE TE HARÁ RECUPERAR EL AMOR AL PRÓJIMO (The video that will make you recover the love for your fellow human being).

As it happened in many countries Spain was crushed by its own rulers and many people end up selling whatever they could. The elderly are suffering much with this plandemic.

In this video in the train station an elderly woman is selling flowers and a boy approaches and buys a bunch of flowers and gives them to her.

Would I have the same gesture that this boy had? No.

Does that make me a hateful creature? Yes, it does.

Do I lack empathy towards my fellow human beings? Yes, I do.


https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2j3JfurB5Xk
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: Silenus on December 09, 2020, 09:45:26 am
Hello Holden,
  One cannot run from oneself. Yes, I've had to learn that in the past. No matter where one goes, if you are not observing the contents of your thoughts and feelings - if, you are not understanding why you are thinking that there IS someplace to go that will free from the miseries and drudgery of life - then there is no understanding, only warm wishes and idle hopes. I for one cannot live life high on the drug of Hope.

  We can understand the childish impulse of religion/spirituality because of this. We can understand why the telling of stories could be an adaptation of our species in order to bear What Is. Different stories for different tribes (cultures), yet many of them revolve around a delusion of freedom and rest from a weary world. We hide away in the mythical Other, a dreamworld free from misery and enslavement, so conveniently polar opposite of What Is.

Yet, as you say, we may further the illusion by actually physically moving to a different location, thinking that the Other, the Paradise/Utopia can be found. And when we finally rest our feet and look around, the spell of our dreams is crushed by the Sameness of the reality of our predicament. Our feet are as sore here as they would be had we never left. The drudgery continues.

A primate animal who lives in two different worlds at once. What can one do but laugh when the biologists call this an "adaptation?" If anything, it shows our specious cowardliness. I can see this because I am one of them.
Title: sore feet and lazy bones
Post by: gorticide on December 09, 2020, 01:15:20 pm
Quote from: Silenus
Hello Holden,
  One cannot run from oneself. Yes, I've had to learn that in the past. No matter where one goes, if you are not observing the contents of your thoughts and feelings - if, you are not understanding why you are thinking that there IS someplace to go that will free from the miseries and drudgery of life - then there is no understanding, only warm wishes and idle hopes. I for one cannot live life high on the drug of Hope.

  We can understand the childish impulse of religion/spirituality because of this. We can understand why the telling of stories could be an adaptation of our species in order to bear What Is. Different stories for different tribes (cultures), yet many of them revolve around a delusion of freedom and rest from a weary world. We hide away in the mythical Other, a dreamworld free from misery and enslavement, so conveniently polar opposite of What Is.

Yet, as you say, we may further the illusion by actually physically moving to a different location, thinking that the Other, the Paradise/Utopia can be found. And when we finally rest our feet and look around, the spell of our dreams is crushed by the Sameness of the reality of our predicament. Our feet are as sore here as they would be had we never left. The drudgery continues.

A primate animal who lives in two different worlds at once. What can one do but laugh when the biologists call this an "adaptation?" If anything, it shows our specious cowardliness. I can see this because I am one of them.

very poetic prose, there, Silenus. 

You have got the tiger by its tail.
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: Holden on December 10, 2020, 03:19:03 pm
https://youtu.be/byii_k4cvm8
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: Holden on December 10, 2020, 03:39:11 pm
https://www.reddit.com/r/depression/comments/k016wa/i_feel_like_suicide_is_inevitable/
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: Holden on December 10, 2020, 03:53:48 pm
https://youtu.be/epOIsL8SheM
Title: To Senor Raul
Post by: Holden on December 11, 2020, 11:57:12 am
Senor Raul,

Sorry for the late reply. I was extremely agitated and not in position to write anything at all.
Thanks for the touching video. I would not want to live that long. In fact, I have reached the clear conclusion that the sooner I am gone, the better it would.But before I am gone I would like to write as many pessimistic messages as possible.


https://youtu.be/O1dmtWR9RxA

I know that you do not believe in a Good God.If you don't mind my asking -were your parents religious? Were they Protestants or Catholics?
Did you go to the Church every week and when you were a kid, did they take you also with them?

What do you think of the Roman Catholic Church?

Please take care.

A song for you:

https://youtu.be/1w7OgIMMRc4
Title: To Mr.Silenus
Post by: Holden on December 11, 2020, 11:15:40 pm
And so tarry I still a little on the earth—pardon me for it!-Nietzsche
Title: The little Black Angel Cult
Post by: raul on December 12, 2020, 08:11:42 am
Holden,

Thank you for the song. I hope you have a little tranquility now.

This is not a healthy world. If it were most of the psychopaths would be in prison or at least fleeing. But most of us are complicit in this hellish game called life.

“Don´t give up on life”, some say and they say to deny that this world is unbearable. Consciousness is a lethal poison. As usual the question is: what is the purpose to all this, the drama of our human existence?

My folks were Catholics but they at some time in their lives became part of a spiritualist movement called in Spanish Escuela Científica Basilio. I don´t know much about them.
I must have been to a Catholic Mass four or five times. What can I say about the Roman Catholic Church? Unfortunately the message of the Galilean was distorted. The truth shall set you free, the Galilean fisherman said. The truth is not in the interest of those in power.

By the way I read that the Knights of the Apocalypse were a secret society whose members were pious Roman Catholics, and it was allegedly established in 1693. Their members´ goal was to save mankind. Whenever the Anti Christ is born, they hunt Satan´s offspring and murder him in the cradle. Allegedly, they have killed several children
already. Is this true? Who knows?

The current pope some time ago abandoned the title of Vicar of Christ. Some bloggers I follow claim that this pope was part of the coup d´etat against Benedict XVI in 2013. They say he is part of the globalist agenda which means one religion, one world government and one currency.

Stay alert.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GjtlsltA3RY
Title: To Mr.Silenus
Post by: Holden on December 12, 2020, 03:59:44 pm
Mr.Silenus,

I am sorry I could not write back to you properly sooner. As I mention in my message to Senor Raul, I was very disturbed over the last couple of days due to evil office people who surround me.

Thank you for your message- much appreciated.I saw the paintings you posted-splendid. I was reminded of Van Gogh. You see, it is not difficult to come across articles in the internet telling the reader to master painting in 20 hours. Learn German in 20 hours. It drives me insane.
Such a sick joke. It takes thousands and thousands of hours drenched with the blood of one's heart to truly learn something.

Another thing that I find absurd is that people have started to believe that technology can put tragedy to pasture.No,no, a thousand times,no.No matter how many movies, and video games and psychiatric drugs are invented, they can never ever eradicate tragedy.

They like to think that if Van Gogh were alive today, he would not kill himself. He would pop a few pills and make kitsch art.
As he said himself- Sadness would Last Forever.

Take care.
https://youtu.be/zKJ9cVRqnV0

Title: To Mr. Ibra
Post by: Holden on December 12, 2020, 04:26:17 pm
Mr.Ibra,

I hope you are as well as is possible in a world such as this one. In your neck of the woods, hundreds of thousands of people have lost their homes,their personal belongings-everything. In my country, as I am sure you know, there is a great deal of poverty.
I like to call it The Thousand Year Old poverty. The poor have always been here. They will always be here.

I experience partial peace only when I am on my own. Writing, thinking, doing maths. And above all waiting, not for Godot, for but for the Grim Reaper.

Please take care.

https://youtu.be/9yvUHg6ipes
Title: To Senor Raul
Post by: Holden on December 12, 2020, 04:40:17 pm
Senor Raul,

Thanks for the message and thank you for responding to my queries.
I hope your eyes are okay.  I abhor the cult of positive thinking. I makes no sense to me. Every fiber of my body rejects it.
Its down right harmful.

Please take care of your eyes.

https://youtu.be/wgOFYDaXLG4



https://youtu.be/biNom1UPOtk

Title: Kafka Nights
Post by: Holden on December 13, 2020, 02:29:49 pm
Senor Raul,

While I was taking my post-dinner walk, engrossed in this book called Lila suggested by Herr Hauser, I began to think about Kafka.
You see,Kafka,like me,worked in an office, for the whole of his life except for the last couple of years when he was too weak to work any longer.
He had no time to write anything during the day due to his official responsibilities.

He writes: “I need solitude for my writing; not ‘like a hermit’ — that wouldn’t be enough — but like a dead man”.

In the day,I am too agitated. In the night,I ccould be fairly confident that I would not be disturbed by the phone ring or the door bell. When he returned from the office, he slept for a few hours and woke up as the night approached.

https://youtu.be/1t-GbIbVHCI

He wrote in the night and that helped him to salvage a little of his sanity. I do not wish to be a writer like him,but I wish to learn a little mathematics,if I could. So,this is the thought that came into my mind,while strolling with Lila :)   -I share the ailment with Kafka- tuberculosis-could there be a possibility that ,like him,I too could get buried,with my books, beneath the shroud of the dark and silent night?

Take care.


Title: Joaquin Phoenix demonstrates Russian Roulette
Post by: raul on December 13, 2020, 02:34:14 pm
Holden,

Thank you for the links. They are very interesting.

I forgot in my last post about the bad god. Evil has always existed. It is one of the greatest mysteries in this world.

Does evil exist in the shape of the Father of All Lies, the Prince of Darkness called Satan?  I have no idea. Sometimes I think he exists. I often heard of the fallen angels. But this issue is too deep for my understanding.

One thing is clear evil shows itself in perversion. Everything is upside down. Lies are the truths. Injustice seems justice. Deception and manipulation are being praised. Wicked businessmen, doctors, journalists and politicians look honest. 

We are at war and this plandemic is the result. To these thugs we are just little screws in this hellish machinery.

I sometimes see ourselves as monkeys that escape from a zoo and are trained as human beings. Well, only chaos is expected.

Stay safe.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tqO-ZJ6bsCc
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: Ibra on December 13, 2020, 09:10:22 pm
Holden,
thanks for your messages. Syria is relatively  small country around 25 million in 2010 before war commenced. about half million died, 10 million scurried outside like locusts.

seeing people like the animals they are, cuts the bull-S-H-IT of human language. as Mr Raul always reminds us, that it is kind of a farm here on Earth. I heard many refugee children and the adults had been kidnapped and  organ-harvested in the last 10 years inside and outside of Syria.

we have many troops here from many countries. War, is always a good business model. good for employment, good for technological innovation (ironically ), good for milking tax money from the citizens to the masters. I mean if one is a Master, what not to love about War.

Life is tough with societies such yours and mine, where one is castigated daily if he had no wife or kids, that is why i stay overseas and can not go home.

hope you stay healthy.
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: raul on December 15, 2020, 09:13:49 am
Holden,

Thank you for your message and the link. I hope you are having a little tranquility in your office. I hope your colleagues understand, if possible, that you are not a donkey to be pushed around or yelled at. One of these days the monster in you could awake and as they say in American English all hell will break loose.

I wish I learned mathematics or philosophy or some other deep subject a long time ago. They could have been of help.

Stay safe.
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: Holden on December 15, 2020, 01:18:25 pm
For Senor Raul:

https://youtu.be/f-3Bldu8BJ4
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: Holden on December 15, 2020, 01:25:16 pm
https://youtu.be/MUbJs_QSnik
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: Holden on December 15, 2020, 01:33:34 pm
"Marriage is a wonderful institution invented so that two people could solve together problems they would never had had,  had they remained single."
(Mark Twain)

https://youtu.be/cPk72ccNRb0
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: Holden on December 15, 2020, 02:04:40 pm
https://youtu.be/HIxLbCYR_w0
Title: To Senor Raul
Post by: Holden on December 16, 2020, 09:02:16 am
Senor Raul,

Thanks a ton. I am lucky to have you as a friend. In the office,the atmosphere can never be peaceful ,as you well know.
My aggression is ,for the most part,turned inwards.

I do not see any reasons why anyone could not learn mathematics and philosophy at any age. I wish I got into it sooner too, but I also recognize the fact that I was not ready earlier.Not really.

In Lust for Life, almost at the end of his life, Van Gogh meet a strange woman called Maya. She tells him that she has been following him for close to ten years.That she has been monitoring his art. He asks her that why did she not approach him sooner while he has been down and out for so very long.
She tells him her time had not come yet.

Take care.


https://youtu.be/cPGNMgPfu5c
Title: To Mr.Ibra
Post by: Holden on December 16, 2020, 12:34:13 pm
Mr.Ibra,

Thanks for the message.I guess you are somewhere in the middle east.Well, India and the middle east are similar in that socially they are far more conservative than the West. Just today my mother threatened to disown me should I refuse to get married.

I told her I am owned by nobody. Though I would not mind getting owned by the Grim Reaper.

Do not let the basta-rds force you into a marriage.

Here is one of the poems I like and wish to share with you:

Say not the struggle nought availeth,
The labour and the wounds are vain,
The enemy faints not, nor faileth,
And as things have been they remain.

If hopes were dupes, fears may be liars;
It may be, in yon smoke concealed,
Your comrades chase e’en now the fliers,
And, but for you, possess the field.

For while the tired waves, vainly breaking
Seem here no painful inch to gain,
Far back through creeks and inlets making,
Comes silent, flooding in, the main.

And not by eastern windows only,
When daylight comes, comes in the light,
In front the sun climbs slow, how slowly,
But westward, look, the land is bright.

-Arthur Hugh Clough



https://youtu.be/wSyIgWlrBeY
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: Holden on December 16, 2020, 01:00:13 pm
https://youtu.be/ja5wA4s8tQU
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: Holden on December 16, 2020, 03:40:48 pm
For Senor Raul:

https://youtu.be/7q3oyfkKiPU
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: Ibra on December 17, 2020, 03:31:29 am
Holden,

Thanks for the poem and the video. I must say that you have a great taste in literature. besides your writing style is unique.

I live at the margin of the society. I almost cut off all my acquaintances. only if there is a death or something I call to offer condolences. there is a deride in the way they deal with a three-and-half-decades-old unmarried man.

I feel too numb and indifferent,  I am not angry  or denouncing the society for its "Go Forth and Multiply" lifestyle. people are  prearranged by biology and culture to act in their way.

I am not into relationships, as I get irritated so easily by any human interaction. also don't want bring a new cattle to this farm.
Maybe, I don't even own  my thoughts. It is my disposition to think in such way. I am just a dead-end  of a yet-another experiment of Mother Nature .

I'd rather be a spectator of this "Freak Show" and scribble some haphazard notes.

stay well and tend to your health.



 
Title: Eyes Wide Shut
Post by: raul on December 17, 2020, 08:48:18 am
Holden,

I hope you are having all your medication available. But we are all terminally ill. The Grim Reaper is patiently waiting to take us to the other side.

Do not read too much. In fact, do not read at all. You see, “the less you know, the easier to live,” or “the more you know, the quicker you grow old.” This is the way to become a strong person with a healthy life. :D
Just pay attention to your reports, memos, spreadsheets, letterheads, etc. Obey and comply with the norms. :D

Math is not my thing but numbers intrigue me because they have special significance in these tragedies:

September 11, 2001: The attacks on the Twin Towers in New York
March 11, 2004: the attack in Spain causing hundreds of deaths in a train station.
March 11, 2020: the pandemic was declared worldwide.
Pfizer, one of the most powerful pharmaceuticals had to pay millions of dollars for the death of 11 children in Africa in 1996.

I found this quote attributed to Anton Chekhov:
God's world is good. One thing is not good: us.
— Chekhov to Suvorin, 1891

I disagree. God´s world is evil.

Keep your eyeds peeled.

P.S.

I saw this movie years ago. Kubrick, a renowned filmmaker, supposedly was murdered before this last film was shown. Probably he knew too much about strange rituals and secret societies.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NJxOj86DUZo
Title: Re: To Mr.Silenus
Post by: Silenus on December 17, 2020, 01:41:33 pm
Hi Holden,

You see, it is not difficult to come across articles in the internet telling the reader to master painting in 20 hours. Learn German in 20 hours. It drives me insane.
Such a sick joke. It takes thousands and thousands of hours drenched with the blood of one's heart to truly learn something.

Yes, unfortunately we live in bubbles of instant gratification and instant expertise. There is not enough time - between the commute to and from work, work, cooking, paying bills and zoning out in front of the TV - to learn at one's leisure and within one's comprehension. We should be paying someone to tell us after 20 hours of speed-learning that we are now masters. In fact, I think it would be best if we did not learn at all - those 20 hours would best be used towards making your wealthy boss even wealthier! Now get back to work! ;)


Quote from: Holden
]Another thing that I find absurd is that people have started to believe that technology can put tragedy to pasture.

Let us say that a significant amount of current problems are caused by the "need" for technology - pollution, resource degradation/shortages, environmental damages, slave labor, the need for global shipping chains. Now let's say that these problems, caused by technology, can be solved by creating new technologies. Let's say that again: in order for us to clean up the mess caused by burning energy and producing technology, we have to...burn more energy and produce more technology???

It is one of our species' most tragic of paradoxes. A real bind. It's no wonder why people pray, even just to escape these hard problems for a moment of naive bliss.

Stay safe in public.
Title: To Senor Raul
Post by: Holden on December 19, 2020, 09:05:43 pm
Senor Raul,

Thanks for the message.Hope you are doing well.I am not taking any medicines at the moment for tuberculosis because the doctor has told me not to ,for the time being.I find myself in a better mood in the night. With the rising sun, my depression also tends to intensify.
I see,that Bergoglio is from your neck of the wood, what do you make of him?

I have been thinking of Faulkner's The Sound and The Fury. Its about disintegrating bloodlines. Hypochondria. People who are concerned with their legacies are very stupid. Pre-marital teenage pregnancies are ,generally, tragic. 

From the outside, I am just another pathetic man, snailing towards his demise and yet on the inside...
War and slavery ( and unlike the social justice warriors,I tend to agree with the thesis of Herr Hauser,that the Europeans, the Caucasians,  have been enslaved also in strange ways. They have been wronged in more ways than one.)

Family members hurt one far more than strangers ever could. Faulkner writers about that. One man ,in the Southern gentility, kills himself because his sister loses "purity". He writers about Bergson's ideas about time. .Faulkner tries to forget time-at least for a time.

People drowning themselves in the river due to illegitimate pregnancies and the illegitimate kid being named after them.The breakdown or at least deep ,perceptible cracks, in the temporal structures. People castrated for attempting approach women sexually.

I do not wish to come across as a suffering man. I think ,in some ways, I maybe be the personification of intense suffering.

What you were talking about,in the context of mathematics, in the previous message, is numerology-something like this:

https://youtu.be/WFmWhwyA0NU

Please take care.




Title: To Mr.Ibra
Post by: Holden on December 20, 2020, 12:06:59 am
Mr.Ibra,

Thanks for your message.I find that most people are obsessed with the continuation of their blood lineage.
There is delirium everywhere I look. I feel stupefied.Can there be such a thing as being too sad for tears?

Why  live longer? Do I want to continue the struggle to draw breath. Maybe I should write as if I am gone already. Only then can I write what I want to write. Visions of vast murderous water bodies.There is a possibility that the breakthrough may never arrive. I will be working on understanding something and will breathe in..only will never breathe out again.

Glimpses of bandits looking for scalps and when they do not find the man they are looking for, they are content to take the one who is in sight.Anyone.

The good thing about being dead is that one finally stops growing older. In life though ,there has indeed been someone loyal to me though thick and thick.Shall I tell the name? Utter failure.

I want no legacy,biological and otherwise. To be forgotten completely,what bliss would that be.I do not think I would be able to figure out what my life has been about-it has not been that kind of life. An aberration.

Qua Kafka,I am the  bug who has turned into a man.

One can see the super fast train coming towards him, one can hear it and maybe even calculate its speed and how long it would take to reach one. Only one cannot get out of the tracks.

A fallen angel that keeps falling.Never hits the bottom.

Take care.

Title: To Mr.Silenus(Prayers Offered to the Goddess of Tubercluosis)
Post by: Holden on December 20, 2020, 09:21:38 am
Mr.Silenus,

Thank you for the message.You write:

It's no wonder why people pray, even just to escape these hard problems for a moment of naive bliss.


I found myself praying abjectly to the Goddess of Tuberculosis today.

Today in the morning I ate a Ready to Eat meal out of box. Within five minutes I was puking my guts out. For the last few days I have been finding it difficult to keep the food down. Its difficult to find the reason.I started to wonder if my old friend, Tuberculosis, is coming back. This is ,sort of, how it got started in the first place.

I decide to perform a test-I order a pizza to  find out if my body can accept it. I also thought that if I threw that out too,then I would have to search my old tuberculosis prescriptions and rush to the nearest pharmacy.

Generally, when I am eating, I am hardly paying attention to the food, more often than not, I am reading something. When the pizza arrived. I opened the box and with as much concentration as possible took the first bite and gulped it down.Concentrated on every single sensation it produced in the body.

Praying all the while to the the Goddess of Tuberculosis to allow me to get off the hook and not to drag me again through hospital wards, weeping and crying ,for months on end.

I ate a quarter of the pizza and the lay down on bed and waited. The mouth began to produce excessive saliva and I spit it out( it is what happened in the morning -first the excessive saliva and then the vomit).

I closed my eyes and looked upon myself-out of body experience ,if you like. Twenty Nineteen  came back to me-how I was taken away to a tuberculosis hospital,like a worm who not only squirms ,but also pukes.

Test after test. Taking my blood out as if it were punch at a high school re-union.
Somehow, the body took pity on me, a wage-slave, with no education worth writing home about, and I managed to keep the pizza slice down.

For now.

Take care and please do keep writing.
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: Holden on December 20, 2020, 09:27:52 am
Senor Raul,

This is how it feel to have the tuberculosis inside one's body.


https://youtu.be/ZMURdEkb_3Y

Is this the blessed existence optimists sing praises of?

Take care.
Title: My Defeat
Post by: Holden on December 20, 2020, 11:07:20 am
Defeat
Kahlil Gibran

Defeat, my Defeat, my solitude and my aloofness;
You are dearer to me than a thousand triumphs,
And sweeter to my heart than all world-glory.
 
Defeat, my Defeat, my self-knowledge and my defiance,
Through you I know that I am yet young and swift of foot
And not to be trapped by withering laurels.
And in you I have found aloneness
And the joy of being shunned and scorned.
 
Defeat, my Defeat, my shining sword and shield,
In your eyes I have read
That to be enthroned is to be enslaved,
And to be understood is to be leveled down,
And to be grasped is but to reach one's fullness
And like a ripe fruit to fall and be consumed.
 
Defeat, my Defeat, my bold companion,
You shall hear my songs and my cries and my silences,
And none but you shall speak to me of the beating of wings,
And urging of seas,
And of mountains that burn in the night,
And you alone shall climb my steep and rocky soul.
 
Defeat, my Defeat, my deathless courage,
You and I shall laugh together with the storm,
And together we shall dig graves for all that die in us,
And we shall stand in the sun with a will,
And we shall be dangerous.





Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: raul on December 21, 2020, 04:29:33 am
Holden,

Thank you for your words. I hope your colleagues leave you alone.Maybe you should hint that you deal in black magic and if they continue troubling you, your magic will make their toes drop off. Then their feet will drop off, and then other parts of their anatomy, which they would not wish to lose, will drop off too.

Yes, numerology deals with these special numbers.

Mikhail Gorbachev succeeded Konstantin Chernenko as a General Secretary of the Soviet Union on March 11, 1985. On March 11, 2011 the worst nuclear tragedy after Chernobyl occurred in Fukushima, Japan.

I read that Pope John Paul I died in 1978, supposedly poisoned, after 33 days. 33 days is considered a Masonic number.
The number 666 is intriguing. Those who study these issues say that it is no accident that Stanley Kubrick, the director of 2001: A Space Odyssey and Eyes Wide Shut died 666 days before January 1, 2001, on March 7, 1999.

They also say that it’s not an accident either that Microsoft, Bill Gates’ old company, filed a patent on March 26, 2020, with the number W02020060606, paying tribute to 666. This patent is for a future cryptocurrency that will monitor your rate of body movement and calculate your earnings based on effort. They also say that 666 has been associated with computers since Apple priced their first consumer computer at $666.66, in 1976.

Legacy is important to many. This reminds me of an interview on the radio where a journalist asked a well known politician, Carlos Mateo Balmelli, about his next book. He said he wrote books to leave a legacy. Posterity is powerful.
Indirectly it reminds me of his brother, Tomás, a renowned doctor here. Months ago he warned against the vaccines and now suddenly he is in favor of the vaccines against the China bug. I wonder, just wonder if this guy received some gifts from the authorities to change his mind.

Yes, we are sad creatures and as you say, snailing towards our demise.

All of us are slaves, i.e., Europeans, Asians, Africans,etc. We all have masters.

Some say that those who refuse to labor and obey had become icons in death. They say that dupes believe, slaves fear and rebels defy. I remember that some anarchists said that the established order is based on crime and murder, so crime and murder are justified. They say that our:

Our modern civilization is a Moloch temple reared upon bodies of slaughtered slaves. Let the terrorists do what they will, they not equal the crimes of our masters.

Yes, family members hurt more than strangers ever could.

The issue about the Jesuit Jorge Mario Bergoglio aka Pope Francis is deep. He just turned 84. I will write a longer post of the little I read about him.

Stay safe.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UVBc6Z_CKmE

Title: Have you ever said Yes to a single joy? (To Senor Raul)
Post by: Holden on December 22, 2020, 11:39:14 am
Senor Raul,

Thank you for the message. I would look forward to your message on the pontiff.

Nietzsche writes:

Have you ever said Yes to a single joy?O my friends, then you said Yes to all woe. All things are entangled, ensnared, enamored; if ever you wanted one thing twice, if ever you said, "You please me, happiness! Abide, moment!" then you wanted all back. All anew, all eternally, all entangled, ensnared, enamored—oh, then you loved the world.

I think what he is saying here is deeply pessimistic. If I say yes to a single thing, to the minutest thing, then, in effect, I am saying yes to the entire world and the whole of the will because everything ,as he says, is entangled.Here, I think, I might have to agree with him.

I wish to say NO to every single thing, to the minutest thing.I wish my NO to be as resounding as Nietzsche's YES.
I think I can write here, to you and to the others far more frequently,only, quite often I feel too tired, too defeated..too dead.

What strange feeling it is to be alive! My nails are dead. My hair is dead. Yet I can think and ,unfortunately, feel pain and suffer, suffer terribly.
Millions of babies being aborted in the country, if only I could have been one of them..to lay dead as a foetus, in a trash can or a gutter.

It is difficult to live as a contingent being in an eternal world.Proust eats a piece of pastry and remembers and remembers.
I wish to taste hemlock and forget and forget.

A machine which does not like to eat but must consume.I read the Castle as a teenager and when I closed the book,I was still in the Castle.
I saw the video you shared. Thanks. I think that day is not far off,when babies would be born with their hands up,which is only rational, when entering a world such as this one.

Hundreds of novels and yet for one who understands Schopenhauer ,would find nothing new in them. There is  ephemeral pleasure and thousands of years of pain.

Who is to say that we are not the virus and Corona, the remedy?

Something for you:

https://youtu.be/ylstybS6rqw

When one is in the kingdom of the desire, time all but disappears-does it not tell us something about time?
The reality of time evaporates. All that is left are ungraspable fumes.

Sometimes I look at stones,stones by the road side.I feel jealous of them. To be inanimate, is also to be without agony.I am afraid there might be no grand design, after all. It might all be just a feverish dream. One from which I try vainly to wake up and yet to no avail.
Mosquito should be the emblem of life-sucking blood out of me.


Take care.

Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: Holden on December 22, 2020, 12:14:14 pm
https://youtu.be/_DvjBUOAaV8
Title: Bergoglio - The globalist Pope
Post by: raul on December 22, 2020, 03:21:42 pm
Holden,

As I told you I know little about Jorge Mario Bergoglio, the Jesuit Pope. I suppose the fact that I am not a Catholic is a little disadvantage. When he was declared Pope in 2013 I was fascinated by all the show in the Vatican. I was even enthusiastic. Such is the power of television.

I heard that year that not many people defended him because when he was the Provincial of the Jesuits during the military dictatorship (1976-1983) in Argentina two of his former fellow priests, Orlando Yorio and Franz Jalics, denounced that he was responsible for their detention and torture in the Navy Mechanics School where many were killed. Those who were killed were called los desaparecidos, the disappeared in the so-called Dirty War.

They said that Bergoglio at that time had a special relation with Emilio Massera, head of the Argentinian Navy and one of the most powerful members of the military junta and whom he passed information on dissidents inside the church.

Here I must mention that when he studied chemistry in the 1950s one of his teachers was Esther Ballestrino de Careaga, a Paraguayan lady who was a member of the Partido Revolucionario Febrerista, a political party with socialist leanings here. In 1947 she fled the country beause of the civil war and settled in Argentina. In 1977 this lady was kidnapped by the Argentinian military, tortured for days, drugged and then thrown alive from an airplane. Many died that way. Again the fingers point at Bergoglio for having denounced this lady to the military. Bergoglio supposedly denounced some of his fellow priests because they worked with the poor, did social work and above all because they had relations with subversives.

Months ago I found strange that the Jesuit resigned to the position of Vicar of Christ. This is a title that has been linked to all the popes before him. Also the Vatican is displaying a strange Christmas tree and manger in St. Peter´s Square.

This week I saw a picture where he was with Lady Lynn Forestier de Rothschild in the Vatican.  She is one of the most powerful women in the world. They spoke of inclusive capitalism whose goal is to build a more inclusive economic system. I suppose that these owners of this planet deeply care about the poor in the world.  :D

Those who have researched about the Jesuit´s biography speculate that he is a Mason and a globalist and working to enforce the Agenda 2030 whose goal is to crush any kind of sovereignty and lead the planet toward a New World Order.
They say that Bergoglio would not have been a pope without belonging to the Society of Jesus. Its headquarters is in Rome. Its founder was Ignatius of Loyola who founded the Order in 1580. They are referred to as the soldiers of God. Arturo Sosa of Venezuela is the Superior General of the Jesuits. The Superior is also known as the Black Pope.

I have just read that the Congregation for the Doctrine of the Faith approved by the Pope gives the green light during the pandemic to the use of vaccines produced with cell lines derived from aborted fetuses aborted in their research and production process. It is really weird. The Church is against abortion.

Here we have the Jesuit Reductions that housed thousands of indigenous peoples in the 18th century. Some say that these reductions were really concentration camps.

Recently the former Apostolic Nuncio to the U.S. Archbishop Carlo Maria Vigano has spoken against Bergoglio. He even wrote to U.S. President Donald Trump denouncing the New World Order. Some bloggers, I read, even say that he could be next Pope.

P.S. This clip is The Banker taken from a Spanish youtuber. Listen to what he says from 00:00 to 06:30. You and the readers of this blog may find it interesting.


https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=utlthdqs0ow
Title: The Natural Aristocracy ( To Senor Raul)
Post by: Holden on December 23, 2020, 12:31:22 pm
Senor Raul,

Thanks for the message.The video is was quite insightful.

Catholic priests are supposed to be celibate. The idea behind the practice is commendable -only a man without fetters can have any realistic chance of doing something heroic, I mean, to have the courage to go against the herd.The flaw is that it cannot be reduced into a rigid rule for every Tom, Dick And Harry.

It must  be voluntary and emerge from one's very core- like in your case, in that of Herr Hauser and Mr.Silenus and Mr.Ibra-the natural aristocracy,but as Nietzsche tells us, social hierarchy is often the exact opposite.


Schopenhauer had some nice things to say about traditional/Latin-based Catholicism because he detected deep pessimism in some of its aspects.He had never experienced this Novus Ordo, which is the order of the day now. I think Schopenhauer would say that now Catholicism is becoming more and more like "positive thinking" Protestantism which he detested absolutely.

When the Catholic priests are being formed in the seminary, they study a great deal of philosophy.Yet, many of them fail to truly appreciate that.They do not appreciate it in the honest manner in which Herr Hauser and Herr Schopenhauer understand it.
This is what I call Natural Aristocracy- it cannot be constituted by means of a Papal bull.

Let's us just say ,Schopenhauer would not have quite liked the Hip Hop Liturgy of this kind :)

https://youtu.be/FdAk4Kis9PA


While the following man, it is said, was in power, Aleister Crowley's ashes  were buried in a place  close to where Herr Hauser resides:

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Theodore_McCarrick


https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Aleister_Crowley

Artaud once played a monk.

He once said I s-h-i-t on Marxism :) at a time when Marxism was all the rage:)
Like Van Gogh ,he was put into an asylum ,by his parents. Parents, it seems to me, love putting their wayward kids in the asylum.
Ancient Romans, particularly,ladies, hatching plots all the time to put their man on the throne. After a few years, the game begins all over again. A deadly game.

Panic is my constant companion. It is with me even when my shadow is not. I would not mind joining a church wherein Artaud is the pope.
 Artaud wrote Heliogabalus, or the Crowned Anarchist. The emperor killed 500 ostriches so that the guest could eat their brains.
The grandmother manipulates behind the scenes to get the grandson the throne.

No man who has an office job can ever write something like Heliogabalus. Are not the popes ,the successors of the Roman Emperors, in a way.How much blood has the Eternal City seen? And how much more, yet to see?


Heliogabalus- castrating citizens, selling himself for s-e-x,demanding change of gender-a Roman Emperor.

Take care.





Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: raul on December 24, 2020, 04:15:45 am
Holden,

Thank you for the links. Enduring tuberculosis must be a horrible experience. But that is how our human body is programmed. It is programmed to suffer diseases. Two percent of the Paraguayan population will suffer from cancer. I may be one of the 2 percent.

Indeed you are in a castle and this castle is Earth. It is a strange feeling to feel and be alive. Most do not think about this issue. They are far too concerned with families, jobs, money issues even in this plandemic.

They want to go back to normal, whatever that means to them. They fail to realize that their world will never go back to normal. Now most will rush to get vaccinated to get back to normal.

I read that if you get the Pfizer vaccines you will still have to carry masks and practice social distancing. And Pfizer chairman and CEO Albert Bourla won´t take his own vaccine. This must be a joke.

You have read and thought deeply about Nietzsche´s words. You think too much. It will do you no good. Thinking in a critical way is bad for life. You are, what many call, an intellectual outlaw. Clearly you are different. I would say you are a mutation.

Well, what can I say about abortion? The state has devised countless means to execute the living beings. The rope, the ax, the spear, the fire, the sticks or clubs,the guillotine, machete and the bullet were often used but with technology it uses poison gas, electricity, letter bomb, lethal injection, drones, climate change weapons  and now vaccines. I think in Asia elephants were used to punish the criminals by crushing their heads. With legal impunity soldiers and policemen also kill their fellow human beings.

I suppose forcing people to live in slums or workers working for a meager salary is also killing but on a short and long term. Here the National Institute of Cancer does not repair the X-ray machines and people die because of lack of treatment. 9,000 people die of cancer every year. Murdered by the state.

The mandatory wearing of face masks is also murder. In the pandemic of 1918 it was not the virus that killed between 20 million and 40 million people.  Those, politicians, rulers, presidents, doctors, employers, who have imposed the face masks on us, will pay the consequences sooner or later. Parents fail to realize they will be responsible for their children´s suffering on a long term.

Stay safe.
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: Holden on December 25, 2020, 02:32:58 am
"In loneliness, the lonely one eats himself; in a crowd, the many eat him. Now choose." - Friedrich Nietzsche
Title: El Brujo-Sorcerer(To Senor Raul)
Post by: Holden on December 25, 2020, 12:34:29 pm
Senor Raul,

Thanks for the message. I wish to ask you if you have come across any Brujo in Paraguay, and if yes, what do you make of them?
I would not want to bad-mouth tuberculosis, it might yet prove to be my salvation.

My father today,over the telephone, called me (shouted) -"an old curmudgeon whom no one would want to get married to".
I did not shout back. I just was silent. It is true in a way ,I guess. When I do not shave and have a stubble, there are patches of gray hair in it.

Most people just do not want to confront the grim reality.If I were in any other century, tuberculosis would have killed me off by now and yet here I am writing to you.

No serotonin in my brain, I guess.Sometimes its difficult to draw the line between tragedy and (dark) comedy). I like that Houellebecq does not really care about the Parisian literary establishment. I wonder what Cioran would have made of Houellebecq.

I cannot help feeling amused when the left-wing thinkers mention Nietzsche as their inspiration. Nietzsche would have died of laughter. He was anything but left-wing. Not everyone is supposed to become Ubermensch. Not everyone, according to him, can re-invent the value system. Maybe one a million,if that.

Most people are confused. I am confused. The difference is, if there is one, that I am, in a convoluted way aware of it.
Most people, like a house lizard, have their tongue out to catch a fly. When they get one, slumber over takes them and then the cycle begins all over again.

The Damned.They wish to kill Houellebecq,if they could. I wonder why. Could it be because what he has to say is closer to truth than is allowed?

Do they drink a lot fruit juice in Paraguay? I generally do not get the sick feeling after drinking some-maybe the body likes it.
Words turn into delirium and delirium into prose.The office is a special place of torture- the gulags and the concentration camps are positively places of amusement in comparison.

In schools,they vote for the student most likely to succeed,how about the student most likely to commit suicide?
My school days were bad too. Without a ray of light.

Take care.

https://youtu.be/eYoINidnLRQ


Title: Posthumously
Post by: Holden on December 25, 2020, 10:56:22 pm
Nietzsche — 'Some men are born posthumously".
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: raul on December 26, 2020, 04:38:44 am
Holden,

Thank you for your response. You know how to put pen to paper, well, in this case the fingers to the keyboard. In a world like this the temptations of the flesh, so to speak, are difficult to overcome.  Virginity and chastity are not praised in this world.

Many Catholic priests have been found having relationships with their female parishioners. I suppose many priests want to be fathers or just cannot endure loneliness. And the other way around must be happening with Catholic nuns. I read that the Church considers celibacy as a gift that Jesus gave to his Church. Celibacy in the Orthodox Church is not obligatory.

The Eternal City and the planet have seen oceans of blood. Many popes were really helpers of the Anti Christ. Some popes bribed their way into the papacy and many were assassinated. John Paul I was allegedly poisoned in 1978.
Stephen V (885-891) declared that all popes are a certain species of man-god and all powers in heaven, as well as on Earth, are given to them. John XII (955-963) was worthy of “being the rival of Elagabalus … a robber, a murderer, and incestuous person. He fornicated, some said, with his father´s concubine and with his own niece.  And Gregory VII (1073-1085) said that all the princes shall kiss the feet of the pope alone.

But popes like kings, queens, emperors, princes, and presidents are just front men/women. Real authority belongs to faceless puppeteers behind the scenes who pull the invisible strings that control the human species.

A German preacher called Thomas Muntzer, a contemporary of Martin Luther, stated that “the crucial experience of humanity was suffering. It alone permitted one to receive the word of God. It was the sickle that cleared out the soul, sliced through the weeds; and he called out to a bitter Christ. “Jezebel is not yet completely devoured by the dogs, she lives still, aye.” That’s what he wrote. The bitter Christ is his most abject image, and the most moving.”

Stay well.

P.S. This is my response to your post Natural Aristocracy.
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: raul on December 27, 2020, 05:41:08 am
Holden,

It is sad that your father verbally attacked you for not getting married. I see it as a compliment. Your father believes you have failed to be an efficient procreator.

I came across a sort of brujo only once thirty-one years ago. My late mother wanted him to bring me good luck. The man washed my hair with creolin and said some prayers. That was all. It did not work.

Traditionally we call them payesero (male) or payesera (female). They are a kind of witches, or shamans. Payé, a word in Guarani that means casting spells. Its purpose is to get your lover´s heart, avoid perils, achieve happiness, or even make bullets bounce back in the body or avoid diseases. You can make payé work with the victim´s underwear and if it has not been washed the effect is much better.

If a woman wants a man to fall in love with her she must use guinea fat and make it go through the man´s hair without him realizing. Now the payeseros do their little work with virtual sorcery with Whatsapp.

From time to time dark thoughts come to my poor brain. We do not choose to be born. We do not choose our names and we have been indoctrinated “to be somebody in life” one way or another. From the moment we come here we are exploited at all times.

Unless somebody kills us we will get old with crippling diseases unable to take of ourselves. What is the purpose of this effort? Why are we here? Are we here for this? Nobody escapes even those who are above. After all, Evelyn de Rothschild, PM Modi, Queen Elizabeth, Pope Francis also go to the bathroom and shhit. Whoever manufactured us gave us a complex nervous system in order to suffer intense pain when we get hurt and bleed.

Is this a wonderful world? This world is a chicken farm: chicken were born in captivity and their only purpose was to become food for the human eaters. 

I know nothing about ubermensch. Is he inhuman or superhuman or both? Was the Galilean, Gengis Khan or Napoleon or the Belgian King Leopold who reduced the Congolese population from 20 milion to 8 million ubermensch? People wanted rubber for their bikes so Leopold just delivered the product.

Yes, people drink a lot of fruit juice but what most drink is barley juice aka beer.

Stay alert.
Title: Three Days of Migraine and Vomiting (To Senor Raul)
Post by: Holden on December 27, 2020, 02:19:08 pm
Senor Raul,

Thanks for the message.Thank you for sharing your cultural knowledge with me.

Three days of migraine and vomiting..that is how  Nietzsche started his retired life. What he was trying to find out,about himself,in the final analysis, was that, can he, despite  his poor health and suffering, say yes, to such a life,could he embrace necessity?
Could he say yes to such a life, even if it repeat itself again and again.

About two years back ,when I was in my parents' town, I was going to the office by subway and I remember, I was a bit late for some kind of a phone call. I was agitated. What would Nietzsche do in such a situation. He would say to himself that he embraces the situation.
Make a virtue of necessity.

I look at it this way- given the endless chain of cause of effect, at this moment, I am doing what I have been determined to do-writing to you.To embrace such lack of freedom of the will is easy. The question is , can I embrace tuberculosis also, with the same ease,especially, when I all throwing up everything,even water?

Can I then say ,with, Nietzsche, that I embrace tuberculosis within my body, and not once, but repeatedly?
I think, Nietzsche ,though he wanted so very much, could never think beyond Schopenhauer. If there has been an advance beyond Schopenhauer, it has been made by Herr Hauser and not Nietzsche.

I can say this with Nietzsche though:
Did I seek where the wind bites keenest, learn to live where no one lives, in the desert where only the polar bear lives, unlearn to pray and curse, unlearn man and god, become a ghost flitting across the glaciers?

In essence, you and I , are the same the violent storms blowing on the surface of Uranus.

Another way to look at Nietzsche-look at how he "lived" most of his life,as they say, action speaks louder than words.Well, he loved solitude and writing.In this, he remained a true disciple of Schopenhauer. Also, it may please be noted, that he  died without leaving behind any offspring. He  had learnt the Schopenhauerian lessons which mattered the most.

Take care.
Title: On and On We Run Away, From the Things We are Afraid...
Post by: Holden on December 27, 2020, 04:13:50 pm
https://youtu.be/qQZv90cSCDU
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: raul on December 28, 2020, 05:43:50 am
Holden,

In this link you and the readers of this blog wil see an interview between a youtuber and Adan, a bricklayer from Mexico. I took it from a Colombian youtuber who goes by the name of The Real BlackPill. The title is lookismo versus Nihilismo. I translated the most important parts into English.

This bricklayer, Adan, had a terrible accident while working on August 31, 2017. He was 24 years old. He was installing the floor. Suddenly he stepped on a big pool of water and a light dragged him. 26,700 volts dragged him and began to get electrocuted. He fell downstairs because he worked in the roof. His boss tried to help with a mason corrector but it only things worse.

He lost 90 percent of the body, lost his legs, the torax, arms, his face,  The interviewer asked him what he remembered after the accident. Adan says  he remembered his little son. That gave him the necessary strength to get up and move forward. He says he is looking for a face transplant and that´s why he is raising funds. He can´t go out in the sun for a long time. A bacteria can enter his body because he does not have the nose.

Adan says that unfortunately his little son moved away with his mother after the accident. They stayed with him for some time and they left. He wishes happiness for them. That is what gives him the breath and strength so that he can see him when he grows up. After the accident Adan had several surgeries. 30 or 35 surgeries, he says and 4 heart attacks. He was in coma. He says he has been through difficult situations and says he will not give up. He will keep fighting.   

Stay safe.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cPSYQBwGjnE
Title: First Battered by Life then Mauled by Wife( To Senor Raul)
Post by: Holden on December 30, 2020, 12:26:03 pm
Senor Raul,

My apologies for the delay in response-too tired and disoriented. Thanks for the translation.The man looks like a monster ,does he not?
He was brutally disfigured by the forces of nature. A woman is also a force of nature-a very dangerous one.
He was probably handing over his salary at the beginning of each month to his wife while she lazed around in the house.

The man is probably a Catholic,or maybe belongs to some other Christian denomination, do they not say ,during the wedding in the church:

In the name of God, I, Bride’s Name, take you, Groom’s Name, to be my husband, To have and to hold From this day forward, For better, for worse, For richer, for poorer, In sickness and in health, To love and to cherish, Until we are parted by death. This is my solemn vow.

I underscore the word,"solemn".I would like to know from you,if you please, does the world solemn mean "a filthy joke" in Spanish? That is how it seems to me.

If the man were not married, did not have a child, he could have probably made do with far less money,probably without his horrible job. His mistake? He was naive. He believed in his Christian vow. He thought it actually meant something.

Thomas Aquinas,who is a favorite among the Christian "thinkers",to be sure, was not a stupid man. But he should have been forthright enough to tell his brethren, when he goes on and on about the Natural Law that no vow-no matter how solemn, no doctrine-no matter how sacred and no dogma-no matter how rigid, could protect a man from the laws of physics and the feminine wiles.

In fact, it is the religious kind of men-Catholic or Hindu-it matters very little, get the worst of it. They seem to think that getting married in a Cathedral or a Hindu Temple, provides some kind of guarantee that the woman will stay with them " in sickness and in health".She might be with the man "in health", but one should  not count on her when one is sick.

I know of many cases of domestic violence - the wife beating up the hubby.

https://www.reddit.com/r/relationship_advice/comments/cd57gi/my_wife_physically_assaults_me_sometimes/

There are wives who leave their husbands the moment they start earning better than the husband.

https://www.reddit.com/r/relationship_advice/comments/4kjnr6/27m_my_wife_25f_humiliated_me_and_i_dont_know_how/

These vows-they means nothing,nay, less than nothing.

Take care.

https://youtu.be/KmHU9Qlnhqk
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: raul on December 31, 2020, 12:31:06 pm
Holden,

Thank you for your response and the links. I hope you are enduring your health issues with tranquility. Another issue is your colleagues at work. That nasty environment can cripple a healthy man. I wonder if you could have a sort of retirement due to working in an unhealthy environment.

Unfortunately, Adan, the young man, without a face transplant things will find survival very difficult, to say the least. The interview does not say anything about his family but I would not be surprised if he handed his salary to his wife. It happens here often. I suppose Adan is Catholic given the fact that Mexico is predominantly Catholic.

Here in Paraguay we have an expression in jopará (a mix of Spanish and Guarani) lorito oga, i.e., the domesticated or tamed parrot. It means a parrot in a cage. It refers to the husband tied to a domineering wife, unable to play soccer with his buddies or have a drink. That is part of our machista culture.

His tragedy reminds me of how resilient human beings are. The guy is an optimist and so are millions on this Earth.
If this guy had someone like Nietzche as an adviser, what would the philosopher advise to him?

Solemne means in Spanish formal, firm, serious, valid or severe. The word has a strong connotation. A person must fulfill a duty with fidelity.

Nowadays few stick to their vows after getting married and I agree with you when you say that wives leave their husbands when they make more money than the husband. Money gives power.

Well, the only thing I read about Aquinas is that in his view animals have no afterlife and no rights. He also said the saints in heaven are permitted to see the punishment of the damned in hell so that they may enjoy their beatitude and the Grace. Aquinas also said that human beings do evil by seeking good in the wrong way. From his point of view prostitutes are a necessary evil to protect the virtue of honest women. “Take away prostitutes from the world and you will fill it with sodomy.”

Stay safe.
Title: Demonic Dance of Angels in Argentina( To Senor Raul)
Post by: Holden on January 01, 2021, 02:06:09 pm
Senor Raul,

Thank you for the message. You are most kind in that you take some time out to respond to my bitter rants.

If this  man had someone like Nietzsche as an adviser, what would the philosopher advise to him?-Senor Raul

First off, when Nietzsche uses the word Ubermensch, he means someone far closer to Goethe than Napoleon.

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Johann_Wolfgang_von_Goethe

He would probably say to this poor creature to embrace his suffering.To say Yes to his plight.Not only that, but to joyfully accept getting battered an infinite number of times. I might mention here that Nietzsche's own life was no bed of roses and he suffered a great deal.The last ten years spent as a zombie. His sister dressed him up in a white gown and put him on display for the tourists.

By the way, I would like to find out your esteemed opinion on this:
https://youtu.be/e2mYim4oPnk

How would one unpack this scene of celebration- I mean the unspoken assumptions:
1.These women would copulate in a manner that they would end up being "in the family way".
2.For some reason, they would like to use  abortion as the means of birth control-not pills,not female condoms,not Copper IUDs but abortion.

The point is- I am not very sure if the foetus  feels no pain.Pain might be all-pervasive.

Back to Nietzsche and the battered man-well, the thing is ,if determinism is true, and that is how things appear to me, then, there is very little that man could have done to save himself.Jupiter decreed that he should get battered badly.If that were to happen to me,then probably I would like to die- even more intensely than I do now.

There is a wide spread narrative that women are such innocent angels that when they need to get an abortion they are sad and extremely reluctant. Well, this video put paid to that myth.

Don't get me wrong-I am not pro-life,but I am also not pro-stupidity.What I am trying to say is-why get in a situation where an abortion is needed? But of course, I am the abnormal one. Normality is to copulate and then abort.Rinse and repeat.

Some of these ladies, I am told, dabble in witchcraft and black magik and as a part of the black magik ceremony,they go out and copulate,get impregnated and then sacrifice the baby ,by way of abortion, to their carnivorous deity.

Take care.

 

Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: raul on January 02, 2021, 03:24:20 pm
Holden,

Thank for the links. I heard about the bill to legalize abortion in Argentina. I knew it was just a matter of time. These thousands of women and girls who are celebrating this bill legalizing abortion have no idea that they are just tools in the agenda of the controllers of this world.

The fact that thousands of these women are in the streets when people in Argentina cannot cross the provinces because of the plandemic clearly shows that the government is behind these abortion rights advocates.

Women are no innocent creatures and neither are men. We are all part of this hellish game.

As to whether fetuses feel pain I read an article by Sarah G. Miller in 2016 where in Utah, USA, a law was passed “that required doctors to give anesthesia to a fetus prior to performing an abortion that occurs at 20 weeks of gestation or later. Indeed, the American College of Obstetricians and Gynecologists (ACOG) said it considers the case to be closed as to whether a fetus can feel pain at that stage in development. The science shows that based on gestational age, the fetus is not capable of feeling pain until the third trimester," said Kate Connors, a spokesperson for ACOG. The third trimester begins at about 27 weeks of pregnancy.” I wonder if what these obstetricians and gynecologists say is true.

Some say that if any person wants to kill without danger working in an abortion clinic as a doctor is the best choice.

The little I know is that men and women in positions of power,as you say, dabble in witchcraft and black magik and as a part of the black magik ceremony,they go out and copulate,get impregnated and then sacrifice the baby ,by way of abortion, to their carnivorous deity.

I have just been reading about the election fraud in the USA. John Roberts, Chief Justice of the US Supreme Court of Justice, allegedly took those Lolita express flights to this Jeffrey Epstein´s island where he had ssex with minors along with many others supposedly such as Prince, Andrew, Woody Allen, Bill Clinton, Naomi Watts, etc. Their names have been recorded in the flight log. Chief Justice Roberts supposedly havid knowledge of Antonin Scalia´s death, a former US Chief Justice during Obama´s presidency.

This Epstein guy, a millionaire, allegedly killed himself in 2019 in a New York prison but some say he is still alive working with the authorities. A famous lawyer, Lin Wood, linked Roberts to illegal adoption from Epstein of two children from Wales. This lawyer also accused Democrat leader, Joe Biden of being a criminal and a pervert. What I read was that having ssex with minors is part of an initiation into these secret clubs. So I would not be surprised if they sacrificed babies to dark deities. 

I saw many times pictures in some books of that famous scene from the Sixtine Chapel in the Vatican, the one where God leans over and almost touches the fingertip of our  so-called father Adam. Are Adam and God are pointing at each other or blaming each other for what can only deemed a really ffucked up creation.

Most of us behave like those rabbits hypnotized by the boa constrictor.We have been like rabbits that recognized the right of the boa constrictor to swallow us; whoever fell under the power of its gaze would walk quite calmly and with a sense of doom into its mouth.

Embrace suffering, that is what Nietzche would advise to Adan. To joyfully accept getting battered an infinite number of times, as you say, is not something that many would accept. We seek pleasure at all times.

Stay vigilant.
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: Holden on January 04, 2021, 06:58:52 am
https://youtu.be/y2auN5XvsBk
Title: In the Sunset of Dissolution, Everything is Illuminated by the Aura of Nostalgia
Post by: Holden on January 04, 2021, 03:53:07 pm
Senor Raul,

Thanks for the message. Much appreciated as always.
I would very much like to know as what do you make of Fernando Lugo-the priest who became a politician.Thanks.

"In the sunset of dissolution, everything is illuminated by the aura of nostalgia, even the guillotine." -Kundera

I think of what Kundera says here in the light of Nietzsche's Eternal Recurrence. If something is taking place just once,one could say that it was contingent.But eternal recurrence turns that into something substantial,something solid.I am thinking of the man who met with an accident in the video you shared with me.

Nietzsche, in his nachlass,can be found to be playing with this idea as a general theory. If the atoms in the world are finite,then they might very well attain the same configuration periodically. One would not remember anything, of course. The man would not know that he had met with an accident earlier too. Which is better-to be mauled once? Or to get mauled an infinite number of times?

Take care.

https://youtu.be/reFNP63Sb3o
Title: Blonde shows cherry to the boys and leave the girls crazy
Post by: raul on January 05, 2021, 06:04:48 am
Holden,

Thank you for the links. Mr.Gary forgets that human beings are selfish. It is in our nature. We act out only of self interest. Can human nature be reworked? No.

This is the reason, as you well know, we have a state. Human selfishness has to be repressed by knowing that there will always be consequences for breaking the rules and norms of society. We must be governed by czars, rulers, princes, emperors to whom we give total obedience.

Sometimes from the distance I would like to witness huge riots where once again we will see the suspension of our so-called civilized world. Our veneer fades much faster than anyone expects and we become terrifying creatures.

Fomer Paraguayan president Fernando Lugo has been too much quiet during this plandemic. I suppose he must have received some incentives, so to speak, to remain quiet. He is currently a Senator. Now the Paraguayan congress will be on vacation for almost 3 months while thousands were left jobless.

As to your question, the best thing is not to have been born.

In the link below, that I took from Rede TV a Brazilian TV station, you will see female actors playing jokes in the streets but I think it can be considered a pyschological study of how female acts when they see themselves threatened by other females.

The title in Spanish is “The blonde shows “cherry” for the boys  and leave the girlfriends crazy.


https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QXSnF6uH4I0
Title: Out of the Crooked Timber of Humanity, No Straight Thing was Ever Made
Post by: Holden on January 06, 2021, 03:27:14 pm
Senor Raul,

Thank you for the message.You write:

Mr.Gary forgets that human beings are selfish. It is in our nature. We act out only of self interest. Can human nature be reworked? No.

I could not agree with you more.While I do admire Mr.Gary,evidently, there is a difference between what he believes and what you ( and I) believe.As you say very succinctly- It is in our nature.

We are all covered by a mass of perversion-total depravity.As Kant says,'Out of the crooked timber of humanity, no straight thing was ever made.'

For all his pessimism,Mr.Gary remains an optimist in that he believes that a way could be devised in order to put the sentient creatures out of their misery.Let me be clear-his heart is in the right place and he is a zillion times better than Joe Sixpack,but the fact remains that his ideas,like that of nuking the Earth to bits, would just never fly.The world, if and when it perishes, would do so, as Eliot writes,"Not with a bang, but with a whimper".

Second, he believes that the emergence of sentient life in the universe (on Earth), has probably happened just once. That is highly questionable. Sentient life maybe as common as mushrooms after rain.

Still, the man has suffered a great deal and what he wishes to do is commendable. I agree with him emotionally but not intellectually. I think that he underestimates what he is up against. It is not as easy as switching off the lights, or pushing the nukes button.

The problem is, unlike Herr Hauser, he sorely lacks deep philosophical understanding and he also does not possess your radical pragmatism.
Yet, he is clearly one of us,we all want the same thing- permanent cessation of suffering.

Even if some one literally blasts the Earth to smithereens,I have a sinking feeling in the pit of my stomach that it would not be the end of all suffering forever.No, things are a little more complicated than that,aren't they?

Thanks for the video.

Take care.

https://youtu.be/0X7nOnpGYbU



Title: Night life in Paraguay
Post by: raul on January 07, 2021, 12:42:37 pm
Holden,

Thank you for the link. Metallica and a clip from Saving Private Ryan are a good combination.

You think too much. Why don´t you become like most of us, homo consumus, because we have long ceased to be homo sapiens.

We have been atrophied by technological gadgets. To the thugs in power we are just social animals with no intelligence whatsoever. You know in 15 years, if I am still here, newspapers and magazines will be relics.

Maybe you have heard of Enrique Guinsberg, who coined the term normópata in Spanish. Guinsberg is a Mexican communicator and researcher in the Department of Psychology in the Universidad Autónoma Metropolinata Xochimilco in México.

In English normópata could be translated as normopath. According to Guinsberg the normopaths are the normal subjects those who passively accept as a principle everything that their culture deems as good, fair and correct, not being able to question anything and sometimes not even think differently but judge critically those who do it or even condemn them or accept their condemnation. Hentrich would call them gorts.

To the normopaths the “bad” citizens are a menace to the planet and as neighbors they will report or denounce them.
Just watch what many people did to their neighbors in this plandemic. It is nothing new. It happened in the Soviet Union, in Nazi Germany, in East Germany and is happening in Cuba and Communist China. Israel at this moment will issue green passports for those who get vaccinated for the China bug. I am suffering from diabetes so I will get a brown passport. Anything is possible.

I am sure there is sentient life on other planets. Maybe there are extraterrestrials on Mars and we don´t know it yet. The Pentagon in 2019 released footage of UFOs taken by US military pilots. Last year an Israeli scientist and retired military officer says that US President Donald Trump knows all about it but he says that humans are not ready.

I wonder if there is a Holden, a Hentrich, Ibra or Silenus among the aliens.

Stay safe.

P.D. Below is a link called Vida Nocturna en Paraguay -2010. Night life in Paraguay. This is a report for a TV channel. I recognize some streets. The image matters most here. The reporter is doing a tour with a taxi driver, interviewing a girl at night and showing the streets at night.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hBEqi4WASg8
Title: Flee, My Friend, into thy Solitude! ( To Senor Raul)
Post by: Holden on January 09, 2021, 03:50:14 pm
Senor Raul,

Thanks for the message and the video.

Your write:
I wonder if there is a Holden, a Hentrich, Ibra or Silenus among the aliens.
Yes,millions of Holdens, in all probability.But I suspect there is only one Herr Hauser.

I saw the video. Many women these days have their "Only Fans" pages and earn without venturing outside.
Yes,well, I am not "normal",I freely admit it.I do not belong to the mainstream, however that maybe defined.I have never slept with anyone,not even a street-walker.

The "normal" people take everything in their stride. Matrimony,Copulation and pregnancy are par for the course for them.Not for me.
For me these are extremely complicated, even philosophical issues. One life time is not sufficient to grapple with them.
Most people are lemming-like.

I have to agree with Socrates here- I do not understand most things I see around me. Not by a long shot.

We were talking about Nietzsche a few days back and I would like to say something that I was recently thinking about.Nietzsche was a deeply conflicted man.When he proposed to Salome ,well, he proposed three times and was turned down each time,he was almost on the verge of committing suicide and only will a herculean effort of his will could he continue to draw breath.

Here is the thing,on the one hand, he wishes to embrace everything life throws at him and yet on the other hand he absolutely despises pettiness of any kind. You asked me what he would say to the man who met with a gruesome accident. That would not have been something he would find difficult to answer.That was,in fact, right up alley.

But ,imagine,the institution which was paying him pension, delayed his pension due to some  administrative red-tapism.Now, the question is-would he embrace such pettiness too?Would he haggle for money with his University's clerk ?
I'd better allow him to respond :

Flee, my friend, into thy solitude! I see thee stung all over with the stings of the little ones.

Admirably do forest and rock know how to be silent with thee. Resemble again the tree which thou lovest, the broad-branched one- silently and attentively it o'erhangeth the sea.

Where solitude endeth, there beginneth the market-place; and where the market-place beginneth, there beginneth also  the buzzing of the poison-flies.


Critics like to focus on Nietzsche,heck, even Hollywood likes to focus to Nietzsche, but not on Schopenhauer, oh no, that would not happen in a thousand years, they would embrace anyone but  Schopenhauer.This tells us something,does it not?

Please take care.

https://youtu.be/QmCJ3TW2hqA
Title: Cursed be Hope! Cursed be Faith!-Goethe
Post by: Holden on January 09, 2021, 10:28:37 pm
When sweet familiar tones drew me,

Away from the tormenting crowd,

Then my other childhood feelings

Better times echoed, and allowed.

So I curse whatever snares the soul,

In its magical, enticing arms,

Banishes it to this mournful hole,

With dazzling, seductive charms!

Cursed be those high Opinions first,

With which the mind entraps itself!

Then glittering Appearance curse,

In which the senses lose themselves!

Curse what deceives us in our dreaming,

With thoughts of everlasting fame!

Curse the flattery of ‘possessing’

Wife and child, lands and name!


Curse Mammon, when he drives us

To bold acts to win our treasure,


Curse the sweet juice of the grape!

Curse the highest favours Love lets fall!

Cursed be Hope! Cursed be Faith



-Faust(Goethe)
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: Holden on January 09, 2021, 10:49:45 pm
Goethe was an extremely gifted writer. The problem is, he possessed a naturally sunny disposition, for something like Faust.
Now,if Schopenhauer were to rewrite it... ;)
Title: Apocalyptic Times
Post by: raul on January 10, 2021, 02:29:35 pm
Holden,
होल्डेन, मुझे आशा है कि आप अपने स्वास्थ्य के मुद्दों को समाप्त कर रहे हैं।

Maybe Hentrich is an alien and he does not know it… :D

You have a bad attitude. You are not normal. There is a new coined term, “happytalism”. That means you have to be happy in the new infernal world. Anyone who protests against happiness will be expelled from this paradise. Please, do not go against the current, be normal and be happy, be polite, be nice. :D

I don´t know. Maybe Salome turned Nietzche down because she did not find engagements appealing. Maybe she thought the philosopher was too much for her. It would take a brave courageous and philosophically versed filmmaker to make a film on Schopenhauer. Schopenhauer in this greedy world is not marketable.

You dedicate your life to extremely complicated, even philosophical issues as you say. Most do not want to do that. These issues complicate their lives, their careers, their jobs, their families, practically everything.

Those who study the Gnostics say that most people work for the Archons without questioning their own behavior or mental programming. They are puppets, they are of demons and they behave like zombies. They are enemies of freedom as much as the owners of this human farm are. The human farm needs a new reset, Mr. Klaus Schwab, founder of the Economic Forum in Davos, has stated that aim, so the Demiurge wants to eat because it has awakened after a long, long, long dream. They will reduce the population and the demiurge will fill its belly with much happiness. This is war.

Stay vigilant.

P.S. In one of my post I wrote about Lin Wood, a member of President Trump´s legal team. He, in his parler account, says that Pope Francis will be arrested in connection with an 80 count indictment of charges including possession of child ppoornography, human trafficking and fraud etc. There was a blackout in Rome and in the Vatican yesterday. Allegedly the Pope is involved in the massive fraud election in the USA together with the Italian government. There were blackouts in Pakistan and Berlin.

I read also that there are military troops in Washington D.C.  The U.S. President, due to being banned by Twitter, Instagram and Facebook, and other platforms, will use an emergency broadcast system.

We are living in apocalyptic times.
Title: To Senor Raul
Post by: Holden on January 14, 2021, 10:13:58 am
To Senor Raul,

My apologies, Senor Raul, for the delayed response-I was feeling terrible.I was thinking about life in general, and how it cannot help but be tragic.

I think, in a way, only a confirmed bachelor could ever come close to reality. It is  hard to imagine how one could stay married and yet remain an honest man. An honest man is not a married man and vice versa.

All the projects taken up to fix the world are doomed to fail from the very beginning.
What percentage of the male Paraguayan population ,would you say, remains unmarried for the whole of their lives?

If you do not mind, could you please tell me at what age did you decide that you were going to stay unmarried(if indeed, you have made such a decision).

I hope that dying does not turn out to be as bad as my life has been.The problem is,the world is especially cruel to an honest man like you-very,very cruel.

This whole corona vaccine business, I would really like to know what your thoughts on  this matter are.Existence is really,really bad. So bad,in fact, I would never ever be able to describe the wretchedness properly.

Take care.
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: raul on January 14, 2021, 05:59:53 pm
Holden,

I found a meme in Spanish where Death meets Life and there is a dialogue:

Death: Why is everybody afraid of me?
Life:   Because I am full of lies and you are the reality.


Life is tragic. Life is also a mystery. Where does all this lead to? Are our destinies marked or determined or are we just playthings in the hands of the gods? Life cannot be limited to being born, growing up, reproducing and die. Growing up, working, marrying a lady, work harder, bringing children, work much harder, grow old, grow senile, grow sick and die.

I think probably before the age of 30 I decided to stay single. In part it was my sad and bitter family background and something deep down told me that this world is cruel. Life does not deserve sons and daughters. Life has had enough with me. We have come to be exploited by usurers, bankers, judges, princes, czars, ministers, and their minions.

The Paraguayan Secretariat for Youth last year in their research on the socioeconomic profile and expectations concluded that based on a work with 2,900 young people: 84% is single  7% in free union or living as concubines, 6% formally marry. So extremely few remain single their entire lifetime.

About the corona issue, the pandemic has been well planned. It was planned decades before all of us were born. For this deathly evil elite this planet is a living laboratory. The Soviet Union, Nazi Germany, Communist China, East Germany, Europe under the Iron Curtain, all the wars and economic crises were part of the experiment. Of course nobody told us anything about how this world is being run.

The elite or cabal, owners of Microsoft, Facebook, BlackRock, Goldman Sachs, General Motors, Coca-Cola, Wells Fargo, The New York Times, The Washington Post, CNN, Johnson & Johnson, etc., want to be the masters of the planet. In their view humans are worthless. They think they do us a favor by exterminating us.

According to a Spanish autor, Pedro Rosillo, who wrote about the Gnostics, these elites are also servants to the archons. Those in power have black magicians at their service who control this world and the world beyond.

In exchange of human sacrifices, the millions of children missing around the world and torturing them to harvest the adrechronome-known as the Fountain of Youth serum- from their blood and inject to stay healthy and strong, the members of the elite can reincarnate into someone powerful and continue to enjoy the pleasures of running this human farm. Servile humans obedient to the power deserve their destiny and were born to serve the dark elite. They always win in this diabolic world where the big fish eat the small fish. We are just cannon fodder. Born to pay taxes. That is the reason we are here. Earth is an animal farm.

We were born in deception.

Lucifer or Satan, the boss of the archons, so to speak, is the father of all created, of all matter. There was nothing before him, he created the universe and he is the only one. He is the true father of those who prayed every night in the name of the prophets.

To the archons the Catholic Church was a very important ally because it preached the doctrine that the fires of hell were eternal and nobody could leave hell. Therefore it deprived millions of hope who fell in the darkness of death.
To the archons this world is a mirror, a hologram. Something that is not real. It was an electronic game that someone is commanding from the outside. We ourselves are dolls that are programmed with genetic codes. We are in a big computer. Satan controls the computer and he will not turn it off. He is the god of this world and matter. With his consciousness he created all that exists.

Stay safe.
Title: I have lived so long amid their noise and bad breath !(To Senor Raul)
Post by: Holden on January 15, 2021, 12:06:24 pm
But down there all speech is in vain! There to forget and to pass by are the best wisdom. That have I learnt now!

He who would conceive all with men, would have to touch everything. But for that my hands are too clean.

I do not like to breathe even their breath. Alas, that I have lived so long amid their noise and bad breath !

Oh, blissful stillness round me! Oh, pure odours round me! Oh, how this stillness bringeth pure breath out of a deep breast ! Oh, how it hearkeneth, this blissful stillness !

But down there everything speaketh, everything is overheard. Let folk proclaim their wisdom by ringing bells, the shopkeepers in the market will outring them with their pennies!
-Nietzsche

Senor Raul,

I looked up the word "Archon" and found this-  "Archons are, in Gnosticism and religions closely related to it, the builders of the physical universe. , the archons are rulers, each related to one of seven planets; they prevent souls from leaving the material realm.".-Wikipedia.

I think Gnosticism is as old as Christianity,not to mention  that it is truer than conventional Christianity. I think the Gnostics ,if they were here now, would join the anti-natalists, and the anti-natalists,were they present in the ancient world would have become Gnostics. Your repeated mentioning of the Gnostics tells me that you have got great instincts to detect the truth. I agree with you and the Gnostics. To me personally, the Gnostics world view, your world view, makes much more sense than that of the Popes  and the Pastors.

I think the Gnostics were probably the first pessimists.How did you come across them, if I might ask?Maybe we are the latter-day Gnostics. Is there any English language book on the Gnostics you suggest to me to read?This world-view which you espouse seems to me to be in possession of internal self-consistency.

Yet people keep on reproducing,they fail to observe that they are shackled. As you rightly say-they are genetically programmed to do so. There is almost always an intense feeling of dread inside of me. Feeling that something really terrible is about to happen. It is the negative thinkers who are the honest ones,not the positive thinkers.

It is,in the end, a matter of waiting to die. But before death, a thousand and one torments would probably get to me. There is an old story which goes something like this- there was a man, in days gone by, who are very honest and God fearing and though the tempter tested him a great deal by making him suffer more than anyone else, he never complained about God.Not even once.

He dies and goes to heaven and there are two angels,one defending him and one prosecuting him, in order to determine his fate. As he as an excellent human being, the prosecuting angel said that because the man remained silent in his life and never complained, I too shall stay silent. They asked him what would he like to have in heaven.They told him he could have anything,anything at all.

He thought for some time and meekly said- I would like have my coffee lukewarm at least instead of the way I always received it during my life on earth(where the coffee was always of the below room temperature).

The prosecuting angel burst out laughing,in a sardonic fashion, because the man had suffered so very much in his lifetime of earth, he had been so severely traumatized, that even when asked to wish for anything in the universe,all he could think of was his lukewarm coffee.

Please take care.
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: Silenus on January 15, 2021, 02:38:27 pm
Life does not deserve sons and daughters.

Very well said, Raul.

Holden,
 I hope you don't mind me interjecting between you two. I just want to recommend The Gnostics by Jacques Lacarriere and Adam & Eve & The Serpent by Eliane Pagels for books in English on the Gnostics. There are numerous translations of the Gnostic Gospels/Nag Hammadi Library, but I have never seen one in person.
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: raul on January 15, 2021, 05:01:25 pm
Silenus,

Thank you for your response. I read your posts. They are always most illuminating. I hope you are doing allright given the circumstances.

I read Jacques Lacarriere´s book on the Gnostics. It is a book one can understand.I read Pedro Rosillo´s book El Arconte in Spanish. I also read Richard Smoley´s book on them.

I have been reading some bloggers from Spain and Colombia. All of them tell that there is massive deployment of the US military in Washington D.C. This includes the 10th Mountain Division and part of the Sixth Fleet. The army will handle important urban centers.

Flights will be cancelled and many people will be detained because they have criminal records. In Italy, they say, the cabinet resigned because, of the Italian government´s participation in the election fraud in the USA. Trump signed two years ago an Executive Order regarding foreign interference in US election. Germany,Spain, China, Serbia are also involved. John Sullivan, founder of Insurgence USA, has been arrested due to his participation in the riots in the Capitol.

Stay safe.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3zx8gYyGwl8
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: raul on January 15, 2021, 05:08:15 pm
Holden,

Thank you for your story about the God-fearing man, an excellent human being, you write.

You say: There is an almost an intense feeling of dread inside of me. Feeling that something really terrible is about to happen. It is the negative thinkers who are the honest ones, not the positive thinkers.

Indeed, Holden, the negative thinkers are always the honest ones. But they are cursed in this world. That is the way it has been.

Gnosticism is a very deep subject. I only read parts I find understandable. I came across the Gnostics a few years ago reading some articles about them. Then I found Jacques Lacarriere, Richard Smoley and April De Connick. The Gnostics came up also in books written by Spanish authors about the Cathars.

People will keep reproducing. It is part of our programming. We are addicted to our shackles. You see it every day.

In Pedro Rosillo´s book El Arconte human beings were born as food, as a resource of other more advanced civilizations than ours. We are in a lower dimension.

Everything we see from this dimension is just a reflex of what are in other dimensions. Human beings are fish in a big pond. The fish sees the reflects of the outside world through water if they look up, they are able to intuit that there is something superior but they cannot understand it. They can just philosophize or make conjectures on what is beyond from reflections they receive through the water.

It is not possible to explain a fish, living in a pond, things of the human world. It is not possible to explain to that fish what is a car, a credit card, medicine, electronics or a computer. It is not possible to explain to that fish why they are there and the purpose. Human beings are in that position.

These more advanced beings than us who have created us as one of their resources not only handle genetics but also handle other dimensions where we go after we die. These beings, who are immortal, and in other times we called gods and who made us mortal and have given us a short period of life. It is such a short period of life that we are starting to learn we are already old and die and we have to leave.

These interdimensional beings are those who have give n us religión, they are the ones who founded the religions. It is then that our consciousness gets trapped in these dimensions and on many occasions people come back here thinking they have things to do. Somehow we are harvested like wheat and when the harvest of souls they want to collect their food.

Souls die and reincarnate in an endless cycle trapped by lies, by lack of knowledge and by what they have believed in life.Souls trapped by superstition. Death is only a trap, a game designed to oppress our consciousness. Religions signify death, pain and superstition. Lucifer /Satan wants us to love him and kneel before him through pain.

Stay alert.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=t6RLWbOSvUw
Title: Naked Mammon Worshipers ( To Mr.Silenus)
Post by: Holden on January 16, 2021, 12:24:28 pm

Mr.Silenus,

Thanks for your messages and for the book suggestions. I have jotted down the titles in my notebook and would try to read these books. B12 suggestion of yours has been helpful to me. I would try out the new supplements which you mention and keep you posted about the effects

I greatly admire you individualism.What I mean is this- you could have ended up becoming one of the thousands of executives who work in giant corporations but you have decided to spend your time doing things which you believe are more important to you.

Many people think that in India most of the people  have Hinduism as their religion.That is not true. The most wide spread religion here is Careerism and not Hinduism. People here are  ultra-orthodox Careerists.

They eat junk food in the offices,crack lame jokes( which they keep repeating like a broken record). Most of them ,especially, people in the urban parts of the country, sport beer bellies.Almost all the office goers suffer from diabetes and high blood pressure.Each each of them has got at least a couple of kids.

The crass materialism they display astounds me. Now, I am hardly a conventionally religious man,but when I see these people running from pillar to post the whole day long for money and promotions and the like, I almost end up puking my guts out and begin to imagine that even the conventionally religious people might be better than these naked Mammon worshipers.

Please take care.
Title: Rex Mundi ( To Senor Raul)
Post by: Holden on January 16, 2021, 12:45:10 pm
Senor Raul,

Thanks for the wonder video-it was pure gold and just what the doctor ordered.I watched the next video about the Cathars too and well, I feel genuine kinship with both the Gnostics and the Cathars.The plight of the Cathars was terrible.Massacred to oblivion.

People who are honest and pure are always a threat to the vested interested. There have been people like us before.It is worth noting that the Catholic clerics are not supposed to get married. The Cathars thought that it was the right thing to do-I mean, not to get married,only they the whole hog and suggested even their ordinary members to remain unmarried or at the very least,to stay way from procreative se-xual intercourse.

The original  Gnostics are dead.The Cathars are also long dead. But the ideas live on. I find their core idea- that the material world is inherently evil and corrupt, very attractive ,because it corresponds with the reality that I find all around me.

It is not too difficult to recognize that this world is a terrible place. Yet, people keep breeding on and on. The more,the merrier,as they say :(

I do not know how they find the time to take care of a wife and their 2.4 kids. No wonder people are getting divorced all the time and the kids end up with severe mental trauma.

Be fruitful and multiply.God looked at the world and said it as Good. What kind of god would say such things?

Rex Mundi.
Title: Naked Stories - The conjoined sisters
Post by: raul on January 16, 2021, 02:46:48 pm
Holden,

Thank you for your response. I am glad you enjoyed the videos on Gnostics and Cathars. It is a deep subject which can take a lifetime to study.

Yes, Catholic clerics are not supposed to get married but the temptation of the flesh is too strong.

The material world is inherently evil and corrupt in the view of the Gnostics. Indeed people keep breading on and on as you say. I often see young pregnant women on the streets and the markets. What saddens me is that I see 4 or 5 year-old children wearing masks, total madness.

Many years ago when I knew nothing about Gnostics and Cathars I often asked myself how a peaceful and loving god can cause such agony to mankind. I suppose the view of the Gnostics enlightened me a little. What I read is that before the fall only the spirit existed, this material world did not exist. We all were gods. There was no law because the law only exists to put order in disorder, there were no leaders,the gods were anarchists.

Lucifer in his world was the first one who killed, the first traitor and the world knew death. Lucifer wanted to be the only god and wanted to oppress the rest. He created matter which is light and that is the reason he calls himself Lucifer. This world is a bad copy of the real world, a copy made by a demented one where he pretends to subdue our consciousness through death and pain. Matter is death and through it he wants to subdue everyone, put us in his world, in his dream, this world is his illusion fabricated with his consciousness. It is a struggle to the death.

The god of the Bible, the Torah and the Quran is Lucifer, the god of this world. The archons are the rulers, the invisible ones who make sure we stay in this prison. This is a prison whose bars are made with death, pain and our own consciousness and our beleifs.
Stay vigilant.

P.S. As I said before I have been reading several journalists who are following the world events from a different perspective. Baron Benjamin de Rothschild (57), banker and Chairman of the Edmond de Rotschild holding company has died of a heart attack. Wealthy Sweet´N Low magnate Donald Tober (89) leaps to his death from New York City apartment. The manager of Australian band INXS,Chris Murphy, suddenly died at the age of 66 just days before being told he had cancer. According to these journalists all three, members of the cabal, were executed.

You and the readers of this blog may find about the conjoined sisters deeply moving.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cbIPVo4XnLI
Title: Gnostics
Post by: raul on January 16, 2021, 06:58:47 pm
Holden,

I checked libgen and Richard Smoley and other authors can be found. You and other readers my find different authors. I selected Smoley because it was easy to understand.

http://libgen.li/search.php?req=Gnostic&open=0&res=25&view=simple&phrase=1&column=def
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: Silenus on January 17, 2021, 08:20:28 am
Raul,
  Yes, I believe around 21,000 soldiers have been stationed around Washington D.C. for the inauguration. I was predicting Martial Law to have been declared around the election day back in November, but in the end the military has to guard the vested interests of the wealthy majority.  The enslavement/domination of the Third World's people and resources must continue without any hiccups, in order to keep the unemployed and despairing consumers fat, happy and entertained here in the West.
  It is also important that the consumers have an Idol and Savior to worship. The WWE-Hall-of-Famer President Donald Trump had a party with his family/confidantes, watching on TV as his servants stormed the capitol building last week. Did his followers learn anything from seeing this group of wealthy people gather in their ivory tower to enjoy the peasants attempt at revolt? Of course not, but such is the power of charisma, wealth and idolatry.
  After decades and generations of families and communities being hollowed out by millionaire politicians and the military-prison-industrial-complex, some of them thought it wise to elect a billionaire. Such lack of critical thinking does not bode well for a civilization. Then again, one thing that is historically true of all decaying Empires is that the violence exerted outward (Imperialism) eventually is turned inward within the Empire, at last exposing the rot and hypocrisy of a dying culture. 
  In the end, a career millionaire politician has been elected to replace the billionaire. A sizable portion of the population will be comforted by this return to business-as-usual, for however long it can be kept up. It is enough for many that this one will say nice things, make token gestures. We will continue to print debt to the tune of trillions of dollars. We will continue to occupy countries for oil and other resources, until the military is called back to defend the wealthy from the revolting peasants who can no longer be satiated by bread and circuses.  Such is the life-cycle of all civilizations, especially Empires.
  If one were to think of civilization as a living organism, then one can understand that it too is not exempt from the law of Entropy.

Be well.
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: Silenus on January 17, 2021, 08:35:24 am
Holden,
  I am glad to know that the B12 is helping you. I do recommend that you learn more about Niacin and NAC before trying them, as I do not want you to suffer any consequences. For example, Niacin in high doses may cause damage to the liver. Please use your own discretion.
  What can one say about the religious? One can follow Hinduism, or Christianity. Other options are Capitalism, Marxism, Materialism/Consumerism, Progress, even Happiness. There is something for everyone out there, so long as they promise the illusions of comfort, stability and security. Making the person feel like they are the "good guy" on the "right side" of history in this world also helps. Such is the evolutionary "fitness" of tribalism, symbolism and myth. One may play "choose your own adventure" and combine any number of ideologies to suit their tastes.
  Cultures can be picked from like a menu of options at a restaurant or cafe. Whatever to ensure that the slaves are content in their drudgery and misery, through the false promise of a reward or utopia at the end of one's life. Primate species are attracted to shiny, alluring objects. Add a little sparkle to one's cultural illusions, and they will gobble it up. So it's no wonder that Camus said that one must imagine Sisyphus happy: the myth-character must have imagined that one day the boulder would make it to the top. Such mediocrity was good enough for him.
 
Title: Heresy-Against Procreation( To Senor Raul)
Post by: Holden on January 17, 2021, 01:24:04 pm
Thanks for the message,Senor Raul.You write:
The god of the Bible, the Torah and the Quran is Lucifer, the god of this world.

Are you familiar with the Torah/Talmud? This one, I think this is older than both the Christian Bible and the Quran.

There is something fundamentally wrong with our existence ,no two ways about that.In India,there is a small Zoroastrian community and they believe in ideas rather similar to that of the Gnostics.

I see people talking nonsense everywhere,except here in this message board. This message board reminds me of the small colony that the Cathars had created all those centuries back in Southern France. I see groups of young men and women roaming around in the streets,apparently having a good time,such scenes may have confused the young Holden but now I see through the elaborate charade.

Gnosticism ,almost by its very definition, has always been for a very tiny minority and that is how it is going to be. Thank you for the book suggestion, hopefully, I would be able to learn more about Gnosticism. Prima facie, I detect some similarities between Gnosticism and Platonism.

We are, I think, heretics, in the modern world. One of the most serious heresies, in view of the gorts, is not procreating. One of the thoughts which brings some solace to me is that no matter how tragic my life finally turns out to be, I would not be trapping ,to borrow a phrase from the Gnostics, any sparks of lights,in cold,dead matter.

Please take care.
Title: Camus-A Poseur, Not a Pessimist( To Mr.Silenus)
Post by: Holden on January 17, 2021, 01:54:47 pm


Mr.Silenus,

Thanks for the message. Sure, I would look up the nutritional supplement suggestion made by you.

Camus was a complete cop-out. He got his “big prize”, even had a daughter, for Jupiter’s sake!What kind of an absurdist does that? A fake one. Now, if one is looking for a genuine absurdist Beckett is the man. He was the real deal, at least he appears that way to me. I do not think Beckett procreated and I think he was also not ecstatic upon getting the “big prize”. I personally think Beckett is far darker than Camus could ever be. But of course, Camus apart from being a writer, also played a philosopher and Beckett had no such pretensions and yet,if I were to extract a philosophy out of his literature,it would be quite dark and remarkably similar to that of Schopenhauer’s.

I remember reading,and I think I have mentioned this somewhere in the message board, that during his last years, Beckett was staying in a house which was very close to a mental asylum and he could hear the lunatics crying,howling and creating a racket the whole night long and he writes something to the effect that this is the true face of the human existence.

I often find Camus being proclaimed a pessimist but he was very far from being a true one. I like some of his works ,sure, but, in the end ,I suppose he was just a poseur or maybe his nerves failed him and he just could not taken the pessimistic premises to their logical conclusion,instead of that,he decided to make a baby.How philosophical  :o

Maybe it is because he became a financially successful writer at a rather young age,unlike Beckett.Sometimes,it is better to fail. In fact, I think, to fail utterly, in a world such as this one,might be the greatest success.

Take care.
Title: George Bush Funeral Envelopes
Post by: raul on January 17, 2021, 04:13:47 pm
Silenus,

Thank you for your response and I hope you are allright wherever you are.

I am not a student of U.S. history. I only share what I have been reading in these alternative blogs. They say that President Trump has signed the Insurrection Act that goes back to 1807 due to the massive election fraud there. They say all these events will mark the death of the Republic Party and the Democrats in the U.S.

These alternative sources say,that unlike Bush and Obama, Trump has not plunged the USA into wars for these four years. I just read that the US military said its troop withdrawal of personnel in Somalia is complete. Obama, the puppet and his globalist minions plunged the country into endless wars. Funny, Obama was awarded the Nobel Peace Prize. This world is really upside down. Obama´s wife is really big Mike.

Obama is said to be, according to the bloggers, Angela Merkel´s nephew. His mother, Stanley Anne Dunham is the Fuhrer´s daughter and his aunts are Angela Merkel and Theresa Major, former British Prime Minister. Hitler fled Germany and made his way to Argentina in 1944 and the one who died in Berlin was a double. He died in 1957.

It sounds crazy, right?

As to the riots, from what I read, is that they were planned by the Deep State. John Sullivan of BLM, Alan Daniel Baker, Antifa, were paid by a Hungarian billionaire, George Soros, to storm the US Capital. I also read that Sullivan advertised Uber before he was a radical. Tony West, General Counsel of Uber is Kamala Harris´s brother-in-law.

The famous shaman with the horns, Jake Angeli, aka the Wolf of Yellowstone is in jail. The US mainstream media kept the people in the dark about Joe Biden´s son Hunter and his involvement in corrupt practices in the Ukraine and Russia and having sexx with minors.

That is the reason the Big Tech, Jack Dorsey, Twitter´s CEO, shut down the New York Post´s account in Twitter after releasing that information that came from Hunter Biden´s laptop. Indeed Google is developing Artificial Inteligence for planetary surveillance.

Also the Big Tech did much to build China´s surveillance state. They say that there are Chinese troops in Canada.

These alternative bloggers say that Apple, Amazon, Microsoft attended Chinese Communist Party´s artificial intelligence conference with the Chinese military.They also suggest that people consider Brave Browser, Dissenter Browser or Opera Browser instead of Google Chrome, Microsoft Edge, Microsoft Internet explorer, Mozilla Firefox.

Now we have Angela Merkel, Germany´s Chanceller-the so-called Hitler´s daughter-, stepping down, the Italian cabinet resigning, Estonia´s government collapsing, and the Dutch government also resigning. I just read that 15 Catholic bishops in a single week across the three continents died as a result of the China bug.

These bloggers say that the executions of many high profile Deep Staters will be masked as suicides or deaths caused by the China bug. They say also that this is the end of the royal families in Europe. Former Spanish king Juan Carlos is in deep trouble due to his shady past and links to the cabal.

Thousands protested in Vienna, Austria against the lockdown. The recent blackouts in Italy, Pakistan, and Iran were carried out by the US Space Force. Drones are observing the perimeter around the White House in Washington D.C.
There is a massive deployment of troops in North Carolina.

The bloggers I am reading also say that Vladimir Putin is not in Russia anymore. He is being supplanted by a double. A Russian intelligence colonel says that the China bug is a lie. It is a global biological operation.

Crazy, isn´t it?

On January 20, we will see what happens.

Stay safe.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=oY5AvyayUw4
Title: Johny Meatsack
Post by: raul on January 18, 2021, 04:40:57 am
Holden,

I am a very ignorant person. These issues go far beyond my understanding. I share a little of what I understand. Human existence is pain. But this sad truth is only understood by few people like you and those who share their thoughts in this board.

Years ago I also talked and did a lot of nonsense. I won´t lie. Seex is on my mind. After all the flesh is weak. I also kneel down before Mammon, the true god of this world. Remembering all that is like tasting ashes.

For some reason the sleepwalker began to see things differently. Slow but steady, as the proverb says in English. Those who study the Gnostics say that the more we suffer the more we cling to this evil creator.

Yes, sin exists, the Gnostics say and evil also exists. In this world a war between good and evil is being waged. It is a struggle to the death until the end of times.

We live in a continuous competition from the moment you get up until you go to bed in order to survive. We compete with other living beings for survival and they have die to feed you and we also compete with other human beings to get yourself a hole in the farm. We live in a very low dimension.

This same life is leading you to sin, the genetics we are made of. It leads us to sin because it pushes us to survive. This is the trap.

That is the reason we all go through hell, we all go through these dimensions where our sin shows. The strategy of the archons to keep us in this farm is with lies.

Those who have created us needed death, superstition, religión, guilt and our consciousness in order to condemn us and that way they would have been able to harvest us again, again, and again.

Stay vigilant.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2H6dUf2v5hE
Title: Children,Today Mr.Chthulu Would Teach You Maths!( To Mr.Senor Raul)
Post by: Holden on January 18, 2021, 02:40:30 pm
Senor Raul,

Thanks for the video about the conjoined twins. The goody-goody vibes are emanating out of the video.What are they trying to say exactly? I am sorry, but I cannot be politically correct-I won’t ever run for the Prime Minister. The fact is, those two conjoined twins are a monstrosity vomited out by nature. I am not saying they should be mistreated. They should be provided with comfortable living conditions.

I too would like to bring them in front of tiny tots but with tragic music in the background and tell the kids that this is the reason why you should never ever procreate.The message the kids are getting in this video is that its okay to sire conjoined twins.
 
What I do not like about this Brave New World is that all the blind people,all the morons,all the crazies ( I include myself here), are supposed to dance together while a happy song plays in the background.Why leave Mr.Cthulu behind? Let him also join and and we will all have a great waltz together. No,and again,no.

Okay, I today finished the Gnosticism book you suggested to me so I now understand where you are coming from.My question to you is this-what is the way out? How can we dodge the evil guards? Or are you suggesting that there is no way out at all?

I sympathise with the Gnostics,I even share many of their premises.I think there is more than a grain of truth in what the propound. You are not an ignorant man,you know a great deal about things that really matter.

Is suicide common place in Paraguay,I wonder. Over here, people are dying like flies, because,we are,flies. I was looking forward to death, and here you are, telling me that after death ,my torments would continue,maybe get even more excruciating :(

I saw the other message of yours and find that you are interested in contemporary politics.So, I would like to know if you think Mr.Trump’s comeback is possible in 2024?

I am on the verge of weeping almost the entire time I am in the office. You mentioned, a few days back, that the two problems of my life the job and tuberculosis and sometimes I think that tuberculosis is lesser of the evils.

When I am alone in the room,I can at least ,keep my sanity intact,but when I am forced to be with other people I really become disoriented. I am afraid of human beings.

It is all an illusion. But not a pleasant illusion, a higly unpleasant one. I wish I were not here. Those Gnostics thousands of years ago-do you think that they were also a bit like us?
And what do you think became of them finally?I think the poor animals also suffer a great deal.I think we are also poor animals. All of this painful drama,for what? I ask.

I am confused most of the time and hardly know what I am doing. I am fearful most of the time,almost all the time.

Politics is depressing, is it not? Or maybe I am just a depressed man, a very depressed man. In Politics, I agree with Socrates.

Please take care.

Title: Shake Beauty
Post by: raul on January 19, 2021, 06:57:16 am
Holden,

That is the problem. You are not politically correct. :D

Do you think that to nature these conjoined sisters are a monstrosity? I think that to nature the sight of these girls is a beauty.

I have been one, as you say, of the blind, the morons, and the crazies of this awful world. I have danced to the tune of this insane world for a long time. I listened to people I should not have listened. We have a proverb in Spanish: en el país de los ciegos el tuerto es rey. It means: in the country of the blind, the one-eyed man is king

You are a fast reader. Probably that supplement is helping you a little. It took me days to finish reading about the Gnostics. The positive thing is that we have learned that we are living in a mental prison. That gives us some tranquility so to speak.

This China bug has given us miracles. Diabetes, influenza, cancer, high blood pressure and other diseases have disappeared. And so has suicide. That topic is taboo. How many people have committed suicide? The authorities do not provide accurate reports.

I believe our torments, as you say, will continue, maybe get even more excruciating. Like you I am afraid of most people, including my relatives. In times of fear and anguish bloodlines mean nothing.

The Gnostics, I read, ask: what do human beings invade the physical space of the fish they have in the fountain or in the pool for? ... First you can't, the fish are in another environment that they cannot invade. It wouldn't do any good. Second, the fish to be peace on the farm they must not know their fate, they must stay lethargic eating and not think too much or knowing what their future is.

Third, to subdue them and not let them become self-aware these entities would try to communicate with them. How? With certain fish from the fish farm, with those that stand out the most to instill in them legends, forms of behavior, religions so that they think that the fish farm is the whole world that exists and that they should know.

The important thing for the fish farm operators is that the fish remain unaware of their fate. In this way, they will never want to break free or fight to do it. Nor will they fight so that other fish are not fooled and can catch them.

Stay alert.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NfgtKevBPGE
Title: For Senor Raul
Post by: Holden on January 22, 2021, 07:18:08 am
https://scroll.in/latest/984166/delhi-13-year-old-forced-to-undergo-sex-change-surgery-raped-multiple-times-two-held-say-reports
Title: 2021=1984 (To Senor Raul)
Post by: Holden on January 22, 2021, 09:55:11 am
Senor Raul,

My apologies for the delayed response. Thanks for your message.The video that you shared,the one about the man with skin burnt off,he uses the word optimism. He can sing and dance all he likes,but would he be so optimistic that he would go ahead and beget children?
The Gnostics remind be of The Republic and The Statesman by Plato.Most people never read Plato except for a quote or two and even the ones who do read him,generally read just The Republic. I read Plato with Schopenhauer’s eyes and I see why Schopenhauer would look up to Plato.

Now, mostly people would say that Plato was a highly idealistic man,in view of having read The Republic. But in The Statesman, he very clearly realises that this is a corrupt and a corrupting world,wherein his vision of the rule of the Forms would never come true.

There is a difference between Plato and Schopenhauer. A huge gulf. Schopenhauer takes the best parts of Plato and integrates them with his own world view,but he almost has next to nothing to say about politics.

I have good reasons to believe that Plato,though at some level he realises the futility of such a project, kept trying to reconcile his vision as depicted in the Republic and the grim reality he finds himself in( especially in The Statesman). He writes The Statesman almost in a halfhearted way.

I rank Schopenhauer ahead of Plato because of this: Schopenhauer loved the Platonic vision, but he was also very clear,unlike Plato himself, that this vision would get reconciled with the everyday reality only when  hell freezes over. So, he junked almost the entire political aspect of Plato but kept the beatific vision.

The point is,the leaders would come and go and ideologies would too, but that which is fundamentally flawed cannot be mended.
What the Gnostics and Schopenhauer too, were interested in, was ontology that undergirds the multifarious conspiracies.That is what takes us from mere opinion to true knowledge.

Two days back, I was required to accompany the daughter of a senior official to the US Consul General, as she has recently married a man who works for  Amazon in Virginia and she wanted to apply for visa. Only the applicant is allowed inside the building and so I was sitting on the pavement outside,opposite the consulate and writing some formulae in a scrap of paper.After about half a hour, a security guard came to me and took my paper and diary and started reading them . He was apparently under the impression that I was up to no good. He interrogated me and the girl’s mother.He even told the girl’s mother that we are being interrogated because I was writing something and so the girl’s mother glared at me :(

I was a bit agitated but they could do nothing serious because they found nothing of interest in my scrap of paper and my diary.
In all probability, my fate is to live like Winston in 1984, and maybe I’d die like him too.

Please take care and please do keep writing.
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: raul on January 23, 2021, 05:54:10 am
Holden,

Thank you for your response and the link. It is a sad read. The Paraguayan Prosecutor´s Office reports that last year 8 victims per day suffered child sex abuse.

You ask if the guy with the skin burnt off would go ahead and beget children. Maybe he will beget children of his own.  First he has to find a female partner who will agree to copulate with him.

Most people, including me, do not read much. Most do not have curiosity. I suppose we are part of our education aka brainwashing we received at school. Most would remember Plato because sometimes people speak of platonic love.
Many people boast about their university degrees and feel superior to many. They did not raise their voices against the lockdowns. They can stick their worthless papers up their assses.

Indeed this is a corrupt and corrupting world as you say. We come, let us say, broken to this world. We have been made that way. We have not willed to be as we are.

On Thursday I went to a bank branch to do a refill but I did not wash my hands and use hand sanitizer. The female cashier discovered me and told me to wash my hands and come back again. I did not do such thing so I walked away. I am tired of this crrap.

What the security guard did to you was completely out of place. What did he think you were? A terrorist? To hell with him.  Well these things unfortunately happen.

Stay well.

P.S.  Following the alternative narratives, I read that a massive fire broke out in the Serum Institute of India plant where Covid vaccines were manufactured (Oxford University and Astra Zeneca). Google is associated with Astra Zeneca.
Joe Biden will issue a mandate for U.S citizens to wear masks for 100 days.

Angelo Caloia, head of the Vatican bank, was sentenced to nine years in prison for money laundering and embezzlement. A Spanish biologist, Fernando López Mirones indicates that the manufacturers of the MODERNA vaccines cannot assess their sustained efficacy over a period longer than 2 months. CNN coincidentally, in a strange way, removed the covid death toll counter as a permanent fixture on their broadcast.

It is a tradition that when a U.S. president leaves office he writes a note for the new president. Lin Wood, showed the letter in parler that Trump left for Biden. It said: Joe, you know I won.

The reason the cabal wanted to stop Trump and his government was because he wants to put the USA on the gold standard. That is the reason John Fitzgerald Kennedy was killed. On June 4,1963 he issued a executive order that stripped the Rothschild Bank of the authority to loan money to the U.S. Federal government.

The cabal these days threatened to bring down the USA with a sort of doomsday device. So the white hats/good buys regrouped but the towel has not been thrown in. There are 800 generals in the U.S. army working for and with the white hats. The U.S. military will not follow Biden´s orders.

The Italian government is complicit in the steal because they did not want to move to the gold standard and they were also pressured by the cabal. The cabal members are no ordinary gangsters. They are evil and extremely intelligent. The Japanese Yakuza, the Chinese Triads, the Sicilian Cosa Nostra, the Calabrian N'Drangheta, the New York Mafia and the Russian Vory -v –Vakone have a code of conduct but the cabal does not.

Biden´s logo has three red banners or three red flags.  They consist of the general line for socialist construction, the Great Leap Forward and the people´s communes. Biden Inauguration video got only 320,000 videos on official White House Youtube Channel and the comments were turned off. Facebook will promote a video calling on U.S. citizens to become state informants. Youtube removed thousands of dislikes from the Biden White House page.

A powerful gas explosion tore through a residential building in central Madrid on January 20th, killing four people and ripping the facade off the structure. A tower of smoke rose from the building, where repairs were being done to a gas boiler, and billowed through Toledo Street near the city's center. According to Rafael Palacios, a Spanish blogger, this was carried out by the bad guys.

Pete Gaynor of FEMA and Christopher Miller of the US Army are running the show. Miller is an expert in unconventional warfare in the Marines and has served with Task Force Orange, a military intelligence unit so secret that its name is rarely uttered.

Joe Biden has not been given the nuclear codes and he did not even use the Air Force One. He has not issued any executive orders. In some images China Joe, as they call him, is seen signing blank pages. They also show pictures of Biden in the Oval Office where a parking lot is seen through the windows. It is a fake Oval Office. He is in a movie set and   Castle Rock, an entertainment and production company, is in charge of recording in those sets.

The Pentagon has refused to give information on the sales of advanced technology in aviation to Saudi Arabia to Biden. The bloggers say this is unprecedented.

Three states control the world: City of London (finance), Vatican City (religion), Washington D.C. (military). In these three cities there are obelisks. 

Twitter allows private news agency in Iran to publish death threats against Trump. Supposedly Jack Dorsey, Twitter´s CEO is not in the USA. He is said to be on some of those islands in French Polynesia.

The World Health Organization has changed their guidance on the use of PCR tests on the day of Biden´s inauguration. They now state a positive result is not in itself an indication of infection with Covid19 and that 2nd test along with a clinical diagnosis is required.

These alternative sources say that governments will not tell you that:
1.   The heart´s electrical field reaches out 6 feet. Bacteria are our immune system. Viruses are part of detoxing mechanism. No one can infect you unless it is via your bloodstream. Socializing boosts immunity.

    
Title: He who does not engage in procreation is as if he spilled blood( To Senor Raul)
Post by: Holden on January 25, 2021, 12:41:37 pm

Senor Raul,

Thanks for your very engrossing messages.

Rabbi Eliezer ,it is believed,said “He who does not engage in procreation is as if he spilled blood.”
What do you make of that?

I have been thinking of Arendt. She was,at one point of time,a student of Heidegger. Now, Heidegger, though far from perfect, I find, is a far more profound thinker. She rejects determinism and believes in “freedom”, whatever that might be.She yearns for the company of other people and almost disparages solitude. Yet, she is called a philosopher. If she is a philosopher, then I would not like to call Schopenhauer one.

I think there are many people ,like Arendt,who are essentially third rate sociologists but go around calling themselves philosophers.
Most of these so-called thinkers have the same ideology,that of optimism. An animal optimism. They wish to bring heaven to earth, and end up creating a hell instead.

Heck, I would even go so far as to say that I prefer serious businessmen over such busybodies, these are the people who give philosophy a bad name. If there is any benefit to be gained from reading her,then it is this- it brings into stark relief the great significance of Schopenhauer and it becomes clearer that he was almost a one in a million miracle.

Banality of Arendt is nauseating. Banal and a great bore. Yet, walk into any random philosophy department and most of the professors would prefer her over Schopenhauer.

Please take care.
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: raul on January 25, 2021, 03:59:12 pm
Holden,

Thank you for your response and your patience in reading my scribblings.

Rabbi Eliezer, I suppose, has engaged in procreation to have uttered such words.

Today a relative reminded me of a young man who committed suicide at the age of 19 in Setember last year. His father was a deputy of the Paraguayan congress, Hugo Rubin, of Jewish descent. His son took pills, I was told.  Many years ago Mr. Rubin was in favor of making prison inmates work in routes and plant their own food in jail and he also wanted the inmates to carry fetters. Let them rot in jail, he said.

I wonder what Rabbi Eliezer or anyone else would say of young men committing suicide at the age of 19.

I cannot say much about Arendt. I only read that she was very lucky to have escaped to the United States during WW2. She was present in the trial of SS Lieutenant Colonel Adolf Eichman in Jerusalem. She is known for the term “banality of evil”.

I suppose most of these optimistic thinkers would have not advanced in academia without their optimism. They say yes to life and that is what matters to most people.

P.S. Following the alternative narrative:

Andrés Manuel López Obrador, President of Mexico, has tested positive for  COVID-19.

Kary Mullis, Nobel Laureate in Chemistry for inventing the PCR technique and who died on August 7, 2019 said in an interview in the 1990s that Dr. Anthony Fauci is a bioterrorist.  Dr. Fauci is the director of the National Institute of Allergy and Infectious Diseases.

According to The Standard (thestandardsc.org) the CDC admits vaccines contain aborted human fetus cells lines and African Green Monkey kidney pus cells harvested from diseased primates.

The EPOCH TIMES, Singapore Edition: FBI reports that Nikola Tesla, inventor of wireless technology, is an alien from Venus.

Disclose.tv reports that the fortunes of the 10 richest people rose by $540 bn since March 2020, while between 200 million and 500 million more people were living in poverty in 2020, a new Oxfam report found.

Journalist and best-selling author Andy Ngo, whose parents fled Vietnam to the USA, has now become a refugee himself. He migrated to London after receiving death threats from Antifa for his critical reporting on the idea.

In 2013, Joe Biden and Hunter Biden flew aboard Air Force Two to China. Ten days later Hunter Biden´s firm bagged a $ 1.5 billion deal with a subsidiary of the Communist Chinese government´s Bank of China.

Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: Holden on January 25, 2021, 09:30:42 pm
"Every man has his secret sorrows which the world knows not; and often times we call a man cold when he is only sad." -Henry Wadsworth Longfellow
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: Holden on January 26, 2021, 02:35:55 am
https://philosophynow.org/issues/134/Poodle_as_Representation_Rottweiler_as_Will
Title: Cult of Procreation( To Senor Raul)
Post by: Holden on January 26, 2021, 10:14:46 am
Senor Raul,

Thanks for the message. I am sure you would have heard of Jim Jones. I think the world ,at large, is like the cult that he formed. People do not analyse things for themselves but just follow the orders. It is getting cold here and I am not one of those who like winter. This worm likes to roll around under the Sun.

I think Paraguayan citizens can go to Spain without a visa. Have you ever thought about going there ,I wonder.
To tell the truth, I am a misanthrope in the fullest sense of the term.I wonder if you see a common thread in all the conspiracies that you have been writing about.What do you make of the Rothschilds?

You mention your country’s Jewish leader. Is Judaism widespread there?


What about the Mormons,have you come across them there? If yes, what do you make of them? I think there might be many denominations of Christianity in your country, which denomination ,in your opinion, could be described as ultra-orthodox and overly religious in appearance? 

I think most couples,nay,all, fight every single day. Then, you might ask, why do they get married. They are afraid of being alone-they cannot bear their own company and they would rather fight than stay alone with themselves.

Most people are not right in the head. Our problem here on this message board is not that we are insane, but that we are far too sane for the world around us.

I ,for one, cannot stand being in presence of people for very long. I long for solitude as a fish longs to be in water. I breathe solitude not air.There maybe no god, but I think ,there is certainly demons who try to make our lives miserable.

Do you think it is okay to eat curd during cold winter days? I just ate curd and now I am coughing. All food is poison, methinks.

I think Jim Jones cult was nothing compared to the Cult of Procreation.

It is insatiable.Today there was a lot of trouble in the streets of the capital. Tear bombs and such. It is a symptom of a very deep malaise. No one wants to see it or think about it.But it is right there. Elephant in the room. We live in a world where the people who do not marry and have kids are treated worse than lepers. Everything is scary. The walls,the room. Everything. The whole life business is a cult. A terrible cult. I was sleepy the whole day. You know the state when one is sleepy yet cannot fall asleep. In a kind of weird daze.There are a lot of mosquitos here and they are all thirty for my blood. Such is life.
This life , I do not understand it.But it terrifies me.It would have been so much better if the world did not exist. But it does. And it is staring right at me. Menacingly.
Please take care.
 
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: raul on January 27, 2021, 04:37:26 am
Holden,

Thank for you for the link. I read the article with much interest.

Yes, I heard of Jim Jones and what happened in Jonestown, Guyana in 1978. Hundreds of people killed there. It was a sort of mass murder and suicide at the same time. 300 children poisoned.

Yes, people not analyzing things for themselves but just following orders. It is happening right now in this plandemic. For a long time I did not analyze things for myself and I followed orders. I followed all types of orders: my parents´, my teachers´, my so-called friends´ .I have been a perfect zombie. There are zombies more perfect than me. The police sub officers, for instance, who are enforcing the wearing of face masks. Right now they are demons in human form apart from the politicians and businessmen.

Zombies, I read, are dead persons who are buried and resurrected, but who remain in a sort of catatonic state, subject to the control of someone else. In Haiti zombies are real, so they say. I disagree a little. Zombies in uniform whether they be police, security guards, CEOs, bank employees, or doctors are more real.

I do not have money to go to Spain. The economy is a disaster there. The Spanish government crushed the economy, I read. Unemployment has reached levels never seen before. It was part of the plan. However if I could I would like to go and visit historic places there.

Judaism is not widespread here. In Argentina and Brazil the Jewish communities are very important. I have seen Mormon preachers walking around here. I also walked past by their huge building in the capital. I often see them very well dressed.

We have a religious group called El Pueblo de Dios, or God´s People in Caaguazú, a town far from the capital. They have always been criticized for their religious beliefs. The first religious leader was a man called José who made a pilgrimage from Formosa, Argentina to Repatriación, an agrarian colony. This missionary is the only one, in their view, who had an encounter with God. The group started based on his teachings.

As years passed they started to have more members. You can see there women wearing long dresses and white scarfs on their heads. They have been accused of brainwashing and making people do forced labor. Now thousands of people of the surrounding cities are part of the congregation. The congregation became the economic engine of the entire department. In 2014 they even founded their political movement inside the ruling party, Asociación Nacional Republicana aka Partido Colorado. A year later their candidate became a mayor.

Who can blame you for being a misanthrope? We, human beings are dangerous. You see and feel it every single day.  I have just heard on a Paraguayan radio station that in Encarnación, a city on the border with Argentina, in a landfill a six-month fetus was found in a plastic bottle.

Most people are not right in their head. Let me tell you that I am not right in the head either. Hahaha. Well, we live in a madhouse.

I do not eat curd but I do eat cheese.

Indeed the whole life business is a cult, as you say. I heard that there were riots against the lockdowns all over India.

What do I make of the Rothschilds? Well, they are one of the most families in Europe and around the world. I read that they are part of the top 13 Iluminati families. I found a meme about Jacob Rothschild that says:

Hello there. My name is Jacob Rothschild. My family is worth 500 trillion dollars. We own nearly every central bank in the world. We financed both sides of the every war since Napoleon. We own your news, the media, your oil and your government. You have probably never heard of me.
 (http://Hello there. My name is Jacob Rothschild. My family is worth 500 trillion dollars. We own nearly every central bank in the world. We financed both sides of the every war since Napoleon. We own your news, the media, your oil and your government. You have probably never heard of me.)
Once I read biblioteca pleyades.com where I found information on this bloodline given by a man called Fritz Springmaier. 

He says that in Israel he visited the Knesset that the Rothschild’s money has built. The Knesset is the Israeli equivalent to the U.S. Congress’s Capitol building and the Rothschilds are honored with a street named after them in Jerusalem. The Rothschilds “believe money is what makes the world go round. If you have money, you can do anything. Money is "God", and it is worshipped and served. Even after these families accumulate more than can be spent, these devotees continue selling their souls for this false but powerful god.

The great poet-philosopher Heinrich Heine (a banker’s son) said, "Money is the god of our time, and Rothschild is his prophet." Amsel Rothschild is reported to have said, "Give me control of the economics of a country; and I care not who makes her laws.[16]

Today his descendants meet twice daily in London to dictate to the world what the world price of gold will be. They also dictate what the Federal Reserve System will do with America’s finances. The Rothschilds worship yet another god too, Satan. They set a place for him at their table.[17] The Rothschilds have been Satanists for many generations.

Because the Rothschilds were Satanists they adopted the Seal of Solomon (also known as hexagram, Magen David, six-pointed star, Star of David.) in 1822 for their coat- of-arms. The name they adopted for their family actually comes from the fact that in the 17th century Mayer Amschel Bauer began hanging out a red hexagram in front of their house to identify it. Mayer Amschel then decided to take the name “Redschield” (Rothschild in German) after the red Seal of Solomon that they used.  The Rothschilds have been a primary force behind the creation of Israel, and so it is appropriate that the nation carries their magical Seal of Solomon as the state logo.

The Rothschilds had played a major role in the Bavarian Illuminati,and it is known that a least one of the sons of Amsel was a member. They are prominent in the Bilderbergers too. The Rothschilds were closely related to the Council of Foreign Relations (CFR).

Early in the 19th century the Pope came to the Rothschilds to borrow money. The Rothschilds were very friendly with the Pope, causing one journalist to sarcastically say "Rothschild has kissed the hand of the Pope...Order has at last been re-established."[48] The Rothschilds in fact over time were entrusted with the bulk of the Vatican’s wealth. “

Stay safe.


P.S. Military occupation in Washington D.C. will continue during length of opposition leader´s impeachment trial.
The Rotschild Paris bank was on fire.

Riots against the lockdowns continue in the Netherlands.

A great explosion was heard in Osdorp, Amsterdam.

The government of India is distributing a home Covid Kit with zinc.Doxycycline and ivermectin. The cost:  $ 2.65 per person.

There are photographs where CNN´s President Jeff Zucker´s wife Caryn is seen with Ghislaine Maxwell. Maxwell was Jeffrey Epstein´s child sex handler.

Three states, Mississippi,Alabama and Louisiana, pull CNN´s broadcasting license.
Englishwire.today reports that Nancy Pelosi´s husband, Chester McNally, files for divorce. Mr.Mcnally says that she drinks too much. In the evenings, her work is all we talk about until she starts drinking and the she gets mean. She told her doctor and many others that she was proud to raise a home primarily for women where “the man´s job is to cater to us.” Nancy Pelosi is the Speaker of the House.

Disclose.tv. reports that one of the inventors of the Novichok, nerve agent, Russian biochemist Leonid Rink, has reportedly developed a new medicine against COVID-19 and other viral diseases, according to Russian state media.
Marina Abramovic, a performance artist and a sort of witch, specializes in spirit cooking. She is always seen with celebrities like Robert De Niro, Lady Gaga,Jeff Koons,etc. Spirit cooking is blood, sperm, and breastmilk but mostly blood and they are used in satanic rituals.

Mar-a-Lago, Donald Trump´s residence in Florida, has three bomb shelters and scif (sensitive comparmented information facility) for communication with the White House situation room and the Pentagon.

Getty Museum is a **** fortress with more than 12 floors underground. There are elevators and practically a city down below with thousands of sex slaves. It is guarded with high security. Epstein Island is just the tip of the iceberg.

Jill Biden, wife of Joe Biden, was his teenage baby sitter when he began having seex with her while his wife was in the hospital.

In the capital of Saudi Arabia, air defense systems intercepted a missile.

The bloggers, I read, say that only two months before 9/11, the World Trade Center was privatized and sold to Larry Silverstein. Every single morning he ate breakfast in North Tower on the 91 st floor but not on 9/11, his wife made him an emergency doctor´s appointment that day.

Silverstein also had bought an insurance plan that “fortunately” covered terrorism. After the attack, he took the insurance company to court. Silverstein won and was paid double, being awarded a total of
$ 4.55 b. This may the largest insurance fraud in history and he is still a free man.

Title: Cathars
Post by: Holden on January 27, 2021, 09:05:24 am
Page 11- Perfect Heresy by Stephen O'Shea "For the Cathars, the world was not the handiwork of a good god. It was wholly the creation of a force of darkness, immanent in all things. Matter was corrupt, therefore irrelevant to salvation. Little if any attention had to be paid to the elaborate systems set up to bully people into obeying the man with the sharpest sword, the fattest wallet, or the biggest stick of incense. Worldly authority was a fraud, and worldly authority based on some divine sanction, such as the Church claimed, was outright hypocrisy. The god serving of Cathar worship was a god of light, who ruled the invisible, the ethereal, the spiritual domain; this god, unconcerned with the material, simply didn't care if you got into bed before getting married, had a jew or Muslim for a friend, treated men and women as equals, or did anything else contrary to the teachings of the medieval Church. it was up to the individual (man or woman) to decide whether he or she was willing to renounce the material for a life of self-denial. If not, one would keep returning to this world- that is, be reincarnated-until ready to embrace a life sufficiently spotless to allow accession, at death to the same blissful state one had experienced as an angel prior to having been tempted out of heaven at the beginning of time...to be damned was to live, again and again, on this corrupt Earth..."..."To believe in what is called the Two Principles of creation (evil in the visible, Good in the invisible) is to be a dualist, an adherent to a notion that has been shared by other creeds in the long course of humanity's grappling with the unknowable. Christian Cathar dualism, however, posited a meeting place between Good and Evil: within the breast of every human being..."
Title: Consolamentum
Post by: Holden on January 27, 2021, 12:35:56 pm


Senor Raul,

Thank you for your responses to my queries. Much appreciated. I feel a deep kinship with the Cathars, who have been rightly termed as “The Western Buddhists”.

I am sure you are familiar with QAnon.There are those who compare it with a kind of Gnosticism. Your thoughts please.
https://www.wnycstudios.org/podcasts/otm/episodes/ancient-heresy-helps-us-understand-qanon-extended-version
Second, I have come across this rather unlikely phenomenon and you request you to please tell me as to what do you make of this:
https://www.timesofisrael.com/talmud-inspired-learning-craze-sweeps-south-korea/

I am thankful to your for reminding me about the Gnosticism and Catharism. They make a great deal of sense to me. In fact, today something very bad happened in the office and I was very depressed the whole day long and when in the evening I came back to my residence, I began to think of the Cathars and suddenly the intensity of my depression lessened. It was as if they reached out to me, across the centuries, to offer me their Consolamentum.

It is believed that when they sensed that the death was near,they stopped taking all nourishment ,even water and exposed themselves to extreme cold in order to hasten their demise.

That is straight out of The World as Will and Representation. When I focus on the fact that the material world has been fashioned by a lesser deity and that there is no hope to be had here, I tend to feel much better.

I am tired most of the time and sleepy. The honest men are always denounced as heretics. Honest men ,by their very presence, make things difficult for the corrupt ones and hence , the later try to bring about the destruction of the former.

Everyday brings with it a new horror. A new outrage. No wonder I am jealous of the dead.It is said that when the Cathors were being burnt on stakes, they were singing and flung themselves into the flames. They did this,because, I think, they believed that fire was better than this utterly wicked world.Unlike most Christians and like most Hindus and Buddhists,they even believed in reincarnation.

I wonder what your thoughts might be on reincarnation.They also did not eat any animals and wanted to abolish capital punishment. I sometimes feel that there are invisible demonic powers that create a great deal of trouble for us.

I really have grown fond of the Gnostics and the Cathars. There is something very endearing about them.But one needs to remember that they were eventually wiped out. This world is only for the cruel and the uncaring.

Please take care.
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: raul on January 28, 2021, 05:44:55 am
Holden,

Thank you for your words. I hope your colleagues, demoniac beings, realize that it is better to leave you alone. If you ever come late to work, they must apologize for being early.

Yes, as you say this world is only for the cruel and the uncaring.  Pope Innocent III and his inquisitors made sure the Cathars pay a deadly price for challenging the powers that be.

Reincarnation is a big issue. The little I know is that in Mesopotamia if humans are lucky, human beings can achieve divine wisdom, but we never become immortal. Everyone must die. The fate of the dead is not pleasant and we are condemned to an existence in the shadows. Even the goddess Inanna could not escape from her sister Ereshkigal, the goddess of the underworld.

Also I remember April De Connick where she says that the Gnostics were convinced, “that humans have  an innate spiritual nature that is an extension of this transcendence. It is the divine embodied in each of us, the transcendent God made immanent within the human. They called this spark of God the pneuma, or spirit. It is our permanent immortal aspect, whereas most Gnostics thought that the psyche, or soul, was mortal. Although the soul survived the death of the physical body and could be reincarnated or suffer in afterlife purgatories, it would not live on eternally. Once the universe ceased to exist, our souls would blip out like extinguished lights.”

Yes, I heard of QAnon for the first time in November of 2019 but I forgot all about it. Last[/i[/url][/url]] year I started reading these alternative bloggers where Q is associated with Trump, MAGA, or the alliance, as they say. Instead of using Q they use 17 because Q is the 17th letter of the alphabet. Q drops are read by many in the USA and around the world. Their motto is WWG1 WGA, or Where we go one We go all.

Q is also associated with John F. Kennedy, assassinated in 1963. His son John John and his wife died in a plane crash in 1999 but some say he faked his death and he is still alive and working with Trump. They say he goes by the name of Vincent Fusca. Is it true? Who knows?

I listened to the podcast. It is very interesting. Trumpian Gnosticism, the professor called it. The Demiurge is the real power, the guy says. I think there is truth about the deep state. The Deep State is the church, the authorities, the entertainment  industry, the mainstream media, Big Tech, Big Pharma, the scientific establishment. Organized crime, all of them.

I have read very little about the Jews, except the man from Nazareth and his disciples. Of course I read about the Holocaust in Nazi Germany. In my view this learning craze sweeping South Korea probably now with the plandemic will probably fade away.

Reading about the Holocaust reminds me of the Cromagnon and the Neanderthals, the Armenians, the Gypses, the aboriginal tribes in Australia and the native Indians of this continent, and the Ukrainian Holodomor.  There were thousands of holocausts in the past and there will be more to come.


P.S. China is using anal swabs to test its residents for COVID-19 amid a new wave of the outbreak and local experts say the method is a more accurate way to detect the bug, according to a report.

Wisconsin  Senate votes to repeal Wisconsin mask mandate.

Dow sinks, stocks fall from records a week after Biden took office.

Bomb disposal unit called to Astra Zeneca vaccine plant in Wrexham, United Kingdom.

There were earthquakes in Spain.

Carlos Holmes Trujillo died of COVID-19. He was the Colombian Minister of Defense.

Leon Black, Apollo Global Management CEO, will step down after firm finds payments to Jeffrey Epstein.

Israel is on the brink of war with Iran with the purpose of distracting people from the arrests, say the bloggers.

Big Internet outages hit the East Coast of the USA causing issues for Verizon, Zoom, Slack and Gmail.



Title: Through Schopenhauer's Eyes (To Senor Raul)
Post by: Holden on January 28, 2021, 11:37:53 am
Senor Raul,

Thank you for your kindness and for responding to my queries. I like the bent of your mind.Sometimes I feel that in another life I was involved in some kind of war. A horrible war. I was trapped in a place without any means of sustenance ,not even clean water to quench the thirst and died because of some kind of blood poisoning caused by a shrapnel.
The problem is,well, at least, one of the problems, that I am finding it difficult to keep the food down. I feel nauseated and sometimes throw up.I have tried rice and wheat and both do not seem to agree with me.


The chief reason why Waiting for Godot resonates with me, is because when I look around, I find a world eerily similar to the one depicted in that work.Desolate. Though I try to look for some kind of meaning , I abjectly fail to find any.
I see terrible things.Both within and without. I am a creature of the night. It is only after the sun set that I manage to muster enough courage to visit the neighbourhood mom and pop store for groceries.We are being encouraged to use e-wallet. Soon, they might stop the circulation of cash altogether.

The flesh must die.Wither. I do not know where the world is heading, but it is not headed to a good place. Too much conformity.No place for the introvert like myself. I wish to spend the whole of my life in hiding. But you see, one cannot hide from everything. I could not hide from tuberculosis. Those bacteria almost killed me off.

Maybe I had better start my medicines again. Those medicines are very strong and I do not think they are without side effects but they might be better than the bacteria.

When I think about it really hard ,this is what I find- that I need to just somehow reach  the moment when I would die. I do not know what happens next. Maybe nothing. Maybe some kind of weird limbo.But suffering has left such a deep impact upon my psyche, that I cannot imagine a suffering-free afterlife,let alone a blissful heaven.

I do not know what romantic love might be. A ghost of some kind, a mirage maybe,or to use Schopenhauer’s word, a phantasmagoria.The problem is I am overflowing with agony and there is no place inside me for love of any kind.
I see the house lizard and in its reptilian eyes I see my own reflection.

Do lizards believe in romantic love? I think not.I can see why the religious sect that you mention would be attractive to a lot of people. It appears better than a red-in-tooth-and-claw world. There is only one little problem-the religious world view is a house of cards. That is why Schopenhauer is so great. He looked at the world unflinchingly. I aspire to do the same.

Nietzsche saw the world through Schopenhauer's eyes too..and it unnerved him,and he spent the rest of his short life trying to forget that dreadful vision. I think he did not, not really.

Please take care.
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: raul on January 29, 2021, 05:13:36 am
Holden,

I hope you have your medicines available and also able to eat without problems.

We may not confront soldiers with bullets or rocket launchers but coming into this slaughterhouse is already an act of war. Even the most peaceful person on Earth has to get up every single day and face the dreadfulness of every day life. Pedro Rosillo, in his book El Arconte says that humans do not come to this world to be happy but to fight endlessly until the day we all die.

Like you I prefer the night to the mornings. Sometimes I watch Stardust Vibes on the Internet where I hear thunderstorm and endless rain or s sounds for sleep, insomnia, etc. It helps me a little. Maybe you or the readers of this blog can watch it.

Yes, here too people are encouraged to use e-wallet. It is the step to kill cash completely. It is part of the plan. It is total surveillance. If you misbehave they may shut you down.

We don´t know what will happen after we give our last sigh.  I do not know romantic love either. What is that anyway? You give a bunch of nice flowers to your female partner and then end up wetting your thingy?

Yes, Pueblo de Dios or God´s people have an appeal to many and so do other evangelical churches here.

Stay well.

P.S.  Astra Zeneca says that the vaccine does not protect people who are over 65 years.

Donald Trump is planning Trump TV.

The bloggers say that Trump´s associates control Reddit now and want to ffuck the banks and the stock markets. It has to do with GameStop. The hedge fund billionaires are going crazy.

Telegram announced that Apple will remove the Telegram app from their phones without their joint notice.

Covid-19 case counts in South Dakota have completely collapsed. South Dakota never instituted any lockdown.

Trump on his last days pardoned a Mossad spy with the promise that Israel would not create problems.

Members of Q:

Leader: General Michael Flynn
Senior Adviser: Donald Trump
Senior members:
John F. Kennedy Jr.
General Charles Flynn
Vice President Mike Pompeo
Donald Trump Jr.
Ivanka Trump
Kayleigh McEnany
Carolyn Bessette-Kennedy
Seyed Mohammed Hosseini
Michael Jackson
Elvis Presley

Russian President Putin:  Big Tech monopoly giants compete with nations. They serve or restrict the natural human rights to decide how to live, what to choose, which position to express freely.

700 more National Guard troops just deployed to Washington D.C.

Regeneron Pharmaceuticals whose treatment was used by President Trump for the China bug announced that one of his products is 100% effective.

New York hedge fund millionaire Leon Cooperman on CNBC:

“People are sitting at home getting their checks from the government. This ¨fair share” is a bullsShit concept and is just a way to attack wealthy people.”

This blogger, Colin Rivas, I read, tells Cooperman to go fucck himself.

CIA changed their logo. It no longer says United States of America, just CIA.

The Spanish mass media is starting to talk of the deaths caused by the Pfizer vaccines. The bloggers say that this is because the mass media already used up the government grant and as they smell the next they want more and they are threatening the government to behave themselves.

The other possibility is that they are already preparing the ground for what is coming because nothing or nobody can stop what is coming, i.e., the massive awakening of the people; the Spanish MSM fears the reprisals of the people towards the accomplices of the genocide and corruption.

Leon Black, Apollo Management Fund CEO gave Epstein $ 148 million in so-called advisory fees. Mr.Black, the bloggers, say he funded one of the biggest trafficking operations in the U.S. history.

Unsealed Jeffrey Epstein/Ghislaine Maxwell documents.
Testimony of Joseph Recarey, Palm Beach detective who interviewed over 30 girls abused by Jeffrey Epstein. The witness stated the following:

Initially when the – when the victims would come into the home and were brought upstairs to provide the massage Epstein would lay on his massage table, where they would start to rub his back and the back of his legs.

Epstein would either attempt to fondle the girls or touch the girls inappropriately and at which point he would mastturbate. And when he was done, he would get up and go wash off while the girls would get dressed and go back downstairs and get paid.

Title: No Particular Reason Necessary to be Depressed
Post by: Holden on January 29, 2021, 12:36:57 pm
Senor Raul,

Thanks for your message. As I have mentioned earlier, your deep appreciation for the dark side of the human history is something I look up to. Would you care to suggest a few books( in English,preferably), which you have read, I mean, books which depict the seamy side of history.

I am trying to take each day as it comes and yet to tell the truth I am almost always depressed.

I have read,and also experienced firsthand unfortunately, that low calorie intake might not be good for someone who already suffered a great deal due to tuberculosis. But the thing is, I have developed a deep dislike towards almost all kinds of food over the years. You see the dilemma, my body demands food,but the mind find it repulsive. I do not know what to do. Like I said, I am trying to take each day as it comes.

Sometimes I say to myself-who would be stupid enough to to believe in a good god while living in a world such as this one, but god-loving people  are in overwhelming majority.

You mention evangelical churches. Now, in this particular respect, I mean, as regards evangelisation, the Gnostics were very different. They never evangelised and believed that their knowledge was meant for a very tiny minority. I mean, when was the last time some knocked on my door and said he wanted to share his faith in Gnosticism with me?But these Mormons are everywhere.

There are offices where the employees, when they enter, also put on diapers, because they are not supposed to spend any time in the washroom. They continue to work while they pee and poop.

If someone wanted to learn Spanish and attain not just working knowledge but native proficiency, I mean, that he wanted to attain the level of fluency that the native speakers possess,then how long do you think he would have to work at it? Thanks.

I like Gnosticism because it effectively means philosophical and religious pessimism. I am allergic to any kind of optimism.
As regards Epstein, when Prince Andrew’s interview was broadcast in 2019, I was hospitalised and watched it and found it absurd ,to say the least.What do you think of the Queen of England, I wonder.

I can see why Mr. Gary is fed up with the world. His appearance makes me realise how fast the time is passing by. Just a few years ago he looked youngish and strong and now he looks weak and rather old. I hope he manages to find some kind of peace.

I find that I have tears in my eyes at least a few times everyday. The sadness is so deep that that no particular reason seems necessary any longer.

I wonderful what Schopenhauer’s last thoughts might have been as he lay dying. Would he have welcomed death? If the death had no compunctions while  taking away someone as profound as Schopenhauer ,then, I almost do not count.

They had put a pipe inside my lung to pump the toxic fluid out and because of it I could not sleep many a night. Like an injured animal I tried to sleep while sitting, I could neither sleep nor stay awake.The nurses gossiped around me, planned their holidays. I suffered. Just suffered.

Please take care.


Title: Exposing sacrifice
Post by: raul on January 30, 2021, 05:10:11 am
Holden,

I hope you are saving in your hard disk all the posts that you have been writing so far. I think you already filled volumes with your posts.

I suppose, what you went through in the hospital suffering terribly, while the nurses gossiped and planned their holidays is pretty normal. You are just another patient in their long, long list. I suppose when the nurses find me dead in the hospital they will just wrap my body in a blanket and then give it to the morgue. Easy as that. Just a piece of dead meat. The nurses will go on gossiping and complaining that they do not have enough money for their daughters´birthday.

If you study Spanish at least 6 hours every day you will be able to have a good command of the language in 1 year. If you study more hours then six or seven months would be enough.

Will we ever know what Schopenhauer thought when he was dying? I think not. It is a big mystery.

I disagree with you when you say that you do not count if death had no compunctions in taking away someone as profound as Schopenhauer. I think each one of us in this board at least do count when Saint Death comes to fetch us. After all he has been with us all of our lives since we left our mothers´wombs. Saint Death has been very patient.

What happens to Mr. Gary will happen to all of us. Time passes by very quickly. We look youngish and strong and in a few years we look weak and withered. Sometimes I see 60-year-old men trying to look young. It is impossible to cheat our bodies. Young girls will find them attractive because they have money and once they run out of money the girls will find someone else.

Prince Andrew has been seen with Epstein. There is a photograph of his highness with a girl, Virginia Roberts, who later testified against Epstein. According to what I read Ghislaine Maxwell, his partner in crime, ordered Virginia to have sex with the Prince. I think the end of the monarchies in Europe is near. These blue-blooded people, so to speak, have a lot of blood in their hands. 

I think you read all the books that describe the somber and bleak side of our human condition. Maybe I should suggest the Old Testament of which I know nothing about. I only read the Genesis a long time ago.

People say that the book is full of very disturbing and depressing stories. Maybe one book, I can suggest, written by Nathaniel J. Merritt whose title is Jehovah Unmasked-The true identity of the Bible.

http://libgen.li/item/index.php?md5=2FA2558025BCF126C24E646C777EF311

Stay vigilant.

P.S. The bloggers say:Do not take the vaccine
            Infertility
            Damage to the brain nerve
            
Facebook´s oversight committee has just announced that it made a mistake when it censored studies showing the effectiveness of hydroxychloroquine.

Tanzanian President John Magufuli has encouraged his countrymen to pray to God while inhaling steam as a natural coronavirus defense, warns vaccines are not good. On May 3, he dismissed coronavirus testing kits imported to Tanzania as faulty. Imported test kits returned positive results for the Chinese virus on samples taken from a goat and a pawpaw, a fruit similar to papaya.

There was power outage in North Carolina. Sounds of Aapache helicopters were heard.

There were huge protests in Vienna, Austria against the lockdowns.

There were protests in Stuttgart, Germany against the lockdowns.

A reopening will take place in the United Kingdom. Thousands of shop owners will open at the same time today defying the lockdowns and restrictions.

U.S. Rep. Adam Schiff is connected to BlackRock and Franklin Templeton Investments. These companies were named in the $ 7.4 b Burisma/U.S. Ukraine corruption claim. BlackRock raked millions on GameStop.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=n6uIY9YrkAs&has_verified=1
Title: The Willows ( To Senor Raul)
Post by: Holden on January 30, 2021, 01:02:11 pm
Senor Raul,

Thank you for your kind message.I do not think the modern world is different from the medieval one in any fundamental way. We still have the royalty and the peasants-the great unwashed.I am, most decidedly, one of the great unwashed.

Thank you for your book suggestion. I would look it up. If the only side effect of the vaccine were infertility, then I would not mind a jab:)
What is to be found on this message board is, of course,heresy for the gorts. This whole New World Order business appears very complicated when one looks at various pieces of the puzzle. Sometimes in order to see, one must close his eyes.

Blackwood was one of the few writers whom Lovecraft admired and The Willows is certainly something that he would have liked:
http://www.gutenberg.org/files/11438/11438-0.txt

I mention the work because my life,almost every day, reminds me of it.The reason why Lovecraft’s work is better than Blackwood’s, in general, is because for Lovecraft writing was not just a craft for him. He meant it-he was truly pessimistic,unlike, I think, Blackwood.


When Lovecraft died( a rather painful death), he had just a few quids left with him. He was not very old. His so-called wife was not there. She would come later, to write a memoir and make money out of his poor ,dead husband’s new found popularity.

That makes perfect sense. Why bother with a broke pulp-writer husband who is dying?But the dead author and ex-husband( she did not waste any time and got remarried soon) who is gaining popularity is another thing altogether,right? Heck, Cthulu himself would have acted in a more honorable manner.

Take care.
Title: Herr Hauser As The Programmer
Post by: Holden on January 30, 2021, 01:20:50 pm

Herr Hauser, as he has often mentioned here, is occupied,from time to time,  with installing software .

He has installed a software called WWR ( Die Welt als Wille und Vorstellung)in my mind a few years back.Before that my mind worked in fits and starts and was a sitting duck for the gortish viruses. But now, it is different. WWR is the strongest anti-gortish programme ever designed.

It is almost preternatural how much protection this software has bestowed upon me. I can finally see –the blindfold has been ripped from my eyes.I can see the malicious viruses floating around me,trying to attack my mind repeatedly everyday, only the software is too strong for them to breach.

The viruses do not expect that the mind would possess such protection.They are astounded and then beat a hasty retreat.
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: raul on January 30, 2021, 06:21:54 pm
Holden,

Thank your for the link. After reading your post it came to my mind what is happening to a neighbor. The guy´s wife is 35 years old and she gave birth to a baby and after that she suffered from a cerebrovascular accident (CVA). She is in the hospital and she cannot be operated on because she tested positive for covid. She has to wait 14 days. Damn these doctors and their protocols. 

Yes, you are right. This so-called modern world is not different from the medieval one. When I mentioned Prince Andrew I forgot to add that his highness, so to speak, has not had to worry about paying his bills/clothes/rent/medicines at all. That also can be said about the royalties of Spain, Belgium, Denmark, Sweden, Norway, Japan, etc. A French fashion mogul, Jean Luc Brunel, partner of Epstein, was arrested last month. Maybe the small fish will be caught instead of the big fish. This explains why Prince Andrew has not been extradited.

I only have taken several alternative sources/bloggers to tell what these elites, in their view, are doing. I understood that these dark elites always deemed us only as cannon fodder.

I have read astonishing things in some of these blogs. Things like Angela Merkel, German Chancellor is Hitler´s granddaughter, or that Hitler was antiglobalist and history books have always lied to us, I even read that Michael Jackson and Elvis Presley and Princess Diana are still alive. I even read that former president John F. Kennedy has just died of a stroke. I don´t know what to make of all that.

One thing is sure: this world is not what it appears to be.

Take care.

P.S. 1/31 is Freedom Day issued by President Donald Trump.

Cui Tiankai, Chinese Communist Party ambassador to the USA arrested and transferred to a secret base of the National Guard.

Khalid Sheikh Mohammed and other Gitmo terror detainees will get the COVID-19 vaccine next week-months before most Americans.

India plans to introduce a law to ban all private cryptocurrencies such as bitcoin and put in place a framework for an official digital currency to be issued by the central bank.

White House went dark for the 10th night in a row. Dark because it is currently not a legitimate House of Representatives and hosts a pseudo president.

The Gateway Pundit reports: “Whether a person died in a nursing home or hospital? Who cares? They died? Governor Cuomo proves he´s as heartless as he is reckless with NY lives.

The Gateway Pundit reports: Hospital in Vancouver, Washington refuses to let daughter see her elderly mother for not taking COVID Test, crowd comes and gets mom released.

According to valleycentral.com Rio Grande City agents were informed about a trailer home used for harboring undocumented immigrants. When agents visited the residence and searched inside, they encountered a 16-year-old Salvadorian female and of no relation to the home owner. The home owner then led Borfer Patrol agents to a chicken coup/shed where six more illegal aliens were discovered,”, read the release. 

The deployment of the National Guard in the U.S. capital has been extended for another three months.

Latimes.com reports that The Food Network has pulled the 20th season of the competition show “Worst Cooks in America” after its winner was arrested in the death of a child. South Carolina authorities charged Ariel Robinson, 29, and Jerry Robinson, 34 last week with homicide by child abuse in the death of their 3-year-old adopted daughter, Victoria Smith.

Deutsche WirtschaftsNachrichten reports that the German police collected more than one thousand evidences in a raid against child ****. 65 suspects were discovered while evaluating the chats. The police covered a network of **** politicians.

The Guardian reports that the Black Lives Matter movement has been nominated for the Nobel Peace Prize for the way its call for systemic change has spread around the world.

Cristina Martín Jiménez, a Spanish author that specializes in the Bilderberg Club, says that in order to be nominated to the Nobel Peace Prize the way Obama or Kissinger were nominated you have to be a war general for the Bilderbergers.

Beforeitsnews.com reports that Chinese leader Xi Xinping is carrying out a purge among the military. The United States will cease to recognize the People´s Republic of China. The Chinese Comunist Party is being dissolved with the aid of the USA, Taiwan and Chinese forces.

There were earthquakes in Granada, Spain on January 28, 2021.

Iranian officials now claims that sirens heard in parts of Tehran are due to “technical issues”. An attack from Israel can be expected.

Website of the Atomic Energy Organization of Iran offline.

Website of the Mehrabad International Airport in Tehran offline.

Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: Holden on January 31, 2021, 05:46:01 am
https://youtu.be/rURpfbTvo8A
Title: The Final Stigmata of Philip K. Dick (To Senor Raul)
Post by: Holden on January 31, 2021, 01:04:24 pm

Senor Raul,

Thank you for your message. We have been talking about Gnosticism recently and in the afternoon today while I was with my math books working on problems ( or scratching the paper, as my blessed mother describes it),I could feel an undercurrent of apprehension about my uncertain future in the office. I was wrestling with this apprehension inside my mind, while, on the outside, I wrestled with a maths problem.
Suddenly, I was reminded of Philip K.Dick.

I first read PKD in 2008-09. Those were difficult days for me. I had been hospitalised recently and was still a student. PKD came to my help and made me feel better than any kind of drug could have.

Over the years, I have been thinking about him.In the afternoon today, thoughts about our discussion on Gnosticism and about PKD hit my mind simultaneously.

While on the outside, I managed to solve the problem, on the inside I thought this: PKD was writing about Gnosticism.I cannot help but see many parallels between him and Lovecraft. Demiurge is all over his work
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PKD imagines that the Roman Empire never went away. He looks at a psychiatric facility and it appears to him like a Roman prison. This is a world of decay. We have been thrown into it. The fact that most of the official religions are fundamentally pro-natalist tells me something important. After two of PKD’s marriages failed, he tried to kill himself.

A  few days back the terrible tuberculosis sensation on the right side of my chest made a come back. I wonder if the doctor asked to stop taking prescription drugs because he wanted me to come back to the hospital and turn into a cash cow for him. Well, I started taking the pills again yesterday and feel a bit better.

It is not very difficult to figure out that there is something fundamentally wrong with existence.Yet most people fail to put the two and two together.

The ancient Greeks, first and foremost ,focused on tragedies,thousands of years back and even today,every single day, similar tragedies get repeated.

I feel as if I am trapped in one of the ancient Greek tragedies. I realise that it is a tragedy. But there is no way out of it while I breathe. Like a dog who is whipped and then locked in the dark room.It sits in a corner, sheds a few tears and licks its wounds.

PKD writes that in the school,his fellow students threw rocks at him and bullied him. He hid under the parked cars at growled at them from there.Is homeschooling an option in Paraguay? Over here there is no such option. No,one must go out there and allow the bullies to traumatise one.If it were up to me, I would have never attend any schools in my childhood and would have liked to study on my own.That way I could have escaped a lot of nonsense and could have focused better on the significant aspects.It is believed that Aristotle studied for more than 20 years under Plato. If I continue to stay alive( and I earnestly hope I am not), I would like to study for that long, or longer.

The mind wants to erase itself, but the body likes to eat.

Please take care.
Title: 1,000 thousands way to die - Fire in the hole
Post by: raul on January 31, 2021, 04:56:30 pm
Holden,

Thank you for your response. I don´t know in which gospel I read that “money, materialistic things, clothes, jewels, they all gather rust.” I hope your folks realize that in considering your “uncertain” future in the office.

I often heard people say to me that I had no future. Wrong. I have/had a future. Going through education aka brainwashing at school, suffering violence from many people including my parents, doing violent deeds aganst my fellow-human beings, diabetes, high blood pressure, eye problems, my body decaying, mental abuse for not complying with their stupid rules and norms, everywhere, seeing people walking with crutches, seeing people with severe handicaps, being mocked for not having a regular job aka slavery, etc. I have a future. If I am lucky I will be put in a coffin and left to rot.

I have been told many times that I am unfit to live in this world. Yes, I have negative thoughts. Maybe my wife, so to speak, has been a coffin.

Homeschooling, if I can use this word, has become a practice since the beginning of the quarantine because most of the students in public schools attended virtual classes. The funny thing is that the software used for these virtual classes was donated by Microsoft aka Bill Gates. I heard it from the Minister of Education, Eduardo Petta.

One of the few paragraphs I remember from Merrit´s book is the following:

Humans will work for years to cure a deadly disease or condition, putting all their energy, time, genius, and money into the struggle until a cure for the disease is found. When they do, suddenly you hear "Thank GOD!" from the mainstream Christians around you for the medical breakthrough. They thank the very being that formed the disease in the first place. Such is their logic. The universe is not a friendly place, and never has been, regardless of the lies to the contrary told by the Jehovah gods.


Certainly there is something fundamentally wrong with existence as you say. That kind of thinking is only for you and people like you. Yes, most people fail to put the two and two together. We are trapped in this tragedy called life.

Stay safe.

P.S. The U.S Sun, October 31, 2020 reports that Federal authorities allegedly seized a second laptop belonging to Hunter Biden in a raid on celebrity psychiatrist Dr Keith Ablow´s office earlier this year, according to a report.

In Vienna, Austria police officers are joining the protests against the lockdowns.

According to Noticias NOM the president of Madagascar, Andry Rajoelina stated that the World Health Organization offered his country $ 20 million as a bribe to poison the cure for Covid-19 (a cure based on herbs called Covid-19 prepared with artemisia).

According to Rafael Palacios, Spanish journalist, vaccinations deliver synthetic genes and incorporate nanotechnology.

Ginny Mcgonigle in her twitter account: You mean this Dr. (Anthony) Fauci who was with Obama in 2015 in the Wuhan lab where they paid 3.7 million for a “bat” project? We know that we´ll right now? He is of the deep state you get instructions from him. Cut the crap! All to take Trump down!A photograph showing Dr.Fauci, Melinda Gates and Barack Obama at the Wuhan lab in 2015!

The members of cabal/Deep State/black hats will be easily identified. Symbolism will be their downfall.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zyFCztO3Tso&has_verified=1
Title: Tristram Shandy( To Senor Raul)
Post by: Holden on February 01, 2021, 01:49:27 pm
Senor Raul,

Thank you for the message. What do you make of this statement-“If you do not hear crying, your parish is dying”.

https://theheartofthehomeblog.wordpress.com/2014/03/31/if-you-dont-hear-crying-the-church-is-dying/

I wonder what Schopenhauer would make of such statements.He had a wicked sense of humour.No wonder he loved Tristram Shandy.When Tristam’s parents are making love and the father is about to ejac-ulate, the wife tells him that she hopes that he has not forgotten to wind up the house clock.The father gets distracted but his ejaculation has reached the point of no return and he ejaculates while being unfocused.
The midwife or the doctor who is there to ensure smooth delivery( Tristam’s) uses a new kind of  forceps and pulls out Tristam by his nose. After a few years,when he is an toddler and is peeing out of a window ,the window sash falls down and circumcises the boy.

Hemingway shot himself.He wrote a great deal about bull fights in Spain. It has something to do with staring death in the eye. In these bull fights there is a very real risk of death.Yet, hundreds of people love taking part in these fights. They are probably the same people who love making babies.

I remember ,in 2005, I was in a hostel and it would have been around 11 pm. The hostel rule was that three people had to share one room-it was a veritable hell for me. Anyway, so I was laying in bed and that day ,in the evening, I had bought a psychotherapy book,maybe it was Beyond the Pleasure Principle, on the outside chance that it might help me make sense of all the suffering that I was so acutely aware of. Unfortunately, the book, as far as I can remember,was all over the place. Then, when sleep was about to claim me, I hoped and prayed that it was not just sleep, but the big sleep.

My request to you would be that you stay away from people who say mean things to you. Maybe read the bloggers instead.
Socrates says the philosopher spends his life getting ready for death.

Last year I read in a newspaper that one of the boys , in the same hostel, I was in, many year back ,hanged himself. I came close too, but my satchel, a red,old satchel, which I carried around with me everywhere( and people made fun of me for that too), was always full of second hand books I bought from the vendor in the streets. They  managed to distract me long enough to enable me to carry on, though, in an extremely melancholy manner.

I could very easily have ended up hanging myself just as that boy did. It was a place where spirits were eaten. They belittled me all the time, made me feel as if I were a certified moron. I almost never responded to them. I just left the room and went in search of another second hand book,with my half torn red satchel.

This animal chooses flight. Most people are repulsive.Dogs are not so bad. Much better than most human beings in fact. About Philosophical Pessimism, I can say, what Luther once said, regarding his so-called Reformation-Here I stand, I can do no other, Jupiter help me.

Take care.
Title: San Fermin
Post by: raul on February 02, 2021, 08:52:48 am
Holden,

Thank you for your words and the link. I hope you are not having problems with your medication. Most doctors -there are exceptions-treat you more as a customer than as patient. Money comes first.

If the you do not hear me after some time that means that I am gone, that I am in hospital, or I just vanished.

I have taken all the insults because I have no wife and no children. When I am gone I will leave no widower and no orphan. Of course this blog helps me a great deal. What you and others have written in the board is very enlightening. Honestly I cannot blame those who abuse me, mock me or attack men. It is our human nature.

I suppose most Catholic elderly parishioners in this case, must find the babies an attraction. Their innocence is appealing to many. Thirty years later those babies will become mass murderers, bank robbers, crooked policemen, serial killers, embezzlers and lustful preachers. 

Certainly Schopenhauer had a fine sense of humor. In order to survive in this madhouse a little humor is necessary.

I would have liked to go to a bullfight. To be in front of the raging bull must be quite an experience. I know there are people who say that only savages love that kind of bloody sport. I suppose they can say I am a savage person.

I think these bullfights more or less replace those medieval jousts when the knights fought in front of the ladies for prestige and ssex. That is my view. Thousands of people take part in these fights. Later after feeling the rush in their blood they go and make babies in the heat of the night.

In Pamplona, Spain most people challenge the Miura bulls in the streets every July. They are the gladiators of our time. They are the Sanfermines, one of the most important festivities in Spain. San Fermin is the patron saint of Navarre, Spain.

Take care.
 
P.S. Realrawnews.com, a U.S. web, reports on January 30, that at approximately 3:00 am, a sniper´s bullet struck a panoramic casement window on the east wall of Trump´s bedroom at his Mar-a-Lago estate. The round might have slain Trump had he not recently replaced tempered glass with Blast Structures International´s bullet resistant glass which can stop anything less powerful than a .50 round.

Great Awakening reports that Arnold Schwarzenegger has supposedly received his COVID-19 vaccine… if only they´d remembered to take the cap off.

In Vienna, Austria police officers joined the protests against the lockdowns.

Gacetinmadrid.com reports that a man was detained for firing at young people for not wearing a face mask in the center of Madrid.

According to Noticias NOM the president of Madagascar, Andry Rajoelina stated that the World Health Organization offered his country $ 20 million as a bribe to poison the cure for Covid-19 (a cure based on herbs called Covid-19 prepared with artemisia).

According to Rafael Palacios, Spanish journalist, vaccinations deliver synthetic genes and incorporate nanotechnology.

Great Awakening reports that a 27-year-old Canadian nurse faints and suffers multiple seizures after receiving Pfizer´s experimental Covid vaccine.

It also reports that 10 deaths in Germany within 4 days after Covid-19 vaccination, investigation ordered.

Wochenblick.at., German digital newspaper, reports that a 42-year-old man from Madhya Pradesh, India died after receiving the Covid vaccine.

Gene Decode, an informer, has confirmed that many have already suspected: the earthquakes happening in Granada, Spain last week were caused artificially by the alliance in order to destroy underground bases.

Ellen De Generes, a U.S. celebrity turns up again with an ankle monitor. According to Rafael Palacions, a Spanish journalist, she is part of the cabal.

Maga Rising in his Twitter account reports that the German Health Minister admits at Davos World Economic Forum virtual meeting that they are not willing to stop their Corona-Terror until the entire world population´s DNA is mRNA modified and the Great Reset done.

John Weaver, cofounder of the Lincoln Project, faces sexually suggestive harassment allegations from at least 21 young men according to the New York Times.

Myanmar military television says the military is taking control of the country for one year, while reports say many of the country´s senior politicians including Aung San Su Kyi have been detained. There were elections in Myanmar (Burma) and the Dominion voting systems was used. The same system used in the USA to steal the election.

Disclose.tv reports that someone just changed the Hollywood sign to HollyBOOB.

Global News reports that thousands of ultra-orthodox rabbis defy Israel restrictions for Rabbi Meshulam Dovid Soloveitchik´s funeral.

At this moment the price of silver has had a 10 percent increase in a few hours. The short-term silver market is the Achilles´ heel of the money fiat global financial system.

The members of cabal/Deep State/black hats will be easily identified. Symbolism will be their downfall.

https://www.youtube.com/results?search_query=San+FERMIN
Title: Sadness Would Last Forever( To Senor Raul)
Post by: Holden on February 02, 2021, 12:51:14 pm
Senor Raul,

Thanks for your message. I hope that you get well soon and that people around you stop tormenting you. My suggestion, if I could make one, would be that one could try to stay hidden as much as possible.

Dostoevsky, so I am told, had a baby with a woman who died within three months due to pneumonia. I wish to lock myself away from mankind.They sicken me. But I hope ,very much, that you continue to write here ,somehow, for a long time.

J.K.Huysman ( writer of Against Nature), was at one point of time obsessed with Schopenhauer.He tried to build a self-sufficient inner world.He never married or had any kids.I think, he was also attracted to the pessimistic aspects of Catholicism- he spent a year in a monastery.

My body reminds me every single day that I cannot control it-it controls me.Maybe I am one of the weaklings who just cannot manage to get on with his life. It is because I find life ugly, very ugly.

It would have been better  if I were not in the world in the first place. Unfortunately, your theory tells me that after death too I might not find any kind of peace.

The world is too cruel for the likes of us. My mother again pestered me about getting married. Such dupes of nature. I see nature for what it is. It is not pretty. I would not mind doing what Schopenhauer did as regards his mother. I am quite sure he did not want to, but that he was left with no other choice.

I remember reading that Schopenhauer’s sister often pestered him about getting married. I  wish to be like him in more ways than one.

Maybe I am moving straight into the perfect storm- my health going down, estrangement with parents and trouble at work.All of this for what exactly? For a slice of bread that my stomach demands?

Take care.
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: raul on February 03, 2021, 06:02:48 am
Holden,

Thank you for your words once again. You and Hentrich have been very patient with my scribblings.

From my point of view the only way for you to stay away from your mother pestering you is to leave India and go, let´s say, to the USA. But mothers are persistent and she may find a way to pester you even there.

As you say I would like to lock myself from mankind. Life is pure misery and it would have been better it I were not in this world. Apart from reading this blog and feeling hungry, thirsty and feeling my sick body, nothing motivates me very much. I feel completely hollow. If a neighbor came to me asking for help I would not lift my finger to help him/her.

All of us have been making this journey from the cradle until we get to the grave. We have been dying since we left our mothers´wombs. We were born cursed and we will die cursed.

This reminds me of Jacques Lacarriere who writes that according to the Gnostics “man has absolutely nothing to do with the curse that is laid upon him: the one who is truly  responsible is the sadistic and perverse demiurge who dared to dream up such a cruel world in all its minute detail. “

I remember reading a little about Moctezuma, the Aztec ruler, who offered thousands of lives to the war god Huitzilopochtli. This god demanded human sacrifices and so Moctezuma complied with the god.

Huitzilopochtli means Humming bird on the left and were thought to be reincarnated warriors. Sacrifices were made in his honor in defeat and victory.

That **** of blood ceased when my ancestors, bearded men, white-faced, from beyond the sea, from a land called known by the Carthaginians as Hispania arrived to impose their law. Hispania means land of rabbits; I learned much later.The law of these bearded and white-faced men demanded a different kind of sacrifice, i.e., the Inquisition.

We may live in different times but we are also offered as human sacrifice in this so-called modern world. I am not a good person, if I can use this nonsensical label, but I often wonder if I would sell my country in order to destroy those who despise me.

Some of them have very big university degrees. They make good money. However I think that our ancestors with less technology and fewer degrees had more common sense than any of them. Now let´s see what they are going to do once the new weapon of mass destruction aka vaccines gets them. Most of them said nothing against stay-at home orders. What a subtle change! At least the SS were more honest in walking with their German shepherds and firearms in the Nazi concentration camps.

Stay safe.

P.S.

#SaveTheChildrenWorld Wide:

The government of Donald Trump found out that 90 percent of the factories that supplied meat to McDonalds contained human meat; those factories were from other countries. The FBI said that most of the meat came from children. (Source: Archivos Aroitia Jiménez)

The Epoch Times reports that Rochester Mayor suspends police officers who restrained a 9-year-old girl with pepper spray.

Infobae.com reports that Jeff Bezos stepped down from Amazon. He will be replaced by Andy Jassy.

United Kingdom government scientific advisor predicts annual coronavirus vaccines according to breitbart.com.

There were protests in Denmark against the lockdowns. There were also protests in Paris, France.

According to Tim Dillon in his twitter account @TimJDillon the CEO of Robinhood, the company involved in the recent scandal at Wall Street, is Ghislaine Maxwell´s son. Ghislaine Maxwell was Jeffrey Epstein´s partner in crime.

Alice M in her twitter account @Alice_M2020 shows a photograph where Mossad agent Robert Maxwell´s daughter Ghislaine is seen with one Boris. This Boris very much resembles the current British Prime Minister Boris Johnson.

Title: Playing the Long Game( To Senor Raul)
Post by: Holden on February 03, 2021, 01:28:14 pm
Senor Raul,

Thanks for the message. I am glad to know that this message board has been of some assistance to you and hope that you continue to write here. I look forward to your messages too.

As regards moving to some other country- I feel it in my bones that I must live and die right where I am.I am not a patriot. It is just that I do not believe my problems could be solved by leaving the country.

In ancient Japan, as I have written earlier too, sometimes the poor and the humiliated man went to the doorsteps of his rich and powerful enemy and committed ritual suicide right at his doorstep,during the night,  so that when ,in the morning, his body was found, it brought a great deal of public disgrace on the rich and the powerful man. So, I need to stay put, if only for the same reason.

Also, I read something interesting today-somebody asked a pessimist ,if you are a true pessimist then why are you still alive?
Well, I am still writing my suicide note:)

Would you care to suggest some books that you might have read with regard to the Soviet-era gulags? Thanks.

I think these bullfights more or less replace those medieval jousts when the knights fought in front of the ladies for prestige and ssex. That is my view. Thousands of people take part in these fights. Later after feeling the rush in their blood they go and make babies in the heat of the night.-Senor Raul

I see, so ,in effect, sexx and violent death are intimately connected.Bertrand Russel, as intelligent a man as one could every aspire to be, had a large number of kids. What is worse, is that, he writes that happiness is based,in part, on having kids,”continuity of life”.

As  regards those people ,with degrees from great institutions, who torment you, please remember, that you/we are playing the long game:) .
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: raul on February 03, 2021, 03:36:52 pm
Holden,

Thank you for your words.

There is one book related to life under the Soviets was written by Orlando Figes. I think you might find it interesting.

http://libgen.gs/ads.php?md5=34eead51b7672ac3033bcff5a591dc93

The other one, which I did not read, was recommended by John Gray, written by Varlam Shalamov. It can also be found in libgen.

Millions of people think like Bertrand Russell believe that happiness is based mostly on having children. Even this plandemic do not awaken them. Life must go on.

For my blood pressure I have been taking a medication called Losartan 50 mg. Once I run out of these pills I will decide if I continue taking them. I do not believe in this “life must go on “crrap.

Stay well.

P.S. The BBC´s video: Ghulzira Aukelkhan tells on camera how she, a female camp detainee, was given the job of handcuffing naked Uyghur girls to beds so that the Han men could go in and **** them. The men paid money to pick which girl they wanted to ****.

Virus in Sweden has virtually disappeared. Probably now herd immunity. And they still haven´t had a single day of lockdown. Bars, restaurant, ski resorts, gyms all open, no face masks mandatory.

Disclose.tv: Never before seen photos show Jeffrey Epstein cuddling a sleeping young girl on his private jet around 2004.

Noticias Rafapal reports that the address of the pharmaceutical Astra Zeneca UK Ltd. appears as a customer of a manufacturer of adrenochrome. The manufacturer is CYM CARING CORP. (Caring is Youth, Youth is Money, Money is Freedom).

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=m6kFCNsnQpQ

Title: Media Disparages Asceticism ( To Senor Raul)
Post by: Holden on February 05, 2021, 04:37:01 am
Senor Raul,
Thank for your message.I hope that you manage to continue with your medicines,I think, there might be some humanitarian NGOs in Paraguay who provide medicines free of cost or subsidise the cost to a large degree.
It is very cold here now and my already weakened lungs do not seem to like such weather.
Winter certainly intensifies my sadness.It might be summer in Paraguay at the moment. High blood pressure can cause a great deal of suffering. I generally have low blood pressure which is considered less dangerous than high blood pressure and tends to make one sluggish.
I think fasting,once or twice a week, might help one’s health but too much fasting leaves one undernourished. Even if one manages to hide from the outside world, it is difficult to escape from bodily ailments.
I wonder if the Paraguayan National Health Service is a bit like that UK NHS.In India, they have tried to copy the English NHS but the sheer population figures inundate all kinds of systems. Every man for himself here. In read that while the last Russian Czar was no angel of mercy, he was about a thousand time better than the Red Czar.
If someone were to read my messages here which I wrote in 2014-15,then I might come across as a Red myself. But now I can see how foolish I was.I wonder if you have been to Cuba or the Post-Chavez Venezuela. I am told that Venezuela was one of the richest countries in the world at one point of time but now it difficult to find even a single painkiller pill .
Let us not forget, then even good old Schopenhauer, when the Revolution of 1848 came knocking ,expressed his political views by way of his actions-he opposed it.
Well, I do hope you manage to get your high-blood pressure medication, for I do not wish to miss out on reading more of your posts. You are clearly a deep thinker and far more intelligent than people with Ivy League degrees who mentally torture you. I would guess that most of these men are married with kids. They have created their own personal hell.
I wonder what you would make of this:
https://www.scientificamerican.com/article/a-jewish-gene-for-intelligence/

I hope you are not in a great deal of pain. I think junk food is deliberately being made available to us and asceticism is disparaged so that we end up as weakling and would not be able to resist the evil ones when they come for us.In India, half the country does not get enough food and the other half is obese. In the urban areas, especially, where I am at the moment ,people are quite fat. Even my parents. The doctor told my dad that he is having a fatty liver and yesterday he was asking me for tips in order to lose some weight.
Take care of your high blood pressure please.We need your posts here.is
Maybe you could find some generic high blood pressure medication as that supposed to be far cheaper than the branded one.Junk food is our enemy.Oil and sugar too.
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: raul on February 05, 2021, 02:34:04 pm
Holden,

Thank you for your words and the article. Yes, we are in summer and we have been having rains in January and almost the first week of February.

In my view although many artists, scientists, psychologists, statesmen, businessmen and so many other people who left their mark in this world were Jews, it does not mean they are superior to others. Ramanujan was from India and he was a genius. Nikola Tesla was from Serbia whose dream was a worldwide network of wireless power transmission. We also have Manuel Elkin Patarroyo, a Colombian, who designed a synthetic malaria vaccine in 1986.

Apart from my high blood pressure, the other issue is my prostate problems. I also have weight problems and, like your father, fatty liver from eating junk food and drinking too mch for many years. I deserve what I am going through.

I hope you are enduring the cold weather. I cannot imagine what you are going through with your weak lungs. I only hope you have your medications available.

The Paraguayan Health Service was already in chaos and during this plandemic is much, much worse. If you have no money for your treatment or family members who will buy medicines, you had better pray for a painless death. If my sister ever suffers from CVA, I won´t know what to do and vice versa.

As to those who have attacked me; well, what can I say? I don’t´know where in the Old Testament come these words: "And thy eye shall not pity; but life shall go for life, eye for eye, tooth for tooth, hand for hand, foot for foot". I won´t lie but revenge is what I have wanted.

It is said that the Galilean in Matthew 5:38-39,43-4, 48 uttered: "Ye have heard that it was said an eye for an eye, a tooth for a tooth, But I say unto you resist not the evil person. Whoever slaps you on the right cheek turn to himthe other also. You have heard that it was said 'Thou shall love thy neighbor but hate thy enemy,' but I say unto you love thy enemies, bless those that curse you, do good to those that hate you, and pray for those who spitefully use you and persecute you, that ye may be the children of your Father in Heaven. Therefore be ye perfect as your Heavenly Father is perfect."

I am afraid this is not a world where you can forgive and forget.

I read a little about Soviet Russia and certainly Lenin and his minions were much worse than Czar Nicholas. His elder brother, Alexander, was hanged by the imperial authorities so I suppose that explains his orders to execute the imperial family and what he did later to Russia. I think Lenin said: “Electricity will take the place of God,” in 1918.

That reminds me of Venezuelan President Hugo Chavez. Russian embalmers were consulted in order to preserve his body for veneration like Lenin’s. I remember reading that the Venezuelan under Mr.Maduro´s government had to import toilet paper.

I read that Cuba has been able to survive in these years because Hugo Chávez sent tons of oil to the island and I suppose that aid continues with Nicolás Maduro Moro. I read the memoirs of Juan Reinaldo Sánchez, Fidel Castro ´s bodyguard for 17 years. He said that the Cuban leader loaned money to the government from his own personal accounts. That´s what I call revolutionary duty!

But the Castros brothers have been just tools for the thugs who rule this world and that is the reason his brother Raúl, is still in power. Fidel´s youngest son, who is a doctor, is a bon vivant, who spends $ 1,000 dollars per night in expensive hotels when he goes abroad while the Cubans have to survive every single day.
 
In the 1960s Fidel´s own sister, Juana, fled the island and went to the USA and in 1993, Natalia Fernández Revuelta, his daughter, fled to the USA also.  A researcher, Henry Makow, claims that Justin Pierre Trudeau aka Fidelito, Canada´s Prime Minister is Fidel´s son. I saw the pictures and the resemblance is striking.

Stay safe.

P.S. Breaking 911.com reports that 2 FBI agents fatally shot, 3 others others injured while serving child **** search warrant in Florida.

Biden´s press spokeswoman Jen Psaki: “Even after you ´re vaccinated, social distancing and wearing masks will be essential.”

Fox News host Tucker Carlson revealed that the Bank of America is secretly sending all of its customers´purchase information to the FBI so they can identify domestic terrorists according to whatdoesitmean.com.

From RT.com.: German nuns rented orphaned boys to businessmen for gang bangs and orgies. A report being withheld from the public documents horrific acts of **** and sexual abuse against young boys were facilitated by nuns belonging to the Catholic Archdiocese of Cologne in Germany, according to the Daily Beast.

Jeffrey Epstein´s alleged madam Ghislaine Maxwell was a guest at a Jeff Bezos- hosted retreat in 2018, report says according to We the Patriot News-Noticias Patriotas.

The Peruvian Chicha and Pisco Criminal Appeals Chamber handed down a ruling saying the Wuhan coronavirus (COVID-19) was the product of a criminal elite around the world, mostly billionaires with global depopulation on their minds according to naturalnews.com.

In Gades, Spain in a nursing home 22 elderly people died and 103 contracted the virus after getting the first dose of the vaccine according to the El Diestro, Spanish digital newspaper.

According to the New York Post Greta Thunberg sparks criminal conspiracy probe in India with accidental tweet. Greta Thunberg accidentally shared a message showing she was getting told what to write on Twitter about the ongoing violent farmers´revolt in India-sparking a police investigation and a political firestorm, according to reports.

Kimberly Barnum @kimmerinkenai asks these questions:
Why is Google´s GPU named Adreno?
Why is the Browser named Chrome?
And why does Google have a patent on how to make Adrenochrome?

BreitbartNews: Rich entertainment elite Marilyn Manson (real name Brian Warner) is now facing multiple abuse allegations from eight different women.

From Truth Matters:

“The darkest places in hell are reserved for those who maintain their neutrality in times of moral crisis.” Dante Alighieri

From Truth Matters:

First we overlook evil.
Then we permit evil.
Then we legalize evil.
Then we promote evil.
Then we celebrate evil.
Then we persecute those
who still call it evil

From Noticias Rafapal
Doctors now warn about permanent damage and cardiovascular
events following Covid-19 vaccination.

John Weaver, cofounder of the Lincoln Project, faces sexually suggestive harassment allegations from at least 21 young men according to the New York Times.
According to Breitbart News, none of the Hollywood celebrities,Debra Messing,Dave Bautista,Mark Hamill,Ghostbusters actress Leslie Jones who supported the Lincoln Project, has condemned Weaver or disavowed the group.

“Appear weak when you are strong and strong when you are weak.” Sun Tzu
Title: Feverish Raskolnikov(To Senor Raul)
Post by: Holden on February 06, 2021, 12:49:34 pm

Senor Raul,
Thanks for your message. My cheap laptop is no working. I bough an OTG cable today and a USB Hub and have turned my phone into a word processor by connecting a mouse and keyboard with it. It is the cheapest option available to me.
Buying second hand devices is always risky so I won't do that.

I greatly appreciate the time and effort that you put in ,in responding to me. You are clearly one of the most honest men that I have come across.

When I went out in order to buy the aforementioned hardware ,in a very posh area of the city, I saw a lot of couples-rich men and beautiful women. They too were looking at me. I must have look to them like a feverish Raskolnikov .I bough the paraphrenalia and my T.B.medication.They bought expensive food in fine dining restaurants.

Fate has assigned be the role of the observer. They may be richer than me and look prettier and I am quite certain that my view of the world and nature of reality is closer to the truth. They were sitting inside fancy resturant and laughing and ,ostensibly, having a great time. But when a couple looked at me, for just a moment, I think,they glimpsed at the feverish Raskolnikov,they looked at the real nature of existence.

One might say -such wastage of resources and time and yet it is not the couples who are in the wrong in the eyes of Nature,but I am.

I hope you managed to find some kind of medication for all your bodily ailment and get better soon.

Thanks again for all the interesting messages which you are sharing here with all of us.

I wonder if you still have some relatives in Spain.Have you read something about Franco and if yes, what do you think of him.

In ancient Rome,they say, the rulers made sure that the populance had a lot of bread and circuses.That was the only way of keeping down the rebellions but I am not interested in either of them.However, I would like to better understand what this existence is all about.

I would like to observe others and myself. Observe myself observing.

Take care.



Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: raul on February 07, 2021, 06:36:07 am
Holden,

Thank you for your comments. As usual they are very enlightening.

I am not an honest person. I have been very hypocritical all these years. I have lied, cheated and deceived many people, including my parents. Life is a bbitch.

Those rich men and beautiful women, you write about, will also get poor and get old. We are living apocalyptic times but these people do not realize that yet. But they will at some given moment and things will get very ugly.

I do not have relatives in Spain. Yes, I read a little about the Generalissimo. Yes, that is the honorary title he had until he died on November, 20 1975. Francisco Franco Bahamonde was the commander in chief of the Spanish Legion, similar to their counterparts in France. He commanded the National forces against the Republic until he achieved victory in 1939 with the aid of Hitler and Mussolini.

We can say that the Spanish Civil War was the beginning of WW2 in Europe. I once read about Ángel Sanz Briz, a Spanish diplomat. He is known as the Spanish Schindler or the Angel of Budapest.

Although Franco was an ally of Hitler, Sanz Briz was able to secure the escape of Hungarian Jews in Budapest in 1944. He got passports and letters of protection so that many could escape the Nazis and the Hungarian Arrow Cross Party of Ferenc Szalazi. Clearly the Angel of Budapest did all that with the permission of the Generalissimo. Franco permitted all that in order to secure the survival of his regime.

These ancient Romans knew how to deal with the populace, bread and circus. Things have not changed much. Here in my view soccer substituted the circus. I thought the government was going to allow the soccer championship with the gatherings to continue last year but they did not. There are soccer matches in empty stadiums. It is part of the plan.

You need to take care of your health as long as possible. You want to observe life and observe yourself observing life. It is a difficult task. You know human beings are very unpredictable.

Stay well.


P.S. According to Noticias Rafapal (source: Jared Holt-Twitter @jaredholt) D.C. police arrested Ruben Verastegui – a former senior digital strategist for the Senate Republican Conference on charges of distribution of child ppornography. Verastigui allegedly said in a group chat that he was into images of babies being sexually abused. A review of the group chat conducted by HIS Special Agent Fry revealed Verastigui had a chat conversation with S-17 on or about April 13, 2020. A portion of the chat conversation is as follows:
Content warning from here on out. They are graphic and disturbing.

S-1:          So you like babies,huh.
Verastigui:    my absolute favorite
S-1:         FFuck yeah. How dark are you? What are u into?
Verastigui:   Well I like I said babies are some of my biggest turn-ons and beat.
Verastigui:   Young rrape.
Verastigui:   FFuck I love all that.
Verastigui:   I have been wanting to see videos of guys rraping a baby, when a baby screams it´s my favorite.
Verastigui:   I´ve a lot of videos so only have one I´ve been jjerking off to.
S-1:                   Which one?
Verastigui:   The ginger guy ffucked the baby… Have any good ones?   

https://www.washingtonpost.com/dc-md-va/2021/02/06/ruben-verastigui-child-****-charges/      

Nationalfile.com reports that Joe Cotchett, the Joe Biden fundraiser and longtime friend was accused by his ex wife in his divorce of physically abusing his children and making his daughers uncomfortable.

Bles.com., a Spanish digital newspaper reports that India is preparing to supply arms to its allies in the Indian Ocean and tension with the Chinese regime escalates.

The Supreme Court handed down a ruling banning churches from singing and chanting at their worship services in California according to whatdoesitmean.com.

Disclose.tv reports that Greta Thunberg and Rihanna posters burned in India in protest over external interference on farm laws.

Breaking 911: Former Calif. Mayor, 10 others charged in widespread bribery, corruption probe.

Noticias Rafapal: 15 elderly people die in a nursing home in Seville, Spain after getting the vaccine.

From Archivos Aroita Jiménez: At least 12,000 Israeli citizens tested positive for covid-19 after getting the first dose of the Pfizer vaccine.

Breitbart news: Time magazine has published a detailed account of what it describes as a conspiracy between left wing activists and business titans to create an extraordinary shadow effort to protect the 2020 presidential election.
Title: I Walk Alone ( To Senor Raul)
Post by: Holden on February 07, 2021, 01:50:00 pm

Senor Raul,

Thanks for the message. There are a lot of mosquitos here. They are quite big too. So, I am compelled to use a mosquito repellant.I once again hope that your malaise gets mitigated soon.


 I agree with some of the esoteric aspects and elements that I have found in your recent messages. Secret Societies are a fact.Also,human nature as you well know is inherently corrupt.This booming,buzzing confusion that I experience so often is truly terrible.

 Your theory of Gnosticism which includes the evil guards called Archons seems to be consistent with all the experiences and fact of life.I wonder if there are a lot of mosquitos in Paraguay too.I was thinking today about how Kant, though quite unwillingly,undercut religious belief and how many contortions Hegal had to pull off to try to mend that broken vessel.


I was watching a video and in that, a man was saying that he was earlier a protestant, then embraced reformed Judaism, then left that to become an Eastern Orthodox and finally left that too and became a Roman Catholic.Why? He was asked.

He said that he does not want to die alone,that, now he had a billion people sharing his world view and a church with a great deal of history. Now, this to me appears most cowardly. He refuses to believe in his own experiences and reasoning. He wants the support of a crowd. I was looking at his facial expressions and what I saw could be termed as intense fear. He was genuinely afraid of dying without the support of his co-religionists and the dogma of his church.
Now, this is most absurd and cowardly. I am do not think of myself as a courageous man, but  I am not so timid that I would take up the crutches called mob and dogma.Everyone must die alone and his priests would not accompany him when he gives up the ghost.But do you see -that is what he wants. He wants people to die with him,holding his hands. This is one of the reasons why most people wish to raise a family.They are terrified of being alone. They hate their own company and their thoughts. They wish to surround themselves with a wife and a passelful of kids, grandkids, and office colleagues, because they think they cannot stand alone.

Even if his Church's dogma were true( I do not think so), his very cowardice would doom him for all eternity. No wonder religions thrive. Men, like the one I mention here, all gather together and found one. One does not need the Magesterium to find out what the truth might me. What one needs is the ability to think for oneself( and a great deal of books.)
If the salvation were to be available only to the members of a certain church who are all required to stick together, I would gladly choose damnation in my solitude.
Take care.
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: raul on February 08, 2021, 05:50:49 am
Holden,

Here we are in the season of dengue. So people use mosquito repellants and mosquito nets a lot.

Indeed human nature is corrupt or broken.  The Gnostics say, from what I read, that we have been made in the image and likeness of our demoniac gods. Mr Merrit in his book Jehova Unmasked says the following:

“A couple of people informed me that I deny the reality of sin, therefore I am a liar and the Truth is not in me. I do not deny that Jehovah tells us we're "sinners," and we "fall short" of the moral law that miserable god laid down at Sinai. I do point out that the physical universe is by nature flawed because matter is by nature flawed and defiled, and our physical or animal nature shares in those flaws and defilement.

We material beings are not "sinners," we're merely trapped in a flawed world and flawed bodies molded by the rebellious Archons. The Jehovah gods want us to think we are sinners, so they can keep humankind wallowing in self loathing and trapped in this hell. 


What that man in the video says about not wanting to die alone is something that happens to millions around the world. That is the reason most people join sects, political parties, soccer clubs, guilds, associations, federations, unions, the mafia, or even the military. As you say they want the support of the crowd. Even the kings and queens and the Illuminati have their own special club.

It is true what you say. Most people raise a family because they are afraid of being alone or they are afraid of social pressure. The price their children later pay is really terrible. Contrary to what most people say most of us, supposedly adults, are still children. Our mental age does not correspond to our physical age.

I say you dare to confront the norms of most people there. However, most people, including me I should say, take the crutches called mob and dogma as you call them. We are weak and yes, we are cowards. Cowardice is what I am witnessing in myself and my fellow human beings at this very moment.

Once you have been thrown into this dungeon called Earth there is no salvation.

Stay vigilant.

P.S. Sara Beltran Ponce, MD, from Milwaukee, USA, 14 weeks pregnant and she got the Covid vaccine. Days later she suffers a miscarriage. From Noticias Rafapal.

According to Noticias Rafapal there are fire fighters in front of the U.S. Capitol.

Noticias Rafapal shows photographs of the attack on the Pentagon on Setember 11, 2001 that are evidence that it was a missile and not an airplane that made impact and that left a hole in the wall.

Disclose.tv: Three bombers just flew over Raymond James  Stadium during National Anthem.

Experts report the Super Bowl is one of the largest human trafficking event in the world. The National Human Trafficking Hotline reports Florida ranks third in the nation for human trafficking according to firstcoastnews.com. Dr.Christine Cauffield, CEO of LSF Health Systems, said 10,000 girls and women were victims of human trafficking during last year´s Super Bowl.

Cauffield explained traffickers typically choose big events where a lot of wealthy peole will be flying in, such as sporting events, conferences,and meetings.

According to XRiseX, @timesuppeople in Santa Clara County USA nearly 50% of law enforcement, sheriffs, deputies, and clerical staff have refused the vaccine.

The Sun.co.uk/news reports that more than 143 Brits died shorty after having their Covid jab, the medicines watchdog said today. But the Medicines and Healthcare insisted the vaccines are “safe”.

Dr.Dolores Cahill, a U.S. geneticist says that people could start dying a few months later after getting the vaccines according to tierrapura.org.

The Daily Mail.co.uk/news reports that on July 26, 1963 Northern Line passengers were subjected to anthrax secretly. It was part of an experiment conducted by government scientists from Porton Down, headquarters for the country´s military research since 1916. This particular powder contained freeze-dried spores from the anthrax family, B globigli bacteria, which can eye infections, food poisoning and more, serious still, septicemia, the cause of deadly sepsis.

According to Kirby Sommers, @KirbySommers, “It seems that Ghislaine Maxwell knew Jimmy Savile. Savile worked for her father Robert Maxwell. Small world. Seems Maxwell has a thing for pedophiles. Oh, wait, I forgot. She´s an alleged **** too.”

According to VICE, 30 years ago, Bryce Cleary donated sperm to an OHSU´s fertility clinic with the understanding that the donation would result in 5 children born on the opposite coast. DNA testing has since revealed that Bryce has at least 14 children in Oregon and even more out of the state.
Title: Ode on Solitude ( Pope) ( To Senor Raul)
Post by: Holden on February 10, 2021, 12:40:32 am

Thus let me live, unseen, unknown;
   Thus unlamented let me die;
Steal from the world, and not a stone
                            Tell where I lie.

-Pope
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: Holden on February 10, 2021, 12:56:26 am
Epicurus' advice : 'Live Unnoticed' .
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: raul on February 10, 2021, 05:14:25 pm
Holden,

Thank you for sharing these quotes.

Take care.

P.S.  According to greatgameindia.com China cracks fake COVID-19 Vaccine ring. Confiscates 3,000 fake doses.

From Back upArchivos Aroita Jiménez: In 2008 Dr. Anthony Fauci co-authored a paper about the Spanish Flu epidemic that rates as the most devastating modern pandemic. It swept the entire planet in the wake of the First World War and caused millions of deaths. So in studying this major and actual pandemic, what did Dr.Anthony Fauci and his colleagues find?

They discovered that most of the victims of the Spanish Flu didn´t die from the Spanish Flu. They died from bacterial pneumonia. And the bacterial pneumonia was caused by … wait for it, wait for it… wearing masks.

Infobae.com reports: Over 400 implicated in 48 countries. A Colombian-Italian child pporn network is dismantled. Colombian police in cooperation with Italian police was able to dismantle a gang that led a pporn and sexual content network via Whatsapp in America, Africa and Europe.

From Noticias Rafapal: During the Super Bowl (I think for the first time in flight) one of the planes developed in Area 51 with delta-shaped wings. This announcement turns the USA invincible in air combat. Evidently this is a show of force before its enemy, China.

CNN: President Trump is wrong in so many ways about hydroxychloroquine studies. Here are the facts. By Elizabeth Cohen and Minall Nigam, CNN. Sat April,11, 2020.

CNN: Study finds hydroxychloroquine help coronavirus patients survive better.
By Maggie Fox, Andrea Kane and Elizabeth Cohen, CNN. July 02, 2020.

Greatgameindia.com: 12 kids in India administered sanitizer instead of polio vaccine drops.

Greatgameindia.com: Switzerland rejects AstraZeneca Oxford Covid-19 vaccine due to lack of sufficient data.

Sputnik: Myanmar military leader: Election commission used COVID as excuse to prevent fair campaigning. Myanmar military leader vows to form a true and disciplined democracy, refuses to change country´s foreign policy.

Thetimesco.uk.: Hundreds of UK academics investigated over weapon links to China. Almost 200 British academics are being investigated on suspicion of unwittingly helping the Chinese government build weapons of mass destruction.

NOW Archive @NwoArchive: Elon Musk says he WON´T get a coronavirus vaccine because he´s not at risk and says the pandemic has ¨questioned my faith in humanity because people have become irrational.

From Back upArchivos Aroita Jiménez: If anyone believes Michael Jackson is a ****, you are in a deep sleep. That was a hit job similar to the fake Russian collusion hoax to smear Jackson. A lie from the Mockbird Media because MJ would no longer comply with the agenda.

From Backup Archivos Aroita Jiménez: Mother Teresa´s charity is being investigated for child trafficking. The Indian government has ordered an inspection of all child care facilities run by the Missionaries of Christ. Newsweek.com

Disclose.tv: Prime Minister Modi says India will respond with full might to a global conspiracy, citing Greta Thunberg´s toolkit.

Reuters: Haiti government denounces plot to oust president, arrests over 20.

Greatgameindia.com: 95 year-old German woman charged with 10,000 murders during World War 2. German prosecutors have filed charges against a 95-year-old woman they say was complicit in the murder of more than 10,000 people at the Stutthof concentration camp during World War II.  The woman worked as a typist and secretary. Despite her age, the case is handled by a juvenile court because she was under under 21 when she worked at the camp.

Greece hit by massive power cut after fire at power station.

Noticias Rafapal
From GhostEzra
Rule of thumb, those who got the Bush Sr. funeral envelopes are already gone. Those are the old schoolers, You won´t see them in the upcoming tribunals unless it´s a prerecorded video that Potus releases. He will announce it though. All things hidden must come to the light for healing. The new schoolers like Schiff and Schumer and many others, you´ll most likely see live vs recorded. American people deserve to see it.  Justice is best served warm.

There´s Mike Pence and Sam 239. Two different people. July 2019 the real Pence was arrested as switched out. His plane stopped on the runway and his trip was cut short. The call tag for Af2 changed from that point forward to Sam239. Which is biblically Samuel 23:9. Look it up. Good to read your Word. Good four your soul. God´s plan. God´s timing.

Women get the rope. Men get the rifle rounds. Punishment for conspiracy and treason. General rule of thumb.

1 Samuel 23:9
King James Version

9 And David knew that Saul secretly practiced mischief against him; and he said to Abiathar the priest, Bring hither the ephod.
Pence tried to assassinate Potus on his trip to NK. Of course Pence had another 100 crimes before that, but that was the straw tha broke the camel´s back originally to gather intel. He had Pence´s  from day 1. Friends close enemies closer kind of deal. Anyone close with Bush and Clinton are criminals by default. He was buddies with both of them for decades. True swamp monster. They guy that played  Pence for 18 months is a stand-up guy. Man of faith. Bold and a great speaker. Unlike Pence the treasonous ****.

Disclose.tv: Large column of smoke over Nuremberg, Germany; power plant on fire. 120 firefighters on the scene. The plant is currently off the grid.

Greatgameindia.com.: Germany hired scientists to develop fake coronavirus model to justify strick lockdown.

From Rafapal: CDC Centers for Disease Control and Prevention
The Vaccine Adverse Event Reporting System (VAERS)

Event Category      Vaccine Type      Events reported
Death         COVID-19 VACCINE   458
Life Threatening           COVID-19 VACCINE   382
Permanent Disability   COVID-19 VACCINE   161
Hospitalized      COVID-19 VACCINE   1,077

Greatgameindia.com.: An elderly man in New York collapsed as he was leaving only 25 minutes after receiving COVID-19 vaccine and died.

RT.COM
Hacker targets Florida water facility with poisonous caustic chemical used in drain cleaners. FBI and Secret Service investigate. The breach on the water facility in Oldsmar, Florida boosted level of sodium hydroxide in the system by nearly a hundredfold late last week, Pinellas County Sheriff Bob Gualtieri told reporters on Monday, calling it an “awful intrusion”.

Sputnik: Explosions heard in vicinity of Syria´s Aleppo.

Sputnik: India´s Delhi records zero COVID-19 deaths for 1st time in 10 months, health authorities say.

Sputnik: Astronauts of India´s first human spaceflight wil be treated to India cuisine in space.

Sputnik: Iranian cleric reportedly claims COVID-19 vaccine turns people into homosexuals.

The Seattle Times @seattletimes:
A man who authorities say is a leader of the far right Oath Keepers militia group and led other extremists in the attack at the US Capitol has held top secret security clearance for decades and previously worked for the FBI, his attorney said.

Backup Aroita Jiménez: Franklin County Sheriff Office:
US Marshals rescue 45 missing children and 109 human survivors in Autumn Hope operation.


 

Title: The Body in Pain: The Making and Unmaking of the World ( To Senor Raul)
Post by: Holden on February 11, 2021, 12:34:35 pm
Senor Raul,

Thanks for your messages.

Maybe you should think about writing a book on the Archons and Gnosticism - your particular take on it.
There are moments when I tend to blame myself for the bad things that happen to me quite. I say to myself that if I were more intelligent, I might have figured out a way to get out of this hellhole.

I think I am hypersensitive to pain and suffering, that, or maybe I have been chosen by the Archons you mentions ,especially, for intense torture.

There is a book  whose link I would like to share here:
https://www.goodreads.com/book/show/118287.The_Body_in_Pain

What Mr.Gary says about miserable humans suffering a great deal makes sense to me.However, I think if we were to talk to him about Gnosticism and the like, he is not likely to agree with us. He would say that the Universe is just a machine of some sort and the appearance of sentient life just a chance event. That it happened just one time on our tiny planet and it is highly improbable that it would ever happen again.

One pose to him,not a question about the emergence of life,or of sentient life, but, one of the most fundamental philosophical questions- why there is something rather than nothing?

I think Schopenhauer leaned towards Gnosticism, but he did so in as  non-dogmatic manner and as philosophical way as possible.We live on the razor’s edge.

In the Paraguayan schools ,I wonder, what kind of ancient history kids get to study. I would guess that it might be about Greece and Rome.

You write about Ms.Thunberg and her latest comments about what is happening in India. Well, quite apart from this incident, I do not like her much. She might have been propped up by certain hidden vested interests.A person as young as she is, would do well to spend time studying mathematics instead of pulling these petty stunts.But then again, I am a washed up nobody and she is a celebrity.

Please take care of your eyes and do keep writing. I fail to respond promptly because half the time I am out of my mind due to the anguish caused by the office.
Title: Filth Avenue
Post by: raul on February 12, 2021, 05:09:06 am
Holden,

Thank you for your response and the link. I hope you have some days of tranquility at the office.

I also tend to blame myself for the bad things that happened to me. I certainly was not intelligent to have figured out a way to get out of this hellhole called Earth. There are many things that are beyond our control. One of them is having been born here.

When I was in secondary school we did not have much history. We studied a little about Rome and Greece. But now history is being considered a useless subject. Most prefer to study accounting, business administration, computer science, or anything related to business or agribusiness. However we have been taught lies all our lives. Brainwashing is what we got in school.

Yes, I suppose this Swedish girl, Greta, was selected to further the globalist agenda. Probably she herself thinks she is doing some great work. I know climate change is part of the Agenda 2030. I think her days as a celebrity soon will be over.

I know very little about the Gnostics. Maybe if I started thirty years ago looking into this difficult subject I would have learned more about them. This reminds me of the Cathars. For them the human body was the work of Satan and burials had no relevance. They believed in dualism. The Catholic position is that there is only one God, creator of all things, visible and invisible, the Cathars claimed the existence of two opposing and irreconcilable principles, one evil and one good. For them one is the living and true God, God of light, Father of the Righteous and the other the Prince of Darkness, the main devil, the old serpent, the eternal enemy.

In the view of the Cathars Satan, that alien god,is the creator of the visible world that comprises the Earth and everything in it, the sea, the mountains, the animals, the plants and the human beings.He is the creator of the seven heavens contained in a crystal firmament. He became jealous and wishing to confront the God of truth, justice and destroy its work completely Satan was able to corrupt the heavenly spirits with his tricks up to the point of dragging them through the lower seven heavens to this dying world that he himself had created.

Whether the origin of evil is in chaos, beyond time or that it comes from one of the creatures of an only good God, the Cathars believed that the good God is not almighty because evil wages a war against the good God without giving quarter and that disputes him a victory that whatever happens the end times will finally straighten out.

And man?  He is also a creation of the evil inasmuch as he is a creature of the flesh but the evil spirit unable to create life would have asked God for his help and to breath a soul into a body made of clay; God, out of goodness, agreed to come to help this desperately sterile god but the particle of the divine spirit breathed into the gross container made by Satan refused to remain in it although after several tricks the Demon was able to hold it as a prisoner.
Yes, I suppose Mr. Gary would not accept the view of the Gnostics. Why is there something rather than nothing? It is the one million-dollar question.

I wonder what Mr.Gary would think of satanic rituals, Illuminati, black masses, pacts with the devil, the AntiChrist, the Church of Satan, human sacrifice, the all-seeing eye on top of the pyramid, spirit cooking, the adrenochrome, https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Adrenochrome.  the cabal and all that stuff. One may not believe in these things and it really does not matter. What matters is that those in power perform these bloody rituals in order to get riches, privilege, power and eternal youth. I have learned never to underestimate the ambition of my fellow human beings and that includes myself.

Stay well.

P.S
Geopolitic.org
Long term mask use may contribute to advanced stage lung cancer.
The Journal Cancer Discovery found that inhalation of harmful microbes can contribute to advanced stage lung cancer. Long-term use of face masks may help breed these dangerous pathogens.

From breakingnews.ca
CDC (Centers for Disease and Control Prevention) admits 98 million Americans were given cancer virus via the polio shot.
The CDC has admitted that between 1955-1963 over 98 million Americans received one or more doses of polio shjot which was contaminated with a cancer-causing virus called Simian vacuolating virus 40 (sv40). The CDC quickly took down the page, along with Google but the site was luckily cached and saved to symbolize this grand admission.

From EndHumanTrafficking:
A veteran Royal Canadian Mounted Police officer in London is suspended from duty after being charged with possessing child ppornography.

From the epochtimes.com
Sex offender among illegal aliens arrested at Texas border checkpoint within 2 human smuggling attempts.

From BackupAroita Jiménez
Stanford Children´s Hospital pediatrician, 33, is arrested in **** sting after showing up to meet an underage girl he´s sent pporn to and being met by cops instead. Dylan O´Connor, 33, was arrested after arranging to meet up with the girl for sex in Redwood City, California, police said.

From frontpagedetectives.com
A young woman claims she was rraped and abused by Jeffrey Epstein and Ghislaine Maxwell when she was 11 years old. That young woman is now seeking money from Epstein´s compensation fund that has been set up to help his victims.

From frontpagedetectives.com
New details about how the FBI tracked down Ghislaine Maxwell have come to light in new unsealed court documents, filed on July 1, 2020 – just one day before she was arrested. According to the papers authorities used cellphone data to catch Maxwell, who was hiding out in her $1 million New Hampshire compound at the time.

New York Post
Congresswoman backtracks on keeping Epstein donations.
Rep.Stacey Plaskett changed course on Tuesday vowing to part ways with campaign donations she received from convicted **** Jeffrey Epstein. The lawmaker represents the US Virgin Islands.

From dailymail.co.uk
Nine children have been rescued in the Philippines following the arrest of an accused paedophile in Australia.The lives of the kids aged between two and 16 years, changed forever when the man from small town regional Victoria, was stopped at the Australian border in November 2019. There officers found videos of the man allegedly raping underage Philippino girls. The Victorian was charged in his case is before the courts.

From END HUMAN TRAFFICKING
Disney World is the greatest attraction in the world for children and pedophiles, says Professor Jack Enter, a criminology expert at North Georgia College.

From breitbart.com
Report: at least 35 Disney World workers arrested since 2006 on child sex charges.

From Sputniknews.com
Major French cinema producer placed in custody over allegations of sexual assault. President of the National Centre for Cinema and the Moving Image (CNC) Dominique Boutonnat on Wednesday was put in police custody.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cVzb-cwXo68

Title: To Senor Raul
Post by: Holden on February 14, 2021, 11:14:44 am
“The shortness of life, so often lamented, may be the best thing about it.”

— Arthur Schopenhauer
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: raul on February 14, 2021, 12:48:30 pm
Holden,

Thank you once again sharing this quote. The shortness of life is best recommended. However the lust for life is very strong. I often see ladies with their bent backs and it makes me think I wouldn´t want to happen to me.

Stay safe.

P.S.
From lagacetadesalamanca.es (Spain)
The new director of the Institute for Women advocates for the “annal ppenetration” of men in order to achieve equality. Beatriz Gimeno, president of the LGBT will be the new director of the Institute for Women, announced this Tuesday the Minister for Equality Irene Montero.

Global News
Jeffrey Epstein estate executors accused of complicity in sex trafficking scheme. The U.S. Virgin Islands attorney general made the accusation in an amended lawsuit naming the executors as defendants amid their opposition to freezing the estate´s assets.

From frontpagedetectives.com
Ghislaine Maxwell claimed under oath that she has never given Jeffrey Epstein or any other individual a massage in a newly unsealed deposition.

Thesun.co.uk
21 Aug 2019
Bill Gates refuses to explain why he went on Jeffrey Epstein´s notorious Lolita Express plane four years after the paedo was released from prison.

From collective-spark.xyz
COLLECTIVE SPARK
Ex-Reddit CEO on Ghislaine Maxwell: “We knew about her supplying” children for sex.
What happened: Earlier this year the former CEO of Reddit, Ellen K.Pao, tweeted that Ghislaine Maxwell “was at the Kleiner holiday party in 2011” but she “had no desire to meet her much less have a photo taken with her. We knew about her supplying underage girls for sex, but I guess that was fine with the “cool” people who managed the tightly controlled guest list” After the tweet, Pao removed it and then made her profile private.

From frontpagedetectives.com
Billionaire fashion mogul Peter Nygard has traded Caribbean islands, private jets, and red carpets for the cold loneliness of a Canadian prison cell. After decades of sexual assault allegations against him, the designer was arrested in Canada on December 15, 2020.

From collective-spark.xyz
COLLECTIVE SPARK
Sundance Film Festival Co-Founder jailed for child sex abuse
What happened: Last year Sterling Van Wagenen, co-founder of the Sundance Film Festival, film director and producer, founding executive director of the Sundance Institute was convicted and put in jail for 6 years to life for child sex abuse. Who knows how many years he will actually serve.

From collective-spark.xyz
COLLECTIVE SPARK
Ex Chief Adviser for a UN Children´s Program has been convicted and jailed for pedophilia
The latest example, apart from the Jeffrey Epstein stuff comes from Peter Dalglish, an order of Canada recipient, and an Ex Chief advisor for the United Nations Child Labour Program. He has quite the resume, apart from being a senior UN official he founded the charity known as “Street Kids International”.

The police force in Nepal took Dalglish from his home a couple of years ago in a district north of Katmandu. The police said that two children, aged 12 and 14 years were rescued from the home. The police alleged that the children were lured with a promise of education, work, and foreign travel before they were sexually abused by Dalglish.

Disclose.tv
Nationwide electricity blackout in Cuba (Reuters)

RTUKNEWS
Protesters rally in Vienna against COVID restrictions.

Breitbart News
The “FBI is investigating allegations against Lincoln Project co-founder John Weaver and if he”ever behaved inappropriately” with “underage boys”, reports Yashar Ali.

Breitbart News
Robots are replacing unskilled migrants in American farm jobs, but farmers still want skilled migrants to operate the robots, says the president of a major farm advocacy group.

SputnikNews.com
Surveillance for Safety? Indian authorities slammed for proposing tracking of women, not criminals

In 2019 the National Crime Records Bureau (NCRB) of India reported that an average of 1,111 cases of crimes against women were recorded per day, with over 400,000 cases registered that year.

SputnikNews.com
Living well isn´t against law? Man caught raiding US COVID Aid Fund for
$3.9 Mln, buying Lamborghini

From Lawenforcementtoday.com
Long Island, NY-Police have arrested a man who allegedly attempted to abduct two teenage girls on Long Island, New York, by impersonating a police officer. According to reports Donald Cristiano Jr,46, was charged with second-degree kidnapping, endangering the welfare of a child, first-degree criminal impersonation and luring a child.

From granthamjournal.co.uk
A Grantham man who downloaded thousands of indecent images of children has been jailed at Lincoln Crown court.

From Fox13news.com
Operation Game Over
75 arrested in Super Bowl human trafficking sting, sheriff says.

From frontpagedetectives.com
Clown accused of rraping woman, returning later in makeup and cutting security cameras. The suspect, Joseph T. Johnson, 33 went on a 72-hour crime spree that also involved breaking car windows and breaking into cars before targeting thewoman on Sept.19.

From collective-spark.xyz
COLLECTIVE SPARK
Mother Teresa
Recently, the Indian government ordered its state governments to inspect child care facilities that are run by the Missionaries of Christ – a Roman Catholic order founded by Mother Teresa. The order came after the arrests of a nun and an employee accused of baby trafficking.
As NPR points out:
Earlier this month, Indian authorities shut down a shelter home for pregnant, unmarried women run by the order in Ranchi, a city in the eastern state of Jharkand, after disconvering that four infants had been sold, including a 6-month old boy who changed hands for 50,000 rupees ($730).

From Whatdoesitmean.com
MSNBC News host Nichole Wallace is now urging Biden to kill with drone strikes President Trump and all of his supporters.

Geopolitic.org
Czech govt expected to put COVID-19 lockdown measures on hold after Parliament refuses to extend state of emergency.

Geopolitic.org
Indian State asks govt to stop sending Covaxin vaccine doses as it won´t use them until efficacy data published. Local authorities in the Indian state of Chhattisgarh have asked the government to stop sending doses of the country´s homegrown Covid-19 vaccine until proper efficacy data for the jab has been provided.

Robert F. Kennedy Jr
A second @nytimes article quotes doctors who say the mRNA technology used in COVID Vaccines may cause immune thrombocytopenia, a blood disorder that last month led to the death of a Florida doctor after getting the Pfizer vaccine.

Greatgameindia
WHO Adviser Jamie Metzl admits COVID-19 Wuhan Probe actually done by Chinese authorities.

RT UKNews
A queue for a soup kitchen in Glasgow snapped with over 200 people waiting in freezing conditions to receive free meals has been blasted as a national failure.

Dublinlive.ie
A north Kildare GP has been slammed for after he revealed that he is refusing to administer Covid-19 vaccines to patients. Dr Gerard Waters, of Whitethorn Clinic in Celbridge is also refusing to refer patients for coronavirus tests as he disagrees with how the Covid virus has been handled by authorities.
Title: Pain Pierces the Veil of Illusion( To Senor Raul)
Post by: Holden on February 15, 2021, 11:28:05 am


Senor Raul,

You mention the word Cabal. This word comes from Kabbala. Could there be some overlap between this and Gnosticism.

When one is in pain, the entire universe shrinks and gets limited to the pain one is experiencing. We cannot feel the other’s pain but cannot forget our own.I look at the white wall in front of me,behind my computer and look at the particular area where it is not exactly plain but the paint coat has got swollen. If it were up to me, I would hide inside that swollen paint coat.

Brain fog whole day long.I like the walls and the floors of my room.They are my friends. They do not harm me and I can look at them whenever I like.

The worst kind of missionaries target the hospitalised patients who are in pain(Death bed conversions). They go to their rooms and try to entice them with their god’s favour. My mother, bless her heart, pulls this trick whenever I am in severe pain. She tries to get me to say yes to idea of getting married.

I never fall for her tricks. I know that it is,in the best case scenario, only a matter of a few years before I shuffle off this mortal coil. But I mentioned my mum’s antics because this is how they keep perpetuating the human race.

As far as I am concerned, I am ready to suffer the worst pain imaginable continually for the rest of my days,but this particular tragedy, ends with me.

This poor animal, my body, likes to eat and hide but even it is aware, at some level, it would rather die than create another helpless animal. Pain has pierced the veil of illusion.

Take care.
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: Holden on February 15, 2021, 11:58:49 am
https://youtu.be/ADJE5gat_W8

For Senor Raul
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: Holden on February 17, 2021, 12:01:01 am
... the sole and express purpose of every intelligent man is babble – that is, a deliberate pouring from empty into void. - Dostoevsky
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: Holden on February 17, 2021, 12:04:08 am
I think that tastes, odors, colors, and so on . . . reside in consciousness. Hence if the living creature were removed, all these qualities would be wiped away and annihilated. Galileo Galilei
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: Holden on February 17, 2021, 12:17:42 am


https://philosophynow.org/issues/134/Schopenhauer_the_Optimist
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: Holden on February 17, 2021, 12:22:16 am
https://youtu.be/XUT8ec24anM
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: Holden on February 17, 2021, 01:16:40 pm
https://youtu.be/5gHLrZCJBr0
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: raul on February 17, 2021, 01:26:12 pm
Holden,

Thank you for link. I hope your colleages leave you alone at work.

The bloggers, I read, use the word cabal or Deep State to refer to those who work in the shadows to achieve the NWO. Yes, the word is linked to Kabbala.

Vocabulary.com states that: Cabal comes from the cabbala (also spelled kabbala), which refers to a Jewish tradition of interpreting texts. Cabbala is often regarded as a secret and mystical practice and as such, the word took on the additional meaning of “secret behavior”. Cabal comes from this sense of the word. A well known cabal in 17th century England was coincidentally made up of five members whose names´initial letters spelled the word cabal. (Their names were Clifford, Arlington, Buckingham, Ashley, and Lauderdale.)

Yes, these missionaries, whatever church they belong to, do their proselytizing in hospitals or nursing homes. Your mother tries to convince you to get married. I am afraid she does not understand that you are a nut hard to crack as they say in American English. Like many she indeed believes that your bloodline must be perpetuated. Holden baby must come whatever it takes.

Few people ask themselves what they are doing in this planet prison. Most people just accept this eat, drink, sShit, walk,ffuck, sleep, school, work, a little entertainment, money, marry, children, grow old, suffer, and die bitter cycle.

Spanish author Antonio Dalmau in his novel, El Cátaro Imperfecto based on his research on the last Cathar perfect, Guilleme Belibaste burned at the stake in 1321, says the following:

Everything in this world is corrupted mud, Guillem. Everything rots and perishes, you can see it, anyone can see it. So much rot, everything we see and touch, is the creation of the Evil One! Would God, the Be, create creatures that are born between blood and ****, that ooze filth, that suffer, that get sick and die and rot? No! No!

—The God of which the priests speak, the God who created this whole corruptible world, is indeed The Evil One! It's Lucifer! The true Heavenly Father did not create this rotten world or intervene in it.
- Does the true God disregard us? Are we helpless?

- No, Guillem, because you can save your soul through this knowledge.

- If you die in understanding and act accordingly, your soul will know how to ascend to the Heavenly Father, who will receive it. For this, the first thing is to stop believing in the false rites of the priests, in their mendacious sacraments: neither baptism saves, nor confession, nor communion, nor marriage are worth anything, nor the extremeunction of the Crows of the priests is worth anything.


P.S.
Red Pill Pharmacy
Instagram
Thai child modeling agent charged over child sex abuse images
Thai police have arrested the head of a child modeling agency after more than
500,000 indecent images of children were found on computer hard drives.

James O´Keefe @James Okee
Breaking: @Facebook CEO Mark Zuckerberg takes anti vax stance in violation of his
own platform´s new policy

“I share some caution on this `vaccine because we just don´t know the long-term side effects
of basically modifying people´s DNA and RNA”.

GhostEzra
Satoshi Nakamoto is the name used by the presumed pseudonymous person or persons
who developed bitcoin, authored the bitcoin white paper, and created and deployed
bitcoin´s original reference implementation.
Fairly tale story
CIA and CCP created bitcoin. It ends bad. Really bad.

Celebrity Insider
Marilyn Manson accused of child sex trafficking as demands the FBI investigate mount
Marilyn Manson is being accused of child sex trafficking as demands the FBI investigate mount. On February 1, 2021 Evan Rachel Wood publicly named Marilyn Manson as her abuser, prompting more victims to offer similar allegations against the 52-year-old.

Greatgameindia.com
China sends super soldier with exoskeleton to the disputed Himalayan border

Mslove @mslove
Moderna CEO
Stephane Bancel CEO Moderna
World Economic Forum Livestream
November 30,2020

“We took 2 days to design the vaccine on the computer.”

Greatgameindia.com
Tetsushi Sakamoto, who is currently working on issues responsible for declining birth rates in Japan is appointed Minister of Loneliness by Japan´s Prime Minister Yoshihide Suga.

Greatgameindia.com
According to a new report, China is using social networking sites like Linkedin to gather state secrets and steal technology.

Greatgameindia.com
According to a new study antidepressants like Prozac are turning fishes into zombies by erasing their personalities. Prozac is the most prescribed antidepressant and fluoxetine is its mayor ingredient. Study found that fishes treated with high levels of fluoxetine lost their individuality and were said to turn into zombies.

From Noticias Rafapal
Court orders Holland to scrap 9 pm coronavirus curfew in victory for anti-lockdown campaigners who challenged crackdown after riots.

From Noticias Rafapal
Massive power outages
Texas
Oregon
Kentucky
Louisiana
West Virginia

Breaking911
Rep.Bennie Thompson (D-MS) has filed a lawsuit accusing former Pres. Trump and Rudy Giuliani of conspiring with the far-right groups Proud Boys and Oath Keepers to incite Jan.6 insurrection- CNN

Sputniknews.com
Lincoln Project´s co-founder sexually harassed at least one more underage boy journo claims

Sputniknews.com
Israel´s redefine meat raises $29 m as Bill Gates urges wealthy nations to embrace alt-meat life style

Sputniknews.com
Mumbai mayor hints at possibility of new lockdown as COVID cases rise

BreitbartNews
Despite being worth an estimated $500 million, actor Robert De Niro took coronavirus money from the government to pay for expenses at his various restaurants across the globe, including his London based luxury restaurant Nobu.

Breitbart.com/tech
Social media giant Facebook is reportedly developing its own smartwatch as part of its ongoing efforts to move into hardware production and suck up even more personal information- in this case, biometric data.

Disclose.tv
Bill Gates: All rich countries should move to 100% synthetic beef. You can get used to the taste difference.

Humanarefree.com
New Zealand: Tyrannical PM puts entire city of Auckland on Lockdown after only 3 cases if Covid

Ottawa.citynews.ca/police
Ottawa man facing 22 charges related to sexual assault involving children
A 61-year-old Ottawa man is facing a list of sexual assault-related charges after police say they investigated multiple incidents, involving children, which happened through the 1980s all the way to 2000.

Breaking911
NY GOv. Cuomo denies alleged nursing home cover-up, blames misinformation & conspiracy theories.


Title: For Our Teutonic Friend
Post by: Holden on February 18, 2021, 06:09:51 am
https://youtu.be/0PWBfDhmhgE
Title: To Senor Raul
Post by: Holden on February 18, 2021, 06:20:34 am
Senor Raul,
Thanks for your message.I have a feeling you would like this:

https://youtu.be/nM8Z49b1qC4
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: Holden on February 18, 2021, 06:27:40 am
I wonder what you make of Miguel Pro.
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: Holden on February 18, 2021, 09:49:57 am
From the outsider's perspective the Spanish and the Portuguese culture appear similar,though I am sure there are big differences.
The Portuguese were here till the 1960s ( in Goa).I wonder what your thoughts on Fatima Miracle( so-called ) might be.
Was it Fatima the Hoax,I wonder.
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: raul on February 18, 2021, 12:35:58 pm
Holden,

Thank you for the link. I suppose nowadays many like the character played by Mel Gibson must be doing their research but using Internet and not newsletters.
Here the vaccinations start for the medical personnel next week. I don´t know which vaccines are to be used. Let´s see what happens. The MSM strictly follows the official narrative.
By the way I made a mistake in mentioning Antonio Dalmau as the author of El Cátaro Imperfecto. The real autor is Spanish author Victor Amela.
In the book the author makes the last Cathar perfect, Belibaste, ask a Cathar perfect, Alayrac, the following:

—What happens to those who are still practicing the sacraments of the Catholic priests?
—They die in the sin of ignorance; therefore their poor souls do not know how to ascend to the Spiritual Father and find themselves condemned to continue grieving in this degenerate Earth and incarnate in another body that is born or in some animal. And so they will continue forever, from body to body until they are lucky to enter the body of somebody who has the understanding of the Bé.
Stay safe.

P.S.
From REDPILLPHARMACY
News Punch
Girl taken from parents by CPS, tortured by **** foster parents
CPS in Arizona have come under fire after they took a girl away from her parents, leaving her to be tortured at the hands of **** foster parents. 

From B17 Noticias
Detroit´s East Side -WAYNE COUNTY
FBI SEARCH -SELLING HUMAN BODY PARTS
HOME RAIDED
FBI finds remains from many people
Inside the business a saw was found to cut up bodies and taken away as a medical evidence.

From Noticias Rafapal
Why is it so cold? How the polar vortex brings record low temperatures and winter storms?
Rafael Palacios, a Spanish journalist, says that this cold weather has been provoked to slow down the payment of prosperity funds. A 1965 climate modification document has been declassified.

Breaking911
Activist suggests paying criminals not to kill to cut Baltimore crime rates. NYP

From Noticias Rafapal
express.co.uk/news/politics
Switzerland bans Astra Zeneca vaccine for ALL citizens as Europe declares war on UK jab.

From Noticias Rafapal
businessinsider.com

Switzerland is holding a referendum on whether to strip the government of its power to impose coronavirus lockdowns.

From Noticias Rafapal
Obama´s daughters are Malia and Natasha. Spelled backwards? AiLam AHsatan. Now remove the word ALAH from the sentence.
Satan´s Law of reversal/inversion. + Big Mike can´t give birth so who did you buy them kids off?

From GhostEzra
Not makeup. Not a fall either.
Dailymail.co.uk
Susan Sarandon, 73, shows off black eye after slipping over and suffering concussion… and admits she´s lucky to have healthcare…
https://www.dailymail.co.uk/tvshowbiz/article-7764815/Susan-Sarandon-73-black-eye-ignores-injuries-fall-run-errands-NYC.html

From GhoztEzra
Anyone you´ve seen publicly with black eyes like this have been quietly removed. They are either gone completely, sentenced already or waiting trial.
Real reason for black eyes is horrifying. It´ll keep you at night. Many still aren´t ready.
Let´s just say these once human beings are no longer human beings. They are without a conscience, feelings, empathy, and all become sexually depraved.
N.B. GhostEzra shows pictures of famous people with black eyes:
Richard Branson - Prince Phillip, Duke of Edinburgh
Pope Francis - John Kerry
George Bush Jr, - John McCaine

From GhostEzra
Have you seen this music video? (Katy Perry-Dark Horse) Pit of hell. Notice the eye of Horus.  Ancient Egyptian evil.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0KSOMA3QBU0

From rumormillnews.com
Jim Stone: Power shut down in Texas (not caused by weather) (Stuxnet?)
Large numbers will die, and Energy bills will skyrocket

From ENDHUMANTRAFFICKING
newsmax.com/newsmax/article
Sixty-four people have been arrested in Riverside County just east of Los Angeles as part of an operation aimed at sexual slavery and human trafficking, the county sheriff´s department said. Operation Reclaim &Rebuild resulted in the arrests of 63 men and …

From prevencia.net/post/primera autopsia.que-se logr hacer a paciente-covid en Argentina.-determina un homicidio culposo
First autopsy carried out to a COVID patient in Argentina determines manslaughter.

From ENDHUMANTRAFFICKING
Nypost.com./2021/01/23
Authorities rescued nearly three dozen missing kids in Southern California during a human trafficking investigation, the FBI said. Of the 33 missing children rescued as part of “Operation Lost”.

From Backup Archivo Aroita Jiménez
Disclose.tv
Democratic Assemblyman Ron Kim allegedly received a call from Governor Cuomo threatening to “destroy” his career if I didn´t help to cover up the nursing home scandal (CNN)

From Noticias Rafapal
The Daily Caller
CNN and NBC both paid $35,000 to left-wing activist for footage of fatal Capitol shooting. John Sullivan received $35,000 from both CNN and NBC for footage he recorded of a Trump supporter being fatally shot.

Disclose.tv
Letter bomb explodes at Lidi´s head offices in Germany. Casualties rushed to hospital, building evacuated.

Disclose.tv
Chinese scientists have developed a new “mRNA vaccine” that activates the immune system, shrinks cancer tumors and prevents metastasis (Sky News)

Noticias Rafapal
Duke of Edinburgh in hospital after feeling unwell, Buckingham Palace confirms
Prince Phillip, 99, was admitted to hospital on Tuesday evening as a “precautionary measure”, the Palace said in a short statement. The Queen´s husband is expected to remain at the King Edward VII Hospital in London “for a few days”.

frontpagedetectives.com
Accused rapist Ghislaine Maxwell claims guards are physically abusing her in jail. The accused sex trafficker, who is alleged to have lured dozens of underage girls for her **** friend Jeffrey Epstein, claims this is all happening away from the cameras and causing her to “wither to a shell of her former self.” The allegation is the latest in a long line of letters she and her lawyers submitted complaining about prison conditions.

Rt.com/USA
The now former mayor of Colorado City, Texas, Tim Boyd,has resigned after two Facebook posts telling people needing help and without electricity that they are on their own.

The Sun
Pentagon admits it has been testing wreckage from UFO crashes & findings may “change” our lives forever, expert says.

Thetruereporter.com
Fauci, who once praised New York for correctly responding to COVID, goes silent when asked about Cuomo´s scandal.
bbc.co.uk/news
Covid-19: World´s first human trials given green light in UK
Healthy young volunteers are being recruited for the approved study, which will start shortly.
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: raul on February 18, 2021, 05:46:35 pm
Holden,

Thank you for your response.

I have read a little of the apparitions in Fatima, province of Leiria, of the Lady of Fatima in Portugal on May 13, 1917.
The Lady of Fatima according to the Catholic Church is the title of the Virgin Mary based on the apparitions. I also read that there were three shepherds, Francisco, Jacinta and Lucía, who saw and talked to this lady at that time. One of them, Lucía Santos, became a Carmelite sister and died in 2005. Francisco and Jacinta Martos were Lucia´s cousins and died very soon. The three were illiterate and were taking care of the cattle in a place called Cova da Iría, a small valley that was 3 kms from Fatima. According to what I read:

"On May 13, 1917 Lucía dos Santos and Francisco and Jacinta Marto had taken out their flock to graze on the plains of Cova da Iria. Suddenly, they were dazzled by a very bright glow. They thought it was lightning and ran to take shelter by the trunk of an oak tree. There was a second flare that frightened them, and they ran out in search of a better shelter. Then they saw a balloon made of very bright light fluttering over a small bush. In the center of that balloon of light was a lady dressed in bright white who had her hands together on her chest, as if in a praying position; in her right hand she carried a rosary.

The children stopped about two meters from the lady, who in a soft and melodic voice said to them: "do not be afraid, I will not hurt you." Then Lucia asked the lady where she came from, and she replied, "I come from heaven." Lucia asked her again what she wanted, and the lady replied: "I come to ask you to come to this place for six consecutive months, on thirteen days, at this very time. Then I'll tell you who I am and what I want. Then I will return a seventh time." Upon hearing her, Lucia asked if she would go to heaven, and the lady replied, "Yes, you will go."

He asked her again if her cousins Francisco and Jacinta would also go, and the lady said: "they will also go, but they will
have to pray many rosaries." Then Lucy asked by two friends who had recently died in the village, and the lady asked:

"Are you willing to offer yourselves to God to withstand all the suffering that He might send, in atonement for the sins by which God is offended, and to ask for the conversion of sinners?". The children answered yes, and the lady then said to them: "you will have to suffer much, but the grace of God will be your consolation." Jacinta, the youngest of the three children, was delighted by the beauty and sweetness of the lady, and when the apparition ended she kept repeating "Oh, what a beautiful lady!".

It is said that Jacinta, the little girl was the one who revealed this apparition. The three shepherds agreed not to tell anyone but she could not keep the secret and told her mother about that encounter with the beautiful lady. The news spread from mouth to mouth and someone said that it was an apparition of the Virgin Mary.   On June 13 the lady appeared again in Cova da Iría.

A Portuguese priest, Father Ferreira interrogated the children and said they told the truth but that the apparition could be the work of the devil. In this second apparition the people who were curious got to Cova da Iría and expected to see the lady in white but she only showed herself to the three shepherds. People saw a previous glow that announced the apparition. Supposedly there were 50 people and they claimed to have seen the light.

On this second occasion the lady asked Lucia to learn t oread and write and she found that strange because the lady only addressed her so she asked about her cousins and she responded that the two would go to heaven very soon. The lady wore a heart with nailed thorns on her right hand. Then the lady vanished in the sky.

On July 13, the third apparition and by then many believed in what the children said although the only three saw her and others saw it as a deception or were skeptics.
Then Lucia asked her for a proof so that everyone could believe her and the lady promised that she would give it on October 13. On this occasion she asked them to sacrifice for the sinners for the committed against the Immaculate Heart of Mary.

This third appartion ended with the lady´s indication to pray the rosary and after the pray of each mistery they had to pronounce this phrase: «ˇOh!, my Jesus, forgive us, save us from the fire of hell. Take our souls to heaven specially those who are more in need». On August 13, the shepherds were interrogated by the mayor of Fatima under the orders of the governor in Leiria interrogated them. The three did not recant of what they saw. On October, on the same date, a miracle of then sun happened. The rains ceased and the sun came out to spin and tremble for 10 minutes. It made incredible movements or danced. It also showed strange colors. Many people noted the phenomena.

At that time Jacinta and Francisco had died due to the flu. Later they were beatified and canonized by Pope Francis in Fátima.

The late Pope John Paul II said that the Lady of Fatima saved him from the bullets of the Turkish hitman Mehmet Ali Agca on May 13, 1981. Later the Turkish hitman was pardoned at the request of now Saint John Paull II and extradited to Turkey in June 2000. Before John Paul II died Agca claimed he had accomplices in the Vatican and saying that the devil is inside the Vatican´s wall. Agca had links to the Gray Wolves, an ultranationalist group.

The Lady of Fatima gave her three secrets to the three shepherds: a vision of the souls in hell, the end of World War I and the start of WW2 and her request to consecrate Russia to the Inmaculate Heart of Mary. Also a vision of a pope and other bishops, priests, killed by soldiers.

Strange event. On May 13,1917 the shepherds received the visitation from this Lady and the assassination attempt on John Paull II was on May 13,1981.

Albino Luciani aka Pope John Paul I who only ruled the Vatican for only a month in 1978 asked to know the third secret of Fatima whose narration was written by Sister Lucia and kept in the Congregation for the Doctrine of the Faith. The pope mysteriously died on Setember 28, 1978. Poisoned, some say. His death certificate was not signed by anybody. Fifteen days later a Polish Pope was elected to the throne of Saint Peter.

Some say that the apparitions were a propaganda montage of the Vatican. In their view the Virgin has always appeared when the Church needed to reinforce vocations or moments of enthusiasm for the Lady as it happened in past centuries.

Stay alert.
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: Gorticide :: Admin Elder Warrior on February 18, 2021, 07:12:20 pm
Thanks (Holden) for the clip of the younger George Carlin speaking about "I Kid You Not" birth control (and his accurate challenge of the host's gort-like opinions about smoking herb).   Why must the host be such a gort?   I would challenge such opinions back in 1994 when I attested to the fact that a little herb helped me loosen up enough to appreciate computer-generated functions during a class at the community college.   Part of my brain experienced a great epiphemy concerning the symbiotic relationship between mathematics and computer programming.   I can also see how it might help one to collect thoughts on paper ... as in the writing of a diary.   Herb as a tool, or, more precisely, herb-as-medicine.

I also thank you for that reminder about which novels Schopenhauer appreciated (and why ---> inner directed as opposed to action-packed).   I will take the tip and do a little exploring.  I get it about the philosophical musings of the protagonist.   Maybe someone will write a novel about a human being sitting in a cell, or the inner torments of a man/woman reporting to a regular old job.
Title: Senor Raul
Post by: Holden on February 19, 2021, 06:00:10 am
Thanks Senor Raul.You are better than most investigative  journalists.This is for you:
https://ibb.co/qdgkJ6M
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: Holden on February 19, 2021, 09:46:13 am
https://ibb.co/6D4RHr3
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: Holden on February 19, 2021, 09:54:41 am
https://ibb.co/gjDzGy3
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: raul on February 19, 2021, 05:14:18 pm
Holden,

Thank you for the links. They are most interesting.

As I said before I know about the apparitions of the Lady of Fatima what I saw in a documentary, some articles and a novel written by Spanish author José Luis Corral based on true facts. It is a very intriguing issue.

I read a little about the Turkish Mehmet Ali Agca, the man who shot at John Paul II on May 13,1981. That´s how I heard of the Lady of Fatima because the pope said that she saved him from the bullets. The skeptics say that the Lady could have him spared from the bullets completely. Ali Agca was 23 when he attempted the assassination. He spent 19 years in an Italian prison and then 10 years in a Turkish prison for the assassination of a journalist. In 2014 he went back to Italy to see the tomb of John Paul II.

Not only do we have the apparition of the Lady of Fátima but also the apparitions at Medjurgorje in Bosnia-Herzegovina. It is said that in 1981 six young people saw Virgin Mary. Thousands of people visit this place each year. I read that in Italy a woman, Gisella Cardia who had visions, said Mary told her in September 2019 that a new disease would come from China.

The Catholic faithful says that the time to reveal the 10 secrets of Medjurgorje are near. These 10 secrets, they say, speak of the destiny of humanity and has been trusted to 6 people that in all these years have beent transmitting the message of the Queen of Peace.
Stay safe.

P.S.
From thegatewaypundit.com
35 Capitol Police Officers under investigation, 6 suspended for letting Protesters inside US Capitol

From the greggjarret.com
Hillary Clinton, Obama donor sentenced to prison for political influence scheme
Imaad Zuberi, a California businessman, was sentenced Thursday for schemes to funnel foreign money into American political campaigns, then stuff millions into his own pocket.

From B17 Noticias
SAMSUNG
TOSHIBA
Nakamichi
Motorola
Satoshi Nakamoto developer of the bitcoin

From 7news.com.au
Gay men become first “throuple” to have three dads legally
put on child´s birth certificate
In a landmark decision, Ian, Alan and Jeremy became the first polyamorous family in California when a judge agreed they could all be named as the legal dads of their kids.

From GhostEzra
The Nashville bombing was a DEW.
Direct Energy Weapon. White hat operation. ATT building was a DS hub.
OFFICIAL CHARLIE WARD SHOW

thehealthsite.com/news
36 COVID-19 vaccines recipients develop rare blood disorder after getting Moderna, Pfizer shots.
OFFICIAL CHARLIE WARD SHOW
Q
An intelligence dissemination operation conducted by the White House and connected militarily intelligence insiders to BYPASS the Fake News Media and inform the public of of an ongoing shadow civil war happening between Allied Patriots and the Deep State.

theblaze.com/news
New York restaurant fires waitress who wanted to delay getting a COVID-19 vaccine
Restaurant recently said that all employees were required to get a vaccine.

OFFICIAL CHARLIE WARD SHOW
“There´s a plot in this country to enslave every man, woman and child. Before I leave this high and noble office, I intend to expose this plot.”
President John F. Kennedy
7 days before his assassination

OFFICIAL CHARLIE WARD SHOW
Serious question
Why are there no biohazard bins for used masks and gloves if this virus is so contagious and deadly?

OFFICIAL CHARLIE WARD SHOW
EXPRESS
William and Kate told to “renounce” royal titles as Queen should be UK´s last monarch.

From REDPILL PHARMACY
Chrissy Teigen
@ChrissyTeigen
Johnny and I are on our way to the hollydale! @KarinaBelenoff is serving a nice 4 year old cheese pizza with Adrenochrome
12:00 PM Mar 6, 2015


https://grahamhancock.com/connerm1/
Title: Panopticon
Post by: Holden on February 20, 2021, 02:18:57 pm
Why must the host be such a gort? –Herr Hauser

I would say the question,for me, is –how come Carlin turned out to be a non-gort.Nature itself is gortish. Nature is the Uber-Gort.The system is set up in a manner to make sure that every baby turns into a gort. Yet, there might be a very small chink in the armour. Through that chink arrived Carlin’s brutal honesty.

These days most organisations have an “open plan office”. Essentially, it means that everyone can see what one is doing all the time. I personally think, that this idea, the idea of this kind of an office, can be traced back all the way to Jeremy Bentham in the 18th Century.Bentham came up with with the idea for a new kind of prison, and he called it, the Panopticon.

In this prison, there is no privacy for any of the prisoners ,not even for a single second. Total surveillance. Every employee is turned into a prisoner and a guard simultaneously. The ultimate nightmare.Always someone is breathing down one’s neck.

The great thing about Schopenhauer and his philosophy is that he goes straight for the jugular.It is clear to me as to why he preferred to stay on his own with his small dog. He lived in the anti-Panopticon.

A boss of mine in the previous organisation I was working in, told me to stay in shared flat and not to stay alone. The flat had 3 room and about 6 or 7 employees staying together. It was provided by the Company and so was almost rent-free and was close to the office( or the mine). The alternative was a far more expensive attic room ,about 25 kilometers away. I choose the attic room.

That scoundrel called  me to the office a number of times during the off-duty hours knowing full-well that I was staying far away, but,I continued to stay there even then. I could spend very little time alone in my room but I chose that anyway.

I would choose to be tortured night and day,in solitude, over , a comfortable room in the Panopticon.
Title: The Night( To Senor Raul)
Post by: Holden on February 20, 2021, 02:21:23 pm
Senor Raul,

Thanks for the message. What is Adrenochrome? I greatly appreciate you detailed response and your precious time. I personally do not like the words “atheist” and “agnostic “on their own. The problem is there is indeed something very mysterious about existence. But,I cannot buy the key tenets of the mainline ,major religions,their god’s benevolence and compassion.

If you were to the remove the few lines which speak about a benevolent god in the Old Testament, I think,then, you would have a book which is rather fun   -full of s-ex and violence :)

What you have been writing about, over the last few weeks, reminds me of the idea of hyperreality. I am planning to look into Dreams of a Spirit Seer.What is real is not plain any longer,if it ever was. Could a map be bigger than the territory?Lovecraft’s Cthulu turned into a soft toy. A girl’s plastic doll turned into Annabelle the Monster.

Poe’s The Purloined Letter might have some clues to offer. The Abrahamic religions are against idolatry.No idols of any kind, they tell us…

Sometimes,I think about Cioran in the café in Paris where Sartre held his court. Cioran was always quiet.
Lovecraft liked to read Poe. They shared a lot of things . One of the first which one notices is their social isolation. That is how the world appears to me.The way it has been depicted by Poe and Lovecraft.I do not know how people reproduce in a world such as thing one.

On second thought, I do know how they do it. Yes, I do understand it.Like bugs.

Both write about old bloodlines and its destruction. That is where optimism is to be found in them.In the cessation of the millennia old blood lines.

Gothic darkness is all around and inside me.Life is a mixture of dreariness and panic attacks.More panic attacks than dreariness. Sometimes I feel ghouls might,after all,be better than human beings.

There are moments where matter  itself turns into ghostly shadows.We have bright electric light these days which have tried to kill the night for good. But the night, the darkness dwells within one’s soul. It just cannot be eradicated,not by the brightness of a million simultaneous supernovas.

Take care.

Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: raul on February 20, 2021, 03:05:54 pm
Alternative narrative

From jayccampbell.com/blog/child

This is the real life of Marc Dutroux aka The Monster of Belgium who was a professional child trafficker

He was born in Belgium in 1956.
He was twice convicted of kidnapping and rraping underage children.
The first time was in 1989.
The second time occurred in 1996. That was not a typo- you read that correctly.

He was convicted and served (too much brief sentence in 1998.)
He served only 3 and a half years of his 13 for good behavior. Less than 10 years later, he was arrested again on the same charges, he was convicted of kidnapping, torturing and abusing victims, some of them to the point of death.
Marc confessed to kidnapping, rraping, drugging, torturing and filming children for many years. He also claimed he was doing it at the behest of a political elite who financed his career as a professional trafficker. Not only did this political elite finance his efforts- they made specific requests of him.

Sometimes they requested specific types of children (they were called “party favors” and he was asked to deliver kids fo certain age, sex, race). Sometimes they requested he film certain influential people engaged in these acts, for later use as blackmail.

He claimed many of his customers and financiers were world leaders. This was not a stretch of imagination because he lived in Belgium, where the EU and NATO headquarters were located.

Anneke Lucas was one of his victims who testified against him. She claimed she was 6 years old when the cleaning lady hired by her mother sold her to the **** network in 1969. Her claims were extraordinary:
She was rraped over seventeen hundred hours before turning 12 years old.
She was 6 years old when she was forced to participate in her first ****, which included wearing an iron dog collar and eating human excrement.

She would actually be delivered back to her parents from time to time. However , her parents themselves were complicit in the crimes and always sent her back to her abusers.
Torture included being strapped to a butchers block used to execute other children. Other victims were forced to torture her for hours as part of their initiation.

She was considered attractive and that made her preferred by her abusers. She claimed that she tried to use that to her survival advantage to the best of her ability but by the age of eleven she had become so broken that she was slated to be executed and disposed of.

She said she was saved when one of her abusers negotiated for her freedom. That abuser would later sit as a defendant in the trial. Other witnesses and victims would soon come forward, describing such things as “Black Masses” with child and adult sacrifices taking place and participants, which included prominent politicians and figures.

This would be corroborated by a note found by police at the house belonging to Bernard Weinstein – a man who previously worked with Dutroux, but whom Dutroux had murdered. The letter contained very specific request for certain types of victims for satanic sacrifices. The letter was signed by a man who called himself “Anubis”.

It turned out Anubis was the high priest of a satanic cult called Abrasax whose real name was Francis Desmet. Police obtained a warrant and seized computers, documents, mail, actual human skulls, jars of blood, and all sorts of of satanic items- but none of this was enough to make an arrest.

As the Dutroux trial went public, other victims stepped forward and confirmed the testimony, offering up descriptions of sexual abuse and human sacrifice. They also described “hunting parties” where elites would release naked children into the woods to hide, so that the elites themselves could hunt them down and slaughter them. Many of the stories from victims cointained so many similarities, they were impossible to deny.

For the example the hunting parties were often held castles, where victims could not escape and were hidden from the public eye. Those not killed in the hunt were usually chased down and mauled/killed by Dobermans. All of these victims echoed the testimonies of other, older survivors of ritual satanic abuse from around the world. It is also notable that Dutroux owned 10 homes valued at 6 million dollars.

It is also notable that Dutroux was not employed. It is also notable that Dutroux received $ 1,200 per month in public assistance. It is also notable that documents released by Wikileaks show large sums of money in various currencies wre deposited into his wife´s bank account. It is also notable that those deposits coincided with reported kidnappings and missing children reports.

It is also notable that before his removal, Judge Jean-Marc Connerotte was on the verge of publicly disclosing the names of high level government officials who had been recognized on video tapes of sexual torture that took place in Dutroux´s dungeon. It is also notable that 20 potential witnesses for this case have died without explanation.
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: raul on February 20, 2021, 04:07:28 pm
Holden,

Thank you for your response. You are enduring much in this life because as you said once you are “experiencing a great deal of pressure to become a slave to a woman and to perpetuate misery on this planet.”

Indeed there is something mysterious about existence. I agree with you that the key tenets of major religions, their god´s benevolence and compassion make no sense. In my view the major religions became corrupt and distorted the original message.

Adrenochrome, as I read, the super drug, is harvested from children´s blood through torture, which the satanic and globalist elites then inject in order to stay healthy and young. The molecule of this drug is shaped like a bunny.

I do not have Telegram but if you have it please see in GhostEzra photos of Hollywood celebrity, Johny Depp,with the message:

When the adrenochrome dries up,it´s a sign we´ve been winning.

Those who study these issues say that all this started three years ago when Google CEO Sundar Pichai was questioned by the U.S. Congress about a conspiracy called Frazzledrip. This Frazzledrip issue involved Hillary Clinton and Huma Abedin, her aide and ex wife of US Congressman Anthony Weiner, where both supposedly performed a satanic sacrifice where the blood of a child was slurped while wearing masks carved from the skin of her face.

This so-called wonder drug is extracted from the pituitary gland of tortured children. It is bought on the black market. They say celebrities like Tom Hanks contracted the China bug from a tainted batch of adrenochrome. Also Ellen De Generes, Heidi Klum and Tom Cruise supposedly are addicted to this drug. Cleary this is a sort of creepy vampire stuff. Even Dracula, in my view, would avoid these chilling Adrenochrome junkies.

Stay alert.
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: Ibra on February 21, 2021, 06:07:01 am
thanks senor raul for writing these snapshots of the human horrors. life is weirder than fiction. yes the elite are sick, but this is as God intended, we are created in his Image as the story goes.

with unlimited money and power and without abiding by society or the state (well they are the state), of course they need an ever new amusements. the masses are their subjects/playthings after all.

Nature clutches by the balls. one has to imagine that in throes of sexual desire, man is  possessed by unearthly demons.

It is all a freak show as Carlin puts it. Mr Hentrich got the front seat to watch that show in Amerika.

Holden, I enjoy your honest prose. I hope your health is good. I always lives alone too, I can't get along with people.

Hentrich, How is it there in Jersey. are you still tinkering in philosophy and math. life gets in the way as you always say.

Take care.
Title: To Mr.Ibra
Post by: Holden on February 21, 2021, 08:52:11 am
Mr.Ibra,
Thanks for your message. I write here because it is a small oasis in an otherwise very cruel world for me. I hope you remain safe.
It is surprising how lovers deceive themselves and think they are the first people to fall in love in the history of this mad planet.That they are the only lovers on the face of this planet.


https://youtu.be/o3xPNYnPGwA



Take care.I really hope I get to read more messages by you.

Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: Gorticide :: Admin Elder Warrior on February 21, 2021, 09:20:32 am
Ibra,

I seem to have hit some kind of wall or mental block.  Ever since early January, since I got my hands on this voice/music amplifier, whenever I have had a moment where my aging mother is not pestering me with her needs, wants, concerns, I have been drawn into stored music and old voice recordings where I might have sat down to continue with the solution keys (math modules).

By the time I am calm enough to read anything, I usually can only read a very little.   I have drifted, and I seem to be drifting still.  Maybe today will be different.  I keep waiting to become inspired again.   My problem is that I refuse to engage with anything unless I am really into it, and I have been unable to summon the required mood.

I am too tired to even pretend to care about anything anymore.   The thought of my own death brings me solace.

Thank you for asking, Ibra.  Maybe your question might motivate me to pick up the notebook where I had stopped.   I have succummed to alcoholic inebriation, but it has not gotten out of hand.  I do not want to make a habit of it.

I'm afraid that my projects have been dealt a death blow by the question, "Why bother?"


A song about New Jersey:

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PabG3nJRu3k

Quote
A playful homage to Bruce Springsteen, this song was written by Bob Dylan. It bears a strong resemblance to Lily, Rosemary And The Jack Of Hearts, except for the constant Springsteen references. The chorus features the other Wilburys on backing vocals.

It’s an excellent piece of storytelling from Bob Dylan. A pair of anti-heroes desperately try and escape justice for dealing drugs.

With so many references to Bruce Springsteen songs, some critics felt the supergroup was poking fun at the singer. Petty insisted the opposite:

    We weren’t trying to mock anybody, Dylan said he wanted to set a song in New Jersey and use references to Bruce Springsteen songs. He meant it as a praise.

_________________________________________________________

[Verse 1: Bob Dylan]
Tweeter and the Monkey Man were hard up for cash
They stayed up all night selling co-caine and hash
To an undercover cop who had a sister named Jan
For reasons unexplained, she loved the Monkey Man

Tweeter was a boy scout 'fore she went to Vietnam
And found out the hard way nobody gives a damn
They knew that they'd find freedom just across the Jersey Line
So they hopped into a stolen car, took Highway 99

[Chorus]
And the walls came down, all the way to hell
Never saw them when they're standing
Never saw them when they fell

[Verse 2: Bob Dylan]
The undercover cop never liked the Monkey Man
Even back in childhood, he wanted to see him in the can
Jan got married at fourteen to a racketeer named Bill
She made secret calls to the Monkey Man from a mansion on the hill

It was out on Thunder Road, Tweeter at the wheel
They crashed into paradise, they could hear them tires squeal
The undercover cop pulled up and said "Everyone of you's a liar
If you don't surrender now, it's gonna go down to the wire"

[Chorus]
And the walls came down, all the way to hell
Never saw them when they're standing
Never saw them when they fell

[Verse 3: Bob Dylan]
An ambulance rolled up, a state trooper close behind
Tweeter took his gun away and messed up his mind
The undercover cop was left tied up to a tree
Near the souvenir stand by the old abandoned factory

Next day, the undercover cop was hot in pursuit
He was taking the whole thing personal, he didn't care about the loot
Jan had told him many times it was you to me who taught
In Jersey, anything's legal as long as you don't get caught

[Chorus]
And the walls came down, all the way to hell
Never saw them when they're standing
Never saw them when they fell

[Verse 4: Bob Dylan]
Someplace by Rahway Prison, they ran out of gas
The undercover cop had cornered 'em, said, "Boy, you didn't think that this could last"
Jan jumped up out of bed, said, "There's someplace I gotta go"
She took a gun out of the drawer and said, "It's best if you don't know"

The undercover cop was found face-down in a field
The Monkey Man was on the river bridge using Tweeter as a shield
Jan said to the Monkey Man, "I'm not fooled by Tweeter's curl
I knew him long before he ever became a Jersey girl"

[Chorus]
And the walls came down, all the way to hell
Never saw them when they're standing
Never saw them when they fell

[Verse 5: Bob Dylan]
Now the town of Jersey City is quieting down again
I'm sitting in a gambling club called A Lion's Den
The TV set was blown up, every bit of it is gone
Ever since the nightly news show that the Monkey Man was on

I guess I'll go to Florida and get myself some sun
There ain't no more opportunity here, everything been done
Sometimes I think of Tweeter, sometimes I think of Jan
Sometimes I don't think about nothing but the Monkey Man

[Chorus]
And the walls came down, all the way to hell
Never saw them when they're standing
Never saw them when they fell

[Chorus]
And the walls came down, all the way to hell
Never saw them when they're standing
Never saw them when they fell


Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: Ibra on February 21, 2021, 11:01:02 am
Holden,
I appreciate your words here. I feel blessed sometimes that I am not  entangled to a life with  a wife and kids.It is all "Vanity of vanities; all is vanity".  Love is psych-op sold  by the media, literature, novels, and TV. for me as Hentrich said in his last poem "I am sick of love songs".

take care
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: Ibra on February 21, 2021, 11:19:44 am
Hentrich,

not forcing yourself is a good attitude. you had already intellectually-meditated on the nature of Existence, Math and Programming  more  than millions of people had.

Language, systems of philosophy, math doesn't make sense at all for me. I can't make heads or tails of even simplest axiom. I distrust any abstract concept, all spooky as Stirner would call them.  Love, Truth, Humanity is all hocs-pocus.  philosophy and science already been infiltrated by Corporations and Academia, they turned them into husks.

I spend my time watching George Carlin videos, or hunting down some dark humor or reading non-romantic poetry. thanks for sharing your last poem, it was pretty good one.

what type of alcohol do you drink usually.

stay well.
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: raul on February 21, 2021, 04:41:05 pm
Ibra,

Thank you for your response. I hope you are allright wherever you are. I also hope your family is allright given the circumstances they are living in Syria.

Yes, this world is a chamber of horrors. There is no doubt about that. You yourself are experiencing and living in this insane world.

Stay safe.

P.S.
From the federalist.com

Whistleblower: Coca Cola tells employees• try to be less white•
The 49-minute training video vy DiAngelo author of the book “White Fragility”, is titled Confronting Racism. It claims all white people are born racist.

From Red Pill Pharmacy
Protests in Romania against COVID-19 restrictions.

From summit.news/2021/02
Newsweek •Fact Check• claims India vaccine ban “mostly false” while admitting de facto ban

From Greatgameindia.com
Internal documents has exposes how Amazon deployed a secret strategy to bypass Indian laws by frequently changing its corporate structure and killing small businesses by illegally favoring a handful of companies it had stakes in.

From Greatgameindia.com
According to a recently published research report the the CDC illegally inflated the COVID-19 fatality rates by a shocking 1600%.

From montrealgazette.com
Quebec actress dies while waiting for surgery delayed by COVID-19

From hotlifestylenews.com
Republican Staffer Ruben Verastigui charged with trading child pporn on website saying “babies are my absolute favorite”.
“Well like I said babies are some of my biggest turn-ons and beast,” the fomer Senate staffer who also worked for pro-life groups allegedly said in one direct message, according to court docs.
“Young ****… **** I love all that.”

From fauquier.com
Nathan Larson, 40, of Catlett, Virginia was arrested Dec.14 on felony charges of kidnapping, child abduction, soliciting child ppornography from a minor and meeting a child for the intention of sex. He was arrested at a Denver airport where he was found to be in the company of a missing 12-year old girl from Fresno, California.

From Noticias Rafapal
Lorraine from the London area
BREAKING: Condition is deteriorating quickly. Preparations are now being made for the inevitable event of passing. Expect formal announcements to the public in due course.

Lorraine from the London area
BREAKING: Palace confirms Prince Philip, the Duke of Edinburgh, is now receiving “end of life care” and is most likely in his final days, if not hours, and that Her Majesty is being updated regularly.
Rafael Palacios, a Spanish journalist, comments that the Duke of Edinburgh is about to pass away (officially because the patriots say that he was executed some time ago.)

From Noticias Rafapal
CDC Center for Disease Control and Prevention
Center for Preparedness and Response
Zombie preparedness

Humansarefree.com
UK government shocking report:
Experimental MRNA injections caused 1716 cases of eye disorders and left 22 people blind

OFFICIAL CHARLIE WARD SHOW
The Defender
Children´s Health Defense
One-third of Deaths reported to CDC after COVID Vaccines occurred within 48 hours of vaccination

From montanadailygazette.com
New Study finds masks hurt school children
physically, psychologically, and behaviorally

OFFICIAL CHARLIE WARD
Exclusive: Government slams Facebook for sick double-standards by creating the perfect platform for paedophiles to share child abuse

OFFICIAL CHARLIE WARD
HAARP (High-Frequency Active Auroral Research Program)
The ionosphere is being manipulated by US government scientists using the Alaskan transmitter caller HAARP which sends focused radiated power to heat up sections of the ionosphere, which bounces power down again. ELF waves produces from HAARP,when targeted on selected aras, can weather-engineer and create mood changes affecting millions of people. The intended wattage is 1,700 billion watts of power.

From theguardian.com
Human rights in focus
Mars, Nestlé and Hershey to face child slavery lawsuit in US
Chocolate companies are among the defendants named in a lawsuit brought by former child workers in Ivory Coast
Eight children who claim they were used as slave labour on cocoa plantations in Ivory Coast have launched legal action against the world´s biggest chocolate companies. Nestlé, Cargill, Barry Callebaut, Mars, Olam, Hershey and Mondelez have been named as defendants in a lawsuit filed in Washington D.C. by the human rights firm International Rights Advocates (IRA).

From dailymail.co.uk
Lord Ahmed´s alleged sex attack victim tells court she “has never forgotten moment former Labour tried to rrape her when she was a small girl in the 1970s.

From Elon Musk
@elonmusk
Something extremely bogus is going on.  Was tested for covid four times today. Two texts came back negative, two came back positive. Same machine. Same test, same nurse. Rapid antigen test from BD.

Title: We do what we're told ...
Post by: Gorticide :: Admin Elder Warrior on February 21, 2021, 06:33:51 pm
There really should not be any usual, but when I have unusually given in to the compulsion to imbibe the poison, it has thrice been in the form of brandy.   I have been partial to whisky or vodka in the past, so that has been welcomed by my Creaturely Presence when thrown my way by a sympathetic distributor of Lubrications for the Soul.

I still wait for the return of my Mathematics Muse.  I hope She has not abandoned me.  I had invested in many blank unruled notebooks.   Maybe this long period of restlessness will leave me soon.  Hell, it may be this evening.   The books are right there waiting for me to become inspired.   

Part of me wishes it could take over the airwaves once and for all.   :o

What I mean to say is that I wish I had access to the minds of all the people of the world with my little amplifier.   Maybe we can send out our telepathic vibrations, thereby blowing a huge hole through this world's idea of itself.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7zNwGXuLVKU

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3drqR10o5js


We do what we're told ...
We do what we're told ...
We do what we're told ...
... told to do ...


to skip intro, live song starts at 229 seconds: https://youtu.be/3drqR10o5js?t=229
Title: Senor Raul
Post by: Holden on February 22, 2021, 06:27:55 am
Thanks for the message,Senor Raul.
For you:
https://youtu.be/yzVceDFYHIg
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: Holden on February 22, 2021, 06:36:34 am
https://youtu.be/JWRVyaKnGcA
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: Holden on February 22, 2021, 06:48:57 am
https://youtu.be/vFHYiOfBRng
Title: Who is 233 today!
Post by: Holden on February 22, 2021, 12:18:01 pm
https://ibb.co/C6mYd90


https://ibb.co/s1MPK7Y
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: Holden on February 22, 2021, 12:27:00 pm
But in fact Schopenhauer identifies as a crime not so much being born—that is rather seen as a great misfortune; rather it is giving birth which is to be condemned.”
~ Charles Taylor
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: Holden on February 22, 2021, 01:00:46 pm
https://youtu.be/02r0uvwCmrA
( For Senor Raul)
Title: The mysterious stranger
Post by: raul on February 22, 2021, 03:15:06 pm
Holden,

Thank you for the links. Jim Garrison, district attorney, in the movie played by Kevin Costner, wanted to know who killed JFK. His assassination is a forbidden topic even over 50 years of his assassination.

Richard Nixon,(Anthony Hopkins) another crooked politician working for the cabal and replaced because he was no longer useful,in my view. That reminded me of the invasion by U.S. marines of the Dominican Republic. Paraguayan military forces took part also in that sorry affair in 1965.

Here the vaccinations started. The Sputnik vaccines will be injected to the medical staff all over the country first. 4,000 doses, I heard. We have become guinea pigs on our own accord. 

I learned that in Paraguay the ESSAP, the state water company, has been giving us chlorinated water. I have been drinking it all my life. The cancer risk for people who drink chlorinated water is 93% higher than those whose water does not contain chlorine. Most drink carbonated water. I wonder where the companies extract it from. Supposedly it is pure water.
Stay well.

P.S.
From Bill Gates
@BillGates
I drank water made from human feces. Here´s an update on the machine that produced that water.

From Breaking911
Former Florida mayor charged with possession of child ppornography
On Friday 65-year-old former Brooksville Florida Mayor Kevin Hohn was arrested after Homeland Security agents found him in possession of over 100 images of child ppornography.Some of the images appear to have been taken inside his home.

From montrealgazzette.com/news
Montreal man convicted of human trafficking of child he used like a puppet
After being told she was being sent to Canada at age eight, for a better life and a good education, she was sexually assaulted repeatedly.

From Red Pill Pharmacy
Courteney Cox
@CourteneyCox
How long does it take to Cook a baby in the microwave? I don´t know. I Close my eyes when I masterbate.

From Noticias Rafapal
The riots in Barcelona, Spain and other cities are clearly organized the Black Lives Matter style.

From Noticias Rafapal
Deep State Australian and U.S. forces are planning a false flag chemical attack operation in Syria in order to provoke another war. According to whatdoesitmean.com Unite Airlines Flight over Denver exploded after suiciding of Australian military spy.
The Australian military intelligence officer was suicided before he could turn over an encrypyted hard drive of war crime evidence. The United Airlines flight 328 from Denver to Australia was attacked with an engine explosion. The pilot sent out a mayday call-then saw the debris from this explosion raining down from the skiy after which this stricken aircraft made a successful emergency landing with its engine on fire.

From Backup Archivos Aroita Jiménez
Nobody really knows who paid for the Denver Airport construction. Besides the fact that this dedication stone says it´s covering at time capsule by the people of Colorado. It also says the airport was paid by the New World Airport Commission. The New World Airport Commission does not exist. (The stone has a Masonic symbol)

From Backup Archivos Aroita Jiménez
nypost.com/2021
Johns Hopkins expert says COVID-19 pandemics could end by April. Then why the push for an untested unnecessary vax?

From Backup Archivos Aroita Jiménez
EFFECTIVE MARCH 1, 2021 THE COVID
LOCKDOWN IN THE USA IS OVER
AS OF THIS DATE THE FOLLOWING WILL OCCUR:
Masks are no longer mandatory.
Social Distancing is no longer required.
Plastic Barriers are no longer required.
Social Circles and Boundaries are no longer required.

From Red Pill Pharmacy
WHAT IS NOT ON TV
Protest in Madrid against the restrictions of the plandemic

From amp.antena3.com
Tragic story.  A sicario (hitman) for the French Freemasonry confesses having disemboweled race pilot Laurent Pasquali for his debts. The famous pilot, Laurent Pasquali, was found dead in 2019 and now it is known who was his assassin. The reason was the pilot´s debts. In 2018 he mysteriously disappeared, leaving no trace, and his acquaintances suspected that he ran away for his money debts.
He had a 200,000 euros debt

Pasquali was reclaimed 200,000 euros that he owed his sponsor in order to take part in a race competition. A year later in 2019 his remains were found in a forest, having been disemboweled and had a bullet shot in the head. Besides the killer scattered his remains for different areas in the woods in Cistrieres. A few days ago, the police solved the case practically without wanting to do it. The security forces dismantled a clan of hitmen linked to the French Freemasonry and one of them confirmed having been the killer of Laurent. Many suspect that the Freemasons had ordered his murder for not paying his debts.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BpaRouocBes
Title: Homage to Schopenhauer on his Birth Anniversary
Post by: Holden on February 22, 2021, 03:37:45 pm
https://youtu.be/lAB21FAXCDE
Title: Senor Raul Speaking Tours
Post by: Holden on February 23, 2021, 06:47:21 am
Senor Raul,

Thanks for the message.Maybe you could think about going on Speaking Tours like Icke.When you tour this country,I would certainly buy the tickets to listen to you.


https://youtu.be/CLBVFTzgjlE
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: Holden on February 23, 2021, 11:30:31 am
Senor Raul,
I might be one of the few human beings  still working in my company.Most of them are reptiles ,I think.Trying to bite me.
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: Holden on February 23, 2021, 11:32:49 am
It maybe that they introduced  TB in my body to weaken me even more.
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: Holden on February 23, 2021, 02:53:01 pm
It maybe that there is no way out.Not even through "awareness" and "consciousness". All awareness might be able to do,might be to intensify the suffering.Endless suffering.
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: Holden on February 23, 2021, 02:58:53 pm
The End Of The World
Quite unexpectedly, as Vasserot
The armless ambidextrian was lighting
A match between his great and second toe,
And Ralph the lion was engaged in biting
The neck of Madame Sossman while the drum
Pointed, and Teeny was about to cough
In waltz-time swinging Jocko by the thumb
Quite unexpectedly to top blew off:

And there, there overhead, there, there hung over
Those thousands of white faces, those dazed eyes,
There in the starless dark, the poise, the hover,
There with vast wings across the cancelled skies,
There in the sudden blackness the black pall
Of nothing, nothing, nothing — nothing at all.


MacLeish
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: Holden on February 23, 2021, 03:02:17 pm
THE MADMAN
Have you not heard of that madman who lit a lantern in the bright morning hours, ran to the market place, and cried incessantly: "I seek God! I seek God!" -- As many of those who did not believe in God were standing around just then, he provoked much laughter. Has he got lost? asked one. Did he lose his way like a child? asked another. Or is he hiding? Is he afraid of us? Has he gone on a voyage? emigrated? -- Thus they yelled and laughed.

The madman jumped into their midst and pierced them with his eyes. "Whither is God?" he cried; "I will tell you. We have killed him -- you and I. All of us are his murderers. But how did we do this? How could we drink up the sea? Who gave us the sponge to wipe away the entire horizon? What were we doing when we unchained this earth from its sun? Whither is it moving now? Whither are we moving? Away from all suns? Are we not plunging continually? Backward, sideward, forward, in all directions? Is there still any up or down? Are we not straying, as through an infinite nothing? Do we not feel the breath of empty space? Has it not become colder? Is not night continually closing in on us? Do we not need to light lanterns in the morning? Do we hear nothing as yet of the noise of the gravediggers who are burying God? Do we smell nothing as yet of the divine decomposition? Gods, too, decompose. God is dead. God remains dead. And we have killed him.

"How shall we comfort ourselves, the murderers of all murderers? What was holiest and mightiest of all that the world has yet owned has bled to death under our knives: who will wipe this blood off us? What water is there for us to clean ourselves? What festivals of atonement, what sacred games shall we have to invent? Is not the greatness of this deed too great for us? Must we ourselves not become gods simply to appear worthy of it? There has never been a greater deed; and whoever is born after us -- for the sake of this deed he will belong to a higher history than all history hitherto."

Here the madman fell silent and looked again at his listeners; and they, too, were silent and stared at him in astonishment. At last he threw his lantern on the ground, and it broke into pieces and went out. "I have come too early.-Nietzsche
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: Holden on February 23, 2021, 03:18:01 pm
https://youtu.be/8256VJ4hkJU
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: Holden on February 23, 2021, 03:55:55 pm
I wish I could read all the books I wish to read at once.
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: Holden on February 23, 2021, 04:07:28 pm
A thought:Maybe there is no "Greater God",maybe the "Evil God", is the only "God" there is.
Title: 233 Years Later ...
Post by: Gorticide :: Admin Elder Warrior on February 23, 2021, 05:23:05 pm
From the link left by Holden (http://whybother.freeboards.org/general-discussion/a-question-for-herr-hauser-and-senor-raul/msg10160/#msg10160): 

"Thank you for coming to my party - there's jelly and trifle and plenty of sandwiches and punch and booze and an overwhelming sense of pessimistic philosophic despair at the overall pointlessness of existence ..."

 :D
________________________________________________________________

The lyrics to that death metal song Holden found.  (The screaming vocalists do not appeal to me, but the lyrics do interest me.)

[Verse 1]
Do you feel what I feel?
See what I see, hear what I hear?
There is a line you must draw
Between your dream world and reality
Do you live my life or share the breath I breathe?

[Chorus]
Lies feed your judgement of others
Behold how the blind lead each other
The philosopher
You know so much about nothing at all

[Bridge]
Ideas that fall under shadows of theories that stand tall
Thoughts that grow narrow upon being verbally released

[Verse 2]
Your mind is not your own
What sounds more mentally stimulating
Is how you make your choice
So you preach about how I'm supposed to be
Yet you don't know your own sexuality

[Chorus]
Lies feed your judgement of others
Behold how the blind lead each other
The philosopher
You know so much about nothing at all

_________________________________________________________

about Schopenhauer (Bernardo Kastrup with Curt Jaimungal):

https://youtu.be/lAB21FAXCDE?t=8434
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: raul on February 24, 2021, 05:21:33 am
Holden,

Thank you for your words and the link with David Icke. Before he turned to these conspiracy issues he was a journalist in the BBC and so he knew how to talk to people. Also the guy has done an extensive research all these years or connecting the dots as he often says. I have never read Icke´s books, only watched interviews with him. Last year at the beginning of this scamdemic he was censored by all the social networks.

I am just a reader and not a good one. Many laugh at these conspiracy theorists when they exposed the island for **** elites and then the mass media reported on Jeffrey Epstein. The New York Times reported that Epstein aimed to seed human race with his DNA.

Last year I also read that Governor Cuomo of New York on purpose sent the elderly to die. Now he is under investigation in the USA and the mass media is reporting it. The mainstream media is complicit for reporting these issues when they can not longer be hidden from the public.

I found this quote that can be applied to what has been happening up to now.
P. D. Ouspensky, esoteric writer and pupil of G. I. Gurdjieff, wrote that there are two histories:

‘One history passes by in full view and, strictly speaking, is the history of crime, for if there were no crimes there would be no history. All the most important turning-points and stages of this history are marked by crimes: murders, acts of violence, robberies, wars, rebellions, massacres, tortures, executions ... This is one history, the history which everybody knows, the history which is taught in schools. The other is the history which is known to very few.’

I don´t know who wrote the following:

The most dangerous people are those that follow orders without questioning those orders.!

In a sense I do not blame the cabal/Deep State/Satanic elite for what they have been doing. They literally sold out to the devil. In fact these evil beings have been warning us about their plans for centuries. In the past we allowed ourselves to be branded with our cédulas, identity cards and now the branding with the vaccines is complete.  We, the cattle, are happy in branding ourselves.

Again I quote the Cathars:

Many Perfects simply found they were confirmed in their beliefs that the material world was fashioned by Satan and that the Church of Rome was his Church. ‘How can the fire that burns the houses of the poor and holy be created by God? How can the God who sends suffering to good men be good himself?’ one Cathar Perfect asked of the Inquisitor who was questioning him.

Take care.

P.S.
From CHARLIE WARD SHOW
Benosey.com/viral-posts
Doctors and nurses giving the Covid-19 vaccine will be tried as war criminals, by Dr. Vernon Coleman.

From Noticias Rafapal

Rafael Palacios, the Spanish journalist, comments that somebody has tried to kill Tiger Woods (the golfing legend), it seems the white hats saved him. It also is said that it could be a distraction from what is happening in the White House.

From GhostEzra
Tiger Woods is alive right now. Let´s see if that report changes.

From Chuck Callesto
@ChuckCallesto
BREAKING REPORT: North Dakota House passes bill FORBIDDING mandatory mask wearing…

From Noticias Rafapal
Reuters
Pope Francis is due to hold an inter-religious prayer service at the ancient Mesopotamian site of Ur when he visits Iraq next week, an event local archaelogists hope will draw renewed attention to the site.

From Red Phill Pharmacy
 A Florida sheriff´s deputy rescued a missing 13-year-old girl from a motel room where she had met up with a 22-year-old man she met online. Deputy Royce was searching for an unidentified 13-year-old girl who went missing after school when he found her in a dark motel room with 22-year-old Tyler Thompson, Volusia Sheriff´s office announced on Twitter.

From Breaking911
A 14-year-old North Carolina girl had been found ALIVE in Arkansas -more than a week after she was reported missing. Her alleged abductor is dead.

From GhostEzra
Got the witch

Breaking911
El Chapo´s wife arrested in Virginia
The wife of Joaquín “El Chapo” Guzmán Loera, leader of a Mexican drug trafficking organization known as the Sinaloa Cartel, was arrested today in Virginia on charges related to her alleged involvement in international trafficking. Emma Coronel Aispuro, 31, a dual U.S.-Mexican citizen of Culiacan, Sinaloa, Mexico was arrested today at Dulles International Airport.

From GhostEzra
Chapos wife was a drug trafficker and a child trafficker. It matters.

From Red Pill Pharmacy
pagesix.com/2021/02/23
A cousin of Queen Elizabeth II was jailed Tuesday for 10 months for sexually assaulting a woman who was a guest at his ancestral castle in Scotland.
Simon Bowes-Lyon, the Earl of Strathmore, had admitted assaulting the 26-year-old woman in February 2020 in a bedroom at Glamis Castle, which was the childhood home of the Queen´s late mother.

From Red Pill Pharmacy
February 19,2021
Spanish police found four people hiding inside recycled glass container in the port of Melilla. The migrants were attempting to board a ship to cross from the Spanish territory in North Africa to continental Europe.

From Noticias Rafapal
healthimpactnews.com/2020
Testimony of German Attorney: Those Responsible for “Corona Scandal” must be criminally prosecuted for crimes against humanity.
Attorney Dr. Reiner Fuellmich, one of the Committee members, has published his testimony which at the time of this writing has been viewed over 1.3 million people in the last 10 days.

Hello. I am Reiner Fuellmich and I have been admitted to the Bar in Germany and in California for 26 years.
I have been practicing law primarily as a trial lawyer against fraudulent corporations such as Deutsche Bank, formerly one of the world´s largest and most respected banks, today one of the most toxic criminal organizations in the world; VW (Volkswagen), one of the world´s largest and most respected car manufacturers, today notorious for its giant diesel fraud and Kuehne and Nagel, the world´s largest shipping company. We´re suing them in a multi-million dollar bribery case.

The man in the iron lung
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xowUq7JgFeQ
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: Holden on February 24, 2021, 11:13:53 am
"Listen within yourself and look into the infinitude of Space and Time. There can be heard the songs of the Constellations, the voices of the Numbers, and the harmonies of the Spheres." ~ Hermes Trismegistus
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: raul on February 24, 2021, 12:48:49 pm
Holden,
Thank you for the quote. I have only the transcriptions to share with you and the readers of this blog.

Stay well.

P.S.
From Red Phill Pharmacy
Francois-Henri Pinault with his Hollywood wife Salma Hayek. Most of the major actresses in Hollywood are obsessed with rraping,murdering, and cannibalizing the private parts of male children including Salma Hayek. Pinault is worth 30 billion and he is an agent of the Medicis and Strozzis and his Group Artemis company finances satanic witches and child trafficking networks.

From Sputnik
Queen´s sex offender cousin joked he was Monster of Glamis on night of attack at Scottish castle

From ABC COLOR
23 tons of coccaine discovered in containers in the ports of Hamburg and Antwerp. The investigation continues in Germany, the Netherlands and Belgium and could allow more detentions. The confiscated coccaine comes from Paraguay.

Disclose.tv
Lindsey Boylan, former special advisor to New York Governor Andrew Cuomo, is accusing the governor of sexually harassing her, and claims that other women from his inner circle “normalized” this behavior.

From Official Charlie Ward Show
Bloomberg.com./news
The former wife of Mexican drug kingpin Joaquín “El Chapo” Guzman will remain in a U.S. jail to face charges of helping her husband operate his multibillion dollar cartel and with aiding in his daring 2015 escape from a Mexican prison through an underground

From Red Pill Pharmacy
Bombshell: Ilhan Omar´s husband received $635 k in Covid-19 bailout money for his consulting firm.

From Red Phill Pharmacy
When everyone finds out Joe Biden owns an island next to Jeffrey Epstein´s, both islands have underground submarine entrances, and Ghislaine Maxwell pilots submarines to traffick kids.

From Charlie Ward Official Show
nypost.com/2021/02/23
Ghislaine Maxwell offers to give up UK, French citizenship to get out of jail

From Noticias Rafapal
Darren M. Haynes
Huge house on fire on 30th St NW in Washington D.C.@wusab9

From Noticias Rafapal
GhostEzra
Anyone heard from (Michael) Bloomberg? Been awhile.
He literally ran for President and completely disappeared.

From Noticias Rafapal
In 1952, Wernher Von Braun wrote a book called “Project Mars” which imagined that human colonists on Mars would be led by a person called “Elon”.

N.B. Is Von Braun referring to Elon Musk?

From qalerts.app
Q
4920 Oct 21,2020 08:58:24 PM EDT
Do you remember when =MeToo lost all credibility when they refused to support Tara Reade coming forward re:claims of sexual assault by Joe Biden?
Political movement?
Q
From Charlie Ward Official Show
Old news
From irishtimes.com/news/deniro
The American actor, Robert De Niro, was arrested by the French vice squad at the Bristol Hotel in Paris yesterday and held for questioning in connection with an international prostitution ring.
Wed.Feb 11,1998
https://www.irishtimes.com/news/de-niro-held-questioned-in-paris-over-vice-ring-1.134173

https://www.youtube.com/results?search_query=Buena+vida+agenda+2021
Title: To Senor Raul
Post by: Holden on February 24, 2021, 03:28:34 pm

Senor Raul,

Thanks for your message. Maybe someday,many years from now, when Icke is all but forgotten,sensitive souls would still read your messages and would grateful to you for all the time and effort you are putting in ,in unmasking the world.

There are conspiracies. There is no doubt about that. In my office,in every office I have ever worked in, my colleagues have hatched nefarious conspiracies against me.I do not wish to go to the office,I have very little interest left in “life”. There is nothing to be had here.
The concept of Archons is intriguing, to say the least.

I also admire your appreciation for human history. We do not even have to go back too far. Just about 300 years back there were men and women,in the heart of Europe, working in mines for 12 hours day,copulating inside the mine itself and yes, many a pregnant woman, popped out the baby inside the mine.

Steven Pinker likes to believe in moral progress and that things are getting better and better. I do not see any reasons why the civilisation cannot go back to 1700s again.

If I were alive in 1700s, I might have easily gone off to a forest, never to be seen again. Even when Schopenhauer was alive,I mean, around 1850s, things were pretty hard. Things are still terrible. They always have been.Around that time, if a woman gave birth to twenty kids, then she counted herself as fortunate if two kids remained alive. Yes, we do not have to go back very far in time at all.

All this talk about “profit motive” and “accumulation of wealth” is a recent invention.These ideas were devised about the same time Calculus was. Before that people were,generally speaking, were far more pessimistic and realistic.

Take care.

For the Archons :)

https://youtu.be/4tSEnYYAsBY
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: Holden on February 25, 2021, 12:35:00 am
https://logicmag.io/bodies/mormon-mommies-will-never-die/
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: raul on February 25, 2021, 12:31:52 pm
Holden,

Thank you again for your words and the links. Apart from you and the readers of this blog nobody will read my words. It is comprehensible.

I am not a researcher or investigator. I do not have the resources and the contacts to do it. I just transcribe what others say in their blogs. I find them interesting. Is their research 100% true? I don´t know. Maybe 70%. After all they can make mistakes or be deceived. It happens. 

I hope your colleagues leave you alone at work. You have been very patient with them. Others would have reacted in a very violent manner.

In the Democratic Republic of Congo children as young as seven extract the coltan during 12-16 hours in the mines and they get 1 dollar a day. Without the coltan there will be no smartphones, cars and computers for millions around the world. Apple, Microsoft and Vodafone and other multinational companies use the coltan according to The Guardian.

I hear those in power people want people to use electric cars. They are much cleaner, they say. I read that coal is needed for these cars. Who will get the coal for electric cars? African children will extract it for 16 hours a day.

Here I read a sad case that happened in the countryside. A 9-year-old boy lost his arm while working in a ceramic factory in a town called Tobati. Children are most used to work in this kind of factories. In fact his grandfather, the little boy and his brother were working at that moment when the boy´s arms got stuck in the machinery and lost his arm.

I often see indigenous women with their children begging for money in streets or avenues in the capital city. To the authorities and most of us these people do not exist unless the mass media reports about them.

I think Steven Pinker should read about the Gnostics and learn some things they say about human nature.

Take care.

P.S.
From Alex Berenson
@Alex Berenson
The elderly nuns at a Kentucky monastery closed to the outside world to keep covid at bay. For 10 months they succeeded. Then they opened up to be vaccinated.
Now they´re dying.
“This is actually more common than you might think”, the county public health director said.

From Breaking911
Entire Federal Reserve payment system CRASHES

From Daily Mail
Breaking News: Banks are unable to send or receive wires
Entire Federal Reserve payment system crashed

From qalerts.app
4633 Sep 02,2020 12:55:11 PM EDT
Republican benefactor of conservative Christian groups, Richard A. Dasen, Sr., was charged with rrape for allegedly paying a 15-year-old girl for sex. Dasen, 62, who is married with grown children and several grandchildren, has allegedly told police that over the past decade he paid more than $ 1 million to have sex with a large number of young women.

Democratic donor and billionaire, Jeffrey Epstein, ran an underage child sex brothel and was convicted of soliciting underage girls for prostitution.

Democratic New York Congressman Anthony Wiener, plead guilty to transferring obscene material to a minor as part of a plea agreement for sexted and sending Twitter DMS to underage girls as young as 15.

Democratic donor activist, and Hollywood producter Harvey Weinstein is being criminally prosecuted and civilly sued for years of sexual abuse (that was a well known secret in Hollywood) including underage sexual activities with aspiring female actresses.

Democratic activist and metoo proponent Asia Argento, settled a lawsuit for sexual harassment stemming from sexual activities with an underage actor.

Democratic Mayor of Racine, Wisconsin, Gary Becker, was convicted of attempted child seduction, child ppornography, and other child sex crimes.

Democratic activist and aid to NYC Mayor De Blasio, Jacob Schwartz was arrested on possession of 3,000+child ppornographic images.

Democratic activist and actor Russell Simmons, was sued based on an allegation of sexual assault where he coerced an underage model for sex.

Democratic Governor of Oregon, Neil Goldschmitt, after being caught by a newspaper, publicly admitted to having a past sexual relationship with a 13-year-old girl after the statute of limitations on the rrape charged had expired.

Democratic Illinois Congressman, Mel Reynolds resigned from Congress after he was convicted of statutory rrape of a 16-year-old campaign volunteer.

Democratic New York Congressman, Fred Richmond, was arrested in Washington D.C. for soliciting sex from a 16-year-old boy.

Democratic activist, donor, and director Roman Polanski, fled the country after pleading guilty to statutory rrape of a 13-year-old girl. Democrats and Hollywood actors still defend him to this day, including Whoopi Goldberg,Martin Scorsese, Woody Allen, David Lynch, Wim Wenders, Pedro Almodovar, Tilda Swinton and Monica Bellucci.

Democratic State Senator from Alaska, George Jacko, was found guilty of sexual harassment of an underage legislative page.

Democratic State Representative candidate for Colorado, Andrew Myers, was convicted for possession of child ppornography and enticing children.

Democratic Illinois Congressman Gus Savage was investigated by the Democrat-controlled House Committee on Ethics for attempting to **** an underage female Peace Corps volunteer in Zaire. The Committee concluded that while the events did occur his apology was sufficient and took no further action.

Democratic activist,donor and spokesperson for Subway, Jared Fogle, was convicted of distribution and receipt of child ppornography and travelling to engage in illicit sexual conduct with a minor.

Democratic State Department official, Carl Carey, under Hillary Clinton´s state department was arrested on ten counts of child pporn possession.

Democratic Maine Assistant Attorney General James Cameron, was sentenced to just over 15 years in federal prison for seven counts of child pporn possession, receipt and transmission.

Democratic State Department official, Daniel Rosen, under Hillary Clinton´s state department, was arrested and charged with soliciting sex from a minor over the Internet.

Democratic State Department official, James Cafferty, pleaded guilty to one count of transportation of child ppornography.

Democratic radio host, Bernie Ward, plead guilty to one count of sending child ppornography over the internet.

Democratic deputy attorney general from California Raymond Liddy, was arrested for possession of child ppornography.

From qalerts.app
4632 Sep 02,2030 12:54:50 PM EDT
Republican activist Marty Glickman (a.k.a. “Republican Marty”), was taken into custody by Florida police on four counts of unlawful sexual activity with an underage girl and one count of delivering the drug LSD.

Republican legislative aide Howard L. Brooks was charged with molesting a 12-year old boy and possession of child pornography.

Republican Senate candidate John Hathaway was accused of having sex with his 12-year old baby sitter and withdrew his candidacy after the allegations were reported in the media.

Republican preacher Stephen White, who demanded a return to traditional values, was sentenced to jail after offering $20 to a 14-year-old boy for permission to perform oral sex on him.

Republican talk show host Jon Matthews pleaded guilty to exposing his genitals to an 11 year old girl.

Republican anti-gay activist Earl “Butch” Kimmerling was sentenced to 40 years in prison for molesting an 8-year old girl after he attempted to stop a gay couple from adopting her.

Republican Party leader Paul Ingram pleaded guilty to six counts of raping his daughters and served 14 years in federal prison.

Republican election board official Kevin Coan was sentenced to two years probation for soliciting sex over the internet from a 14-year old girl.

Republican politician Andrew Buhr was charged with two counts of first degree sodomy with a 13-year old boy.

Republican politician Keith Westmoreland was arrested on seven felony counts of lewd and lascivious exhibition to girls under the age of 16 (i.e. exposing himself to children).

Republican anti-abortion activist John Allen Burt was charged with sexual misconduct involving a 15-year old girl.

Republican County Councilman Keola Childs pleaded guilty to molesting a male child. Republican activist John Butler was charged with criminal sexual assault on a teenage girl.

Republican candidate Richard Gardner admitted to molesting his two daughters.

Republican Councilman and former Marine Jack W. Gardner was convicted of molesting a 13-year old girl.

Republican County Commissioner Merrill Robert Barter pleaded guilty to unlawful sexual contact and assault on a teenage boy.

Republican City Councilman Fred C. Smeltzer, Jr. pleaded no contest to raping a 15 year-old girl and served 6-months in prison.

Republican activist Parker J. Bena pleaded guilty to possession of child pornography on his home computer and was sentenced to 30 months in federal prison and fined $18,000.

Republican parole board officer and former Colorado state representative, Larry Jack Schwarz, was fired after child pornography was found in his possession.

Republican strategist and Citadel Military College graduate Robin Vanderwall was convicted in Virginia on five counts of soliciting sex from boys and girls over the internet.

Republican city councilman Mark Harris, who is described as a “good military man” and “church goer,” was convicted of repeatedly having sex with an 11-year-old girl and sentenced to 12 years in prison.

Republican businessman Jon Grunseth withdrew his candidacy for Minnesota governor after allegations surfaced that he went swimming in the **** with four underage girls, including his daughter.

Republican director of the “Young Republican Federation” Nicholas Elizondo molested his 6-year old daughter and was sentenced to six years in prison.
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: Holden on February 25, 2021, 04:02:19 pm
After days of uninterrupted headaches, finally a little easier and more confident. If I were another person observing myself and the course of my life, I should be compelled to say that it must all end unavailingly, be consumed in incessant doubt, creative only in its self-torment.-Kafka
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: Holden on February 26, 2021, 02:02:05 am
"I am searching for the bones of your father but cannot distinguish them from those of a slave.”
― Diogenes to Alexander the Great
Title: To Senor Raul
Post by: Holden on February 26, 2021, 10:23:20 am
https://youtu.be/MfwMwAngCSY
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: Holden on February 26, 2021, 10:26:05 am
Every one of us, having been stolen from nonexistence, opens his eyes on the world and looks down the road at a few convulsions and a final obliteration.

~ Thomas Ligotti
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: Holden on February 26, 2021, 10:35:15 am
For Senor Raul:

https://www.google.com/amp/s/www.cnbctv18.com/world/cias-declassified-files-on-ufos-and-alien-life-can-now-be-downloaded-8210791.htm/amp
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: Holden on February 26, 2021, 10:36:58 am
Thanks  for your message,Senor Raul.
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: Holden on February 26, 2021, 04:10:12 pm
Senor Raul,

I am told that the patients who go to the hospital to get their tonsils removed are given full assistance as regards the process.
Their tonsils are duly removed. Only after the tonsil removed, microchips are implanted in them and they are tracked continually.

Take care.
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: raul on February 26, 2021, 04:25:46 pm
Holden,

Thank you for the quotes. They are most enlightening. Yes, princes, queens, emperors, empresses, kings, czars, bishops, corporate leaders,mafiosos,first ladies, politicians, popes, all of them will also end up in a graveyard. Nobody escapes.

Stay well.

P.S.
From ABC DIGITAL
Former Paraguayan president, Horacio Cartes, tested positive for covid-19 according to his doctor, Antonio Barrios.
N.B. I find this very strange.

From FirstSquawk
@ INDIA´S NSE CLOSES EXCHANGE DUE TO GLITCH
10:23 PM 2021-02-23

From Noticias Rafapal
POLAND: 65 PEOPLE DIED SHORTLY AFTER THE COVID-19 VACCINATION

From Backup Archivos Aroita Jiménez
India confiscates property of Amnesty International due to charges of money laundering
A UN Convoy in Congo was attacked and the young Italian ambassador has been killed. Apparently he had links with the Clinton Foundation via his wife´s NGO, and it is rumored, in the trafficking of children. The matter is serious because an attack on people working for the UN is unusual, much more killing an ambassador. It could be part of the battle between the Alliance and the globalists, remans to be seen, because at the moment they are only rumours.

From Red Pill Pharmacy
2020-11-01, 9:19 PM
TheStormisUponUs
@stormis_us
A liter of Adrenochrome sells for 2.2. Billion USD. That’s why you see only the most wealthy addicted to it. It takes just over 100 children to product a Liter. They electrocute them repeatedly and then drain their blood.
The most evil vile thing I´ve every heard of.

BREAKING: Ex-USA Olympic coach John Geddert has killed himself, hours after he was charged with human trafficking &sexual assault.

From Official Charlie Ward Show
Iona College basketball announcer hit with federal child pporn charges

From Official Charlie Ward Show
Daily Mail Online
EXCLUSIVE: Lady Gaga´s dog walker is shot four times in the chest by two men who stole two of the star´s three French bulldogs in Hollywood
https://www.dailymail.co.uk/news/article-9299591/Lady-Gagas-dogwalker-shot-four-times-chest-two-men-stole-two-gods.html

From GhostEzara
Just so everyone knows, nobody stole Lady Gaga´s dog. No dog walker shot. No Lady Gaga. This is being spoon fed to embarrass,humiliate, and destroy the mockingbird media in the end.

From GhostEzra:
(Lady)Gaga and the witch (Marina Abramovic) have been dealt with.

An observation of Abstract Violence:
Marina Abramovic with Lord Jacob Rothschild in front of Satan Summoning his Legions. Microsoft Hololen 2: VR World Wide Rituals Endorsed by Bill Gates Marina is the artist spearheading the new VR technology to reach the masses in all parts of the world with her work; Abramovic is known as the Aleister Crowley Priestess. Aleister Crowley is the Beast 666 and the Author of the Satanic Bible.

From Noticias Rafapal
More smoke… and the building with exit sign seems to show capitol reflection too
From Official Charlie Ward Show
US launches airstrikes in Syria against Iranian-forces

From Official Charlie Ward Show
After decades of sex abuse claims, state moves to stop former Santa Clara chief pediatrician from practicing medicine
New allegations surface against Dr.Patrick Clyne at clinic near Watsonville
Mercurynews.com/2021/02/23

FIRST FAMILY TRASH:
Hunter Biden was having sexual relations with dead brother´s widow and her sister at same time
By Jim Hoft
Published February 24,2021 at 3:13  pm

American military news
Reports: China ordered US diplomats to take anal swab COVID tests

From Noticias Rafapal
Forwarded from Dr. Heath Motley
BREAKING – 100% confirmed, military coup underway in Armenia
Armenian Armed Forces General Staff demand PM resignation - statement was signed by the entire leadership including Chief, commanders of large military formations and the heads of all departments.

PM of Armenia Nikol Pashinyan will address the nation at 16:00 (local time)

From Greatgameindia.com
Australian spy who wanted to release classified data on Afghan war crimes assassinated in Army HQ

From Backup Archivos Aroita Jiménez
Queen´s cousin is jailed for 10 months after sex attack on guest at Queen´s Mother´s childhood home after he drunkenly barged into victim´s bedroom and then tried to pull up her nightie and kiss her.

From Official Charlie Ward Show
Daily Mail
Epstein investigators want to talk to Guinness family aristocrat who flew on infamous Lolita Express 32 times following arrest of **** pimp Ghislaine Maxwell

Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: Holden on February 27, 2021, 03:17:04 am
Senor Raul

I do not have the resources and the contacts to do it. -Senor Raul
That is why your research is honest. That is what matters.Guys like Icke are more focused on minting money,than in chasing the damsel called Truth.

Thanks for your message.
Take care.
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: Holden on February 27, 2021, 11:20:55 am
https://youtu.be/dKkT8_RGDYg
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: Holden on February 27, 2021, 12:26:04 pm
Senor Raul,

Did you know that Booth, who shot Lincoln, is believed by some to have gone to India?

https://historynewsnetwork.org/article/3604
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: Holden on February 27, 2021, 02:06:00 pm
Hunter Biden was having sexual relations with dead brother´s widow and her sister at same time-Senor Raul
What about the lady in the question? I mean, the dead man's wife.Did she forget her dead husband completely?

Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: Holden on February 27, 2021, 02:08:35 pm
I hope your eye are okay.I think the world might be a torture chamber and we are the victims.
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: Holden on February 27, 2021, 02:10:59 pm
https://edition.cnn.com/2021/02/12/us/ravi-zacharias-sexual-misconduct-report/index.html

Senor Raul,
Look that this so-called Christian!
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: Holden on February 27, 2021, 02:16:04 pm
Zacharias used tens of thousands of dollars of ministry funds dedicated to a “humanitarian effort” to pay four massage therapists, providing them housing, schooling, and monthly support for extended periods of time, according to investigators.

One woman told the investigators that “after he arranged for the ministry to provide her with financial support, he required sex from her.” She called it ****.

She said Zacharias “made her pray with him to thank God for the ‘opportunity’ they both received” and, as with other victims, “called her his ‘reward’ for living a life of service to God,” the report says. Zacharias warned the woman—a fellow believer—if she ever spoke out against him, she would be responsible for millions of souls lost when his reputation was damaged.
-Christianity Today
Title: John Wilkes Booth and Lee Harvey Oswald
Post by: raul on February 28, 2021, 04:56:12 am
Holden,

Thank you for your words and the links. Rowan Atkinson aka Mister Bean is a very funny man.

What can I say? Women are strange creatures. Sex is too powerful to resist and probably that is what happened to Beau´s wife. The sister? Clearly Hunter is, well, a hunter of women. In gnews.org I saw pictures of Hunter and Lady Gaga and probably, I say, probably, with Obama´s daughter,Malia. Psychologists like to use the word dysfunctional. I suppose the Bidens are a dysfunctional family.

Well, human beings are contradictory as you well know. I suppose Zacharias did not see any problem in giving people´s money to massage therapists. Politicians do it all the time with taxpayers´money.

I read very little about John Wilkes Booth but more about Lee Harvey Oswald and some say Wilkes Booth escaped to Great Britain after assassinating President Lincoln.

It could be possible that he went to India because after all the farther the better, in my view, and India was a good hiding place. I read that there are many coincidences with  John Wilkes Booth and Oswald.

Wilkes Booth shot Lincoln from behind and in the head and so did supposedly Lee Harvey Oswald with Kennedy.

John Wilkes Booth was born in 1839 and Lee Harvey Oswald was born in 1939 and the two of them were Southerners.
Wilkes Booth shot Lincoln in a theater and ran to a warehouse and Lee Harvey Oswald supposedly shot Kennedy from a warehouse and ran to a theater.

The names John Wilkes Booth and Lee Harvey Oswald each contain 15 letters.

Both men were killed before being brought to trial and both were known by their last names.

Although this has nothing to do with both men years ago I read that a man called Raymond Lee Harvey, from Ohio was arrested by the U.S. Secret Service for supposedly attempting to kill President Jimmy Carter  at the Civic Center Mall in Los Angeles on May 5, 1979. Later another man Osvaldo Espinoza Ortis, was also arrested at the same site.
Strange, Lee Harvey and Osvaldo, Spanish for Oswald. Maybe it was a message to Carter.

Stay safe.

P.S.
From Noticias Rafapal
Colombian court orders the halting of vaccination plan and approves immediately the study of chlorine dioxide

From ABC DIGITAL
1 ton of coccaine falls in Ivory Coast. Two persons who would have links to the shipment were detained and face to 20 years in prison.
The coccaine comes from Paraguay.

From Noticias Rafapal
February 22: Ambassador Attanasio is assassinated in the Congo with a serious responsibility of the UN which has not supplied the needed protection.

February 23: the Italian diplomat, Pietro Panarello, destined in Eritrea kills himself in Messina with a plastic bag over his head. He left no note. No autopsy. No investigation on the part of the judiciary branch. The funeral was celebrated last Wednesday in a hurry.

February 24; Antonio Catricalá, ex undersecretary of Monti´s government (Bilderberg) and deputy minister of the government of Letta (Bilderberg) supposedly took his life in his apartment in Parioli. He left no note explaining his gesture.Only five days earlier he had received an important assighment in the main infrastructure insititute.

Three strange deaths in three days. żIs there a red thread that links all these deaths?

From Noticias Rafapal
The Netherlands are installing the first MedBeds. A brain surgery for the patient without surgery, secondary effects-free and generally the patient could be released on the same day.

Both Senator Ted Cruz and Prime Minister Boris Johnson have been replaced.

From barrons.com
The Pandemic could be “effectively” over by April, according to J.P. Morgan

From the frontpagedetectives.com
U.S. Gymnastics coach with ties to Larry Nassar found dead after allegations of child assault, human trafficking

From Blacklisted News
6,500 Asian Workers died building FIFA World Cup 2022 Stadiums in Qatar

From gnews.org WARNING: DISTURBING CONTENT
Big Names exposed on Hunter Biden´s Laptop from hell

Here is a list of the well-known names exposed so far.
President Obama’s daughter Malia Obama
As shown in the photos below, Malia Obama’s credit card was used to cut cocaiine, and Mr. O’s dog was in bed next to an ethnically black girl riding Hunter in a sex and drug ****.
https://gnews.org/510283/

From Noticias Rafapal
(Ghost)Ezra confirms that Bergoglio (Pope Francis)´s prayers from a window(in Vatican City) during the pandemic was a CGI (computer generated imagery) technology trick, therefore he has been dead for almost a year.

Greatgameindia.com
Flyingsyringes is a phrase that is used to refer to a proposed project funded by Bill Gates to create genetically modified mosquitoes that inject vaccines into people when they bite them.

From gatewaypundit.com
Maryland teacher seen masturrbating during Zoom lesson with 8th graders says it was “dumb luck” after he is caught

From Greatgameindia
According to Intermountain Healthcare doctors women recently vaccinated for COVID-19 may show symptons of Breast Cancer as a side effect of the vaccine.

From Greatgameindia
Italy Fines Facebook 7 million Euros for selling data to third parties

From qalerts.app
Q
James Comey´s daughter inspected missing Epstein suicide footage
Daughter of former FBI director James Comey is a prosecutor on the case of the **** Jeffrey Epstein if you recall recently the footage of his jail cell has gone missing.

From qalerts.app
Q
Sep 30,2020 11:29:12 PM EDT
Anonymous
Q,Comey´s daughter investigated epstein´s suicide
And her HUSBAND does ghislaine maxwells case?

Do you believe in coincidences?
Q

From dailymail.co.uk
British royalty dined on human flesh (but don´t worry) it was 300 years ago)
https://www.dailymail.co.uk/news/article-1389142/British-royalty-dined-human-flesh-dont-worry-300-years-ago.html

From OFFICIAL CHARLIE WARD SHOW
Benjamin Guggenheim opposed the Federal Reserve Bank.
Isa Strauss opposed the Federal Reserve Bank.
Jacob Astor opposed the Federal Reserve Bank.
Today these men would be worth $11 billion.

All three of these men were aboard the Titanic when it sank.
All three died that night.
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: Holden on March 01, 2021, 01:38:11 am
Senor Raul,

Thanks for the message. Maybe we will continue to be tortured even after we are dead. Maybe Lucifer rebelled  because he deciphered the true evil nature of the so-called God.

Take care of your eyes. I wonder if you are planning to get vaccinated.
 
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: Holden on March 01, 2021, 01:42:09 am
https://youtu.be/RJBn6ZKrQKo
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: Holden on March 01, 2021, 10:03:07 am
What a terrible mess we all are in.I do not think there is any way out. Waves upon waves of melancholy hitting me.
Title: 7 year Old Girl Selling Lemonade to Fund her own Brain Surgery
Post by: Holden on March 01, 2021, 10:18:56 am
https://www.google.com/amp/s/amp.news.com.au/lifestyle/health/health-problems/girl-7-selling-lemonade-to-fund-fivefigure-brain-surgery-she-needs/news-story/394999de2b14c7c2771bdcac9f377c5a
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: Holden on March 01, 2021, 10:33:26 am
Maybe after dying there is no suffering and no pain.
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: Holden on March 01, 2021, 10:40:36 am
only thoughts of death gave him peace.
-Antinatalism and Animal Liberation
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: Holden on March 01, 2021, 10:42:02 am
"We mortals are but shadows and dust. Shadows and dust, Maximus!"
-Gladiator
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: Holden on March 01, 2021, 10:44:16 am
should give em vasectomies instead of/in addition to circumcisions
Title: We accept all denominations in our church" but 20s, 50s and 100s are preferred
Post by: Holden on March 01, 2021, 01:49:03 pm
https://youtu.be/LxB6-HnXZEU
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: raul on March 02, 2021, 04:55:39 am
Holden,
Thank you for your words and the link. I am sure it is very interesting.

I found this quote attributed to Joseph Roth on the Internet:

“Every morning as we woke up, every night as we lay down to sleep, we cursed Death who had vainly beckoned us to his mighty banquet. And each of us envied the dead. They were at rest beneath the soil, and next spring violets would grow from their bones. But we returned home, fruitless and inconsolable, crippled, a generation dedicated to death, by death disdained.

Since the second we left our mothers´wombs we have been tortured. There is no escape. We have been thrown into a hellish trap. The problem is our awareness of our end.

I will do my best to avoid the doctors or nurses with their syringes. Let´s see what happens. I still want a painless death.

Stay well.

P.S.
From ranker.com

Here´s what all your organs and parts are worth on the black market
April D. Taylor
Updated April 24,2020
Everything from hair to skin has a price and is available without waiting on a donor list- as long as you´re willing to break the law and risk imprisonment and medical complications.
So, what are your organs worth on the Black Market? Read on to find out!
Kidneys $200,000
Liver $157,000
Heart $ 119,000
Corneas $30,000
Bone Marrow $3,000 (legally)
(Human) Eggs - $5,000 -  50,000
Bones and ligaments – Up to a few thousand dollars
Coronary Artery - $1,525
Small intestine - $2,519
Skulls with teeth - $1,200
Spleen - $508
Scalp - $600
Gallbladder -.$500
Stomach - $500
Shoulder - $500
Blood - $337 per pint
Hair – Hundreds of dollars
Skin - $10 per square inch

From rafapal.com (Rafael Palacios, Spanish journalist)
This information recovered from Q reveal that the Democrat Party receives orders from George Soros and he instead from Prince Philip of Edinburgh (the Queen Elizabeth´s husband). Both have been executed; the chain of command has been broken. Having in mind that Rothschild and Gates are also gone and the quantum financial system is replacing SWIFT, the whole New World Order structure is blowing up literally in the air.
Now the question is: How long will it take the politicians of countries to realize there is nobody above them since there is neither a chain of command and nor they possess the tool to master the world (monetary system). Once the smart guys realize that, the rats will jump from the boat.

From Telefuturo - Paraguayan TV station
Interpol detained a Paraguayan “predator” who had 9 counts of sexual assault against him in the United States.
According to the (Paraguayan) National Police the detained (Carlos Alberto Peralta Villalba) would have committed the crimes during his 20-year-stay in the USA. Some of the victims were minors, reported Telefuturo.

From WORLD ECONOMIC FORUM
@wef
Lockdowns are quietly improving cities around the world.
@wef
We’re deleting this tweet. Lockdowns aren’t “quietly improving cities” around the world. But they are an important part of the public health response to COVID-19.
https://twitter.com/wef/status/1365614687514165248

From END HUMAN TRAFFICKING
Notice everybody that got a medal from Obama was part of the **** gang? Tom Hanks was one, Oprah, Bono, Ellen, etc?

From END HUMAN TRAFFICKING
lawenforcementtoday.com
Officer (a young dad) finds alleged kidnapper with 14-year-old victim, gets shot “multiple times” by the suspect.

From END HUMAN TRAFFICKING
Kate Spade is 3rd Top fashion designer to die from apparently suicide by hanging.
Alexander McQueen and L´Wren Scott both died in similar ways to the high profile handbag designer.

From END HUMAN TRAFFICKING
Rte.ie/news/regional/2021/021/
Man sexually exploited girl with special needs
A 42-year-old man has been sentenced to seven months in prison for the sexual exploitation of a 14-year – old girl with Down´s Syndrome.

From r/conspiracy
Reddit
Woody Allen was friends with Epstein. He went to one of party´s Epstein threw for Prince Andrew.

From END HUMAN TRAFFICKING
The New Indian Express
Rachakonda police nab four people who ran interstate human trafficking racket
Police said the arrested are working as agents for AL-hayath Tours and Travels, Malakpet, which deals with Emigration and Manpower recruitment.

From END HUMAN TRAFFICKING
abcnews.go.com
Bodies of 11 infants found in ceiling of closed funeral home

From END HUMAN TRAFFICKING
Reuters.com
Gunmen kidnap 300 schoolgirls in increasingly lawless northwest Nigeria

From END HUMAN TRAFFICKING
Silver Wolf Ranch located in Texas has an exact replica of the Epstein Temple found on Ppedophile Island. Yet no search of this pastor´s ranch was done. Coincidence?
newyorkpost.com/2019

Mexican church leader charged with horrific child sex ring
The leader of a Mexican fundamentalist Christian Church (Naason Joaquín García)  that boasts more than 1 million worldwide followers was busted in Los Angeles on charges of human trafficking, child rrape, child ppornography and

From END HUMAN TRAFFICKING
LasVegassun.com
15 missing children found in Las Vegas rescue event

From END HUMAN TRAFFICKING
Egypt estimates that currently 200,000 to 1,000,000 street children are forced into prostitution. Additionally, wealthy men from the Persian Gulf region are known to travel to Egypt to purchase “summer marriages” with Egyptian females under 18.

From END HUMAN TRAFFICKING
RESCUE UPDATE: 71 girls and young women were rescued in Nepal during the month of January. Across five other nations, 24 young lives have been set free as well.

From END HUMAN TRAFFICKING
New York Post
Ghislaine Maxwell says she´s losing her hair and was abused by guard behind bars

From END HUMAN TRAFFICKING
June 18,2018
Nworeport.com/2018

12 Clinton Whistleblowers found “hanging” from doorknobs
Following the death of CNN reporter Anthony Bourdain last week, former agent Robert David Steele pointed out that a growing number of whistleblowers have all been found inexplicably “hanging from” doorknobs.
Bourdain´s suicide followed the death of fashion designer Kate Spade only a few days prior. Like Mr. Bourdain, Spade was also found hanging from a door knob.

“Hung on doorknobs …  means choked for speaking out against the cabal.”

List of celebrities silenced by the Clintons
L´Ren Scott
Chris Cornell
Chester Benington
(Swedish DJ)  Avicii, real name Tim Bergling
David Carradine
Robin Williams
Alexander McQueen
The Queen of the Netherlands sister
Aaron Schwartz
Michael Hutchence (INXS frontman)

FROM OFFICIAL CHARLIE WARD SHOW
Soon you will hear about certain high profile people (celebrities, politicians, executives, elite, billionaires,having CV. Here are some CODE WORDS to look out for.

Self Quarantined= under house arrest either under Federal agent guards or ankle bracelet.

Self Quarantined, Self Exposure= detained and being questioned by authorities.

Tested Negative for the CV: No confession so they are going to trial after world wide arrest. If convicted their reputation and legacy will be destroyed.

Tested Positive for the CV: they confessed and taking a deal, their execution will be out of the public eye. Execution will be portrayed as a suicide or some sort of accidental death. Their reputation and legacy will be preserved.
Remember these people are being arrested for major crimes against humanity. NO PITY
Pay very close attention to these CODE words in the media

Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: Holden on March 02, 2021, 02:34:55 pm
Thanks for the message,Senor Raul.
Like Dogenes,I sit with black dogs in a corner and read your messages.

Take care.
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: raul on March 02, 2021, 05:18:36 pm
Holden,

Thank you for your comments and suggesting that I take care of my eyes. Yes, I should take care of them but I also have prostate problems and that is a more difficult health issue. Death can pay me a visit through my ddicck.

There are young people who in a fraction of a second, at the peak of their vitality, disappear while others like me with many health issues continue to stay on this Earth. And yet I think life has passed in the blink of an eye.

This leads me to the universal question:  What happens after death? And this question leads to another, also critical: What have we been living for?

I started asking these questions very late in life. In primary and secondary school and outside school I was taught to stop thinking and obey orders.

Again we are just pawns in this hellish game called life.

Stay well.

P.S.

From Noticias Rafapal
The Prince of Edinburgh, Supreme Commander - 33 degree of the Scottish Masonic Rite is about to be held accountable before Almighty God for all of his crimes. His (royal) page died on the same day he was taken to hospital (it is possible that both of them were poisoned.)

From Red Pill Pharmacy
NEW- Second former aide, Charlotte Bennett (25), to NY Gov. Cuomo is accusing him of sexual harassment, saying that he asked her questions about her sex life, whether she was monogamous in her relationships and if she had ever sex with older men.

From Red Pill Pharmacy
“Gene based vaccines have NEVER been used on humans before, so what we´re witnessing now are human experiments”
Suchavit Bhakdi
(The most cited microbiologist in German academic history)

From Red Pill Pharmacy
Twitter
Dr Zoe Hyde
@DrZoeHyde
17/22 I said that cases in children might be detectable for a shorter period. How can we get around that? One option is anal swab testing because faecal shedding is prolonged.
A study in Wuhan found about one-fifth of children had negative nasal swabs, but positive anal swabs.

From GreatGameIndia
New evidence suggests death of Civil Rights activist Malcolm X was a conspiracy by NYPD &FBI. Police officer Ray Wood confessed he was involved in conspiracy and his responsibility was to arrest Malcolm X´s security details a few days before assassination.

From GreatGameIndia
Mark Alan Marks
A CAN OF COKE
TESTS POSITIVE
A Politician in Austrian Parliament Tries a PCR Test on Coca Cola That Tests Positive For Covid

From principia-scientific.com
Nasal COVID Swabs with Nanoparticles Cause Brain Damage

From END HUMAN TRAFFICKING
sgtreport.com

August 22,2019
14 celebrities “suicide” by doorknob hanging including a Rothschild and the ex-wife of a Rothschild
14 independent and highly successful people with careers and influence hanged themselves on doorknobs. DOORKNOBS!

1)   Michael Hutchence -37
       INXS frontman Michael Hutchence´s body was found hanging from a doorknob in Room 524 at the Ritz Carlton
       hotel in Double Day, Sydney.
2)   David Carradine - 72
3)   Alexander McQueen
4)   Annabelle Neilson, 49: muse of Alexander McQueen, and the ex wife of elite banker Nathaniel Rothschild.
5)   Aaron Schwartz: he hacked into MIT Computers and found a huge stash of child ppornography shortly before his death.
6)   L´Wren Scott: long time lover of Mick Jagger and former girlfriend of Nathaniel Rothschild
7)   Robin Williams – 63
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: Holden on March 03, 2021, 10:02:48 am
Senor Raul,

Thanks for the message.Very good details. I am the sea-turtle Mr.Gary is always talking about-forever in pain.

Take care.
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: Holden on March 04, 2021, 02:41:34 am
Senor Raul,
In the old videos Mr.Gary can be seen running in the forest, swimming and strolling.But now he is liked a caged bird.

Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: Holden on March 04, 2021, 04:50:14 am
https://www.dailymail.co.uk/news/article-9322005/amp/I-happy-Peruvian-woman-wins-historic-battle-right-die.html?
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: Holden on March 04, 2021, 04:51:35 am
I hope you get some effective medicines for your ailments.
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: raul on March 04, 2021, 05:42:22 am
Holden,

Thank you for your message.  In the Old Testament, in Genesis, we read the following words:
for you are dust and to dust you will return

Stay safe.

P.S.
From Official Charlie Ward Show
thegatewaypundit.com
Exclusive: New evidence shows U.S. government and the American scientific establishment involved in Cover-up of COVID-19´s origin
There is now evidence that elements within the U.S. Government coordinated with selected members of the U.S. scientific community, no doubt with the blessing of international business and the media to protect China from responsibility and , in doing so, protected their own interests.

From Official Charlie Ward Show
unlimitedhangout.com
Developers of Oxford-AstraZeneca vaccine tied to UK Eugenics movement

From END HUMAN TRAFFICKING
Want to wish Ghislaine Maxwell well? Heres her address and inmate number
GHISLAINE MAXWELL
MDC BROOKLYN
METROPOLITAN DETENTION CENTER
P.O.BOX 329002
BROOKLYN, NY 11232

From Noticias Rafapal
(Ghost)Ezra explains the great mystery of Trump´s Zionist son-in-law, Jared Kushner. Just like (Michael) Pence he was spied on from the first moment for his connections with the Israeli Mossad. Always with the plus of counting with the Looking Glass machine to see the future.

From Noticias Rafapal
Ivanka hasn´t worn her wedding ring in a long time.

From GhostEzra
Some want to know when a person is replaced with a double, does the family know? Yes.The families are complicit in the crime organization. Like a mob family. Take Joe Biden for example. Jill was complicit. Hunter and Beau were complicit. The wives are often the worst. Watch the wives isn´t just a catchphrase.

From Official Charlie Ward Show
Ex-French President Sarkozy found guilty of corruption
Sarkozy won´t go to jail despite getting one-year sentence

From Official Charlie Ward Show
Dailymail.co.uk/news
Prince Andrew´s spin doctor steps down amid fury from palace officials at his botched attempt to discredit royal´s sex abuse accuser Virginia Roberts

From insider.com
Queen Elizabeth II accepted gifts from the ruler of Dubai in the wake of allegations that he abducted and tortured his daughter. The Times of London reported Sunday.
Buckingham Palace received nine racehorses from Godolphin Racing, a stable owned by Sheikh Mohammed bin Rashid al-Maktoum, from April 2019, the Times said.

Long Beach Post
Man arrested,14-year-old rescued in human trafficking investigation,police say
Dom McAndrew
16-year-old boy and girl arrested for human trafficking another 16-year-old, police say
Fresno, California (KSEE/KGPE

By PA News
9 bustedd in JSCO sting of human trafficking, prostitution,&victimization of underage girls

By KATC News
Human trafficking suspect faces additional charges, troopers seeking to identify victims
CBS 13 PM News Update 2/27/21
Suspect in Human Trafficking Report Arrested after chase into Fairfield, CHP says
By Insider NJ February 26,2021 9:19 pm in City Confidential
Jersey City Police Officer arrested for traveling to Atlantic City in an alleged attempt to sexually assault two underage girls

The Ada News
Ada resident and former Chicago Bear arrested on human trafficking complaint

From the gatewaypundit.com
Michigan Republicans call for investigation into Gov. Whitmer over Coronavirus Nursing Home deaths
From the gatewaypundit.com
Explosive Update! Top WHO official caught on video in December 2019 revealing coronavirus manipulation at Wuhan Lab before Pandemic…

From insider.com
The wife of the drug lord El Chapo (Joaquín Archivaldo Guzmán Loera) sought revenge for his infidelity . . . 
According to Mexican investigative journalist Anabel Hernández, the first reporter to interview Coronel Aispuro, the former beauty queen may have sought fame to make her jailed husband jealous. His wife was “very, very mad and very hurt” by the details of Guzman´s infidelity which became public knowledge during the trial, Hernández told AP.

From Blacklisted News
Swiss Researchers develop Wearable Microchip that eliminates Bodily Privacy once and for all
From Backup Archivos Aroita Jiménez

foxantonio.com
HONDO, Texas – An area Justice of the Peace has been arrested and accused of election fraud, along with three other people. Medina County Justice of the Peace Tomas Ramirez was arrested Feb.11 after a Bandera Grand Jury indicted him and three others two…

From greatgameindia
Pfizer demanding bank reserves, military bases and embassy buildings as collateral for COVID-19 vaccines

From END HUMAN TRAFFICKING – INDIA
Stats from National Crime Records Bureau
trafficking of minor girls and women constituted about 76% of human trafficking cases in India over the past decade
200,000 women and children currently missing
73,242 went missing between Jan and Sept 2015
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: Holden on March 04, 2021, 09:00:32 am
Senor Raul,
Everyone is fighting:

https://youtu.be/AtzG3wdF_IU
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: Holden on March 04, 2021, 10:38:17 am

Children should be taught in abattoirs not classrooms; it is only in abattoirs that there can be understanding of the world and of the world’s bloody life. Teachers should do their work in abattoirs. Not read from books, but swing hammers, wield saws, and apply knives…

Bernhard
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: Holden on March 04, 2021, 10:51:29 am
He only read books obsessed with suicide, disease and death, that described human misery, the hopeless, meaningless world in which everything is devastating and deadly. That’s why he loved Dostoevsky and Russian literature in general, but also the depressing French philosophers.
Bernhard
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: raul on March 05, 2021, 05:02:22 am
Holden,

Thank you for the quotes and the links. We are all trapped in cages. Earth is a giant cage.  Our minds are cages. There is no escape.

Yes, everyone is fighting in this prison planet. The inmates do not feel at ease. Earth is a battlefield.

As Jacques Lacarriere in his book on the Gnostics said, “this a world governed not by men but by shadows or semblances of men - whom I will call pseudanthropes - forced them to live on the fringes of all established society, and to preach a refusal to compromise with false institutions, a refusal to procreate, to marry, to live in families, or to obey temporal powers, whether pagan or Christian.”

The only cure for my ailments is death.

I think Bernhard is right about teaching children in abbatoirs and not in classrooms. But that is not going to happen. If I could I would suggest any teacher in secondary school that their students pay a visit to the cemeteries. But he/she will not take my suggestion very kindly. 

Take care.
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: Holden on March 05, 2021, 04:08:57 pm
Thanks for your message,Senor Raul.

These are for you:

Of all medical practitioners, psychiatrists are the most incompetent, having a closer affinity to the sex killer than to their science.

The fact that he had suffered with his eyes since childhood and that he subsequently, as a grown man, lost a leg and became a cripple lent him what he called a superior consecration of the intellect and a dignity of the intellect which none around him could ever again overlook.

Bernhard

Take care.

Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: Holden on March 05, 2021, 04:15:49 pm
https://youtu.be/ODJH10c9e_U
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: Holden on March 05, 2021, 04:21:05 pm
what is the meaning of being sane?
A religious, optimistically irrational man who fathers 10 children he can't afford is sane.
A depressive realist who sees the world for what it is - labeled as having a mental illness...

sanity is actually about the ability to function in society and the world, you can do it well while being completely delusional.
if society built on lies then to be sane is to believe them.
in many cases, sanity & insanity are just political terms.

Alpha Minus
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: Holden on March 06, 2021, 01:34:16 am
I became insane, with long intervals of horrible sanity."
Edgar Allan Poe
Title: To Senor Raul
Post by: Holden on March 06, 2021, 06:20:57 am
The only cure for my ailments is death.-Senor Raul

There might be NGOs in Paraguay who provide subsidized medicines.Medicines which are affordable.Generic version of medicines are cheap.There must be some NGOs of this kind in Asuncion.

Your life is precious as you are sharing profound insights with the readers here.
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: raul on March 06, 2021, 12:13:04 pm
Holden,

Thank you for your words and the links. Thank you also for your suggestions. I am not the one to give suggestions but I would like to suggest that at some time you consult with an urologist just in case.  You will avoid suffering the consequences later.

All these people in positions in power are interlinked whether by blood or by marriage. I already read in 2004 that George Bush Jr, was connected to the British royal family. These things do not happen at random.

I wonder what has happened to Cardinal Tobin in this 2021. They let him go for his supposedly errant message.   

Again I quote Mr.Lacarriere in his work on the Gnostics:

Man has absolutely nothing to do with the curse that is laid upon him: the one who is truly responsible is the sadistic and perverse demiurge who dared to dream up such a cruel world in all its minute detail.

Stay alert.
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: Holden on March 07, 2021, 01:54:09 am
I cannot contribute anything to this world because I only have one method: agony.
Emil Cioran, On the Heights of Despair
Title: Our Father, who art in Hell(To Senor Raul)
Post by: Holden on March 07, 2021, 03:40:30 pm
Senor Raul,

Thanks I definitely will take your advice, and hope to get it done soon.Thanks.
I think Tobin continues to mint a great deal of money and have a nice time with his"baby".

For you:
Married people always murder each other
the only question is who gets exterminated first
who lets themselves be destroyed
and exterminated first
that's what marriage is based on


To exist means nothing other than to despair. When I get up I’m revolted by myself and everything I have to do. When I go to bed I have no other wish than to die, never to wake up, but then I wake up again and the awful process repeats itself.



Our Father, who art in Hell, unhallowed be Thy name. No Kingdom come. Thy will not be done. On earth, as in Hell. Deny us this day our daily bread. Forgive us no trespasses. As we forgive none that trespass against us. Lead us into temptation, and deliver us from no evil. Amen.


( Bernhard)

Take care,Senor Raul.





Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: Holden on March 07, 2021, 03:42:49 pm
https://youtu.be/b8dWtK4H7cE
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: raul on March 07, 2021, 04:53:32 pm
Holden,

Thank you for your comments. I suggested consulting with the urologist because you will avoid the consequences but I hope you will avoid being performed the palpation by the urologist. The doctor told me that it was a necessary procedure so that I had to put off my pants and open my legs and then he inserted his gloved fingers, you know where,hahaha.

Indeed marriage is a sorry affair but social and family pressure are strong and only the children suffer the consequences. Almost every single day I listen or read the news about domestic violence here.
Bernhard´s prayers to our supposed Father, wherever he is, are to be read every day.

Every day we live, we also die. Our cells,the skin on our hands, our organs, blood and tissues – shed themselves.  We carry a little of death with us. In fact, our museums, cathedrals, churches, old buildings are full of our ancestors who later became dust.

What a great dilemma for us, sad human beings!. We know we will one day die, and yet we live.
I quote Jacques Lacarriere on the Gnostics:

But the true God, seeing this error, this horror crawling on the face of the earth and threatening to populate it, took pity on the ineptitude of the angels. Into this wailing worm, he breathed the spark of life, which instantly permitted him to stand up and speak. Homo bipedus and loquens was born. And thus our dual nature is explained: we are somewhat like a rectified worm, an ex-amphibian set to rights by the indulgence of the true God and endowed with a spark, a luminous fragment of the supreme Power.

Stay safe.
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: Holden on March 10, 2021, 03:02:53 am
In the dying teacher’s face my father had clearly seen, he said, a man’s accusation against a world that refused to understand him.

We brood about what we should have done differently or better or what we should not have done, but it does not lead anywhere. The disaster was inevitable, and for a while we are quiet. Then we start asking questions again, probing and probing until we go half crazy.

If I had a faculty of reason, if I had an unbroken faculty of reason, I would long ago have committed suicide.

Bernhard
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: Holden on March 10, 2021, 04:33:56 am
https://youtu.be/MCWouLeXRsI
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: Holden on March 11, 2021, 11:07:55 am
https://youtu.be/DilwBaTJLU0
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: Holden on March 12, 2021, 01:16:46 am
https://www.telegraph.co.uk/men/relationships/10927507/Women-are-more-controlling-and-aggressive-than-men-in-relationships.html?utm_content=buffer41910&utm_medium=social&utm_source=twitter.com&utm_campaign=buffer
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: Holden on March 12, 2021, 04:31:51 am
https://youtu.be/DHm7-Z4spHw
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: raul on March 12, 2021, 05:25:30 am
Holden,

Thank you for your words and the links. As I told you I am just a scribbler in the board. If I am to use this label of good and bad, I am a bad person.

Sometimes when I read the judicial and police news I think that many “innocents” just got away with their crimes and the inmates in jail did not get lucky enough.

There are times I want to do terrible things to people. I have no problem in admitting this truth about myself.
Would I commit atrocities on an industrial scale if given the impunity that gives power? I don´t know. Maybe I would do it. Maybe I wouldn´t.

Again I quote Jacques Lacarriere on the Gnostics:

So, to have done with this problem and give an exact definition of Gnostic thought - as I understand it, at least - all institutions, laws, religions, churches and powers are nothing but a sham and a trap, the perpetuation of an age-old deception.
Let us sum up: we are exploited on a cosmic scale, we are the proletariat of the demiurge-executioner, slaves exiled into a world that is viscerally subjected to violence; we are the dregs and sediment of a lost heaven, strangers on our own planet.

Stay safe.
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: Holden on March 12, 2021, 10:36:16 am
Senor Raul,

Thanks for the message.
Thanks for the information  about Gnosticism.
Who do you think cried,I wonder,Duchess of Cambridge  or Sussex ?
Who made whom cry?
:)
Who do you think is more virtuous of the two. :)


Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: Holden on March 12, 2021, 12:59:11 pm
Man is unhappiness, he said over and over, only an idiot would claim otherwise. To be born is to be unhappy, he said, and as long as we live we reproduce this unhappiness, only death puts an end to it.-Bernhard
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: Holden on March 12, 2021, 01:01:40 pm
Fatherland, nonsense, traditions keep using the same words, expressions, slogans: family values, personal values, fellow countryman: nation state, national language, national health, national pastime, people's paradise, people's anthem, betrayal of the people, national holiday…-Bernhard
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: Holden on March 12, 2021, 01:04:21 pm
To exist means nothing other than to despair. When I get up I’m revolted by myself and everything I have to do. When I go to bed I have no other wish than to die, never to wake up, but then I wake up again and the awful process repeats itself.-Bernhard
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: Holden on March 12, 2021, 01:13:41 pm
(https://www.linkpicture.com/q/Edvard_Munch_-_Melancholy_-1894.jpg) (https://www.linkpicture.com/view.php?img=LPic604baf1d2d1de2143003352)

Munch
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: Holden on March 12, 2021, 01:35:56 pm
“All changes, even the most longed for, have their melancholy; for what we leave behind us is a part of ourselves; we must die to one life before we can enter another.”
- Anatole France

(https://www.linkpicture.com/q/melancholy-paintings-dali-w636-h600-medium.jpg) (https://www.linkpicture.com/view.php?img=LPic604bb46a0249d1202832776)

Dali
Title: To Senor Raul
Post by: Holden on March 12, 2021, 02:14:35 pm
Could you tell me ,please,Senor Raul,why these people are celebrating?

https://youtu.be/u1UIT3RwYug

I wish Mr.Gary were there in that location with them when the gender was revealed.
Title: Being Witty is a Crime Now
Post by: Holden on March 13, 2021, 05:28:20 am
https://youtu.be/4tVQ7e08n4w

Something Schopenhauer might have said.
Title: Zhivago
Post by: Holden on March 13, 2021, 09:23:53 am
https://youtu.be/XwYKYMAy6bk
Title: Reading Zhivago as an Anxiety-Ridden Adolescent
Post by: Holden on March 13, 2021, 09:32:43 am
I read Zhivago in the 12th grade. Even then I could relate to the tragedy it depicts.It took me out of the suffocating and parochial environment I was in ,for a few hours. It told me I was not alone in my awareness of the irrationality of life. It made a great deal of sense to me,though,I was a country bumpkin,little better than a farm hand.

My parents, of course, ridiculed me for reading such things. Ironically, it was my father who had bought the book. He bought a lot of book but never read them. Just put them in the showcase  for the visitors to look at.

But I did read them.
Title: O Tempora, O Mores!(Young Schopenhauer and Young Cioran)
Post by: Holden on March 13, 2021, 12:44:20 pm
One of the important things that makes Schopenhauer one of the finest intellects I have come across is his attitude to politics.He was as apolitical as one could get.In this particular area,  young Schopenhauer was clearly a thousand times more insightful than young Cioran.

Schopenhauer saw right through the communist gibberish.But he also never fell for the activist reactionary rhetoric,unlike young Cioran.
Speeches like the following would have left young Schopenhauer unimpressed,he would have returned to his books , to his thesis,to his truly great ideas.

A magnificent mind.

https://youtu.be/aiSCEnnhBaM
Title: Do Not Disturb My Circles
Post by: Holden on March 13, 2021, 02:01:38 pm
I wonder if it is possible to weep so much that the room gets filled up with tears.Then, the mourner drowns in his own tears. I am quite fearful,not because I am cowardly but because I see and recognize the predicament I/we are in,which most people choose to overlook.

When the ostrich buries its head in the sand,does that magically protect it from all conceivable threats.
Accepting death in the Socratic fashion is not always easy.

I wonder if there are provisions in the afterlife for teaching mathematics to the lost souls who could not do so properly on this planet of carnage.

What do they say about Archimedes? That he told the soldier who slaughtered him to not to disturb his circles.

In my case, I believe, they are going to torture me and humiliate me a great deal,before they ,mercifully, decide to slaughter me.

And they WILL disturb my circles.
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: Holden on March 13, 2021, 02:14:07 pm
Like Schopenhauer,one must learn to recognise, that what happens to him personally matters very little,compared to what he thinks,what he writes.
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: Holden on March 13, 2021, 03:44:57 pm
https://youtu.be/r7kJOOENaNo
Title: Good Death
Post by: Gorticide :: Admin Elder Warrior on March 13, 2021, 05:30:33 pm
Hold on Holden.   There may still be time for you.  Remember what happened to Descartes in his sick bed (He envisioned the horizontal and vertical axes of the two-dimensional plane which would become the symbol of "Scientific Analysis" (http://whybother.freeboards.org/math-diary/the-math-modules/msg9613/#msg9613) --- he saw it as the frame around the window panes of his room while ILL/UNDER-THE-WEATHER).   Your illnesses just might give you the liberty from human society's demands that you will require for cuddling up to your Muses.

You might strike literary and philosophical gold in becoming bed-ridden.    ;) :D

The best revenge is to live well, they say.   Maybe there is even greater revenge in dying a good death (https://www.webmd.com/healthy-aging/news/20180619/what-is-a-good-death).   I do not think any of us should put too much pressure on ourselves as far as leaving some kind of "work" (immortality project) behind.    If we just stay in the moments, we might try to become utterly and completely ourselves.

Speaking about Larry, the narrator of The Razor's Edge says:

Quote
He is without ambition and he has no desire for fame.  To become anything of a public figure would be deeply distasteful to him, so it may be that he is satisfied to lead his chosen life and be no more than just himself.  He is too modest to set himself up as an example to others.  It may be, he thinks, that a few uncertain souls drawn to him like moths to a candle will be brought in time to share his own glowing belief that ultimate satisfaction can only be found in the life of the spirit, and that by himself, following with selflessness and renunciation the path of perfection, he will serve as well as if he had wrote books or addressed multitudes.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZjCzQho3PuM

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WAUeW5Dtk8U

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=b0soPb_8aKA

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5QlUMshV_yQ

I had found that the inclination to study had been greatest when I had been able to Carpe Diem [seize the day = "The day is mine!"] repeatedly, continuously, with few distractions.   As demands from society (my own little monkey-sphere) intrude, or the basic demands of survival (gathering and preparing meals, staying dry and warm, etc) disrupt that monastic routine, the flow is lost, and it takes concentrated effort to induce the mood, the Presence of Mind.

Human society appears to be a terrible farce.   Even observing the patterns of behavior of everyday people can be disheartening, the way certain people will use the wants, needs, and impulses of the vulnerable to manipulate and psychologically torture brings to mind the words of Cioran about how enduring the society of our fellow human animals can be like a crucifixion.

Have you ever gotten out of a motor vehicle on the spur of the moment simply because the driver was getting a little too rude and bossy?   Out west in Federal Way, Washington (State), I jumped out of a pick-up truck cab while it was slowing down for a red light that had turned green.  Before the driver could hit the gas, I opened the passenger door and hopped out running, tripping, keeping my balance, then laughing.

I hate to be kidnapped.   ;)
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: raul on March 14, 2021, 07:16:39 am
Holden,

Thank you for your patience in reading my posts.

Thank you also for your message,Thomas Bernhard´s words and Meghan´s announcement that she will have a girl. I wonder if what she tells Oprah is true. And even if it´s true Archie and his future sister, no matter how privileged they are, are just future food for the worms.

Unless of course Archie and his sister become vampires like their ancestor Vlad Tepes,the Prince of Wallachia.

Maybe David Icke is right when he says the Queen is a lizard. After all Dracula means son of the dragon. I remember reading two years ago that Prince Charles is heir to Dracula aka Vlad Tepes´s bloodline.

Express.co.uk reported that Charlie visited Romania several times. He is the great-grandson of Vlad The Impaler through the consort of George V, Queen Mary.
Prince Andrew´s issue with Epstein is much more serious and the British mass media stays silent.But here the center is
Queen Elizabeth. I read in one of these alternative blogs that her gracious majesty “owns 1/6th of all the land on Earth.
She could end world hunger and poverty 10 times over and still have a fortune. Her land alone is worth over $30 trillion.”

Who knows if this charade has to do with the future and official announcement of Queen Elizabeth and Prince Philip´s death?

Harry´s uncle, Prince Andrew would have been in jail if he had not been born into nobility.
Jimmy Saville, DJ, television and radio personality, was friends with his royal protectors and Prince Andrew was friends with Jeffrey Epstein. Clearly, in my view, there is a pattern. Maybe Harry knew all about this and kept silent.

The Guardian says that Jimmy Saville (1926-2011), or Sir Jimmy, that he sexually abused hundreds of children and women at the height of his fame.
Infobae, Argentinian digital newspaper, says that Saville rraped a 10-year-old boy when he dressed himself as a mascot.

An independent inquiry found that Saville abused 60 people including at least 33 patients aged from five to 75 at Leeds general infirmary. In 1990 Saville was knighted and also received papal knighthood according to the Guardian.

And the circumstances of his mother´s death, Princess Diana, after 23 years still remain unclear. Everything is interlinked and interconnected.

Yes, the royalty,the Herrenvolk, at the top of the food chain in British style. Below them are the subjects only good to obey in the human farm. Long live the Queen!

These words quoted in Jay Myers Documentaries are attributed to the late filmmaker Stanley Kubrick:

“Never, ever go near power. Don´t become friends with anyone who has real power. It´s dangerous.”

Stay safe.
Title: To My Friend,Guide and Philosopher
Post by: Holden on March 18, 2021, 03:08:28 pm
Herr Hauser,

Thank you for your wonderful message.One of the reasons  I think my “Fatherland” has remained poor is because of its extremely rigid social norms.

In some of the books I know of,for example,  those of P. G. Wodehouse,one finds a lot of eccentric characters in the English society. Those kind of people can never exist here. The parents,the teachers and the society in general nip them in the bud.

My parents are being constantly goaded by distant relatives and cousins to “force me” to get married. I think there must have been quite a few men like me here, but most of them wilted in the face of unstinting pressure.

I won’t wilt,but that does not means they won’t uproot me and throw me  in a thrash can like an unwanted and pernicious weed.
Believe me,when I say this, I have known no greater man than you. I mean, not just those I have met in person,I include those I read about too.

Thanks for everything. You have been kindness personified.
Title: The Meat Grinder( To Dear Senor Raul)
Post by: Holden on March 18, 2021, 03:33:19 pm


Dear Senor Raul,

I hope you are doing well. You have been writing a great deal about conspiracies of late.I think that it is a miracle that this message board has continued to exist for as long as it has and it has been a real blessing for me.

Here is something to cheer you up:

https://youtu.be/25GjijODWoI

I think my parents would eventually disown me legally as I refuse to get married. I see what marriages and relationships are all about:

https://youtu.be/ZVAttBtJSNQ

They are morally blind.Once I get disowned,I would be free of scruples as regards my parents.My life has been intensely melancholic. But you and Herr Hauser and this little message board of ours has been a bright spot, a true beacon of light.

The problem is,over here,people just cannot withstand any one who does not conform a hundred percent.I am an eyesore not just for my parents,relatives and the employer but for the whole of the society.They have not destroyed me completely so far because they have continued to believe that eventually I would give up my “eccentricities” and conform.But once they are sure that there is no hope that I would ever embrace the stultifying conventional life that they have to offer, they would have no reason to not to destroy me completely, and I am afraid that day might be at hand.

You have been a great friend and I have also learnt a great deal from you. I hope you continue to write here for as long as possible.
As Mr.Gary says ,this existence is a meat grinder and the blades of the great grinder might be about to hit me.I just cannot stand people.They literally make me sick. I need solitude like a drug addict needs his hit. Without it, I tend to lose my mind.

Take care.

https://youtu.be/vhc1G1-uY9M
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: Holden on March 18, 2021, 10:45:14 pm
Mending his ways, as had always been demanded of him, was not something someone like him could manage. He had no possibilities of reforming and improving himself, he had never had them. He didn't even want to reform.-Berhard
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: Holden on March 18, 2021, 10:46:09 pm
Life is a court case which you lose, whoever you are, and whatever you do. That was decided before any human being was even born. The first man fared no differently from us. Rebellion against this only leads to deeper despair.

Bernhard
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: Holden on March 18, 2021, 10:47:00 pm
For the thinking person there is no such thing as idleness. The thinking person is at his most active when he is supposedly doing nothing. This is beyond the comprehension of genuinely idle people.

Bernhard
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: Holden on March 18, 2021, 10:57:39 pm
She had a fantastic feeling for fairy stories, which she liked reading aloud. Dreams and fairy stories were the real stuff of her life. That was why she killed herself, because a person whose life is built on dreams and fairy stories can’t survive in this world.

Bernhard
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: Holden on March 19, 2021, 10:32:30 am
https://youtu.be/ngGHwmpNPdg
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: raul on March 19, 2021, 12:52:20 pm
Holden,

Thank you for your words, the links and the quotes.

I only transcribe what I read in most of these alternative bloggers. Some of them are just news published in Sputnik, the Russian affiliated media or breitbartnews.com. Very few people must read the news in Sputnik or zerohedge.com. Even reading the judicial news published by the U.S. government are very creepy, to say the least.

I think that if your parents disown you does not mean you will cease to be their son. It is sad they do not value you as they should. I suppose only when you are no longer on this Earth your folks will regret their behavior. But then it will be too late.

You are what you are. If you do not conform to the stupid norms of society; then ffuck society.

Is it not cruel to bring a creature into the world only to impose him/her burden after burden, suffering after suffering and then die with much pain? We were born doomed. This is what I have learned in this school of prison called Earth.

All of us are dying and feeling our ends to be near and we perform our everyday activities like death ceremonies.

Sometimes I think that by law all female and male adults must be given a Beretta pistol in order not to suffer indignities. After all everyone will do horrible things to you or you will do them to somebody else. This is how the game of life has been played. But the game is difficult to play when most of us call for death to come his way and then we send it back when it arrives.

For millions it is better to suffer than to die.

We, including me, are just sleepwalkers. We have been indoctrinated since birth. Deprogramming is impossible. Good sheep, that is what we are. And good sheep always think ourselves virtuous.  The human drama is endless.

Stay safe.
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: Holden on March 20, 2021, 03:07:57 am
https://youtu.be/lfsMMVgIToA
Title: Ancient Aliens(To Senor Raul)
Post by: Holden on March 20, 2021, 07:11:13 am
Senor Raul,

Thanks for the message.Much appreciated.

What are your thoughts on Ancient Aliens?

Hope you eyes are getting better.

Take care.

https://youtu.be/neCWY4XqEU8
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: Holden on March 20, 2021, 07:51:33 am
https://youtu.be/lNeq7Dakv_k
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: Holden on March 20, 2021, 01:54:03 pm
https://youtu.be/lPKxRo6cv8Y
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: raul on March 20, 2021, 03:32:49 pm
Holden,

Thank you for the link about the ancient aliens.

I read a few things about the aliens and I think that we are not alone in this universe.

The Pentagon two years ago admitted having been in touch with UFOs and probably they are keeping some of them in the famous Area 51 in Nevada, USA.

Also John Ratcliffe, the Director of National Intelligence under ex President Trump said there are sightings all over the world. The question is: where are these creatures from? How long have they been visiting this sad planet? Do they exist on a different timescale? Is it true, as some say, that humans are by-products of genetic manipulation, some more than others?

I am sure in the Vatican archives there are documents of interactions with these creatures.

Will I ever see these creatures? Probably not. 

Take care.
Title: Intellectual Content( For Senor Raul)
Post by: Holden on March 22, 2021, 12:30:15 pm
Senor Raul,

Thanks for the message and feedback.

I hope you are in the pink of health.

Here is something to amuse you.

Cheerio.

https://youtu.be/z8CzsRfV4as
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: raul on March 22, 2021, 02:02:37 pm
Holden,
Thank you for your words and the link.
 
Here the government, following the agenda, is terrorizing people with the China bug. You remember the protests some weeks ago. Well, all these protests were carefully orchestrated by the government and its advertising arm, the mass media.

Supposedly the protests were against the corruption and the lack of medicines and anti Covid vaccines in hospitals. It was clearly a way to force the vaccinations and more restrictions.

The mass media has been bombarding us with the news that hospitals are overrun, and that the China bug are killing more people every day and even doctors are dying without having Intensive Care Units.Now the authorities say that Chinese vaccines are coming here. Even vaccines from India and Qatar will come too.   

Then the Congress operated an impeachment against the current President and the Vice President and of course both thugs are still in power.

But the main problem is obedience. As long as people obey the government this madness will continue.

I don´t wish these puppet politicians,and businessmen and other collaborators well. In time their protectors, in my view, will take them down for good. After all, the Devil pays he who serves him well.

Stay safe.
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: Holden on March 23, 2021, 09:21:56 am
Senor Raul,

My request  to you would be to stay indoors as much as possible.It is all madness and mayhem outside. Indoors you can read the bloggers you mention and write your own messages.

Please try to stay away from the most dangerous animal on the planet.

Take care.

Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: Holden on March 23, 2021, 11:05:53 am
"I felt in need of a great pilgrimage, so I sat still for three days."
~ Kabir
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: Holden on March 23, 2021, 11:08:18 am
The closing years of life are like the end of a masquerade party, when the masks are dropped. -Arthur Schopenhauer
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: Holden on March 23, 2021, 11:10:44 am
"Please do not ask me what this task that I deem so important might be, for it would embarrass me to tell you. I have become so philosophical that I despise most of the things that are ordinarily valued, and I value others which are usually put at no value." ~Descartes
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: Holden on March 23, 2021, 11:46:38 am
my mother loves movies/TV shows, but not violent ones
she's fine with me suffering, but she draws the line at fictional characters.
-ALAN
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: Holden on March 23, 2021, 11:48:38 am
All life is a struggle in the dark. - Lucretius
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: Holden on March 23, 2021, 11:52:00 am
"where are you from?"
a strange place
A L A N
Title: Best of Enemies (To Senor Raul)
Post by: Holden on March 24, 2021, 01:34:40 pm
Senor Raul,

I hope you are in safe in Paraguay and that the authorities there are not disturbing you in anyway.

Take care.
Something interesting for you:

https://youtu.be/j6qW-ZKxZss
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: raul on March 25, 2021, 06:17:17 am
Holden,

Thank you for your words, the quotes and the link. I hope you are having a little peace at work.
Directly or indirectly the authorities have been disturbing me because I have to wear a face diaper, they are forcing the vaccination.

The authorities are bringing the Astra Zeneca vaccines knowing very well that these vaccines do not have even temporary permit from U.S. FDA or other medicine agencies and knowing also that more than 14 European countries suspended its use. They are determined to kill us all.

The new god is corona. Hahaha.

In the past medicine was based on pure science but now it is based on obedience.
Hail Corona. Those who are about to die salute you.

We are living in apocalyptic times.

P.S. Many years ago I read The Razor´s Edge by Somerset Maugham and I underlined these words:

Stay safe.

I remember going to mass on All Saints' Day, which the
French called the Day of the Dead, in a village church that the
Germans had knocked about a bit on their first advance into
France. It was filled with soldiers and with women in black. In
the graveyard were rows of little wooden crosses and as the
sad, solemn service went on, and women wept and men too, I
had a feeling that perhaps those men who lay under the little
crosses were better off than we who lived. I told a friend what

I felt and he asked me what I meant. I couldn't explain and I
saw that he thought me a perfect damned fool. And I remem-
ber after a battle seeing a pile of dead French soldiers heaped
upon one another. They looked like the marionettes in a bank-
rupt puppet show that had been cast pell-mell into a dusty cor-
ner because they were of no use any more.
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: Holden on March 25, 2021, 10:33:09 am
(https://www.linkpicture.com/q/aa1_6.jpg) (https://www.linkpicture.com/view.php?img=LPic605c9edcaf81a1558033516)
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: Holden on March 26, 2021, 12:59:43 pm
Senor Raul,

Thanks for the message. I suffer from intense panic attacks.In the afternoon today, panic washed all over my being. I watched it drench from tip to top. I did not try to get rid of it. I watched it. The panic, the heart palpitations.

Take care.
Title: Wish to Live and DIE like Schopenhauer
Post by: Holden on March 26, 2021, 01:05:34 pm
My father calls me unemotional and heartless for not getting married.
Truth be told, I would rather get rid of emotions. Most of the emotions I have ever experienced have been negative.

https://youtu.be/2JtmgL6ww1E
Title: Schopenhauer Watches 90 Day Fiance
Post by: Holden on March 26, 2021, 01:09:00 pm
Schopenhauer would have enjoyed 90 Day Fiance as the verification of this ideas.
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: raul on March 26, 2021, 05:46:00 pm
Holden,

Thank you for your words and the TLC video. Women are hellish creatures.

It is crystal clear, as they say in American English, that your parents will not leave you alone with this marriage issue. First the wedding and then the babies.

So you are an unemotional and heartless for not getting married? They should respect your refusal to marry and that´s it, period or Finito as they say in Italian.

From time to time I also have panic attacks and heart palpitations. What we are living is pure nightmare.

There is no joy living on Earth.

Stay alert.

P.S. I read the script of the Seventh Seal by Ingmar Bergman and in one of the scenes these words are uttered:

Death is behind your back. His scythe flashes above your heads. Which of you will he strike first? cries an overwrought preacher of the High Middle Ages as he wanders through a plague-ridden countryside in the company of flagellants and penitents. You are all doomed, do you hear? Doomed! Doomed! Doomed!ť

Title: Kafka Airport
Post by: Holden on March 27, 2021, 01:26:15 am
https://youtu.be/gEyFH-a-XoQ
Title: Poignant(Senor Raul)
Post by: Holden on March 27, 2021, 02:42:50 am
I remember going to mass on All Saints' Day, which the
French called the Day of the Dead, in a village church that the
Germans had knocked about a bit on their first advance into
France. It was filled with soldiers and with women in black. In
the graveyard were rows of little wooden crosses and as the
sad, solemn service went on, and women wept and men too, I
had a feeling that perhaps those men who lay under the little
crosses were better off than we who lived. I told a friend what

I felt and he asked me what I meant. I couldn't explain and I
saw that he thought me a perfect damned fool. And I remem-
ber after a battle seeing a pile of dead French soldiers heaped
upon one another. They looked like the marionettes in a bank-
rupt puppet show that had been cast pell-mell into a dusty cor-
ner because they were of no use any more.
-
The Razor´s Edge

That is extremely poignant ,Senor Raul.Thank you for posting it here. That reminded me of something.
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: Holden on March 28, 2021, 03:58:37 am
https://youtu.be/POwG00JWrRo
Title: Kafka's Theyby(To Senor Raul)
Post by: Holden on March 28, 2021, 09:03:44 am
https://youtu.be/S1pW6r9kjiw
Title: Kind of Worms( To Senor Raul)
Post by: Holden on March 28, 2021, 02:01:35 pm
Senor Raul,

Thanks for your messages.

In one the previous messages, I told you that when you shared the excerpts from Razor’s Edge, it reminded me of something. Well, I reminded me of my visit to an old building which was built in 1847.I visited in the spirit of Lovecraft. The architecture was gothic. It had a lot of memorial plaques.

I remember one of them was about a man who drowned in the ocean and the plaque was put there  by his friends. Some plaques were about people who died in the rebellion of 1857.

It was really sort of preternatural there. Spooky.

I care about postmortem legacy as much as an animal cares about the kind of worms which would feed upon it dead body.

Take care.
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: Gorticide :: Admin Elder Warrior on March 29, 2021, 05:36:15 am
Quote from: Holden
In one the previous messages, I told you that when you shared the excerpts from Razor’s Edge, it reminded me of something. Well, I reminded me of my visit to an old building which was built in 1847.I visited in the spirit of Lovecraft. The architecture was gothic. It had a lot of memorial plaques.

Did Raul leave excerpts from The Razor's Edge?   Maybe Holden is referring to this post (http://whybother.freeboards.org/general-discussion/a-question-for-herr-hauser-and-senor-raul/msg10306/#msg10306).




Title: I am that Cat
Post by: Holden on March 29, 2021, 08:05:24 am
https://youtu.be/RMGxZB7uVis
Title: The Razor´s Edge
Post by: raul on March 29, 2021, 08:24:40 am
Holden,

Thank you for your comments. I hope you are having your medication available.

Indeed we are walking corpses on this Earth. In U.S. prisons those sentenced to execution are called dead men walking. That is what we are.

I have seen memorial plaques the times I went to the cemetery. Most streets have names of dead military officers or civilians. They are also memorial plaques but in another form.

I suppose there will be no plaques for me. That´s all right with me.

I think that most of us fail to realize that death is our constant companion. Also very few ask what is the purpose of all this. Well, I myself admit I am very ignorant of these deep isssues.

I saw The Name of the Rose again and I think I should have been born in medieval times. At least those people at that time confronted death daily.

Take care.

P.S.
Somerset Maugham, in his book The Razor´s Edge in one part, writes of his character, Larry, meeting a Pole called Kosti and once this Kosti said to him the following:

The first time he talked in that way he said something that I've never forgotten, because it horrified me; he said that the world isn't a creation, for out of nothing nothing comes; but a manifestation of the eternal nature; well, that was all right, but then he added that evil is as direct a manifestation of the divine as good.
Title: Les Miserables
Post by: Holden on March 29, 2021, 03:36:15 pm
https://youtu.be/JN5pBzYMgl0
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: Holden on March 30, 2021, 03:00:53 am
The longer we suffer, the more we dwell on suffering – eventually suffering and the thought of suffering eclipse each other entirely
Eugene Thacker
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: Holden on March 30, 2021, 06:19:49 am
Senor Raul,
Thanks for your message. I wonder if you would be so kind as to tell me whether most people in Paraguay are overweight or have normal weight. Also, what is it that most of them like to eat.

Take care.
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: raul on March 30, 2021, 09:32:20 am
Holden,

Thank you for the quotes.

According to the health authorities in Paraguay , 2 out of every 3 adults are overweight or obese (58%); of these, 1 out of every 4 adults (23%) is obese. This health issue also affects children and adolescents; 1 out of every 3 school children and adolescents is overweight or obese (32%).

Pregnant women are also affected, where practically half of the pregnant women in the country are overweight or obese, and of these, 1 out of every 3 is obese.

People in these thirty years have stopped eating healthy food. We have been invaded by Coca Cola, Pepsi Cola, and many other kind of soft drinks that are harmful to health. Then as many started working in offices glued to their computers started eating junk food.

Of all deaths in the country, 10% are attributable to obesity (2,600 deaths per year associated with obesity).

Asados (barbecued meat) is very popular. Empanadas (meat and egg baked pastries), and milanesa (breaded meat fillets), panchos, similar to hotdogs are also popular here. People also eat a lot of chipa, bread made from mandioca flour, that is baked in outdoor ovens called tatacua. Mandiocas, similar to potatoes, are consumed because they are a native crop.

We drink terere, which is made from the yerba mate plant. People drink it in a vessel called guampa, a rounded wooden cup or traditionally a hollowed out bull horn, and drunk through a metal straw called a bombilla. It tastes like a bitter tea, and often flavors are added to it, for example, coconut. Drinking terere is a social custom as people come together to share a gumpa together. But this has changed due to COVID-19 restrictions.

As to alcoholic beverages people drink local beers Brahma and Pilsen and others If you want something stronger we have the national liquor, cańa, a rum-like drink made from sugar cane.

Take care.
Title: Prison of Fat( Senor Raul)
Post by: Holden on March 30, 2021, 09:59:09 am
https://youtu.be/yxk7pLPECE8
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: Holden on March 30, 2021, 10:09:17 am
https://youtu.be/ZjbdMWsze6w
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: Holden on March 31, 2021, 05:40:30 am
Every man must do two things alone; he must do his own believing and his own dying. Luther
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: Holden on March 31, 2021, 06:50:38 am
Senor Raul,
Thank you for your very insightful and detailed response.

Take care.
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: raul on March 31, 2021, 11:05:14 am
Holden,
Thank you for your words.

The following was taken from author Jacques Lacarriere:

In the Greek myth of Endymion, this young and lovely shepherd lay down to sleep one night and was discovered by Selene, the Moon, who fell so violently in love with him that she begged Zeus never to let him awaken. She wanted Endymion to keep his eternal youth, but at the price of eternal sleep - and this same Endymion, prematurely embalmed, still living, was for the Gnostics an image of our condition and the proof of the obvious perversion of the gods, or the false gods, responsible for our world. To condemn a young and beautiful creature never to wake again, on pain of instant death, is not this the very apogee of sadism, something only a god could conceive? This, then, is the fate to which the frightful demiurge, the ignoble aeon who perverted the world's history, has condemned us from the very beginning of time (which he must have called into being together with weight, for the Gnostics see time as a condition appropriate to damned matter): to sleep our whole lives away without even knowing it, and without - like Endymion - being thereby saved from death
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: Holden on March 31, 2021, 03:48:43 pm
https://youtu.be/QHngALI0PIk
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: Holden on April 01, 2021, 05:31:32 am
Senor Raul,

Thank you for the profound excerpt.Please do share such excerpts if you happen to have more of them.

Take care.
Title: Something to Amuse Senor Raul
Post by: Holden on April 01, 2021, 02:17:44 pm
https://youtu.be/F030ByLNwjs

https://youtu.be/aekfPU0SwNw
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: Holden on April 01, 2021, 03:20:00 pm
The plain truth, I may as well admit it, is that I've never been really right in the head.
Louis-Ferdinand Céline, Journey to the End of the Night
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: Gorticide on April 01, 2021, 06:58:45 pm
Why take humor seriously?
Title: Great Chain of Being
Post by: Holden on April 02, 2021, 05:47:19 am
Senor Raul,

Yesterday, I was thinking about the idea of the Great of Chain of Being, which was first introduced probably by Plato and Aristotle and then was greatly refined by the medieval thinkers might be related to Gnosticism in some way.

(https://www.linkpicture.com/q/Heirarchy_of_angels_Francesco_Botticini_-_The_Assumption_of_the_Virgin.jpg) (https://www.linkpicture.com/view.php?img=LPic6066e7dcd917a1409510818)





(https://www.linkpicture.com/q/1-Fp-jHS1_tCfnHLc9We3_Jg.jpeg) (https://www.linkpicture.com/view.php?img=LPic6066e80905963921522624)

Take care.
Title: Zola
Post by: Holden on April 02, 2021, 07:22:08 am
“What idiot imagined that happiness in this world depended on a share-out of wealth ? No, the only good was to be found in non-existence or, if one had to exist, in being a tree, a stone, or lower still, a grain of sand...”

~ Émile Zola ; "Germinal"
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: Holden on April 02, 2021, 07:28:17 am
Mater certissima, pater semper incertus.
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: raul on April 02, 2021, 09:58:44 am
Holden,

Thank you for your words. Today is very quiet in the city and that is the only thing I like about Easter. Of course the restrictions imposed by the government has a lot do to with this situation.

If the Nazarene came back to life, what would he think of all those treasures, privileges, titles, tithes, palaces, cathedrals, relics, statues, all of them collected in his name in these two thousand years?

Many Catholics around the world remember the passion, death and resurrection of Jesus.  In the past I wondered why Easter´s days varied and now I know that according to the information I read that “Easter's exact date varies so much because it actually depends on the moon. The holiday is set to coincide with the first Sunday after the Paschal Full Moon, the first full moon after the vernal equinox. ... Because the Jewish calendar is tied to solar and lunar cycles, the dates of Passover and Easter fluctuate each year.”

Also “Later Christian tradition put Jesus' last meal with his disciples on Thursday evening and his crucifixion on what we call today “Good Friday.” We now know that is one day off. Jesus' last meal was Wednesday night, and he was crucified on Thursday, the 14th of the Hebrew month Nisan.”

If it is possible, I would like to suggest you watch Barrabas with Anthony Queen. I saw many years ago and it is based on the book by Swedish Par Lagerkvist. You may find it interesting.

I checked in Wikipedia about the Great Chain of Being:
The Great Chain of Being is a hierarchical structure of all matter and life, thought by medieval Christianity to have been decreed by God. The chain begins with God and descends through angels, humans, animals, and plants, to minerals

These philosophical issues are too deep for me. I have intellectual disabilities. So humans are part of this Great Chain. All I know is that we, human beings, are in chains.

Stay safe.
Title: There, I feel better.
Post by: Holden on April 02, 2021, 11:23:13 am
Charles Bukowski — 'The fuc_kers. There, I feel better. God-damned human race. There, I feel better.'
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: Holden on April 02, 2021, 12:19:39 pm
The more you know, the crazier you look.
-Conspiracy bot.
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: Holden on April 02, 2021, 02:41:51 pm
https://youtu.be/m1_o-VGp-t4
Title: Something to Amuse Herr Hauser
Post by: Holden on April 03, 2021, 04:38:19 am
(https://www.linkpicture.com/q/loan_1.jpg) (https://www.linkpicture.com/view.php?img=LPic60682960a93dc78251664)
Title: Something to Amuse Herr Hauser I
Post by: Holden on April 03, 2021, 04:43:27 am
(https://www.linkpicture.com/q/418905.jpg) (https://www.linkpicture.com/view.php?img=LPic60682a787c620670844955)
Title: Does Herr Hauser Communicate with Us from Moon?(To Senor Raul)
Post by: Holden on April 03, 2021, 05:01:46 am
Senor Raul,
Thanks for your response.

These philosophical issues are too deep for me. I have intellectual disabilities.-Senor
Here is a rare instance, when I say I vehemently disagree with you. If anything, you are gifted compared to the man in the street.


 So humans are part of this Great Chain. All I know is that we, human beings, are in chains.

You have a way with words :)

Here are somethings for you:

(https://www.linkpicture.com/q/b3155b97e9fbac5981919194a7d224be.jpg) (https://www.linkpicture.com/view.php?img=LPic60682e2f3e5ef840991144)

Maybe Senor Raul, we just believe that Herr Hauser writes to us from the U.S., maybe he actually writes to us from the Moon,(many people believe that the Germans landed on the Moon way before the Americans)?

Have you looked at all the complicated code and mathematics he keeps posting? Evidently, he belongs to a far more advanced civilization. :o

I have some grave doubts ;) I think we ought to investigate :P

Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: Holden on April 03, 2021, 05:50:44 am
"Nothing ever ends poetically. It ends and we turn it into poetry. All that blood was never once beautiful. It was just red."

~Kait Rokowski
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: Holden on April 03, 2021, 06:25:57 am
https://www.collective-evolution.com/2018/01/19/a-well-known-cia-pilot-claims-that-the-moon-has-250-million-citizens/
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: Holden on April 03, 2021, 06:44:48 am
(https://www.linkpicture.com/q/EyB0fE3W8AAuHFH.jpg) (https://www.linkpicture.com/view.php?img=LPic606846f3223771084454494)
Title: Sadness
Post by: Holden on April 03, 2021, 09:32:45 am
https://youtu.be/W1BtWXpvIsM
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: raul on April 03, 2021, 11:39:15 am
Holden,

Thank you for your words and the links. I am just a scribbler in this board. I have learned much from reading your posts, Hentrich´s, Silenus´, Ibra´s, etc.

I agree completely with you regarding Herr Hauser aka Hentrich. He is an advanced human being. I think he must be placed under investigation led by a task force (CIA, NSA, Pentagon, NASA and MIT). :D

Yes, it is possible that there are millions of inhabitants on the Moon. This reminds me of the Vatican archives, where I am sure, there are records of possible contacts with beings from other planets. Nothing is what it seems in this world.

In donaldmarshallrevolution.com I read that ex President Barack Obama, in March 12,2015 was a guest on Jimmy Kimmel Live, where Kimmel did his best to get the President to talk about aliens:

Kimmel:
The moment I was inaugurated... my hand would just be... still be hot from touching the bible and I would immediately race to wherever they have the files about Area 51 and UFOs and I'd go through everything to find out what happened... Did you do that?

Obama:
That's why you will not be president...
'cause that's the first thing that you would do...
(They both laugh).

Obama (con't.)
The aliens won't let it happen... You'll reveal all their secrets... They exercise strict control over us.

Kimmel:
Now, you know there's a lot of people who will examine your facial expressions here, every twitch and everything and say, of course...
(Obama laughs. Kimmel continues)
Did you look, did you see, explore...?

Obama:
I can't reveal anything.

Kimmel:
Oh, really? Because President Clinton said, he did go right there and he did check and there was nothing.

Obama:
Well, you know, that's what we're instructed to say...
(studio laughter)

Kimmel:
All right, all right

From this interview I understand that these thugs in power, Clinton, Obama, in power are told to remain in silence because something might happen to them.

Stay safe.
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: Holden on April 03, 2021, 03:25:21 pm
https://youtu.be/RVc8jwYexjE
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: Holden on April 04, 2021, 12:15:28 am

"To associate with others is sheer torture for me. I’m forced to associate with them even when they’re nowhere near. All alone, I’m surrounded by multitudes. There’s no escape, unless I were to escape from myself."

--- Fernando Pessoa, The Book of Disquiet
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: Holden on April 04, 2021, 12:58:10 am
"My greed for agonies has made me die so many times that it strikes me as indecent to keep on abusing a corpse from which I can get nothing more."
~Emil Cioran
Title: To the Conquistador
Post by: Holden on April 04, 2021, 03:33:30 am
    Senor Raul,

       Thank you for your message. I hope your eyes are fine.

     Did your parents tell you when your forefathers came to Paraguay from Spain?

Here are some of the things which might interest you:



https://www.collective-evolution.com/2014/03/28/former-world-bank-senior-council-says-a-second-species-on-earth-controls-money-religion/


(https://www.linkpicture.com/q/sr1.jpg) (https://www.linkpicture.com/view.php?img=LPic60696b54bd2cf98205645)


(https://www.linkpicture.com/q/sr2.jpg) (https://www.linkpicture.com/view.php?img=LPic60696b88559dd600145506)

Take care.
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: Holden on April 04, 2021, 03:48:14 am
Asados (barbecued meat) is very popular. Empanadas (meat and egg baked pastries), and milanesa (breaded meat fillets), panchos, similar to hotdogs are also popular here. People also eat a lot of chipa, bread made from mandioca flour, that is baked in outdoor ovens called tatacua. Mandiocas, similar to potatoes, are consumed because they are a native crop.

We drink terere, which is made from the yerba mate plant. People drink it in a vessel called guampa, a rounded wooden cup or traditionally a hollowed out bull horn, and drunk through a metal straw called a bombilla. It tastes like a bitter tea, and often flavors are added to it, for example, coconut. Drinking terere is a social custom as people come together to share a gumpa together. But this has changed due to COVID-19 restrictions.

As to alcoholic beverages people drink local beers Brahma and Pilsen and others If you want something stronger we have the national liquor, cańa, a rum-like drink made from sugar cane.
-Senor Raul

Senor Raul,

Would you be so kind as to tell me the names of some of the nutritious food dishes in Paraguay, both meat-based and vegan ones.

Thank you.
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: Holden on April 04, 2021, 07:49:19 am
https://youtu.be/4WXYjm74WFI
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: raul on April 04, 2021, 09:04:13 am
Holden,

Thank you for your comments and the links.

The Bilderberg Club, whose members gather once a year, is the elite that rules this planet.

My parents never told me anything about our ancestors from Spain. I learned  all that in primary and secondary school.

This country is not for vegan or vegetarian people. From the moment we are born here we eat lots of meat.Beef, pork and lamb are important here. People eat a lot of fish too.

Here people eat bori bori,a thick broth made with the fowl, with bacon fat, rich tomato, vegetables, carrots and celery, flecks of salty queso Paraguayo and lot of parsley. It also has cheesy cornmeal dumplings.  Then we have pira caldo, a fish soup with vegetables fried in beef or pork fat, and onion, tomato, bell pepper and spices. Milk and cheese are added .

Milanesa is a breaded cutlet of beef or chicken usually served with mashed potatoes. We have milanesa a la napolitana. It is a recipe with meat, chicken or soy, baked to be covered like a pizza: with tomato sauce and mozzarella cheese, to which ham or bacon is also usually added. It is not from Paraguay but from Argentina.

Also we have soyo, a soup with ground beef, rice, and vegetables such as onions, green peppers, and tomatoes. It has salt, garlic, parsley, and oregano.

But I saw some vegan restaurants here. Restaurants offer vegan dishes, apart from Chinese food,chop sui, sushis, rollitos primavera (spring rolls).

I know the vegans have hamburgers with chickpeas,black beans or falafel sandwich,fried chickpea croquettes instead of meat with lots of garlic sauce. Others prefer rice with vegetables or sopa paraguaya vegana that has cornmeal, vegetable oil, onion, tofu, non-dairy milk, and salt and pepper. 

I suppose this food is much more expensive because of the ingredients.

Stay alert.
Title: To Senor Raul
Post by: Holden on April 05, 2021, 02:48:46 pm
Senor Raul,

Thank you for your elaborate response. Very illuminating. Do you think aliens would eat human-burger?

Here are somethings for you:

(https://www.linkpicture.com/q/4Vw2UG3F.jpg) (https://www.linkpicture.com/view.php?img=LPic606b5a9c862c11638312228)

The Dorchester Pot - Originating from the 593 million year old Roxbury Conglomerate.


(https://www.linkpicture.com/q/0B8wX8MM.jpg) (https://www.linkpicture.com/view.php?img=LPic606b5b1183344143320299)


Yonaguni Monument, Japan - Ancient Underwater Monument:

https://www.ufodigest.com/article/who-else-could-be-on-the-moon/

Take care.


Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: Holden on April 06, 2021, 12:59:13 am
Later on in life you come to terms… deal with everything… make do, stop your singing… you ramble on… then drop to a whisper… then fall silent.   -Celine
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: Holden on April 06, 2021, 04:09:36 am
the unbearable schizophrenia of existence!-Muzaphorism
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: raul on April 06, 2021, 07:06:00 am
Holden

Thank you for the article. It is very interesting. I wonder how the aliens may view our world. Would these creatures eat a human burger? Who knows?

I hope your folks are leaving you in peace with that wedding issue.
Marriage is not for you, you say. However there is one marriage you cannot avoid. That started when you were in your mother´s womb. You have been married to a bride called death ever since. She has been your faithful companion.

Let me quote what Jacques Lacarriere says about the Barbelognostics, a Gnostic sect:

They took their name from Barbelo, the female power who lived in the eighth heaven (the upper circle of the Ogdoad), whence she commanded the Archons. She herself was the offspring of the unknown Father, the real God. She bore a son called Sabaoth who reigned over the seventh heaven. And it was here that everything went wrong. For, instead of recognizing the authority of his Mother and submitting to the true God, Sabaoth believed himself to be the true God and claimed dominion over all creation. Moreover, he was quite explicit on this point: `I am,' he said, `the Eternal One. There is no other God but me.'
Faced with this usurpation, Barbelo realized that the fate of the world had gone awry and she must remedy the consequences of her son's insubordination. But how? By seducing the Archons one by one so as to lure them away from Sabaoth's influence. The Barbelognostic text says: `She showed herself to them in an impressive form, seduced them and collected their sperm with the aim of absorbing back into herself the Power that had become scattered in several different beings.' Such is the first act through which the salvation of the world is inaugurated: Barbelo's power, fragmented in each being in the form of sperm, must be `recovered,' the primary unity must be reconstituted.
It is not difficult, therefore, to imagine the formula for the Barbelognostic ritual: it is a re-enactment of Barbelo's deed, in other wards, a gathering-up of the sperm of each male present. It was this ritual that the horrified Epiphanius (a Christian author) attended.

They own their women communally and, in case a stranger should arrive, they have a sign of recognition which is exchanged between the sexes: on shaking hands, each tickles the other's palm, a sign that the newcomer belongs to their religion. As soon as they have thus acknowledged one another, they fall to feasting. Exotic dishes are served and everyone-even the poor-partakes of meat and drinks wine. When they are completely sated and, if I may so express it, have filled their veins with a super-abundance of energy, they fall to debauchery. The man leaves his place beside his
 

Stay safe.
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: Ibra on April 06, 2021, 10:13:20 am
I run out of bullShit.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6s9x0rHmrzQ
Title: See-Saw
Post by: Holden on April 06, 2021, 11:13:47 am
The world is all a carcass and vanity, The shadow of a shadow, a play
And in one word, just nothing. The world is but a perpetual see-saw.

Montaigne
Title: Desuetude
Post by: Holden on April 06, 2021, 11:23:06 am
"Desuetude is the experience of being dispirited, of lacking the energy to traverse the wasteland. Listless, joyless, adrift in anomie – who has not dwelt in such an arid place, periodically, or sometimes for years ?"

~ James Hollis
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: Holden on April 06, 2021, 01:00:44 pm
Pumping out crotch-turds until their wombs turn inside out.-unknown
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: Holden on April 06, 2021, 01:30:25 pm
https://youtu.be/htXgS-Qzq9o
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: Holden on April 06, 2021, 01:38:56 pm
(just thinking "out loud" here random thoughts) I feel like although the idea of antinatalism/efilism isn't a complex conclusion to reach, that "click" in the thought process doesn't happen that easy for everybody. I remember how many times, in my case or for others, the mind refuses to come to grips with an idea/fact/problem in our daily life. All this to finally realize how simple it is after you finally get it. I'd guess it's probably a combination of different factors, like knowing the right information instead of noise and taking it into consideration, or how defensive your mind is to new ideas, how receptive you are to what's around you, and so on. And probably, even if it's a simple/obvious conclusion, it's just information competing with other information over our limited and imperfect minds in our flawed society. There's probably no easy solution besides just taking the role of soldiers and offer your best effort in this war of ideas.-Alin C.
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: Holden on April 06, 2021, 01:56:36 pm
Every 16 year old boy should be taken on a field trip to family court to sit in on some divorce hearings so they know what happens to the 50% of men that go through the divorce machine.-Cooper
Title: To Mr. Ibra
Post by: Holden on April 06, 2021, 11:51:41 pm
Mr.Ibra,

That is a great video. Thanks for posting it.
Hope people around you are not tormenting you.

Take care and please do keep sharing your thoughts here.
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: Holden on April 07, 2021, 12:09:48 am
Suppose a creator demon. We could yell at him showing his creation. "How did you dare to interrupt the sacred repose of nothingness to make such a mass of misfortunes and anguish?".

Schopenhauer
Title: Haunting Images( To Senor Raul)
Post by: Holden on April 07, 2021, 03:43:27 am
Such is the first act through which the salvation of the world is inaugurated: Barbelo's power, fragmented in each being in the form of sperm, must be `recovered,' the primary unity must be reconstituted.-Lacarriere

That is  very powerful imagery ,Senor Raul. I hope you are doing okay. My parents continue to pressurise and I continue to resist as regards marriage.I hope that you would continue to guide me as regards Gnosticism.

I do not find it difficult to disregard their entreaties because mine were far more piteous when they forced me into a very bad college major .I requested them to allow me to change it but it was as if I were talking to a stone.

This is a very complicated topic and it goes without saying that the real reason why I would never be married are deeply philosophical and not because I want to merely displease my parents.

But I do not deny that I rather find it amusing that they find my decision so abhorrent.

Hope your eyes are okay.These are for you:

(https://www.linkpicture.com/q/sr7.jpg) (https://www.linkpicture.com/view.php?img=LPic606d609c24e041222565653)


(https://www.linkpicture.com/q/sr8.jpg) (https://www.linkpicture.com/view.php?img=LPic606d60c5550ac937377791)

Take care.
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: Holden on April 07, 2021, 04:27:40 am
Remove sex from a relationship, and you will discover that 90% of women have nothing to offer men in relationships. 

Conversely, remove money from a relationship, and you will learn that 90% of women won't see a reason to be in said relationship.-Cooper
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: raul on April 07, 2021, 08:57:39 am
Holden,

Thank you for your words. Right now I need to go and see an olphtamologist and change my glasses. But I have no money to buy. As I said once I only see with the left eye and only 40 percent with glasses while the other eye is useless. It is congenital.

Here also the problems with the vaccinated people have already started. Last month a nurse in the Department of San Pedro got the vaccine and later was already  taken to intensive therapy.

Another nurse, Luz María Martínez, in the Hospital de Clínicas in the capital got the vaccine like many medical personnel and also taken to intensive therapy. Yesterday I learned that a female doctor in the capital too got the vaccine and now is in hospital. The media and the doctors remain silent and if this comes out they will probably justify these tragedies with some kind of medical bulllShit.

I have two choices: avoid the poisonous liquid as much as I can but I live in the city and living here is a trap because I have no money and no contacts. The other choice is let the doctors kill me with the jab and be done with this madness.

Take care.
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: Holden on April 07, 2021, 10:23:47 am
 “The simple act of an ordinary brave man is not to participate in lies, not to support false actions! His rule: Let that come into the world, let it even reign supreme-only not through me.”

Solzhenitsyn
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: Holden on April 07, 2021, 12:14:24 pm
“As a child I felt myself to be alone, and I am still, because I know things and must hint at things which others apparently know nothing of, and for the most part do not want to know."

~ Carl Jung

"Memories, Dreams, Reflections"
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: Holden on April 08, 2021, 12:35:11 am
I wasn’t meant for reality, but life came and found me.
Fernando Pessoa
Title: Painter On His Way to Work ( To Senor Raul)
Post by: Holden on April 08, 2021, 08:34:37 am
Senor Raul,

Thanks for your message. I would have prayed to God,if there were one, for improvement of your eyesight.But because there is not ,I hope, fervently, that it improves.
These are for you:

(https://www.linkpicture.com/q/painter-on-his-way-to-work.jpg) (https://www.linkpicture.com/view.php?img=LPic606ef795bdbc9747598904)
(Painter On His Way to Work-van Gogh)

(https://www.linkpicture.com/q/previatipaolofrancesca.jpg) (https://www.linkpicture.com/view.php?img=LPic606ef7c228f8340770167)

Paolo & Francesca-Previati

Take care.
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: Holden on April 09, 2021, 12:33:41 am
"Although it is obviously too late to prevent our own existence, it is not too late to prevent the existence of future possible people."

-David Benatar, Better Never To Have Been.
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: Holden on April 09, 2021, 12:42:59 am
He is a pessimist who sees a better world and, at the same time, the impossibility of reaching it.

JvulioCabrera
Title: Happy International Antinatalist Day (To Senor Raul & all the Members)
Post by: Holden on April 09, 2021, 04:47:49 am
Senor Raul,

Today is International Antinatalist Day.
On this occasion I would like to share the following with you,if I may:

(https://www.linkpicture.com/q/thank-you-for-not-breeding-k2-7-17-07-never-gonna-be-a-fathers-da-37345387.png) (https://www.linkpicture.com/view.php?img=LPic607013b940733205661601)

(https://www.linkpicture.com/q/revenge-of-the-crying-boy.jpg) (https://www.linkpicture.com/view.php?img=LPic60701476695391043391345)

Even as a kid I had a very strong sense that this world as not my home ,that I was a stranger here.
(Crying Boy by Bragolin)

Take care.Hope your eyes get well soon.
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: Holden on April 09, 2021, 05:04:55 am


"To have committed every crime but that of being a father."-Cioran
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: raul on April 09, 2021, 07:08:44 am
Holden,

Thank you for your words and the paintings. I remember watching a video about the crying boy some time ago. Many say that the crying boy paintings, by Bruno Amadio aka Giovanni Bragolin, are cursed. The painting is considered to have caused fires.

In medium.com I read that “the couple’s home of Roy and May Hall was burned down by a charred frying pan. The fire from the pan immediately spread throughout the house until all the belongings in the house caught fire. When all the stuff has become ashes, only the painting of The Crying Boy was not charred.”

Regarding Gnosticism I can only tell you that it is a very deep subject and I am only quoting what I read in Jacques Lacarriere´s book.

If there is a god or gods it does not really matter.

We were born cursed and we will die cursed.  A Gnostic sect, the Euchites, say that “since from birth every man finds himself thrown into a world which is subjected to the violence of the devil, he must liberate himself through a campaign of equal violence, a ruthless combat against the devil.

These Euchites were really intriguing. They were “totally preoccupied with carrying on this merciless struggle against the devil, they took little heed of the contingencies of daily life. They refused all forms of work, whether manual or intellectual (which led to their sometimes being called the Lazy Men) and subsisted solely by begging.”

About my health issues my eyes will not improve because it is a congenital problem. I suffer from diabetes so that also affects my eyes.

Stay safe.

https://medium.com/the-collector/the-crying-boy-7dd5a1ed9b25#:~:text=Origins%20of%20The%20Crying%20Boy,on%20sale%20in%20European%20markets.
Title: A Head Full of Ghosts(To Senor Raul)
Post by: Holden on April 10, 2021, 06:10:19 am
Senor Raul,

Thanks for the message and the link.Hope you are doing fine. As Paraguay is primarily a Roman Catholic country, I wonder if you have come across any cases of Roman Catholic exorcisms there?

If yes, what do you make of them?

I wonder what you make of these recordings:

https://youtu.be/29fpnF1DWoQ

These are for you:

(https://www.linkpicture.com/q/main-qimg-8f208bbe8c0da0c91fb12283eb3551c5.png) (https://www.linkpicture.com/view.php?img=LPic607178ae5b0ac1901217372)

( Garshin by Repin)
The poet, Garshin ,killed himself soon after this was painted.
If the Crying Boy grew up,he might have looked like this.The sadness in his eyes...

(https://www.linkpicture.com/q/ivan-the-terrible-and-his-son-ivan.jpg) (https://www.linkpicture.com/view.php?img=LPic607178f5bdada1834959759)

(Ivan the Terrible and Son Ivan by Repin)

Take care and please do keep writing here.
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: Holden on April 10, 2021, 06:32:14 am
No tree, it is said, can grow to heaven unless its roots reach down to hell- Carl Gustav Jung
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: raul on April 10, 2021, 09:10:27 am
Holden,

When I was learning English I read a book by Thomas Thompson called The Serpent. It was about a man, Charles Sobhraj. I don´t remember much about the book but I saw last year in YouTube videos about him.

According to Wikipedia Charles Sobhraj (born 6 April 1944) is a French serial killer, fraudster and thief of Indian and Vietnamese descent. Sobhraj preyed on Western tourists, throughout the hippie trail of South Asia during the 1970s.

Can I say that this man was possessed by the devil and this is the reason he killed many people? I read that “Ronald DeFeo Jr., the Long Island man serving a life sentence for slaughtering his parents and four siblings in a 1974 crime that would inspire The Amityville Horror book and movie franchise, died March 12 at the Albany Medical Center in New York. He was 69”.

He claimed that he killed his family in self-defense because he heard their voices plotting against him. Were these voices coming from malevolent entities?
Who knows? Probably. Are this planet´s world leaders also possessed by malignant entities? Are we not all directly or possessed by the Father of Lies? After all we are food in this human farm.

I know about exorcisms from what I saw in movies, the Exorcist, Legion, and The Exorcism of Emily Rose based on the link you sent me about Anneliese Michel in Germany. William Friedkin the filmmaker of The Exorcist went to Rome and had an interview with the late chief exorcist in Rome Gabriele Amorth four or five years ago.

I also saw The Possession with actor Jeffrey Dean Morgan but in this case it involved the dybbuk. In Jewish folklore calls the spirit that causes this rare but remarkable occurrence a "dybbuk." I read that “a dybbuk (pronounced "dih-buk") is the term for a wandering soul that attaches itself to a living person and controls that person's behavior to accomplish a task. The word "dybbuk" is the Hebrew word for "cleaving" or "clinging," and surprisingly, having a dybbuk is not always a bad thing for the human host. However, sometimes having a dybbuk is a very bad thing.

“Stories of dybbuk go back to ancient scriptures. In the Old Testament of the Bible, in the Book of Samuel (18:10), a bad spirit is briefly described as attaching itself to King Saul, the first king elected chieftain of the ancient tribes of Israel: "And it came to pass on the morrow, that the evil spirit from God came upon Saul..." Later in the Bible, in the Book of Kings, the prophet Elijah is possessed by the spirit of a dead man who is trying to get the prophet to trick the King into going to war when he wasn't supposed to.”

Possessions and exorcisms are a creepy stuff.

Stay well.

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Charles_Sobhraj
Title: Excursion into Philosophy (To Senor Raul)
Post by: Holden on April 11, 2021, 04:47:06 am
Senor Raul,

Charles Sobhraj is a rather well-known figure over here and I am familiar with him too. I read the book you mention when I was a student.
Maybe sociopaths and psychopaths were termed as "possessed" in the medieval world.

These melancholic paintings are for you:

(https://www.linkpicture.com/q/Excursion-into-Philosophy-by-Hopper.jpg) (https://www.linkpicture.com/view.php?img=LPic6072b4429d8811277148293)

Excursion into Philosophy by Hopper

(https://www.linkpicture.com/q/Un-episodio-de-Fiebre-Amarilla-en-Buenos-Airesr-by-Juan-Manuel-Blanesa.jpg) (https://www.linkpicture.com/view.php?img=LPic6072b475c7c501115176692)

“Un episodio de Fiebre Amarilla en Buenos Aires” by Juan Manuel Blanesa

Do you think that, eventually, Capitalism would make a comeback in Cuba?Have you ever come across any Cubans and if yes, did they say they like or dislike the communist regime?

In Paraguay, do most people favour Capitalism or some stripe of socialism?

Also, is Uruguay very similar to Paraguay or is it culturally different?

Take care and please do keep writing here.

Thank you for your feedback .It is really interesting.

Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: Holden on April 11, 2021, 09:06:18 am
https://youtu.be/MsEgf0Xk_h8
Title: Exorcism is Futile
Post by: Holden on April 11, 2021, 10:18:54 am
I think exorcism is futile.Literally,everyone is possessed. Except for the extremely rare and  lucid individuals like Schopenhauer,Cioran,Herr Hauer.
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: Holden on April 11, 2021, 10:22:34 am
I think I might be possess by the whole of Legion.
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: Holden on April 11, 2021, 12:06:43 pm
https://youtu.be/TIP4wcmgvvY
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: raul on April 11, 2021, 03:34:46 pm
Holden,

Thank you for your words,the paintings and the link. They are most enlightening.

The Machinist is a very good movie. I saw it many years ago.

Were psychopaths and sociopaths born evil or born with a sick mind? I read in Britannica.com that
“Psychopath and sociopath are often used interchangeably in common speech to describe a person who is pathologically prone to criminal or violent behavior and who lacks any regard for the feelings or interests of others and any feelings of remorse or guilt for his crimes. Although the terms are also used in the scientific literature (including the Diagnostic and Statistical Manual of Mental Disorders, or DSM), they are not well defined there; mental health professionals instead prefer to understand both psychopathy and sociopathy as types of antisocial personality disorders (APDs), each condition being distinguished by a few characteristic features but both having many features in common.”

The real psychopaths/sociopaths are those in power and right now we are seeing their actions.

I don´t know what can happen in Cuba. But I understand the end of the Castro regime is near.  I don´t know any Cubans here but I know there are some living here.

I don´t think many people know the difference between capitalism and socialism. Most of them just try to survive every day. These issues are only for a minority, i.e., lawyers, writers, politicians, businessmen, etc. I am not part of this minority.

Uruguay is better known than Paraguay abroad. Both countries´names have their origin in Guarani. Uruguay means river of birds and Paraguay can mean: beautiful river or river of the payaguas. The Payaguas were an indigenous tribe.   
Uruguay has a geographical advantage because it has exit to the sea. Uruguay only has a population of 3 million inhabitants while this country has 7 million and here we have Guarani as an official language while in Uruguay only Spanish is the official language and both are predominantly Catholic countries.

Stay well.
Title: Worm Food( To Senor Raul)
Post by: Holden on April 12, 2021, 05:10:57 am
Senor Raul,

Thanks for your message.

This for you:

https://www.newsweek.com/2021/04/16/can-blood-young-people-slow-aging-silicon-valley-has-bet-billions-it-will-1581447.html

(https://www.linkpicture.com/q/Bride-of-Death-Barker.jpg) (https://www.linkpicture.com/view.php?img=LPic60740cae779bd298583396)
(Bride of Death by Barker)

(https://www.linkpicture.com/q/Massacre-of-the-Innocents-by-Leon-Cogniet.jpg) (https://www.linkpicture.com/view.php?img=LPic60740ce343f35331428003)

(Massacre of the Innocents by Leon Cogniet)

Last night I was feeling anguished about the fact that I have suffered a great deal due to psychopaths around me. Then, I tried to focus my mind on the fact that I am,essentially, worm food. That made me feel a bit better.

In view of the fact that you have read a number of Gnosticism related books, would you say that death is just like deep sleep without dreams?

After dying, the psychopaths ,at the most, can disfigure and dismember the dead body but not anything more than that?

Take care.
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: raul on April 12, 2021, 07:32:01 am
Holden,

Once again thank you for your words and the paintings.

Yes, the Massacre of the Innocents by Leon Cogniet is a wonderful depiction of what has been happening in this world for millennia. Right now thousands of innocents are being massacred in hospitals around the world. Of course I don´t forget that millions are dying of hunger, poverty, pollution, lack of water, all kinds of diseases and wars. This planet is a slaughterhouse.

As long as you are in this world, Holden, you, work prisoner, will be suffering at the hands of any kind of psychopaths.

Your office, any office is also a work camp where inmates fight each other to the death, so to speak.  Your bosses might not be using real knives but they use manipulation and deception.

Psychopaths that are causing much harm to you will die too.

I would like to think that I will die without suffering but I don´t know if that is going to happen.

I am just an amateur, not a good one, in Gnostic issues. The subject demands years of study and reflections.

I quote what an author April DeConnick wrote about the Gnostics:

For the Gnostics, religion is not about obeying the conventional gods but about transcending them in order to find spiritual union with the ul- timate God, the supreme source of all existence. Within the various com- munities of Gnostics, humans were no longer perceived as depraved mor- tal creatures punished by their maker and forced into perpetual servitude and sacrifice. Humans were freed from slavery to the gods. They were liberated from the tyranny of the gods and their human ambassadors, the kings. The true God of worship is a transcendent god of love who desires nothing more than reunion and integration with us.


Stay alert.
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: Holden on April 12, 2021, 07:33:07 am
I’m just sick of ego, ego, ego. My own and everybody else’s. I’m sick of everybody that wants to get somewhere, do something distinguished and all, be somebody interesting. It’s disgusting.
- J.D. Salinger
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: Gorticide :: Admin Elder Warrior on April 12, 2021, 07:25:08 pm
Quote from:  J.D. Salinger
I’m just sick of ego, ego, ego. My own and everybody else’s. I’m sick of everybody that wants to get somewhere, do something distinguished and all, be somebody interesting. It’s disgusting.

This is great food for thought.  This is why I had chosen to focus my attention on the fundamental preliminaries of Mathematics in order to inspire or motivate me to explore ways of implementing those Ideas in specific programming languages, not only for the educational experience, but to build an arsenal of interesting numerical and even algebraic command line programs which I would not mind having at my disposal if I should continue to age.

This would be all I could ever have wished for.  In fact, that had been my truest motivation back around 1994 when I was so utterly inspired by Computer Algebra Systems such as Derive (to transform into TI-89,92-Plus,Voyage, etc).  To be able to create such computational phenomena has made my obsessions their own reward.   

This is why I had always gently discouraged you from attempting to make a major discovery or breakthrough in the discipline of "maths" - and rather to focus on the joy of mastering the fundamentals.   Then, throughout your life, you may return to those fundamentals if ever in need of extracting head from anus.   I myself am currently in a limbo state, where I am even tempted to explore some of the more advanced Computational Physics texts I have invested in, but in a very light and playful manner.

Exploring such texts may help reduce the terrible pressure I have felt to complete the "Analysis Scratchpads" ...

I will try to keep in mind that others may discover my incomplete work and maybe have a handful of dedicated mathematics scholars complete it, expand upon it, etc.

I will keep you posted on how the noodles between my ears digest that Salinger quote.
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: Holden on April 13, 2021, 06:02:05 am
Motivation: How you carry your decaying meatsuit towards the grave.-Antinatalist Outreach
Title: Wind Beaten Tree( To Senor Raul)
Post by: Holden on April 13, 2021, 06:49:46 am
Senor Raul,

Thanks for your message.

This for you:

https://www.bloomberg.com/opinion/articles/2021-03-24/when-will-covid-end-we-must-start-planning-for-a-permanent-pandemic

(https://www.linkpicture.com/q/Wind-Beaten_Tree-_A.jpg) (https://www.linkpicture.com/view.php?img=LPic60757275847fa670887950)

( Wind Beaten Tree by van Gogh)

(https://www.linkpicture.com/q/Three_Figures_near_a_Canal_with_Windmill.jpg) (https://www.linkpicture.com/view.php?img=LPic6075753524428221985912)

(Three Figures Near a Canal with Windmill by van Gogh)

The reason why I adore van Gogh is that he was honest enough and bold enough to do what he wanted to do in the teeth of his family’s opposition( and not because of his postmortem fame).

To tell the truth, I like wearing a mask. That way, the psychopaths cannot see my face. It makes me feel better.

Thanks for your sympathetic message yesterday.If there were a test which one must pass before having a kid, then my parents would have flunked it. But there is no such test. There is only turmoil and mayhem.

Maybe you would have made a wonderful Roman Catholic Priest,Senor Raul,as I feel better after I confess to you!

Just kidding, you are too honest to a priest of any kind( at least ,the one who belongs to any organised religion).

Take care.
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: Holden on April 13, 2021, 09:43:50 am
“Birth was the death of him”
—Beckett
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: raul on April 13, 2021, 04:26:29 pm
Holden,
Thank you for your words and the links and the paintings.

I heard many doctors say that the prolonged use of face masks will lead people to suffer from bacterial neumonia. I understand that you use the masks as a protection against the psychopaths.

This also reminds me of the vaccines. Here the authorities tell us that vaccination equals immunization. That´s fake news, as they say in American English.

The vaccinations here started and people are dying. Of course the authorities tell you that those who got the vaccines probably got hit by the bug before and as a result died. At school I learned that 2 plus 2 equals 4. Vaccination leads to death. I wonder what Dr. Josef Mengele would have thought about this situation.

Van Gogh was clearly a very brave man. I cannot say that I am a brave person. I don´t think I would have made a good Catholic priest.

Stay safe.
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: Holden on April 13, 2021, 10:30:34 pm


I've inherited a kind of modesty from my mother, a total insignificance, and I mean total. What interests me is to be completely ignored. I have a propensity… an animal propensity, for crawling away…-Celine
Title: At Eternity’s Gate( To Senor Raul)
Post by: Holden on April 14, 2021, 02:29:59 pm
Senor Raul,
Thanks for your message.

This for you:

(https://www.linkpicture.com/q/Vincent_van_Gogh_-_Corridor_in_the_Asylum-768x993.jpg) (https://www.linkpicture.com/view.php?img=LPic6077337c65f631963437343)

 (Corridor in the Asylum by van Gogh)

(https://www.linkpicture.com/q/at-eternitys-gate_1.jpg) (https://www.linkpicture.com/view.php?img=LPic607733b48b4a1560588413)

 (At Eternity’s Gate by van Gogh)

I had cast off all self-respect long ago. That sentiment had always struck me as far above my station, much too costly for my resources. I'd made that sacrifice once and for all and had no regrets whatever.

My poverty was such that I didn't dare rummage through my pockets to make sure.
-Celine

Hope you are doing fine,Senor Raul. Existence is really terrible.

Take care.

Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: Holden on April 14, 2021, 02:31:41 pm
Hurry, hurry, don't be late for your death. Sickness, the poverty that disperses your hours and years, the insomnia that paints whole days and weeks grey, the cancer that may even now, meticulous and blood-spotted, be climbing up from your rectum.-Celine
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: Holden on April 14, 2021, 07:18:00 pm
https://youtu.be/-JTqS0eIqqA
Title: The world is a madhouse
Post by: raul on April 15, 2021, 06:53:18 am
Holden,

Thank you for your Van Gogh´s paintings and the video with Alain Delon and Jeremy Irons.
I prefer Corridor in the Asylum by Van Gogh. I have never been to a psychiatric hospital here but from what I heard it is more a landfill than a hospital. Well, the entire world is a madhouse.

I am not doing fine, as you hope, but that´s part of life. None of us are doing fine,really.

Stay well.
Title: To the Pneumatic from Paraguay
Post by: Holden on April 16, 2021, 06:16:16 am
Senor Raul,

This is for you:
(https://www.linkpicture.com/q/Farmhouses_in_Loosduinen_near_The_Hague_at_Twilight_1.jpg) (https://www.linkpicture.com/view.php?img=LPic607963b4274bd691870060)

 (Farmhouses in Loosduinen near The Hague at Twilight by van Gogh)
(https://www.linkpicture.com/q/Vincent_van_Gogh_-_Sloot_en_kleine_brug.jpg) (https://www.linkpicture.com/view.php?img=LPic6079620eb392f244689379)
(Footbridge across a Ditch by van Gogh)

I am glad you liked that painting. Have you come across the term Ialdabaoth in Gnosticism.If yes, what do you make of it?

Also, are you familiar with the Gospel of Thomas which has been termed as 'gnostic gospel' by some thinkers?

I hope you remain untroubled as much as possible.

I think you are a Pneumatic ( someone with a spark within him).
Take care.

Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: raul on April 16, 2021, 02:06:12 pm
Holden,

Thank you for Van Gogh´s paintings.

Existence is terrible, you reminded me in last post, and indeed it is terrible. Remaining untroubled, as you wish, is not possible. Even if each one of us goes to a cave, we will still be haunted by sad memories, dark voices, gloomy thoughts and thousands of ffucked things each one of us did in the past. There is no escape except achieving a little tranquility.

Jesús Ávila Granado, a Spanish author, wrote the following about Ialdabaoth:

The creation of the Demiurge, also called Ialdabaoth. The first that Wisdom created was the Demiurge, a psychic being (because he was born in the banishment of the spiritual Pleroma). This being organized matter but without realizing that Mother controlled him as as her instrument and for that reason he believed himself to be the Only God and Creator and thus was proclaimed in the Old Testament, his work.

It is the God who deemed himself just but in reality he is cruel, vengeful, jealous and tyrannical: he is the God of the Jews. He dwells in what is called the “Intermediate Region” which is neither the material world nor the Pleroma but a place destined to collect the souls of the regular Christians.

I think you might find this video with Peter Bolland about the Gospel of Thomas interesting.

Stay safe.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=v0M2vFunxoY
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: Holden on April 16, 2021, 02:27:01 pm
No cure for what illness has befallen you.-Axiom.
Title: Bad World( To Senor Raul)
Post by: Holden on April 17, 2021, 04:36:24 am
Senor Raul,

Thanks for the wonderful video and deep thoughts.

This is for you:

(https://www.linkpicture.com/q/1024px-Van_Gogh_-_Der_alte_Friedhofsturm_in_Nuenen_mit_drei_Figuren.jpeg) (https://www.linkpicture.com/view.php?img=LPic607a97f9b8341756061431)
The Old Tower of Nuenen with People Walking by Van Gogh

(https://www.linkpicture.com/q/Landscape_with_Dunes.jpg) (https://www.linkpicture.com/view.php?img=LPic607a99282e80c810354959)
Landscape with Dunes by Van Gogh

I think only a very sad man could have made this painting.

In Gnosticism, the Archons torture human beings every single day,what do you think, is the motivation? Is it because they are sadists and experience pleasure when humans are weeping and whimpering?

Also,do you know any Roman Catholic priests,if yes, then please tell me as to what do you make of them? Do the Bishops torture the priests and exploit them by forcing them to overwork? And do they get humiliated by the clerics in the higher positions for fun?

https://catholicvoiceomaha.com/kc-bishop-meds-played-a-role-in-priests-suicide/

In the offices in Paraguay do the employers torture and exploit and humiliate employees?

Take care, Senor Raul and please stay in-doors,if possible, as the virus is coming back stronger and in more virulent now.
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: Holden on April 17, 2021, 04:47:09 am
A body is nothing but an unclean contraption,
A bundle of muscles and fibers, a mound of waste,
And seething fluids that ooze and trickle.

From a Buddhist text
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: Holden on April 17, 2021, 05:26:16 am
"Slept, awoke, slept, awoke, miserable life."

~Franz Kafka
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: Holden on April 17, 2021, 10:57:49 am
"Why do men insist on achieving something ? Would it not be better if they stood still under the sun in calm and silent immobility ? What is there to accomplish ? Why so  much effort and ambition ? Man has forgotten the meaning of silence."

_Emil Cioran
Title: Mainlining Mainlander
Post by: Holden on April 17, 2021, 02:04:10 pm
(https://www.linkpicture.com/q/19rk3ujxymr21_1.jpg) (https://www.linkpicture.com/view.php?img=LPic607b241cbbadb1092606016)
(Mainlander)



Every suicide looks fine to the neighbours. I think about Van Gogh wondering the field on my own,with no money,no prospects of ever selling his work.

Russell says mathematics,his interest in mathematics, pulled him away from suicide. Over the last few years I too have developed interest in mathematics,in my own humble way, and yet I would not echo Russell.

Because that would be like saying that the over the counter painkillers could cure cancer.I do not mind doing mathematics while I am here, but I do not wish to stay back for any kind of experience.

I have been a misfit for the whole of my life and before I came across philosophical pessimism and antinatalism,I was still a rather sad creature.
I came to know that more people kill themselves than the number of people who are killed by others.This tells me something.
Perhaps the internal fears and anxiety is even more dangerous than the other human beings.One could probably shut himself in a room,but there is still a good chance that his internal panic would get him.

To die, would be like a bug’s death-others would be concerned ,sure, but only to the extent of dumping off the body somewhere away from the sight,for hygiene related purpose.

I think it would have been better if Van Gogh would have remained unknown. It would have been far better. This wretched world does not deserve to know him.Schopenhauer too.

I like that fact that Schopenhauer is almost never taught in the universities. His works are sacred.

I am in the middle of this mind boggling war. Thankfully, now I know that I am not the only one who has been targeted so brutally.The establishment likes to hunt non-conformists like me.

I have been labelled as insane for one reason and one reason only-they failed to manipulate me.
They are married, they have reproduced a number of times ,they are frustrated. So, in order to feel better, they target me.I am an easy target.
Yet, unfortunately for them, when I really concentrated upon the true nature of existence, then the arrows they shoot, fail to hurt me. My body gets hurt. It is an animal after all. It weeps and it whimpers.
Yet, there is something within me which stay aloof. It looks upon the poor body,shivering and suffering, the poor animal body looks at “ that which remains aloof” and it begins to reach equanimity.

In all likelihood, these scoundrels who never leave me alone and yet, there is something within  which shall remain untouched. Unaltered.
They are angry that I do not fall for the mirage that they fell for. They are jealous,and wish to see me in pain.That is okay.
I know this body would not endure. They would not endure. They are animals.
I do not talk to them because there is nothing to talk about.

There is nothing to be said.
Every suicide looks fine to the neighbours. I think about Van Gogh wondering the field on my own,with no money,no prospects of ever selling his work.

Russell says mathematics,his interest in mathematics, pulled him away from suicide. Over the last few years I too have developed interest in mathematics,in my own humble way, and yet I would not echo Russell.

Because that would be like saying that the over the counter painkillers could cure cancer.I do not mind doing mathematics while I am here, but I do not wish to stay back for any kind of experience.

I have been a misfit for the whole of my life and before I came across philosophical pessimism and antinatalism,I was still a rather sad creature.

I came to know that more people kill themselves than the number of people who are killed by others.This tells me something.

Perhaps the internal fears and anxiety is even more dangerous than the other human beings.One could probably shut himself in a room,but there is still a good chance that his internal panic would get him.

To die, would be like a bug’s death-others would be concerned ,sure, but only to the extent of dumping off the body somewhere away from the sight,for hygiene related purpose.

I think it would have been better if Van Gogh would have remained unknown. It would have been far better. This wretched world does not deserve to know him.Schopenhauer too.
I like that fact that Schopenhauer is almost never taught in the universities. His works are sacred.
I am in the middle of this mind boggling war. Thankfully, now I know that I am not the only one who has been targeted so brutally.The establishment likes to hunt non-conformists like me.
I have been labelled as insane for one reason and one reason only-they failed to manipulate me.
They are married, they have reproduced a number of times ,they are frustrated. So, in order to feel better, they target me.I am an easy target.
Yet, unfortunately for them, when I really concentrated upon the true nature of existence, then the arrows they shoot, fail to hurt me. My body gets hurt. It is an animal after all. It weeps and it whimpers.
Yet, there is something within me which stay aloof. It looks upon the poor body,shivering and suffering, the poor animal body looks at “ that which remains aloof” and it begins to reach equanimity.
In all likelihood, these scoundrels who never leave me alone and yet, there is something within  which shall remain untouched. Unaltered.
They are angry that I do not fall for the mirage that they fell for. They are jealous,and wish to see me in pain.That is okay.
I know this body would not endure. They would not endure. They are animals.
I do not talk to them because there is nothing to talk about.

There is nothing to be said.

They would have enslaved Holden easily and long back,if he were on his own. But their petty minds could never imagine that he mainlines Mainlander.
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: raul on April 17, 2021, 07:45:47 pm
Holden,

I have met a few employees who are working in the public sector. It depends on many factors as to whether they suffer harrassment at their work.Paraguay has around 400,000 thousand public employees. Only a few get very good salaries in key sections of the public sector. The public sector did not suffer at all with this pandemic and only now the health authorities say that they may only collect their money for the time they have worked in order to impose many restrictions. While thousands of private companies went bankrupt public employees did not have many problems.

I read the article about Father Evans Harkins and his death by suicide. He was a young man but I can only say RIP to this priest from this faraway land. His bishop, Vann Johnston of Kansas City Harkins said that he “walked on the ‘sunny side’ of life,”. That sunny side of life ended abruptly.

Like many I am sure the bishops commit many injustices against the fellow priests. They are humans after all. On my mother´s side I had an uncle who was a priest and died in 2005. I hardly knew him but I think he was the only priest in the family.

Regarding the archons, well, from what I read, they are the Demiurge´s deputies, so to speak. So their mission is to bring suffering, endless suffering on mankind.

You want me "to stay in-doors,if possible, as the virus is coming back stronger and in more virulent now." I still have my doubts as whether we get this virus through the air. My sister keeps pestering me about that and I told her that if I end up in hospital, to pray for my fast exit. Some warn me to use double face masks and to avoid going to supermarkets. I use public transportation and let me tell you that sometimes the bus is completely crowded. Buses only musy carry 16 passengers standing but the bus owners do not care about that.

We do not have money for medical expenses. I have just read that the World Health Organization does not recommend the use of remdesivir for patients and yet here some prominent doctors recommend its use and why is that? Money. This medication costs around $ 3,0000 dollars and families end up being drowned in debts.

As usual death is good for business.

Stay alert.
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: Gorticide :: Admin Elder Warrior on April 17, 2021, 09:42:11 pm
Quote from: Holden
I have been labelled as insane for one reason and one reason only-they failed to manipulate me.

They are married, they have reproduced a number of times ,they are frustrated. So, in order to feel better, they target me. I am an easy target.

Yet, unfortunately for them, when I really concentrated upon the true nature of existence, then the arrows they shoot, fail to hurt me. My body gets hurt. It is an animal after all. It weeps and it whimpers.

Yet, there is something within me which stay aloof. It looks upon the poor body, shivering and suffering, the poor animal body looks at “that which remains aloof” and it begins to reach equanimity.

In all likelihood, these scoundrels who never leave me alone and yet, there is something within  which shall remain untouched. Unaltered.

They are angry that I do not fall for the mirage that they fell for. They are jealous,and wish to see me in pain. That is okay.

I know this body would not endure. They would not endure. They are animals.
I do not talk to them because there is nothing to talk about.

There is nothing to be said.

You have powerful insight into our predicament, Holden.   These pseudo-Archons in your workplace and extended family would be furious to know you have such insight, especially your insight into their jealousy over your mental independence (http://whybother.freeboards.org/why-work/nat's-bold-stand/msg265/#msg265).

[also see Habeas Corpus, Habeas Mentem, and Mental Independence (http://whybother.freeboards.org/gortbusters/habeas-corpus-habeas-mentem-and-mental-independence/msg1554/#msg1554)]

Quote from: Schopenhauer
The old genuine Cynics, Antisthenes, Diogenes, Crates, and their disciples, renounced every possession, all conveniences and pleasures, once and for all, in order to escape forever the troubles and cares, the dependence and pains, that are bound up with them, and for which they are no compensation. The genuine Cynics put up with what they could get for virtually nothing. They begged occasionally, but they did not work. Independence in the widest sense was their goal. They spent their lives resting, walking about, talking with everyone, and in scoffing, laughing, and joking. Their characteristics were heedlessness and great cheerfulness. Since they had no aims of their own, no purposes and intentions to pursue, enjoying complete leisure, they became councilors of others.
______________________________________________________________

Senor Raul,
   I have been reading some of the alternative news you are posting.  It reminds me of the style of John Brunner's science fiction about the not too distant future, The Sheep Look Up (http://whybother.freeboards.org/what-now/communes/msg980/#msg980).  I had been thinking that we all may be engaged in the creation of a Living Dynamic Novel.

Sometimes I find myself daydreaming about a group of like-minded individuals forming some kind of commune, but then I recall that the "establishment" does not take kindly to folks living tribally.

Take care of yourself, and forgive me if I have seemed "absent" from the message board.   I was finally able to return to a challenging exercise (involving a mathematical proof) which I had been stuck on for several months.  I had lost interest and was not satisfied with my understanding.   For whatever reason, I was finally able to concentrate enough this morning to get through the exercise to my satisfaction.

Maybe I will be more present here as well.   We'll see.   Thanks for holding down the fort with Brother Holden!   :D
Title: To: Senor Raul (From:The Former Student)
Post by: Holden on April 18, 2021, 07:19:30 am
Senor Raul,

Thanks for the message.

This is for you:
(https://www.linkpicture.com/q/index_30.jpg) (https://www.linkpicture.com/view.php?img=LPic607c0a406ceb3586614061)
(Tragedy by Picasso)

(https://www.linkpicture.com/q/Kotsis_1.jpg) (https://www.linkpicture.com/view.php?img=LPic607c0ab2466471352563785)
(Kotsis)

I think this world is a torture chamber and people like us, who are not entirely blind ,are selected for special treatment.

If you have not watched the following already,then,I request you to consider them:
https://youtu.be/DYZqr20OWPE

https://youtu.be/auHSPkNaOEg

https://youtu.be/hiTWr1tgs9E


I do not know how someone who has ready Crime and Punishment can bring himself to marry.There is a scene which I remember faintly.I read it as a final year student( soon to be a former student,which I have remained to this very day).
The Scene( as much as I remember):

An old civil servant has died.He was a drunkard and left no money for his family.The (middle aged and plain Jane) wife and the kids have been thrown on the street. They are all weeping. The wife asks children to sing in order to beg.The children begin to sing a Russian song,she beats them up and tells them to sing a French song( French was then spoken by the nobility there.)
She wants the listeners to know that their father was a civil servant ,so they all sing in French and keep weeping and keep whimpering and begging.

Take care.
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: raul on April 18, 2021, 08:11:24 am
Hentrich,

Thank you for your words.

I understand that you have been absent because you have issues at home there.

It is important that you keep studying maths, eating baked bananas, driving carefully and taking naps.

Stay safe.
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: Holden on April 19, 2021, 06:29:00 am
Quote from: Schopenhauer

    The old genuine Cynics, Antisthenes, Diogenes, Crates, and their disciples, renounced every possession, all conveniences and pleasures, once and for all, in order to escape forever the troubles and cares, the dependence and pains, that are bound up with them, and for which they are no compensation. The genuine Cynics put up with what they could get for virtually nothing. They begged occasionally, but they did not work. Independence in the widest sense was their goal. They spent their lives resting, walking about, talking with everyone, and in scoffing, laughing, and joking. Their characteristics were heedlessness and great cheerfulness. Since they had no aims of their own, no purposes and intentions to pursue, enjoying complete leisure, they became councilors of others.

______________________________________________________________
-Herr Hauser


I have looked into the cynics a bit but not read them in detail. I wish to do that someday. What little I have read makes a great deal of sense to me.
I am glad that you have once again taken up mathematics,I have also been working on it,in my own humble way.In the best case scenario, I am still about 3 years away from starting to exchange serious math ideas with you.
In the worst case scenario( or is that better than the best best!)-I would be dead and buried by then:)

I do not know what kind of buffoon would believe in a benevolent deity in a world such as this one.The idea of a good god is incoherent.

https://youtu.be/iS-1wWVCpYY
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: raul on April 19, 2021, 07:00:08 am
Holden,

Indeed this world is a torture chamber where some are the executioners, some are victims and most people are both victims and executioners.

I read Crime and Punishment over 20 years ago. You see, Holden, millions must have read this book but they do not apply the author´s truths in their lives. It is the way we, humans, have been wired/designed/programmed.

Right now millions of couples are bringing children to life in this sad and bitter world. Your advice to say –in doors- as much as possible is good but even if I stay I look out from the windows the children wearing face masks and that leads me to much bitterness.

Did your folks think 38 years ago that you would be now suffering from tuberculosis? Not at all. Even with the medication you will be suffering.  One day all your body’s functions will shut down one by one and they will inevitably lead to death.

Take care.
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: Holden on April 19, 2021, 11:20:34 am
“I wasn’t meant for reality, but life came and found me”

Fernando Pessoa
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: Holden on April 19, 2021, 11:25:19 am
"No one comes back from the dead; no one has come into the world without weeping. No one asks when one wants to come in; no one asks when one wants to go out."

~ Kierkegaard ; Either/Or
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: Holden on April 19, 2021, 11:26:56 am
“I am either lacerated or ill at ease, and occasionally subject to gusts of life.”

~ Roland Barthes ; Mourning Diary
Title: Murder of a Child (To Senor Raul)
Post by: Holden on April 20, 2021, 05:05:26 am


Senor Raul,

Thanks for your message.

This is for you:

(https://www.linkpicture.com/q/Without-Asylum-Pelez.jpg) (https://www.linkpicture.com/view.php?img=LPic607e959cc36637273383)

(Without Asylum by Pelez)

(https://www.linkpicture.com/q/Murder-of-a-Child-by-Henningsen.jpg) (https://www.linkpicture.com/view.php?img=LPic607e965377cca1225014876)

(Murder of a Child by Henningsen)

I feel troubled by the sheer fact of existence. There is so much pain and suffering all around and yet there are men who keep on reproducing as if there is no tomorrow.
Every baby is like a hand grenade,ready to go off.

I do not know how long one could carry on under such circumstances. I do not every even animals and plants,only minerals and rocks.

Just to be a rock. Clearly,being a human being is not for me.

Take care.
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: Holden on April 20, 2021, 10:10:27 am
My father was a stout, blond man who’d fly into a rage over nothing, with a chubby round nose like a baby’s over an enormous moustache. He rolled his eyes ferociously when he was angry. He never remembered anything but troubles. He’d had plenty.
-Celine
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: raul on April 20, 2021, 01:55:06 pm
Holden,

Thank you for the quotes and the paintings. I must say the paintings are illuminating and realistic.

We don’t know when we are going to die. We don’t know whether it’s going to happen right now, in a few minutes or next year. This is everybody’s issue. Mr.Death will come and our plans, desires and expectations will come to nothing.

Nobody can escape from Mr. Death.  You will die, I will die, he / she / it will die. Everybody dies. I read somewhere that in the course of history around fifty billion human beings have walked our planet in the last hundred thousand years. Each one of them has died.

Every single person whom I have spoken or heard, whom I’ve said hello in the morning or whom I knew or had known will cease to exist.

I must have held a newly born baby in my arms two or three times and when that happened the game was already up. Mr.Death is the only guy one can really trust

Can we say that each one of us has been murdered? Indeed we can.

Stay alert.
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: Holden on April 20, 2021, 11:49:48 pm
"Sometimes people don't want to hear the truth because they don't want their illusions destroyed." ~ Friedrich Nietzsche
Title: Organon of Extinction( To Senor Raul)
Post by: Holden on April 21, 2021, 03:23:13 am
Senor Raul,

Thanks for your message.

These are for you:

(https://www.linkpicture.com/q/Prisoner-s-Round-by-Van-Gogh.jpeg) (https://www.linkpicture.com/view.php?img=LPic607fcc48ef743731795231)

(Prisoners’ Round by van Gogh)

(https://www.linkpicture.com/q/The-Death-of-Chatterton-by-Wallis.jpg) (https://www.linkpicture.com/view.php?img=LPic607fcc88023dc109594268)

(The Death of Chatterton by Wallis)

What you say reminds me of Nihil Unbound by Brassier:

 “Philosophy,should be more than a sop to the pathetic twinge of human self-esteem.”

“The earth will be incinerated by the sun 4 billion years hence; all the stars in the universe will stop shining in 100 trillion years; and eventually, one trillion, trillion, trillion years from now, all matter in the cosmos will disintegrate.”

 “The subject of philosophy is already dead,” Brassier writes, “and ... philosophy is neither a medium of affirmation nor a source of justification, but rather the organon of extinction.”

 “Existence is worthless,” he writes, “and nihilism is ... the unavoidable corollary of the realist conviction that there is a mind-independent reality which ... is indifferent to our existence and oblivious to the ‘values’ and ‘meanings’ which we would drape over it in order to make it more hospitable.”

 “Laruelle provides the key to understanding the diachrony inherent in what Meillasoux calls ‘absolute time’ and allows us to appreciate that ‘it is no longer thought that determines the object, whether through representation or intuition, but rather the object that seizes thought, and forces it to think it ... according to it.’”

It was Herr Hauser who told me about this book. Philosophy has brought me a measure of solace. There is absolute mayhem over here due to the pandemic and perhaps the only reason I have not contracted Covid so far( to the best of my knowledge) is because tuberculosis bacilli do not wish to share my lungs with corona virus and might have resisted  their attack.They want both the lungs for themselves-in line with  Locke’s theory of property ownership.

Please take care of your eyes.Your writing is very valuable-to me and to all the remembers of this message board.



Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: raul on April 21, 2021, 05:25:20 pm
Holden

Thank you once again for your paintings and the quotes. I hope you have a few calm days in your office.

Prisoners´Round by Van Gogh clearly depicts our situation in this maximum security prison called Earth.
The other painting, Without Asylum by Pelez, reminds me of the indigenous women holding their babies begging for money in streets and avenues.

I only scribble in the board. I am not a thinker like you and Hentrich.

You wrote that “I feel troubled by the sheer fact of existence. There is so much pain and suffering all around and yet there are men who keep on reproducing as if there is no tomorrow.”

Millions of us have been in a comatose condition. Awakening is dangerous.

Don´t forget that also women keep on reproducing as if there is no tomorrow. We forget that many women resorted to in vitro fertilization. But that could change because the thugs from the World Economic Forum do not want any more procreation.

You see most of us, including me, do not think at all about deep issues. Most of us are just brainless walking ppenises. Our brains are made for ejaculations. Most of us only think of screwing ladies until their assses are so sore they can barely sit down.

I read or heard that before we die our lives play out in front of our eyes like a sped-up film reel. I wonder if this could be true.

Take care.
Title: Eating Food is Strange (To Senor Raul)
Post by: Holden on April 22, 2021, 05:43:55 am
Senor Raul,

Thanks for your message.These are for you:

(https://i.ibb.co/r5pskTg/douard-Manet-Le-Suicid-ca-1877.jpg) (https://imgbb.com/)

(Suicide by Manet)

 
(https://i.ibb.co/mc197PD/413px-Van-Gogh-Der-alte-Friedhofsturm-in-Nuenen-mit-drei-Figuren.jpg) (https://imgbb.com/)

(Old Tower by Van Gogh)

https://www.fox5vegas.com/news/us_world_news/indiana-priest-says-exorcism-calls-have-increased-during-pandemic/article_5a3b3d1b-0d1e-5552-8f6e-52ad4d9f22e1.html

The whole world is falling apart.It has always been that way.There are dark forces that are out to get us.

The problem is there are no hiding places.Not really. All one could do is to hide as much as possible.Sometimes I like to look at food,really observe it.Pasta,for example, its texture,its feel,its taste. I consume the food.Chew it and swallow it.

How strange it all is to me.Evidently ,not so strange to all the  men and women ,making and popping out babies like the earth is some kind of heaven.

Did you know that the Mormons believe that after death every faithful person gets his own planet and can keep having millions of spirit babies forever.

Well,having a baby like eating a lot of food.

Take care.

Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: Holden on April 22, 2021, 09:50:04 am
I sit down at my desk and get ready to write, but I can't begin to write… I must be able to write, I think, but I can't write… and I get up and pace the floor in my room, on and on

-Bernhard
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: Holden on April 22, 2021, 09:54:30 am
we need more religious art of hell prominently featuring Western products and media.

I want to see endless blaring billboards, corporate logos flashing and spinning between scenes of horrific pornography as demons use luxury consumer goods for ironic torture

A HELL OF BRANDS
-Vylpill
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: Holden on April 22, 2021, 11:55:57 am
I usually solve problems by letting them devour me.

Franz Kafka
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: Holden on April 22, 2021, 12:32:57 pm
https://youtu.be/epwUTVUwB7A
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: Gorticide on April 22, 2021, 05:59:39 pm
 :D

 ;D

Hilarious Holden!
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: Gorticide on April 22, 2021, 06:07:42 pm
Quote from: Kafka
I usually solve problems by letting them devour me.

Your morbid sense of humor is starting to show.   This one got me to chuckle as well.   I have had a ridiculous day, as per usual.

Herr Hauser has left the building ... and may slip into a brood..   :-\

There are some science fiction scenarios playing out, where certain communications may bridge deep gulfs.

They can't put a fence around a man's soul.

What do you think it means to let our problems devour us?
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: Gorticide :: Admin Elder Warrior on April 22, 2021, 09:27:57 pm
Quote
“Philosophy,should be more than a sop to the pathetic twinge of human self-esteem.”

“The earth will be incinerated by the sun 4 billion years hence; all the stars in the universe will stop shining in 100 trillion years; and eventually, one trillion, trillion, trillion years from now, all matter in the cosmos will disintegrate.”

 “The subject of philosophy is already dead,” Brassier writes, “and ... philosophy is neither a medium of affirmation nor a source of justification, but rather the organon of extinction.”

 “Existence is worthless,” he writes, “and nihilism is ... the unavoidable corollary of the realist conviction that there is a mind-independent reality which ... is indifferent to our existence and oblivious to the ‘values’ and ‘meanings’ which we would drape over it in order to make it more hospitable.”

I wanted to tie this quote to another thread, so I am pointing to the song, I Do the Rock (http://whybother.freeboards.org/what-now/to-be-or-not-to-be-a-self/msg10566/?topicseen#msg10566) by Tim Curry.

They sure looked like they were having some genuine FUN.
I'll track down the lyrics ...
Title: Face to Face with Cthulu
Post by: Holden on April 23, 2021, 08:10:56 am
What do you think it means to let our problems devour us?-Herr Hauser

Sometimes, I think, my solutions to  problems make the situation worse.

Sometimes it might be better to just allow time to sort out the problems.

Many people tend to think that our world is no longer like the one depicted in Kafka’s works because of all the gadgets.Not true. The technology ,if anything, has made the world weirder.

No way out of this Castle-the D.N.A itself is crooked.

People are busy chasing the next promotion, the next date,until the true nature of existence reveals itself.As a boxer once said- “Everybody has a plan until they get punched in the mouth.”

Then, they lose their mind-they are face to face with Cthulu.

Lovecraft,though poor and unappreciated,(with not much bodily strength) was sharp as a whip till the very end( maybe I would talk about his mathematical studies some other day),because he never took his eyes off Cthulu.

There are some science fiction scenarios playing out, where certain communications may bridge deep gulfs.-Herr Hauser


Are your neighbours tormenting you?

(https://www.linkpicture.com/q/800px-Van_Gogh_-_The_Parsonage_Garden_at_Nuenen_1.jpg) (https://www.linkpicture.com/view.php?img=LPic6082b52a08058144187153)


(The Parsonage Garden at Nuenen by van Gogh)

 (https://www.linkpicture.com/q/800px-Van_Gogh_-_Weber-_am_Webstuhl_stehend.jpeg) (https://www.linkpicture.com/view.php?img=LPic60829f6b5ce5a1973489748)

(Weaver Arranging Threads by van Gogh)

“We hang the petty thieves and appoint the great ones to public office.” - Aesop

To be GOVERNED is to be at every operation, at every transaction noted, registered, counted, taxed, stamped, measured, numbered, assessed, licensed, authorized, admonished, prevented, forbidden, reformed, corrected, punished.-Proudhon
Title: We went as far as we felt like going.
Post by: Gorticide :: Admin Elder Warrior on April 23, 2021, 10:24:38 am
Quote from: Holden
Are your neighbors tormenting you?

No, Holden.  Not really.  My immediate neighbors are actually tolerating ME surprisingly well.   It is actually those in my self-chosen monkey sphere who have turned on me abruptly.   For a long time now there have been a few folks who have not received me well at all.  At every turn I am under attack by those I have done nothing but shower with tender love and care.

It is over at last.  I feel it.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2bc9oRF7n1M
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: raul on April 23, 2021, 03:17:32 pm
Holden aka The Cannibal

Once again thank you for the quotes and the paintings.

Yesterday my sister told me that my 79-year-old uncle died in the geriatric hospital. He has been already in hospital since last week. I knew he had a heart condition and other health issues. He tested positive for Covid. His eldest son also was in a private hospital because of the Covid but he is in his home now.

My sister told me that our cousins did not have any contact with him in the hospital and only received SMS via Whatsapp and other information from my female cousin, a doctor, who has contacts there.

It must have been sad to die there completely alone and because of the protocol he will be buried with no family members. I have not talked to my uncle since my father passed away.

His death will remain a doubt for me because I do not trust the doctors. In my view he was a victim of medical neglect. Also last month a neighbor told me that in a that doctors get money for every patient supposedly dying from the virus in a public hospital. 

I suppose Father Lambert in Indiana, USA, must have a lot of work. The powers of darkness, so to speak, must be having a hell of a party on Earth.

Father Lampert says that he has seen “levitation, eyes rolled to the back of the head, foaming at the mouth, people fall on the floor and slither like a snake across the ground,".
If my creditors appear I would like to foam at the mouth, fall on the floor and slither like a snake on the ground like those possessed the priest saw in Indiana. I would scare them and they will forget my debts.

What can I say? People are being born, having sex, working, dying, moving on, having lots of children. They accept the world as it is. They see nothing wrong with it. Only the supposed pandemic has changed their world to some extent. They think vaccines will set thing right. And they will keep putting the buns in the oven, so to speak.

What you write: “Well,having a baby like eating a lot of food.” This sentence of yours will not be understood. Many will think that you are a cannibal or Holden the baby eater. :D

Stay well.
Title: C'est la Vie ( To Senor Raul)
Post by: Holden on April 24, 2021, 09:53:13 am

Senor Raul,

I am so sorry for your loss.May your Uncle’s soul rest in peace.

These are for you :

https://uscatholic.org/articles/201904/is-gnosticism-winning-in-the-catholic-church-today/

(https://www.linkpicture.com/q/Avenue-of-Poplars-in-Autumn.jpeg) (https://www.linkpicture.com/view.php?img=LPic608420f696ff6620024849)

(Avenue of Poplars in Autumn by van Gogh)

(https://www.linkpicture.com/q/Peasant-Woman-Seated-before-an-Open-Door-Peeling-Potatoes.jpeg) (https://www.linkpicture.com/view.php?img=LPic6084218fa07d82001247346)

(Peasant Woman Seated before an Open Door Peeling Potatoes by van Gogh)

Were to close to your Uncle?

One moment we are here and the next we are gone,as the French say, c'est la vie.

I do not claim to understand existence at all.All I know is that it is full of pain and suffering.

Take care.
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: Holden on April 24, 2021, 11:05:17 am
"Can it be possible that I am as real as any one else, and that all of us — the cashier and banker at the Bank, the King on his throne — all feel ourselves like ghosts and goblins in this authentic world ?"

~ Logan Pearsall Smith
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: Holden on April 24, 2021, 11:35:09 am
We're clinging to the surface of this planet while it spins through space...'

Gregory's Girl, 1981, Bill Forsyth
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: Holden on April 24, 2021, 12:19:14 pm
For me, to be human is, for the most part, to hate what I am. When I suddenly realize that I am one of them, I want to scream in horror.
Robert Crumb
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: Holden on April 24, 2021, 12:21:11 pm
I hate the way the human psyche works, the way we are traumatized and stupidly imprinted in early childhood and have to spend the rest of our lives trying to overcome these infantile mental fixations. And we never ever fully succeed in this endeavor
Robert Crumb
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: Holden on April 24, 2021, 12:29:23 pm
One can experience loneliness in two ways: by feeling lonely in the world or by feeling the loneliness of the world.
Emil Cioran
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: raul on April 24, 2021, 04:45:35 pm
Holden,

Thank you for the link, the paintings and the quotes. I like Robert Crumb´s quotes. It is very enlightening.

The article says that “Gnosticism has never gone away.” And the autor adds that “We want a perfection that is not available in this life, and we are unwilling to wait for the reign of God to get it. So we manufacture a formula that will fix things.”

On the issue of peddophilia I am sure most of these Vatican authorities knew about it and decided to keep the matter silent for decades. I remember your link about Father Marcial Maciel. If what the alternative blogs say is true then the Vatican has no more funds and that will lead to many unpleasant revelations.

Last month a Catholic priest, Father Velazco, a Spaniard living here, performed Mass in Capiatá, a town not far from the capital. He was much questioned for that and now the Paraguayan Prosecutor´s office is prosecuting him.

Yes, I hope my uncle rests in peace. I was not close to my uncle. Still I feel sad. That is the way most patients are dying. Alone. My cousin is a lawyer and he should have requested an autopsy but I know he is not going to do that.

My uncle became a father again in 1996 at the age of 55. I suppose things will change a lot for my youngest female cousin.

As you say “One moment we are here and the next we are gone,as the French say, c'est la vie.”

Take care.

P.S. You may find this article interesting. It is written by Martin Butler.
https://martinbutler.substack.com/p/spinoza-on-the-futility-of-remorse
Title: In Memorium Patruus ( To Senor Raul)
Post by: Holden on April 25, 2021, 11:10:12 am
Senor Raul,

Thanks for your message.

These are for you:
(https://www.linkpicture.com/q/Vincent_van_Gogh_-_The_potato_eaters.jpg) (https://www.linkpicture.com/view.php?img=LPic60857dc00c45b651571952)

(The Potato Eaters by van Gogh)

(https://www.linkpicture.com/q/Landscape-at-Sunset.jpeg) (https://www.linkpicture.com/view.php?img=LPic60857e05415bf671168379)

(Landscape at Sunset by van Gogh)

I think you feel sad because you might have known your Uncle ever since you were a little kid.
In the twilight glow,I look out of the window and see the dying Sun and wish to go down along with it.

Every day is like an endless era and all I wish to do is to remain inside.Earlier I even used to keep the windows closed and I suspect that that might have something to do with my having become a tubercular.

These days I keep the window open in order to get some fresh air-it helps me to breathe better.
I am estranged from  almost all of my relatives-they are a brood of vipers.

Thanks for the Martin Butler article link. I find him to an interesting and   an honest thinker.
If man is a social animal,then I am certainly not a man. Maybe I am an Aardwolf- an animal who is supposed to be very reclusive.

A song in memory of your late Uncle:

https://youtu.be/f-G9VgB40mg

Take care and please do keep writing-for it is precious.
Title: Se7en
Post by: raul on April 25, 2021, 05:28:53 pm
Holden aka The Aardwolf,

Thank you for your words, the video and the paintings by Van Gogh.

I like cold, cloudy and windy days because they go with the gloomy mood but I live in a sub-tropical country.

I like Van Gogh´s Potato Eaters. If the government here continues to restrict the activities people will not even eat potatoes.

The funny thing is that the Paraguayan president will go to Miami to attend a conference next month. He is going to a city where there are no lockdowns, no face masks and no vaccines. Hahaha.

Many years ago I saw a movie Se7en with Morgan Freeman (Detective Somerset) and Brad Pitt (Detective Mills). The title is due to the fact that  there are seven deadly sins: gluttony, wrath, greed, envy, sloth, pride and lust.

In a scene we have the following dialogue:
SOMERSET:

                   I think Hemingway wrote somewhere... I
                   can't remember where, but he wrote that in
                   order to live in a place like this, you
                   have to have the ability to kill.  I think
                   he meant you truly must be able to do it,
                   not just faking it, too survive.

Sleep well.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YGbHjpC0Lgg
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: Gorticide :: Admin Elder Warrior on April 26, 2021, 11:54:01 pm
Senor Raul,

I have been searching for English translations of anything by Albert Caraco, especially Post Mortem, but there are only the Turkish and Italian.   I am grateful that you have taken the time to translate paragraphs from your Spanish translation.   

Thank you very much for this work you do.   Your translations are, as Holden says, precious.

I was interested in Caraco's work mainly because he says his love for his mother was halved.  This is a sad and frustrating phenomenon.   It is gut-wrenching, really.

Money stress caused by unfair finance charges by banks on equity loan payments, as well as the rising costs of food (as well as tobacco and other stimulants for me) increase anxiety levels for both of us.   We can be kind and tender one moment, and then biting each other's heads off.   It sometimes makes me wish to drop dead on the spot.

(about his mother after her death)

Quote from: Albert Caraco
I ask myself if I love her and I have to answer: No, I reproach her for having castrated me ... and besides... she threw me into the world and I profess to hate the world. 

Ernest Becker had also explored similarly disturbing and unpleasant "feelings" in Denial of Death (http://whybother.freeboards.org/what-now/creatureliness/msg5545/#msg5545) --- Most may not even allow themselves to consider such "true feelings," or, if they acknowledge them, perhaps they just allow the hatreds and resentments to fester.

Quote from: Albert Caraco
It seems to me that this is a rather unusual love language in a man who pretends not to love his mother, these contradictions are natural, I am full of meanders, in short I write and that says it all, I get lost in my own path. Love or lack of love? Let's put them together or one after the other, the truth is, I ignore it. While Father sheds a few tears, my eyes remain as dry as ever, it is true that I never cry, I should not be labeled as indifferent, my ideas forbid me the pathos, my style forbids me even to contemplate it. 

The worst part about these intense tensions between us, and this resentment building in me at being harassed by my little old Maman on a regular basis, is that I suspect I am eventually in for a terrible shock, for you see, unlike Caraco, I cannot see my eyes remaining dry.

I almost wish I could muster more grace and tenderness towards her (Mom), but it is not for the noble reason of truly caring for her, but only - I suspect - to protect me from future gut-wrenching pangs in my breast.

"... Jews thank God every day for having made them men." - Caraco

I have heard this before as well.  In fact, I remind people of this if I am ever accused of having a bad attitude toward women.   I respect that I cannot know what it is like to be a woman, and so I try not to judge any individual woman too harshly.    I think John Trudell is right when he says we judge ourselves the harshest, and that we must refuse to cooperate with those who would try to break our spirit.   He says the way to not cooperate is to stop damning ourselves.

The way I resist damning myself for losing my temper sometimes with she who carried me in her womb is to respect the fact that I do put up with many annoyances.

Life is sad, for sure.

[all these quotes are from your translations (http://whybother.freeboards.org/general-discussion/a-question-for-herr-hauser-and-senor-raul/msg9387/#msg9387)]

Quote from: Albert Caraco
... Jews thank God every day for having made them men.

Attention to women is therefore natural, we strive to comfort them from the misery that comes with their sex, commonly our laws serve to redouble it, starting with moral and religious laws, women seem to be their victims, even more deplorable by making them consent in their condition. For centuries, we have forced them into permanent pregnancy and instilled in them the most inhumane ideas: and what could be more atrocious than our ideal of fertility?  We degrade women to the level of impersonal instruments and force them to produce those to whom they immolate themselves.

Blessed are the chaste! Blessed are the barren! Christ and Buddha were of the same opinion and since one and the other have died, how many of the billions of humans coming into the world seemed worthy of envy? A tiny number, no doubt. What did Plato say? That the happiest man of his time, the Great King of Persia, counted some few days as beautiful as a night without dreams. When I look at those who swear that life is a delight, I find them neither beautiful nor well-born, neither reasonable nor sensitive, neither fine nor wise, nor profound, but very similar to what they exalt. 

He claims to have little love for his mother, and yet his sympathy for her sex is apparent.   I guess we each must grapple with these kinds of confusing contradictions in our hearts.

Quote from: Senor Raul
My uncle became a father again in 1996 at the age of 55. I suppose things will change a lot for my youngest female cousin.

This is something that makes me a little anxious, that is, that I am aware that I am still quite vulnerable to maybe "falling passionately in LUST-LIKE-LOVE" with a fertile young woman at the drop of a dime.  I pride myself on not having brought a child into this Hell World, but there have been so few women who have pursued me that I can hardly take credit for my antinatalist way of life. 

When a woman shows any interest in me whatsoever, I tend to daydream about her for a while.  That is, I experience what is called "intrusive thoughts" --- I am afraid of the pining which would ensue were we to cuddle up and allow our fleshy creaturely presences to bond.

I watch ducks pair bond ... like some old foolish Romantic.

Today I witnessed a male squirrel actually trying to "rape" a very young female squirrel who appeared quite terrified.   A bird actually flew down trying to protect her.  Maybe the bird and she were friends.  Who knows?   I spontaneously and immediately got involved.  That is, I chased the male squirrel away from the little female.    I find myself absurd and ridiculous in such moments.    ::)
Title: In a Byzantine Place ( To Senor Raul)
Post by: Holden on April 27, 2021, 10:07:32 am
Senor Raul,

I could not write to you yesterday as I work in a Kafkeque office and I am supposed to work extra hours because the system has been designed in a Byzantine manner.Now  that I am not a complete newbie I strive to just about keep the remnant of my sanity intact.But when I was a greenhorn, I suffered from panic attacks every single hour.

I have observed that those who have retired from the office,those scoundrels are brainwashed to such an extent that even now they keep trying to contact me to “advice” me and their favourite pastime is to dial-up the head office and tell them what a terrible employee I(Holden) am.

I had to even give the middle finger to the head office a couple of times,before they got the hint that I do not give a damn about holding down this job( or my life for that matter).I am the enfant terrible of my company.

Over here ,after thirty, if one is still single then he is pigeon holed as a creep.This is a practice which I greatly appreciate as I want everyone to stay away from the creep who is writing this.

These are for you:

(https://www.linkpicture.com/q/Skull-with-Burning-Cigarette.jpg) (https://www.linkpicture.com/view.php?img=LPic6088187ace760991474006)

(Skull with a Burning Cigarette by van Gogh)

(https://www.linkpicture.com/q/Skull.jpg) (https://www.linkpicture.com/view.php?img=LPic608818a888ed4516590675)

(Skull by van Gogh)


https://youtu.be/zU4pfOYI1a4
Take care.
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: raul on April 27, 2021, 04:34:56 pm
Hentrich aka The Gardener,

Thank you for your comments. Every word I write could be my last because anything can happen here.

What you wrote indirectly reminds me of something that happened here.

In Ciudad del Este, a city on the border with Brazil, a policeman went to the supermarket with his wife and left the children in the car. The policeman left his weapon loaded in the car and the 5-year-old boy found it and started playing with it and killed his 2-year-old sister by accident inside the car.

When the couple came back they were shocked with what they found. The prosecutor´s office is prosecuting both parents, specially the policeman for his neglect.

Translation is difficult. In the case of Albert Caraco I found the book in Spanish translated from French in ebiblioteca.org. But you lose a lot of the meaning in the translations.

On the issue of banks, well, let me say that banks are institutions designed to rob people. Some people have told me that they owe money to the bank and when they fail to pay the bank calls them two or three times every week. The case is that each phone call or note is paid by the debtor. Bankers never lose money.

It is not socially or politically correct to criticize one´s mother. People will think that you are worse than a mass murderer or serial killer. I have been always told that our mothers gave us the gift of life and that we should always be grateful to them.

In my case no woman pursued me but still I am relieved that I never brought any child into this world of monsters.

Nobody can blame you for, as you say, "falling passionately in LUST-LIKE-LOVE" with a fertile young woman at the drop of a dime.” We are all vulnerable. The sex urge is very powerful.

Drive carefully.
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: raul on April 27, 2021, 04:37:04 pm
Holden The Terrible,

Thank you for your comments and the link to the Trial by Orson Wells.

I like Skulls with a Burning Cigarrette by Van Gogh. What an illuminating picture of our human condition! I wonder if there is a Van Gogh somewhere that will paint something similar.

I hope you are able to keep your sanity intact as you say.It is an overwhelming task because we live in a crazy world where the demons rule this world and your office specially.

Your coworkers say you are a terrible employee. I think that is a compliment coming from them. You are very nice to these people. Others would not only give the middle finger but also insert a broomstick into that place where the sun does not shine.

We often do not hear news from India but now the Paraguayan mass media is broadcasting news from there and I suppose their intention is to instill fear. 300,000 die every day in India, the mass media reports. 

P.S. I would like to suggest that you and the readers of this blog read Lazarus by Leonid Andreyev. You may find it interesting.

https://leonidandreyev.com/lazarus-1/
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: Holden on April 28, 2021, 05:09:41 am
“𝘛𝘰 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘥𝘶𝘮𝘣 𝘲𝘶𝘦𝘴𝘵𝘪𝘰𝘯 "𝘞𝘩𝘺 𝘮𝘦?" 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘤𝘰𝘴𝘮𝘰𝘴 𝘣𝘢𝘳𝘦𝘭𝘺 𝘣𝘰𝘵𝘩𝘦𝘳𝘴 𝘵𝘰 𝘳𝘦𝘵𝘶𝘳𝘯 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘳𝘦𝘱𝘭𝘺: 𝘸𝘩𝘺 𝘯𝘰𝘵?”

— 𝘊𝘩𝘳𝘪𝘴𝘵𝘰𝘱𝘩𝘦𝘳 𝘏𝘪𝘵𝘤𝘩𝘦𝘯𝘴
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: Holden on April 28, 2021, 05:20:31 am
'𝘛𝘪𝘳𝘦𝘥, 𝘵𝘪𝘳𝘦𝘥 𝘸𝘪𝘵𝘩 𝘯𝘰𝘵𝘩𝘪𝘯𝘨, 𝘵𝘪𝘳𝘦𝘥 𝘸𝘪𝘵𝘩 𝘦𝘷𝘦𝘳𝘺𝘵𝘩𝘪𝘯𝘨, 𝘵𝘪𝘳𝘦𝘥 𝘸𝘪𝘵𝘩 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘸𝘰𝘳𝘭𝘥’𝘴 𝘸𝘦𝘪𝘨𝘩𝘵 𝘩𝘦 𝘩𝘢𝘥 𝘯𝘦𝘷𝘦𝘳 𝘤𝘩𝘰𝘴𝘦𝘯 𝘵𝘰 𝘣𝘦𝘢𝘳.'

—𝘍. 𝘚𝘤𝘰𝘵𝘵 𝘍𝘪𝘵𝘻𝘨𝘦𝘳𝘢𝘭𝘥
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: Holden on April 28, 2021, 05:24:17 am
'Suicide fails as you get older cause there’s less and less to kill.'

—Charles Bukowski
Title: Sadness( To Senor Raul)
Post by: Holden on April 28, 2021, 01:49:36 pm
Senor Raul,

Thanks for the message.

These are for you:

(https://www.linkpicture.com/q/E0DVR6wWEAE6FKx.jpg) (https://www.linkpicture.com/view.php?img=LPic608964a15a040290754725)

( by Unknown)

(https://www.linkpicture.com/q/EyjmRsKVIAMj449.jpg) (https://www.linkpicture.com/view.php?img=LPic608964d93ca441217658733) 

(by Unknown)

Yes, things are not perfect here.

I have escaped the viral matrix because of my introversion.I contracted tuberculosis not because I was going out on pleasure trips but because the folks in my office forced me to go out on business trips while they lazed around.

Take care.

Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: Holden on April 29, 2021, 02:37:57 pm
https://youtu.be/jEDeqlKh_u4
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: Holden on April 29, 2021, 03:07:40 pm
https://youtu.be/ig446isvXlI
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: raul on April 29, 2021, 06:56:26 pm
Holden,

Thank you for the pictures.

The reign of the Inquisition is over officially but there have been other kinds of inquisition with their torture methods. Nobody escapes.

I wonder if I were a torturer for the Inquisition in another life. Did I enjoy seeing the prisoners suffer? Yes, I probably did.

If it were for me, I would like you to find a bullions of gold or inherit millions of dollars so that you can leave that nasty job you have there and devote your time to your studies but I am afraid that is not going to happen. So I can only hope you have some tranquility wherever you go.

Stay safe.
Title: Life as Gulag (To Senor Raul)
Post by: Holden on April 30, 2021, 09:08:28 am
Senor Raul,

Thanks for the message.

These are for you:

(https://www.linkpicture.com/q/Interior-Of-a-Prison-by-Goya.jpg) (https://www.linkpicture.com/view.php?img=LPic608bf87d9ea551123551175)
(Interior of a Prison by Goya)


https://youtu.be/ozpct8zUA_U

(https://www.linkpicture.com/q/Ghostly-Vision-by-Goya.jpg) (https://www.linkpicture.com/view.php?img=LPic608bf8fe8bd1b778497788)
(Ghostly Vision by Goya)

Life is becoming more difficult to put up with ,with each passing day.
Most of the time I keep feeling terrible.Above all, I despise human creatures who have caused me so much anguish.
I do not know how long one could survive in a world such as this one.There is no way one could keep remain hidden permanently.They always get one sooner rather than latter.
How can one ever have socialism in a world such as this one? Such foolish ideas. When they try to implement Utopian projects one ends up getting literal hell.

I wish they gave me a strong enough morphine shot to free me from this prison of flesh instead of a Covidshield shot.The human body can withstand only so much torture.The human mind withstand only so much pain.

Take care.
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: raul on April 30, 2021, 04:32:55 pm
Holden,

Thank you again for the paintings and the link to Doctor Zhivago.  Omar Shariff is a fine actor. I saw him in a movie called The Night of the Generals with Peter O´Toole and Donald Pleasance.

“The personal life is dead in Russia” says the miserable Red commander. “History has killed it”, he adds.
Again the commander says “the private life is dead, for any man, with any manhood”. He utters true words.

There are people who c0ollect birth certificates, titles, diplomas, IDs, passports, pictures, and albums. They show that they passed through this world.

I prefer the Ghostly Vision by Goya.

Who can blame you for despising the human creatures who caused you so much anguish?

Who can blame you for despising your colleagues at work after you contracted tuberculosis because the folks in the office forced you to go out on business trips while they lazed around?

Had I been born in India I could have been one of your colleagues who forced you to go out on business trips. After all I belong to the seed of Cain, our true father.

But again the problem started thirty-eight years ago when a baby called Holden was pulled out of his mother´s womb in the hospital.

We are just lambs to slaughter.

Stay safe.
Title: An Open Wound in My Breast (To Senor Raul)
Post by: Holden on May 01, 2021, 07:33:07 am

Senor Raul,

Thanks for your message.

To give you some idea about potent pessimism that flows in my veins allow me to share the description of the kind of place and historical background I come from,(excerpts taken from The Mughal World by Abraham Eraly):

The single most appalling fact of life in Mughal India was famine, a spectre present at the turn of every season. Famine was of course an old problem in India, mentioned even in the Jataka tales of ancient India, but the graphic descriptions of famine horrors in medieval writings scorch even in cold print. 'The author with his own eyes witnessed the fact that men ate their own kind, and the appearance of famished sufferers was so hideous that one could scarcely look upon them,' says Badauni about the famine that ravaged Hindustan in 1555.

One of the worst famines in India in Mughal times was the one that swept through Gujarat and the Deccan early in the reign of Shah Jahan, in which some 3 million people are said to have perished. 'Life was offered for a loaf of bread, but none would buy,' writes Lahori; 'rank was to be sold for cake, but non cared for it ...Destitution at length reached such a pitch that men began to devour each other, and the flesh of a son was preferred to his love.'

Writes van Twist, a Dutch merchant in the Deccan during famine: 'So little rain fell that the seed sown was lost and no grass grew. Cattle died. In towns and villages, in fields and on roads, men lay dead in great numbers, causing such a stench that it was terrible to to use the ways. For want of grass cattle fed on corpses....As the famine increased, men abandoned towns and villages, and wandered helplessly.


It was easy to recognize their condition: eyes sunk deep in the head, lips pale and covered in slime, the skin hard, with the bones showing through, the belly nothing but a pouch hanging down empty, knuckles and knee-caps showing prominently..
Men deserted their wives and children. Women sold themselves as slaves.


Mothers sold their children. Children deserted by their parents sold themselves. Some families took poison, and so died together; others threw themselves into the rivers. Mothers and their children went to the river-bank, and drowned themselves hand in hand, so the rivers flowed full of corpses. Some ate carrion flesh.


Others cut up the corpses of men,and drew out the entrails to fill their own bellies; yes, men lying in the street, not yet dead, were cut up by others, and men fed on living men, so that even in the streets, and still more on road-journeys, men ran great danger of being murdered and eaten.'

'Terrible tragedies were seen every day,' continues van Twist. It was reported that 'a mother had killed and cooked her only son...that husbands had eaten their wives, wives their husbands, children their parents...Some of our Dutchmen, coming from Ahmadabad, found some people sitting at a little fire where hands and feet were cooking, a terrible thing to see. Even worse was it in the village of Susuntra, where human flesh was sold in open market.'


When at last the rain fell, prices drop, but the relief was short lived, for soon 'locust,rats,mice,and other vermin' ravaged the young crops, and finally, to cap the misery,'continuous heavy rain when the crops were ripening caused much grain to perish in the fields; flooded rivers caused much grain loss in towns,villages,and the country; and prices rose higher than ever. Thus famine lasted throughout the year, and pestilence and fever followed, so that scarcely a healthy man could be found,' concludes the Dutchman.


'The dead lay scattered in the streets. Corpses lay for days in the houses, because men could not be paid to carry them out. Wood could not be had for the pyres and unburnt corpses were buried or thrown into the river.'

The veracity of van Twist is confirmed by Mustaid Khan in his description of a famine which devastated the Deccan during Aurangzeb's siege of Golconda: 'Kos after Kos(Miles after Miles) the eye fell only on mounds of corpses. The incessant rain melted away the flesh and the skin... After some months when the rains ceased, the white ridges of bones looked from a distance like hillocks of snow.'

The amount spent on famine relief were trivial compared to the extravagant personal expenses of the emperor and the amirs(the Mughal)--for instance, the 100000 rupees disbursed by Shah Jahan for famine relief were a mere 1/10th of the annual pin money of Mumtaz Mahal(the queen)!


These are for you:

(https://www.linkpicture.com/q/By-Goya.jpg) (https://www.linkpicture.com/view.php?img=LPic608d38f7ccab61288978841)
(By  Goya)


(https://www.linkpicture.com/q/edvard-munch-95002154-c385eabcc3304eb99e4cd6a004f6f0b2.jpg) (https://www.linkpicture.com/view.php?img=LPic608d393162151511359141)
(Munch)

Munch describes The Scream as follows:

"I was walking along the road with two of my friends. Then the sun set. The sky suddenly turned into blood, and I felt something akin to a touch of melancholy. I stood still, leaned against the railing, dead tired. Above the blue black fjord and city hung clouds of dripping, rippling blood. My friends went on and again I stood, frightened with an open wound in my breast. A great scream pierced through nature."

I wonder if you would be so kind as to share with me your thoughts on the Spanish Inquisition and about the Spanish efforts to push the Arabs out of Spain.

I seem to like the twilight.Maybe because the dying Sun reminds me of my own death.Maybe my happiest day would be my dying day.


Take care.
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: Holden on May 02, 2021, 03:19:57 am
https://youtu.be/bHUd6-A0lt4
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: Holden on May 02, 2021, 03:25:47 am
https://youtu.be/5DbJTDFIVPQ
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: raul on May 02, 2021, 06:43:53 am
Holden,

Thank you for the paintings and your description of your historical background. It is a very powerful description. The little I know is your description can be compared to what happened in Europe during the Black Plague. Of course there are other tragedies but that´s the only event I can remember.

Famines have been another form of weapon of mass destruction.

Earth has been a prison/slaughterhouse. Every centimeter of our planet is soaked in blood. Atrocities are being committed every single second. Right now the medical death squads are committing mass murders on a global scale. Horror is endless.

When I was in secondary school the history about the Reconquest was that the last Moorish kingdom of Granada fell to the armies of King Ferdinand V and Queen Isabella I. Boabdil was the last King and he surrendered his forces on January 2, 1492 after more than seven hundred years of Muslim rule. This made the unification of Spain possible.

After that all the Muslims were forced to become Christians and those who did not conform were expelled from Spain. Then we were taught that Ferdinand and Isabella had the famous meeting with Christopher Columbus who was in need of support for his expedition. Clearly the Inquisition in Spain had much to do with the forced conversions and expulsion.

The Inquisition considered an offense the practice of Islam. Also the possession of works in Arabic immediately led one to become suspect.

I think that most Spaniards who came to these lands were directly or indirectly Arabs so I may have some Arab or even Jewish ancestors. In Spain, I learned, before the end of the Moorish kingdom some Jews had my last name.

My late mother did not like black people because she thought they were not real humans. It must have been a disappointment to her when I was born with a dark skin while my sister has a white skin.

I sometimes wonder if Mr.Death will give us the peace we have been hoping for. What does await us in that so-called unknown beyond?

Lothario dei Segni aka Pope Innocent III), the persecutor of the Cathars, nevertheless uttered these truths:

.with tears in my eyes I shall take up first what a man is made of; second what a man does; and finally what man is to be.

. . . . Man was formed of dust, slime, and ashes; what is even more vile, of the filthiest seed. He was conceived from the itch of the flesh, in the heat of passion and the stench of lust, and worse yet, with the stain of sin. He was born to toil, dread and trouble; and more wretched still, was born only to die. He commits depraved acts by which he offends God, his neighbor, and himself; shameful acts by which he defiles his name, his person, and his conscience; and vain acts by which he ignores all things important, useful, and necessary. He will become fuel for those fires which are forever hot and burn forever bright; food for the worm which forever nibbles and digests; a mass of rottenness which will forever stink and reek.


Stay safe.
Title: It is so Clear It Cannot be Helped(To Senor Raul)
Post by: Holden on May 02, 2021, 03:30:32 pm


Senor Raul,

Thanks for your message. These are for you:

(https://www.linkpicture.com/q/Witeches-Sabbath.jpg) (https://www.linkpicture.com/view.php?img=LPic608ef8a65dab61956710474)
(Witches’ Sabbath by Goya)

(https://www.linkpicture.com/q/The-Fates.jpg) (https://www.linkpicture.com/view.php?img=LPic608ef90c7342d901221685)
(The Fates by Goya)

Existence is another word for suffering. One of my uncles is desperately looking for a bride for his son(arranged marriage).That cousin of mine is still studying and has no job and yet his father is insistent.

Maybe within a couple of years he would have sired a kid or two. The vicious cycle continues. Maybe they do not wish to look at the details because they find the devil there. But I do. I wish to understand every single detail.

The uncle is old, after a few years he might die-his personal agony would end, so probably, he wants to make sure that his grand kid is here to make up for it.

I can understand hunger (though there are ways of defeating that too), but I do not understand this blood fest (well, maybe I do, but the pain remains nevertheless).

Take care.

https://youtu.be/60iOcPw_xPU
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: raul on May 03, 2021, 11:33:00 am
Holden,

Thank you for Goya´s paintings and the link to Van Gogh. I wonder if Goya ever went or participated in a coven. His painting is remarkable.

Existence is suffering as you say. Every single human being has been witnessing atrocities of all sorts since we left our mothers´wombs. That is the reality of this criminal world each of us has to face every day.

This dehumanitzation leads us to lose empathy and therefore become pyschopaths. In order to survive in this prison you must have a heart made of steel.

This universe should not have existed.

Is it not a mystery that so there is so much intelligence in the human cells, in the blood system, the neuronal network? To what end? To each up each other?

Life is a calamity. Life has imposed on us a cycle of devastation and lies. This world is not a paradise and it clearly it was not intended to be.

We have also been made to make our fellow human beings suffer.

On the issue of your uncle, I can only say that humans are designed to procreate.My other surviving uncle will turn 80 in October. He became a father at the age of 51. The blood fest will continue. Has my uncle or my aunt ever questioned that his children will be slaves the same way they have been?

Pisssing, Shittting, having sex, drinking and eating give pleasure. We have been designed with pleasure sensors. Our makers knew what they were doing in order to fatten the human farm.

Around 150,000 babies come to this country. The law says that they are under the protection of the Paraguayan State. Thousands of them have no access to medication and food enough to help them survive in their first five years of life.
Thousands of them do not have access to a hospital in case of emergency in their towns or cities. There are no X-rays, no ambulance, no hospital beds, no equipment, no nurses, and above all no political will to remedy this tragedy.

Hundreds die in the first years because their parents do not have the basic to survive. Clearly these things do not happen at random. The governments every year have applied murderous policies to ensure their parents stay jobless and healthless. As usual death is good for business.

Being alive is pure horror.

Sleep well.
Title: Death in the Sick Room
Post by: Holden on May 03, 2021, 02:38:27 pm
Senor Raul,.

Thanks for your message.

These are for you:


(https://www.linkpicture.com/q/The-Sick-Child-Munch.jpg) (https://www.linkpicture.com/view.php?img=LPic609045483e7c81921808379)

The Sick Child By Munch

(https://www.linkpicture.com/q/800px-Edvard_Munch_-_Death_in_the_Sickroom_-_Google_Art_Project.jpg) (https://www.linkpicture.com/view.php?img=LPic609046571b7ec253186249)

Death in the Sick Room by Munch

When I get out of my flat,almost everyday, I see a kitten. I can see fear in its eyes as well as hunger.I am afraid and the kitten is afraid too.The neighborhood cat gives birth to so many kittens every year and then they are required to fend for themselves.

I greatly admire the fact that you have never been involved in what is called  “amorous entanglement”.It tells me that you possess an enormous amount of honesty.

Grim as your description of the Paraguayan situation is, I am afraid ,over here things are a thousand times worse, if for no other reason, then, because we are out-breeding even the rabbits. I am surrounded by babies poping out of wombs.No wonder they believe I have lost my marbles.

I mean,okay, I understand that not every one is a natural born introvert like me, fine,one can copulate to one’s heart content, just have the decency to use a rubber.But no, evidently, that is too much to ask.
Take care ,Senor Raul, you are a latter-day Cervantes.
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: raul on May 03, 2021, 06:53:11 pm
Holden,

Thank you again for your words and Munch´s paintings. I am just a vulgar scribbler in this board.

Indeed the Paraguayan situation is nothing compared to what happens in India. As to whether people should use the rubber in order to copulate; well, you ask too much. Many do not wear it because they say that sex with condom causes bad smell.

I am not involved in an amorous entanglement, as you call it, and that gives me a lot of relief. Babies are poor and helpless victims. People do not want to know that we are all guinea pigs, even those in power, in a demoniac laboratory where we are subjected to exploitation at all levels.

Sometimes I envy those who live without asking questions. Years ago I was one of them too. They are happier than all of us, I suppose. They are not aware that we are in a prison called life. This world is hell and the demons trapped us to feed off on our suffering.

But honestly I am also a little human demon with murderous thoughts towards my fellow human beings. 

Take care.
Title: Life is Terribly Sad(To Senor Raul)
Post by: Holden on May 04, 2021, 10:29:56 am
Senor Raul,

Thanks for your message.

These are for you:

(https://www.linkpicture.com/q/a181a05b39a28b607387e955cb1968ed.jpg) (https://www.linkpicture.com/view.php?img=LPic6091597d4e825265448530)

(https://www.linkpicture.com/q/b34.jpg) (https://www.linkpicture.com/view.php?img=LPic609159c7338d11503028147)
(Images not mine)
You are right-only an evil entity could have fashioned this world.

People around me are glutton for punishment.They wish to give birth as many times as possible. If possible, they would give birth even on their death beds.They are dying like flies.No matter, far more babies are entering this slaughterhouse at the same time.

Pregnant ladies flaunt their swollen tummies and one is required to tell them that they are “glowing”.
What do they say about apple pie and motherhood? That they are sacrosanct. One would give one diabetes and the other results in unending misery.

If these were the only options that I’d rather get diabetes than create unending misery.

You have been reading that people over here are suffering a great deal due to corona.No.What they are suffering from is Baby Fever. They go gaga for goo goo.

Take care.
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: raul on May 04, 2021, 05:07:34 pm
Holden,

Thanks again for the paintings.

Here May 15 is Mother´s Day. People will buy lots of flowers and gifts on that day. 
Yes, that´s what they say. That motherhood is sacrosanct. Motherhood is not to be questioned at any time. Womanhood is only cherished after bringing a baby to this world. What about men? We are part of this hellish game.

Unending misery is not in the mind of present and future parents.Life is a beautiful blessing and the future is bright.

But again this is the way we have been programmed. We, humans, are stubborn optimists.

I saw some documentaries about the battles in WW1. Did the British, French, German, Austrian, Russian and Italian mothers feel guilty for sending their sons to be butchered in the trenches? I think not.
They only blamed the kings and the generals for their decisions. Of course they were guilty but the corpses came out of women´s wombs.

Stay safe.
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: Holden on May 05, 2021, 05:43:34 pm
Senor Raul,
Thanks for your message.
My computer is not working and due to lockdown I cannot get another one.Cosmic destitution.

Like Cioran,I hardly get any sleep during the night .I was been born in a land where being born has long been considered a curse.

I am a prisoner of life,of history.

Take care.


Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: Holden on May 06, 2021, 04:18:03 am
“My cowardice in front of authorities. I feel completely lost before someone in official capacity. In this respect I’m clearly the descendent of a people of slaves, humiliated and beaten for centuries. As soon as I see a uniform, I feel guilty.”Cioran
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: Holden on May 06, 2021, 04:43:22 am
Humiliations, says, Cioran, are the hardest thing to forget, and he himself—despite his attraction to Buddhism and other religions preaching asceticism and renunciation—could never rise above them.
(From Searching for Cioran)
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: Holden on May 06, 2021, 04:52:12 am
   On the 18th of this month [December 1957], death of my father. I don’t know but I feel that I will weep for him some other time. I feel so absent to myself that I don’t even have the force of a regret, and so low, that I can’t raise myself to the level of a memory or a regret.
(From Searching for Cioran)
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: raul on May 06, 2021, 08:06:42 am
Holden,

Thank you for your words,

Below is a a link. You and the readers of this blog will find it enlightening.

Stay safe.

http://inannagoddess.org/journey/my-last-words-to-my-loved-ones/
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: raul on May 06, 2021, 09:41:52 am
Holden,

You and the readers of this blog will find this article interesting below.

Take care.

https://bloodknife.com/gnostic-horror-fall-into-history/
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: Holden on May 07, 2021, 06:53:18 am
Senor Raul,
Thanks for your messages.I have ordered cheapest computer possible ,under the circumstances.I might get it after 4-5 days ,then,I would be able to write properly. Now,I am writing using my phone.


Life is full of pain,suffering and misery.

I wonder if you have come across any alien activity in Paraguay.

Take care.Thanks again for your messages.
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: raul on May 07, 2021, 02:46:54 pm
Holden,

Thank you for your message. I hope you can get your computer. My computer is not working well so probably I will do my best to write here in a cyber.

I have just heard on a Paraguayan radio station that a soccer player called Polenta in the Paraguayan championship makes $150,000 (salary and soccer pass). I know in Europe there are players that make millions of euros but still it is a lot of money here.

I heard that alien ships were spotted in some parts of the country but that´s all I know. In the government palace there many aliens aka politicians. They definitely do not belong to Earth!

As you said we are prisoners of life.

I found this quote in reddit:

The human race to which so many belong looks to me like a bad joke. Theodore Gottlieb, a German-American actor (1906-2001)

Stay safe.
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: Holden on May 08, 2021, 04:53:01 am
Senor Raul ,
Thanks for your message.This quote is for you:

Cioran escaped the leveling forces of fascism and communism and, self-exiled from his country’s history.


Take care.
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: Holden on May 08, 2021, 02:24:45 pm
Before him lay long years of wrenching inner conflict, during which he attempted to decide what the content of his spiritual mission was and, more importantly, to whom or to what it should be dedicated.

-Searching for Cioran
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: Holden on May 08, 2021, 02:31:08 pm
   Don’t I have to pay for all of my ancestors for whom only one book existed, what they called the book, that is the Bible? It’s both pleasant and humiliating to think that a few generations ago my people were savages, indigenous tribes. Juridically, they were slaves, forced to live in darkness; I feel the obligation to know everything.

-Searching for Cioran
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: Holden on May 08, 2021, 02:35:32 pm
Cella’s (very likely unwitting) insensitivity liberated Emil from the illusions of false romantic love and, more importantly, from yet another responsibility he was expected to assume in his adult life, marriage.

-Searching for Cioran
Title: A Man Who Sleeps
Post by: raul on May 08, 2021, 03:16:19 pm
Holden,

Indeed the gift of life that has been imposed on us is “wonderfully” painful.

I hope not to turn 60. I am only going to be a burden on myself. This existence becomes more horrific as every minute passes. There exists only horror that confront us since we came here.

You hear or see pain, sorrows, anguish, accidents,  atrocities on TV, and you cannot avoid seeing that. That is the reality of this insane and criminal world. Nothing much has changed and as it happens only a ruling elite governs and the others must obey. In itself it is unjust. But this is the world we were brought into.

Stay alert.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=n4mjVts0DF4
Title: Sad World (To Senor Raul)
Post by: Holden on May 09, 2021, 01:53:48 pm
Senor Raul,

Thanks for your message and the video.My laptop(the cheapest kind)has not yet arrived.

Have you come across any Scientologists in Paraguay?

When I was a student I was treated as an outsider by my fellow students because I kept quiet and did not take part in their childish games.

Anyway,one student in our class was significantly older.Most of us were around 21 or 22 but this person was 37 and also had a kid.

The kid was in grade 7 or 8.Because of the age this student was a misfit too and everyone used to tease him mercilessly.I never teased him though.

Sometimes I used to invite him for dinner and the kid also used to come.

You know that most kids are rude and impolite but this kid was very polite.He never misbehaved.He always used to come for dinner with one of his school books so that he could continue to study.

He wanted to be a lawyer.

Well,the college got over and we drifted apart and I came to know that he did study law (at the same university)and became a lawyer.

Then,one of my other batchmates told me that he died at the age of 23 or 24,almost immediately after finishing law college.

He was a very nice and polite kid.

There is more though.That old batchmate of mine was sad for a couple of years but then decided to have another baby at the age of 48!

I feel terribly sad.I wish I could leave this bad world at the earliest and see that polite kid once again.

Take care.
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: Holden on May 09, 2021, 02:01:13 pm
Senor Raul,

That video is out of this world.Thanks!
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: Holden on May 09, 2021, 03:18:51 pm
Status Nominal: All F*cked Up".
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: raul on May 10, 2021, 08:04:08 am
Holden,

I think the world is losing a story teller like you. The story about the older guy and his son is very sad. What you tell me about the father having another child at the age of 48 is just another example of the will to reproduction.

I have not come across any Scientologists here. I suppose there might be supporters or fans.

The will to life is strong. We wish to leave this insane world but we are chained to life.

Stay safe.
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: Holden on May 10, 2021, 04:51:39 pm
Senor Raul,

Thanks for your message.You are a very honest thinker.
Tomorrow I might get my cheap lappy and then I would be in a position to respond to you in a better manner.

The pandamic is still raging over here.You ideas about Gnosticism have helped me and the video as regards Gnosticism you shared with me is pure gold.

Take care.


Title: A rich man who gave everything
Post by: raul on May 10, 2021, 05:59:57 pm
Holden,

Thank you for your words. I am just a scribbler in this board. As I said you are a story teller. I wonder if you save all these posts in your computer.

Regarding Gnosticism I only read a little and shared what I understood. This world is full of sorrow, misery and pain.

I am full of apathy. A contradiction in words. I should say I am full of life. Some complain I don´t want to do anything. Are they right? Yes, they are.

Sometimes I envy the psychopaths. I read they do not feel empathy for others, pain, remorse or trauma. Do all of them like to inflict pain, I wonder?

Here the health authorities report that almost 100 people die due to the China bug every day. Are the figures accurate? I think not.

The government, as usual, is going to propose a bill to restrict the activities.  Since last year the government  has issued decrees.    

Stay alert.

P.S. From reddit
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=s9TOWIc_KLU
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: Holden on May 11, 2021, 12:53:49 am
"Ah! Schopenhauer alone was right. .. He did not claim to cure anything, and he offered no alleviation to the sick. But his theory of pessimism was, in the end, the great consoler of choice intellects and lofty souls."

Joris-Karl Huysmans
Against the Grain
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: Holden on May 11, 2021, 03:21:05 am
... because it’s all too much and not enough at the same time.

KEROUAC
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: Holden on May 11, 2021, 02:01:53 pm
Deep in earth my love is lying
And I must weep alone.

— E. Poe
Title: The World is Not Real(To Senor Raul)
Post by: Holden on May 11, 2021, 05:54:17 pm
Senor Raul,

This is for you:

(https://www.linkpicture.com/q/Scientists-simulate-the-Universe-s-birth-Credit-Patrick-LandmannScience-Photo-Library.jpg) (https://www.linkpicture.com/view.php?img=LPic609afb2a0c0431327443936)

(Scientists simulate the Universe’s birth Credit Patrick-Landmann Science Photo Library)

Thanks for your message.I got my cheap lappy today. But I think these laptops are very flimsy and get damaged easily (much like the human heart),better to use a rugged desktop which could stand the test of time(much like Ideas).

I had to make an official phone-call today and I hate doing that. Before I did that I focused on the unreality of this world and it made be feel better. The first man I called up was down with covid,so then, I had to call up his boss.Anyway, I did my duty.

These things I write to here are meant just for you and for the other readers of this message board. I harbour no ambitions of becoming any kind of writer.
In my land, they do not care for such things. They just wish to know if a man can do office work( in a superfast way) or sell some stuff or dig a ditch or delivery Amazon goods.

No, they do not care for the kind of things I write.They would never find such things interesting.Though they might very well use my skeleton,once I am no longer on this wretched earth, to teach bone-setters.

Anyway,let me come back to this idea of the unreality of this world,very much connected to Gnosticism.

These are some excerpts for you:

Philosopher Nick Bostrom of the University of Oxford in the UK has broken down this scenario into three possibilities. As he puts it, either:
(1) Intelligent civilisations never get to the stage where they can make such simulations, perhaps because they wipe themselves out first; or
(2) They get to that point, but then choose for some reason not to conduct such simulations; or
(3) We are overwhelmingly likely to be in such a simulation.
The question is ,which of the three,is most probable.

Astrophysicist and Nobel laureate George Smoot has argued that there is no compelling reason to believe (1) or (2).-BBC

                 https://youtu.be/GV1B33rjh5A
                 Take care.
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: raul on May 12, 2021, 03:32:17 pm
Holden,

Thank you for your message and the link. I am glad that you got your laptop. I hope you can use it as long as possible.

I understand that what you write is only for the readers of this board. Most people are not interested in deep issues. It is comprehensible because most do not want to complicate their lives. Let´s admit it. We are just a bunch of cowards.

The unreality of this world is a very deep subject.For most of us this is a very real world because we see it with our limited senses and a fragile body. In short, we are limited by the misery of the flesh.
If we are in a simulation; well, indeed it is a hell of a simulation.

This again reminds me of the Gnostics, as I read, who say that “The Earth is the underworld or lower world described by ancient philosophies and religions. The place where souls are tormented day and night suffering the miseries of the flesh.

From birth, the human being is already condemned to death. The individual begins to deteriorate in the process of decomposition of the flesh, due to the imperfection that permeates matter.

All living beings, especially humans, are full of diseases and condemned to prey on each other in order to survive in this hell, from the mineral kingdom, through the animal kingdom and then the human kingdom, to finally end up being swallowed by the Demiurge, which is given a great feast at the end of each cycle of the world (Creation and Destruction).

Hence the importance of freeing our spirit chained to matter. The only real purpose that every human being should have, is to fight to escape from the material prison in which he has been condemned.”

Life is a sad business. Fabricated famines and wars,economic crises, p(l)andemic,etc. That´s life in this prison planet.

Apocaliptic times.

Again this universe should have not existed.

Stay safe.
Title: A Lost Soul Remembers Another( To Senor Raul)
Post by: Holden on May 12, 2021, 03:56:01 pm

Senor Raul,
This is for you:

(https://www.linkpicture.com/q/cioran.jpg) (https://www.linkpicture.com/view.php?img=LPic609c30c9c06581650821667)

Thank you for your message.

Most people barely understand anything.Like an animal they like to eat and breed. Without a single honest thought. No sleep last night for me.Slept around 6 a.m. Why do I keep awake? I guess there is a great deal of anxiety within me.
The Catholic priests are supposed to study a lot of philosophy and yet they are also supposed to continue to believe in hocus-pocus.While Schopenhauer admired the pessimistic aspects of Catholicism( he did not think Protestantism possessed any saving grace at all),he was also honest enough to be an outright atheist( no Good God for him).
Cioran’s father was an orthodox priest and yet I find him rebelling against his father’s faith while he was still an adolescent.During Sunday afternoons he writhed on the floor in epilepsy-like fits.He roamed the town during the night,unable to fall asleep.I,on the other hand, roam the internet during my sleepless nights,looking for lost souls,kindred spirits.

Ciroan visited the local brothel. I have never done that. No, my mind is fertile enough to make do without visiting a whorehouse.
Like Cioran, I am deeply conflicted as regards my culture. My land is much bigger than his.Yet, I am almost completely alienated from my land’s popular culture. I do not watch its movies,I do not idolise cricket superstars(so-called). I think, my true home is where Schopenhauer and Cioran dwell( and I suspect ,the authors of the Upanishads as well).

https://youtu.be/3LGKxECVt5U

Take care.
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: Holden on May 12, 2021, 04:32:38 pm
Venom on my tongue, poisonous vibrations.-Tuna
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: Holden on May 13, 2021, 09:45:28 am
he was not merely “interested” in philosophy, he believed in it as if it were a religion. He was, in his own words, like “the barbarian who first tackles abstractions because they dazzle him the most; he does not cultivate his spirit, he force feeds it; though suspicious of ideas, he lets himself be impregnated by them, mixes them with his blood which rejects them at first, and then absorbs them like poison.”

Searching for Cioran
Title: To Disappear into the Darkness
Post by: Holden on May 13, 2021, 03:19:20 pm
(https://www.linkpicture.com/q/1e0tnv.jpg) (https://www.linkpicture.com/view.php?img=LPic609d7887a12ab656966119)

(https://www.linkpicture.com/q/4B0E6B1100000578-0-image-a-7_1523631149822.jpg) (https://www.linkpicture.com/view.php?img=LPic609d78b4657fe1097724976)

I feel better during the night. If there were no light,there would have been no life too. Unlike the conventional depiction of the light as the representative of the good,it might be that it is the absence of light,that is truly good.

I like the night because all the real vampires are out of sight and I can breathe easy.I am a fish out of water in this wicked world.

Life itself is a cult. The worst cult. Religious cults are almost nothing in comparison with this nefarious one.


https://youtu.be/kj9IZbI-mw8
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: raul on May 14, 2021, 10:38:32 am
Holden,

Thank you for your quotes and links. They are most interesting.

I also stay awake due to much anxiety. Again this world is a prison. We are here to suffer and die in this human farm.
You mention that Cioran went to a brothel. I also went to a brothel in 1986. And before that I and my school classmates went to another but nothing happened. Again I went to another 15 years ago. What do I remember? Much sadness. 

I am sure you heard of Ivan Petrovich Pavlov, the Russian scientist (1849-1936) who used dogs as test subjects for his experiments. That is what I learned in secondary school. The term classical conditioning comes from his experiments. 
When Pavlov was studying digestion he observed that his dogs drooled when they were being served meat. Anyway, are we not all Pavlov´s dogs? Are we not test subjects in this cosmic experiment? Do we not all drool?

I suppose I am almost alienated from the Paraguayan popular culture. I do not idolize the soccer stars, our popular little gods here or some popular artists, military officers or politicians. I do not even speak Guarani, our second official language. I am a non-entity.

I mean your colleagues at work, anyone respond to stimulus. Promotions, career prospects, bank accounts, paid vacations, life insurance, serve to keep the workforce compliant. After all that´s what we are, an obedient workforce in this prison planet.

You do not belong to this world. We are inmates in this prison called Earth. There is so much evil and slavery. The fact that we have to take a shiit is already humiliating.

Most think it is normal to have been born in this madhouse. They think it is normal to have been born in bodies that ppiss and sShitt. They think it is normal to have ears full of wax.

It is common to use the word fake nowadays. So most of us are fake human beings with fake lives in a fake world.
The purpose of our existence or the meaning of life is meaningless to millions around the world. Maybe we ask this question: Do we matter?

Tomorrow is Mother´s Day. It is a day to forget.

Take care.
Title: Benetar(To Senor Raul)
Post by: Holden on May 14, 2021, 11:20:11 am
Senor Raul,

These are for you:

There are no “self-helplessness” or “pessimism” sections in bookstores because there is a vanishingly small market for such ideas. -Benatar


The big questions are not big in the sense of being unanswerable. It is only that the answers are generally unpalatable. There is no great mystery, but there is plenty of horror. - Benatar

Take care.
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: Holden on May 14, 2021, 06:35:13 pm
“Too much sanity may be madness — and maddest of all: to see life as it is, and not as it should be!” - Dale Wasserman (Man of La Mancha)
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: Holden on May 16, 2021, 04:05:57 am
https://youtu.be/AFGT-U87aIE
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: Holden on May 16, 2021, 02:15:33 pm
Leibniz never married; he had considered it at the age of fifty; but the person he had in mind asked for time to reflect. This gave Leibniz time to reflect, too, and so he never married.--Bernard Fontenelle
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: Holden on May 17, 2021, 11:51:03 am
To live alone is the fate of all great souls. - Schopenhauer
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: Holden on May 17, 2021, 11:57:04 am
"Conversation is fruitful only between minds given to consolidating their perplexities."

E. M. Cioran
Drawn and Quartered
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: Holden on May 18, 2021, 11:18:16 am
“The first thing to realize, if you wish to become a philosopher, is that most people go through life with a whole world of beliefs that have no sort of rational justification, and that one man’s world of beliefs is apt to be incompatible with another man’s so that they cannot both be right. People’s opinions are mainly designed to make them feel comfortable; truth, for most people is a secondary consideration.”
― Bertrand Russell, The Art of Philosophizing and other Essays, The Art of Rational Conjecture,
Title: In a World of Shadows (To Senor Raul)
Post by: Holden on May 18, 2021, 03:48:32 pm
Senor Raul,

My apologies for the late response.

A cyclone hit the city and there was a power outage.

I am really tired of this life.I really hate the human beings.Whenever my mother raises the issue of my still being a bachelor,I tell her that I would never be getting married.

I think it would be better for everyone concerned if I stopped breathing.
During the black out I was without any food.I had not eaten for the last two days and was planning to eat that day.I had soaked some beans and was planning to boil them.I use an induction heater.But no electricity,so no heating.

In the evening it was completely dark and I was singing to myself in order to amuse myself while thinking about platonic forms and this world of shadows..

I think I should get some candles and maybe some peanuts too.

Today I again had a verbal fight with my mother about the fact that I am a bachelor.

I told her I am not a bachelor but a confirmed bachelor.
I am going to bed now and hope that I never wake up.

Take care.







Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: raul on May 18, 2021, 06:36:24 pm
Holden,

Thank you for your response. I hope you are enduring the situation a little better. You went through a nightmare with no electricity and no food. Again you are a tough guy.

It is a good thing that you amused yourself by singing and thinking of the world of shadows. The problem,as always, is that you and a few like you understand that this is a world of ghosts.

We are trapped in a body made of flesh and bones which is also trapped in this prison planet.

I also do not want to wake up again but here I am in the land of living dead. Life is a sad business. This world stinks. So much evil and so much slavery.

We will die one day. That is our consolation.

This reminds me of my 81-year-old uncle who died supposedly from the China bug last week. The other died almost one month ago. Although I do not feel sorry for him because he detested me and my sister, I still say may he rest in peace.

It saddens me that your parents do not respect your decision to remain single. Even so you have been patient with your parents. Others would have been less kind.

Stay safe.
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: Gorticide :: Admin Elder Warrior on May 18, 2021, 11:20:43 pm
Quote from: Holden
I told her I am not a bachelor but a confirmed bachelor.
I am going to bed now and hope that I never wake up.

Maybe that which you were when writing this will never wake up; that is, the you who wakes up will be a transformed Presence of Mind.

It is good to know you are allowing your animal body to sing its sufferings.   I am sorry you had to endure that long period without sustenance.  Such experiences may teach you more than all the philosophers out together, don't you agree?

Title: Triumph of Death (To Senor Raul)
Post by: Holden on May 19, 2021, 02:25:50 pm
Senor Raul,

Thanks for you sympathetic message. This is for you:

(https://www.linkpicture.com/q/Triumph-of-Death-detail-c.1562-Museo-del-Prado-Madrid.jpg) (https://www.linkpicture.com/view.php?img=LPic60a54f7f20711913121537)
Triumph of Death (detail), c. 1562, Museo del Prado, Madrid

This is a book recommendation, which you might like,if you have not read already:

(https://www.linkpicture.com/q/Capture_148.png) (https://www.linkpicture.com/view.php?img=LPic60a54fefc63841386376140)

I am alright.I expect these kinds of things to occur rather regularly.

A few years back I was with a mining M.N.C. and there were a number of foreign employees there.One of them was a lady was Chile,she was a metallurgical ( I am told copper is big business in Chile) and there was an elderly gentleman(mining engineer) from South Africa (a Caucasian gentleman who spoke Afrikaans). The lady was just an intern but the gentleman was a manager.

Anyway, I had to make sure that the lady was paid her stipend. I did all I humanly could in order to make sure that it was released in a timely manner,but the finance department messed it up and there was a delay of a day or two.

To her I was the face of the organisation and so she came to my office(along with two other Polish interns).The Polish interns were quiet and polite but she turned into a lady Che Guevra and  started treating me as if I were not a mere functionary but  Batista himself!

Anyway, by chance, that South African gentleman happened to enter my office in the midst of her outburst.( he often used to tell me stories about his youth,that he was a boxer as a young man, that he fought the communists as he also served in the South African army and always called Mandela a commie who ruined his country).

Anyway, once he was in the office,the lady Che Guevra and her troops marched out of my office. He told he I should not take the outburst personally.He said that he knows that that lady’s family are nouveau riche and so she is quite arrogant.

He told me that he has observed that more often than not  nouveau riche are arrogant but “old money” are not.

Take care.
Title: Cioran and Beckett
Post by: Holden on May 19, 2021, 04:10:47 pm

Maybe that which you were when writing this will never wake up; that is, the you who wakes up will be a transformed Presence of Mind.

It is good to know you are allowing your animal body to sing its sufferings.   I am sorry you had to endure that long period without sustenance.  Such experiences may teach you more than all the philosophers out together, don't you agree?-Herr Hauser



Yes, bad days make the facts of life really clear.I am grinding away at my mathematical studies.I remember in one of the interviews Liggoti says that he remembers the day he lost his consciousness and was taken away to the hospital in an ambulance.

I see the difference between Cioran and Beckett. There is a great deal of similarity in terms of the world weariness. I have been looking into Cioran’s biography called Searching for Cioran. I hope that you are feeling better and maybe quite soon the muse of mathematics would visit you is again.

Universities do not make a lot of difference-Schopenhauer and Marx were both at the University of Jena and yet one of them was clearly far more profound and truthful than the other.This message board is my true University.

My moments in the darkness during the power outage without any food reminded me of the concept of Voluntary Cessation of Eating and Drinking. If one were to put one’s mind to it..

I think if Fortuna forces me to live for as long as Van Gogh did,I might be able to develop at least some level of mathematical maturity.

About 16 people died due to the cyclone and a small-time Bollywood actress was photographed dancing in the rain around an uprooted tree in order to gain more popularity.

I do really hope that Muse of Mathematics visits you soon.

Take care,my noble friend.


https://youtu.be/AQ-wt7vQErs
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: raul on May 20, 2021, 10:16:28 am
Holden,

Thank you for the Triumph of Death - Museo del Prado and your book recommendation.

I suppose it must be interesting to have a look at that painting personally in the Spanish museum. According to what I read the Triumph of Death “relates to the Black Death and it was painted by Pieter Brueghel, the Elder in 1562. Death lays waste to the earth, triumphing over everyone, whether king or card-player, soldier, mother and child or young lovers.”

Well, we all belong to the armies of the dead. And our armies will always be triumphant and the entire Earth is our graveyard.

I think we need another Pieter Brueghel to paint the vaccination sites where the future skeletons go.

I cannot buy any books. The few books I read I downloaded from several sites.

Indeed copper is a national industry in Chile but as it happens the people there do not profit from this industry.  You certainly experienced a bad situation with the Chilean lady but it was not your fault.

What the South African guy told you about the noveau riche is true. Yes, the noveau riche are arrogant. All their riches will mean nothing whether the Great Reset is imposed or not.

Stay alert.

P.S.I read THE BET by Anton Chekhov and I underlined the following words:

To-morrow at twelve o’clock midnight, I shall obtain my freedom and the right to mix with people. But before I leave this room and see the sun I think it necessary to say a few words to you. On my own clear conscience and before God who sees me I declare to you that I despise freedom, life, health, and all that your books call the blessings of the world.

“For fifteen years I have diligently studied earthly life. True, I saw neither the earth nor the people, but in your books I drank fragrant wine, sang songs, hunted deer and wild boar in the forests, loved women... And beautiful women, like clouds ethereal, created by the magic of your poets’ genius, visited me by night and whispered to me wonderful tales, which made my head drunken. In your books I climbed the summits of Elbruz and Mont Blanc and saw from there how the sun rose in the morning, and in the evening suffused the sky, the ocean and the mountain ridges with a purple gold. I saw from there how above me lightnings glimmered cleaving the clouds; I saw green forests, fields, rivers, lakes, cities; I heard syrens singing, and the playing of the pipes of Pan; I touched the wings of beautiful devils who came flying to me to speak of God... In your books I cast myself into bottomless abysses, worked miracles, burned cities to the ground, preached new religions, conquered whole countries...

“Your books gave me wisdom. All that unwearying human thought created in the centuries is compressed to a little lump in my skull. I know that I am cleverer than you all.

“And I despise your books, despise all worldly blessings and wisdom. Everything is void, frail, visionary and delusive as a mirage. Though you be proud and wise and beautiful, yet will death wipe you from the face of the earth like the mice underground; and your posterity, your history, and the immortality of your men of genius will be as frozen slag, burnt down together with the terrestrial globe.

“You are mad, and gone the wrong way. You take falsehood for truth and ugliness for beauty. You would marvel if suddenly apple and orange trees should bear frogs and lizards instead of fruit, and if roses should begin to breathe the odour of a sweating horse. So do I marvel at you, who have bartered heaven for earth. I do not want to understand you.

“That I may show you in deed my contempt for that by which you live, I waive the two millions of which I once dreamed as of paradise, and which I now despise. That I may deprive myself of my right to them, I shall come out from here five minutes before the stipulated term, and thus shall violate the agreement.”
Title: The Obscene Bird of Night as Spiritual Exercises
Post by: Gorticide :: Admin Elder Warrior on May 20, 2021, 12:15:18 pm
I am not sure where to place the link for this book: Tension Of Paradox : Jose Donoso's The Obscene Bird of Night as Spiritual Exercises (http://libgen.rs/search.php?req=Tension+Of+Paradox+%3A+Jose+Donoso%27s+The+Obscene+Bird+of+Night+as+Spiritual+Exercises&lg_topic=libgen&open=0&view=simple&res=25&phrase=1&column=def)

Pamela Finnegan provides a detailed criticism of a major novel written by one of Chile's leading literary figures. She analyzes the symbolism and the use of language in The Obscene Bird of Night, showing that the novel's world becomes an icon characterized by entropy, parody, and materiality. Her study concludes that all linguistic ordering fictionalizes, that the lack of spirituality within the novel's world is symptomatic of language gone stale, and that blindness to this fact leads to dogma or solipsism, each counter-productive to communication and human endeavor. To revive the linguistic system, she argues, we must revive the creative power of language.

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Thank you precious few ...
Title: One Fine Morning...( To Senor Raul)
Post by: Holden on May 20, 2021, 02:37:33 pm
Senor Raul,

Thanks for your message. This is for you:

(https://i.ibb.co/2M8KBpH/The-Disintegration-of-the-Persistence-of-Memory-Dal.jpg) (https://ibb.co/5jYcVJw)

The Disintegration of the Persistence of Memory - Dalí

A book recommendation:

(https://i.ibb.co/ZRrd7DV/9780241958803.jpg) (https://ibb.co/LDySH78)

I suppose it must be interesting to have a look at that painting personally in the Spanish museum. -Senor Raul


You never know ,Senor Raul, I have been studying mathematics and maybe one of these days I would end solving one of these problems:
https://www.claymath.org/millennium-problems

 :P Heck, why to sell myself short,maybe one of these days Schopenhauer’s ghost would ask Gauss’ ghost to possess me and I’d end up solving/proving them all!( and then collect the prize $)

Then,very soon,one fine morning, there would be a knock on your door and it would be me with your flight tickets. Then, we would first travel to New Jersey, request Herr Hauser to accompany us.

Then, we would go to Spain and visit all the relevant places and then go to Germany, pay our respects at Schopenhauer’s grave.Then, go to France and say pay our requests at Cioran’s grave and then, we can go to India,  and you can interview a couple of Aghoris over here.

Stranger things have happened you know!

Please take care of your eyes and please do keep writing.
Title: God of Silence
Post by: Holden on May 20, 2021, 02:59:06 pm

Pamela Finnegan provides a detailed criticism of a major novel written by one of Chile's leading literary figures. She analyzes the symbolism and the use of language in The Obscene Bird of Night, showing that the novel's world becomes an icon characterized by entropy, parody, and materiality. Her study concludes that all linguistic ordering fictionalizes, that the lack of spirituality within the novel's world is symptomatic of language gone stale, and that blindness to this fact leads to dogma or solipsism, each counter-productive to communication and human endeavor. To revive the linguistic system, she argues, we must revive the creative power of language.-Herr Hauser



I have,over a period of time, developed a belief that it might really not be possible for any human being to truly communicate with another. You have been writing about  Beckett. Well, Beckett was ,at least in the beginning,  as a writer , something of a protégé and Joyce the mentor(Joyce wanted one of his daughters to get married to Beckett,it did not pan out. Later in life, the lady in question went insane).

Beckett came to believe that Joyce had gone as far as a man could go as regards playing games with language is concerned. It would be really hard to beat Ulysses and Finnegans Wake in complexity.

So, he came to the conclusion that there was  only one  road left for him .

The road which leads to absolute silence.

https://youtu.be/3S7hJdYdnpw

A video for Herr Hauser:

https://youtu.be/Xf3_wefprMo
Title: She couldn't see herself being Mary Magdalen to his Jesus Christ
Post by: Gorticide :: Admin Elder Warrior on May 20, 2021, 10:27:43 pm
Quote from: Holden
Heck, why to sell myself short,maybe one of these days Schopenhauer’s ghost would ask Gauss’ ghost to possess me and I’d end up solving/proving them all!( and then collect the prize $)

Then,very soon,one fine morning, there would be a knock on your door and it would be me with your flight tickets. Then, we would first travel to New Jersey, request Herr Hauser to accompany us.

Then, we would go to Spain and visit all the relevant places and then go to Germany, pay our respects at Schopenhauer’s grave.Then, go to France and say pay our requests at Cioran’s grave and then, we can go to India,  and you can interview a couple of Aghoris over here.

Stranger things have happened you know!

Hell, as long as we're daydreaming about some kind of tour, we might as well include fellow-traveller Silenus since I suspect upstate New York can't be more than a four or five hour car trip ... or would this complicate things?   What if we each have some kind of Ignatius-Reillian attachments to a particularly wound up aging harlot or something?

 :-\   :D

From The Razor's Edge:

 We got in latish in the morning and towards the middle of the afternoon I landed and walked along the quay, looking at the shops, at the people who passed me and at the people sitting under the awning in the cafés. Suddenly I saw Sophie and at the same moment she saw me. She smiled and said hello. I stopped and shook hands with her. She was by herself at a small table with an empty glass before her.

"Sit down and have a drink," she said.

"You have one with me," I replied, taking a chair.

She wore the striped blue-and-white jersey of the French sailor, a pair of bright red slacks and sandals through which protruded the painted nails of her big toes. She wore no hat, and her hair, cut very short and curled, was of so pale a gold that it was almost silver. She was as heavily made up as when we had run across her at the Rue de Lappe. She had had a drink or two as I judged from the saucers on the table, but she was sober. She did not seem displeased to see me.

"How are all the folks in Paris?" she asked.

"I think they're all right. I haven't seen any of them since that day we all lunched together at the Ritz."

She blew a great cloud of smoke from her nostrils and began to laugh.

"I didn't marry Larry after all."

"I know. Why not?"

"Darling, when it came to the point I couldn't see myself being Mary Magdalen to his Jesus Christ. No, sir."

"What made you change your mind at the last moment?"

She looked at me mockingly. With that audacious tilt of the head, with her small breasts and narrow flanks, in that get-up, she looked like a vicious boy; but I must admit that she was much more attractive than in the red dress, with its dismal air of provincial smartness, in which I had last seen her. Face and neck were deeply burnt by the sun, and though the brownness of her skin made the rouge on her cheeks and the black of her eyebrows more aggressive, the effect in its vulgar way was not without lure.

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You know the rest ...
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"Would you like me to tell you?"

I nodded. The waiter brought the beer I had ordered for myself and the brandy and seltzer for her. She lit a caporal from one she had just finished.

"I hadn't had a drink for three months. I hadn't had a smoke." She saw my faint look of surprise and laughed. "I don't mean cigarettes. Opium. I felt awful. You know, sometimes when I was alone I'd shriek the place down; I'd say, 'I can't go through with it, I can't go through with it.' It wasn't so bad when I was with Larry, but when he wasn't there it was hell."

I was looking at her and when she mentioned opium I scanned her more sharply; I noticed the pin-point pupils that showed she was smoking it now. Her eyes were startlingly green.

"Isabel was giving me my wedding dress. I wonder what's happened to it now. It was a peach. We'd arranged that I should pick her up and we'd go to Molyneux's together. I will say this for Isabel, what she doesn't know about clothes isn't worth knowing. When I got to the apartment that man they have said she'd had to take Joan to the dentist's and had left a message that she'd be in directly. I went into the living-room. The coffee things were still on the table and I asked the man if I could have a cup. Coffee was the only thing that kept me going. He said he'd bring me some and took the empty cups and the coffee pot away. He left a bottle on the tray. I looked at it, and it was that Polish stuff you'd all talked about at the Ritz."

"Zubrovka. I remember Elliott saying he'd sent Isabel some."

"You'd all raved about how good it smelt and I was curious. I took out the cork and had a sniff. You were quite right; it smelt damned good. I lit a cigarette and in a few minutes the man came in with the coffee. That was good too. They talk a lot about French coffee, they can have it; give me American coffee. That's the only thing I miss here. But Isabel's coffee wasn't bad, I was feeling lousy, and after I'd had a cup I felt better. I looked at that bottle standing there. It was a terrible temptation, but I said, 'To hell with it, I won't think of it,' and I lit another cigarette. I thought Isabel would be in any minute, but she didn't come; I got frightfully nervous; I hate being kept waiting and there was nothing to read in the room. I started walking about and looking at the pictures, but I kept on seeing that damned bottle. Then I thought I'd just pour out a glass and look at it. It had such a pretty colour."

"Pale green."

"That's right. It's funny, its colour is just like its smell. It's like that green you sometimes see in the heart of a white rose. I had to see if it tasted like that, I thought just a taste couldn't hurt me; I only meant to take a sip and then I heard a sound, I thought it was Isabel coming in and I swallowed the glassful because I didn't want her to catch me. But it wasn't Isabel after all. Gosh, it made me feel good, I hadn't felt like that since I'd gone on the wagon. I really began to feel alive again. If Isabel had come in then I suppose I'd be married to Larry now. I wonder how it would have turned out."

"And she didn't come in?"

"No, she didn't. I was furious with her. Who did she think she was, keeping me waiting like that? And then I saw that the liqueur glass was full again; I suppose I must have poured it out without thinking, but, believe it or not, I didn't know I had. It seemed silly to pour it back again, so I drank it. There's no denying it, it was delicious. I felt a different woman; I felt like laughing and I hadn't felt like that for three months. D'you remember that old cissie saying he'd seen fellas in Poland drink it by the tumbler without turning a hair? Well, I thought I could take what any Polish son of a bitch could take and you may as well be hanged for a sheep as a lamb, so I emptied the dregs of my coffee in the fireplace and filled the cup to the brim. Talk of mother's milk--my arse. Then I don't quite know what happened, but I don't believe there was much left in the bottle by the time I was through. Then I thought I'd get out before Isabel came in. She nearly caught me. Just as I got out of the front door I heard Joanie's voice. I ran up the stairs and waited till they were safely in the apartment and then I dashed down and got into a taxi. I told the driver to drive like hell and when he asked where to I burst out laughing in his face. I felt like a million dollars."

"Did you go back to your apartment?" I asked, though I knew she hadn't.

"What sort of a damn fool d'you take me for? I knew Larry would come and look for me. I didn't dare go to any of the places I used to go to, so I went to Hakim's. I knew Larry'd never find me there. Besides, I wanted a smoke."

"What's Hakim's?"

"Hakim's. Hakim's an Algerian and he can always get you opium if you've got the dough to pay for it. He was quite a friend of mine. He'll get you anything you want, a boy, a man, a woman or a ****. He always has half a dozen Algerians on tap. I spent three days there. I don't know how many men I didn't have." She began to giggle. "All shapes, sizes and colours. I made up for lost time all right. But you know, I was scared. I didn't feel safe in Paris, I was afraid Larry'd find me, besides I hadn't got any money left, those bastards you have to pay them to go to bed with you, so I got out, I went back to the apartment and gave the concierge a hundred francs and told her if anyone came and asked for me to say I'd gone away. I packed my things and that night I took the train to Toulon. I didn't feel really safe till I got here."

"And have you been here ever since?"

"You betcha, and I'm going to stay here. You can get all the opium you want, the sailors bring it back from the East, and it's good stuff, not that muck they sell you in Paris. I've got a room at the hotel. You know, the Commerce et la Marine. When you go in there at night the corridors just reek of it." She sniffed voluptuously. "Sweet and acrid, and you know they're smoking in their rooms, and it gives you a nice homey feeling. And they don't mind who you take in with you. They come and thump at your door at five in the morning to get the sailors up to go back to their ships, so you don't have to worry about that." And then, without transition: "I saw a book of yours in the store just along the quay; if I'd known I was going to see you I'd have bought it and got you to sign it."

When passing the bookshop I had stopped to look in the window and had noticed among other new books the translation of a novel of mine that had recently appeared.

"I don't suppose it would have amused you much," I said.

"I don't know why it shouldn't. I can read, you know."

"And you can write too, I believe."

She gave me a rapid glance and began to laugh.

"Yeah, I used to write poetry when I was a kid. I guess it was pretty terrible, but I thought it fine. I suppose Larry told you." She hesitated for a moment. "Life's hell anyway, but if there is any fun to be got out of it, you're only a god-damn fool if you don't get it." She threw back her head defiantly. "If I buy that book will you write in it?"

"I'm leaving tomorrow. If you really want it, I'll get you a copy and leave it at your hotel."

"That'd be swell."

Just then a naval launch came up to the quay and a crowd of sailors tumbled out of it. Sophie embraced them with a glance.

"That'll be my boy friend." She waved her arm at someone. "You can stand him a drink and then you better scram. He's a Corsican and as jealous as our old friend Jehovah."
Title: Many nations in the Americas are illegitimate
Post by: Gorticide :: Admin Elder Warrior on May 20, 2021, 10:55:14 pm
from AMERICAN INDIAN SOVEREIGNTY:  NOW YOU SEE IT, NOW YOU DON'T (https://people.umass.edu/derrico/nowyouseeit.html):

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"Discovery" and "Encounter"

Another Columbus Day has come and gone. Another year, now more than 500 since the Pope divided the world between Spain and Portugal, laying down the doctrine of discovery and conquest:

    INTER CAETERA, MAY 3, 1493 -- "Among other works well pleasing to the Divine Majesty and cherished of our heart, this assuredly ranks highest, that in our times especially the Catholic faith and the Christian religion be exalted and everywhere increased and spread, that the health of souls be cared for and that barbarous nations be overthrown and brought to the faith itself. ...
  • ur beloved son Christopher Columbus, ... sailing ... toward the Indians, discovered certain very remote islands and even mainlands ... . [W]e, ... by the authority of Almighty God ... do ... give, grant, and assign forever to you and your heirs and successors, kings of Castille and Leon, all and singular the aforesaid countries and islands ... "


An earlier Papal Bull had declared the legitimacy of Christian domination over "pagans," sanctifying enslavement and expropriation of property:

    ROMANUS PONTIFEX, JANUARY 8, 1455 -- " ... [W]e bestow suitable favors and special graces on those Catholic kings and princes, ... athletes and intrepid champions of the Christian faith ... to invade, search out, capture, vanquish, and subdue all Saracens and pagans whatsoever, and other enemies of Christ wheresoever placed, and ... to reduce their persons to perpetual slavery, and to apply and appropriate ... possessions, and goods, and to convert them to ... their use and profit ... "

We might look at these ancient documents with amusement or condescension, confident in the modern view that church and state are separate. This would be a mistake. These Papal Bulls are part of the fabric of United States and international law.

The fact that Papal authority is the basis for United States power over indigenous peoples is not generally understood, even by lawyers who work with federal Indian law. This is due in large part to the sophistry of John Marshall, one of the greatest figures in the pantheon of the U. S. Supreme Court. Marshall borrowed from Papal Bulls the essential legalisms needed for state power over indigenous peoples. He encased Christian religious premises within the rhetoric of "European" expansion:

    JOHNSON v. MCINTOSH, 21 US 543 (FEBRUARY, 1823) -- "On the discovery of this immense continent, the great nations of Europe were eager to appropriate to themselves so much of it as they could respectively acquire. Its vast extent offered an ample field to the ambition and enterprise of all; and the character and religion of its inhabitants afforded an apology for considering them as a people over whom the superior genius of Europe might claim an ascendancy. The potentates of the old world found no difficulty in convincing themselves that they made ample compensation to the inhabitants of the new, by bestowing on them civilization and Christianity."

Steve Newcomb said it succinctly:

    Indian nations have been denied their most basic rights ... simply because, at the time of Christendom's arrival in the Americas, they did not believe in the God of the Bible, and did not believe that Jesus Christ was the true Messiah. This basis for the denial of Indian rights in federal Indian law remains as true today as it was in 1823. [Newcomb, 309.]

Johnson v. McIntosh has never been overruled. "Christian discovery" remains the legal foundation for United States sovereignty over indigenous peoples' lands. But it is concealed, as most foundations are, because Johnson v. McIntosh acts as a Laundromat for religious concepts. After Marshall's opinion, no lawyer or court would need to acknowledge that land title claims in United states law are based on a doctrine of Christian supremacy. From that time on, in law and history books, "European" would be substituted for "Christian," so that schoolchild and lawyer alike could speak of the "age of discovery" as the age of "European expansion."

Marshall knew what he was doing. After writing that "Christian princes" could take lands "unknown to all Christian peoples," he admitted that the doctrine was an "extravagant ... pretension" which "may be opposed to natural right" and may only "perhaps, be supported by reason." Nonetheless, he concluded that it "cannot be rejected by courts of justice."

The "discovery doctrine" was not self-effectuating. It required force. As Marshall wrote, "These claims have been maintained and established ... by the sword." The (in)famous Spanish Requirement of 1513 is perhaps the most straightforward example. It was called the "requirement" because royal law required it to be read before hostilities could be undertaken against a native people. In Latin and/or Spanish, witnessed by a notary, the Conquistadors read:

    On the part of the king, Don Fernando, and of Dońa Juana, his daughter, queen of Castile and Leon, subduers of the barbarous nations, we their servants notify and make known to you, as best we can, that the Lord our God, living and eternal, created the heaven and the earth, and one man and one woman, of whom you and we, and all the men of the world, were and are descendants, and all those who come after us. ...

    Of all these nations God our Lord gave charge to one man, called St. Peter, that he should be lord and superior of all the men in the world, that all should obey him, and that he should be the head of the whole human race, wherever men should live, and under whatever law, sect, or belief they should be; and he gave him the world for his kingdom and jurisdiction.

    ...
    One of these pontiffs, who succeeded that St. Peter as lord of the world in the dignity and seat which I have before mentioned, made donation of these isles and Terra-firma to the aforesaid king and queen and to their successors, our lords, with all that there are in these territories,....

    ... Wherefore, as best we can, we ask and require you that you consider what we have said to you, and that you take the time that shall be necessary to understand and deliberate upon it, and that you acknowledge the Church as the ruler and superior of the whole world, ....
    ...
    But if you do not do this, and maliciously make delay in it, I certify to you that, with the help of God, we shall powerfully enter into your country, and shall make war against you in all ways and manners that we can, and shall subject you to the yoke and obedience of the Church and of their highnesses; we shall take you, and your wives, and your children, and shall make slaves of them, and as such shall sell and dispose of them as their highnesses may command; and we shall take away your goods, and shall do you all the mischief and damage that we can, as to vassals who do not obey, and refuse to receive their lord, and resist and contradict him: and we protest that the deaths and losses which shall accrue from this are your fault, and not that of their highnesses, or ours, nor of these cavaliers who come with us. ....

It is fashionable, especially around Columbus Day, to speak about the "encounter" of the "old" and "new" worlds, as a way of trying to forget exactly how bloody this event was. But, as Michael Shapiro wrote, "National societies that ... have thought of themselves as a fulfillment of a historical destiny, could not be open to encounters." [Shapiro, 56.]

Michael Dorris wrote:

    The pre-existent variety of Native American societies ... has been consistently obscured and disallowed. Every effort has been made to almost existentially enclose the non-Western world into a European schema, and then to blame unwilling elements for being backward, ignorant, or without vision. ***

    Federal Indian policy was ... shaped from the beginning at least as much toward deculturation as acculturation.

Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: raul on May 21, 2021, 10:08:29 am
Holden,

Thank you for the book recommendation and the painting by Salvador Dalí.

I hope your colleagues at work are giving you some peace there.

I am sure you will find the solution to puzzling math problems.

I always link mathematics to Srinivasa Ramanujan Alyangar. The mathematical genius from India and who died very young.

I read about him in a book written by two Frenchmen called Louis Pauwels and Jacques Bergier more than twenty years ago. The title of the book is the Morning of the Magicians. They called him and the so-called sleeping prophet Edgar Cayce  mutants. According to what I read the goddess Namagiri appeared to Ramanujan to explain the most difficult calculus. Maybe Namagiri will appear to you too.

Anything can happen in this world. I sure would like to go to the USA, Germany, France and India. As you say strange things have happened.

Stay well.

P.S. I would like to suggest The Innocents to you and the readers of this blog. You may find it interesting.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=s-OnAcr5hwA
Title: Bedlam( To Senor Raul)
Post by: Holden on May 21, 2021, 03:35:21 pm
Senor Raul,

Thanks for your message. This is for you:

A Rake's Progress: 8 – The Rake in Bedlam
William Hogarth

You mentioned Ramanujan. His name means someone who has a spark of the divine in him.You might find this interesting:
https://youtu.be/_Yn7QAS5Wpw

Today I was thinking how senseless the human life is. When I was in grade IV, there was a girl in my class who was very sickly. I remember that she always had mucus coming out of her nose.She was not a teacher’s pet and so was one of the back benchers.

One day she suddenly stopped coming to the school.After a few days the teacher told us all of us should ask our parents to donate some money and she was terminally ill. I remember that I donated INR 10, I put it in a red box.

After a few days I came to know that she was dead-of blood cancer. The teacher told us not to eat anything being sold by the street hawkers.  She must have been eight or nine. Dead.

Take care.
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: Holden on May 21, 2021, 03:53:17 pm
Hell, as long as we're daydreaming about some kind of tour, we might as well include fellow-traveller Silenus since I suspect upstate New York can't be more than a four or five hour car trip ... or would this complicate things?   What if we each have some kind of Ignatius-Reillian attachments to a particularly wound up aging harlot or something?-Herr Hauser

Mr.Silenus is welcome to join us.

I find cults interesting. Perhaps because life itself the greatest cult of them all. Like in the Trial, my neighbour is very nosy and always watches me when I go out of my rooms or come in.He keeps a feral cat and has trained that cat to sit in front of my door when he is occupied. The moment I open the door the cat mews louder than any dog ever barked and he comes rushing out ,leaving behind whatever it is that he does inside his flat and then watches me.

https://youtu.be/tCwjyYddGyU
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: raul on May 21, 2021, 06:40:52 pm
Holden,

Thank you for the link about Ramanujan.

I read the news in extra.com.py about an Iranian filmmaker,Babak Khorramdin and that reminded of your post about you telling your mother that you are and will be a confirmed bachelor.

According to The Guardian “the parents claimed they killed the son-in-law because he was abusive, murdered their daughter because she became addicted to drugs, and targeted their son because he was single and having relationships with students, according to Hussein Rahimi, a Tehran police chief, quoted in newspapers.”

Yes, life is senseless,sad, bitter and tragic. As we say here you have the memory of an elephant. I don´t remember much about my days at school and if someone offered me to put me in hypnosis to bring back memories I would reject the offer. The story about the little girl, in your class who was terminally ill; dying of blood cancer, is a fine piece of writing.

Stay safe.
https://www.theguardian.com/world/2021/may/21/babak-khorramdin-iranian-couple-arrested-for-of-film-maker-son-47

Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: Ibra on May 22, 2021, 05:18:22 am
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=V9XeyBd_IuA
Title: I would keep Ramming my Bloodied Head Against the Wall(To Senor Raul)
Post by: Holden on May 22, 2021, 06:34:28 pm
Senor Raul,
Thanks for your video.
Today an old college friend of mine sent me a link to join their whatsapp group.The group has the photograph of three women who studied with me ,in formal Indian dress,with their kids.The friend who sent me the link is himself married with two kids.He works with Earnest and Young makes a great deal of money and visits the US frequently.

As I did not want to hurt his feelings I said okay I would join it.But I never did.I do not belong that group of fat bourgeoisie   matrons but this one of sincere seekers.

Most people would tell me that I am too old now to study mathematics. Everyone in that group would tell me that.

I might still fail in learning mathematics properly ,whatever the reason for that might turn out to be it would not be because I turned into a self complacent bourgeois rascal and stopped trying.

I might never break the wall,but I would keep ramming my bloodied head against it till I am dead for good.
 

Take care.

https://youtu.be/TgIB5Yl4sBQ
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: raul on May 22, 2021, 07:19:38 pm
Holden,

One is never too old to study mathematics or any other subject. I say I cannot study mathematics because it is not really my thing. Maybe if I started 30 years ago things would have been different.

If somebody ever dares to say that you are too old to study mathematics, smile and then change the subject.

Most of my neighbors are married so I stay silent when they talk about their children.

Some believe that women´s periods depend on the phases of the moon that last from 28 to 29 days. In their view the moon regulates the human farm. So when the moon sends the messages the females are ready to give birth. I suppose it is possible.

Anyway we are doomed. We are imprisoned. What have we done to be sent to this punishment facility called Earth? I have no clue. After thousands of years all of us will be reduced to ashes. We were inserted in the bodies of shiity monkeys. Will we, homo sapiens, stop having sex? No,never. We have been wired like this from birth. We have been programmed to be slaves.

The show must go on.
Stay safe.

P.S. This is another movie worth watching. Human trafficking. Inspired by true events.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zMPS9JO0p6w
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: Holden on May 23, 2021, 11:38:32 am
"Socrates' Farewell" by György Kurtág: "We go our own ways, I to die, & you to live. God only knows which is better."
Title: To Mr.Ibra
Post by: Holden on May 23, 2021, 04:22:37 pm
Mr.Ibra,
Thanks for the message.Hope you are doing well.Take care.
Title: It is not the Size of the Dog in the Fight....( To Senor Raul)
Post by: Holden on May 23, 2021, 04:25:08 pm
Senor Raul,

Thanks for your message. I hope you are doing well.
This is for you:

(https://i.ibb.co/mhL5jHy/31-JPLOURE7-jumbo.jpg) (https://ibb.co/j3ckNLw)

“At Les Éparges: Soldiers Burying Their Comrades by Moonlight, April 1915,” by Georges Paul Leroux.

It would be so nice if everything ceases to exist once and for all.Yet, here we are in this buzzing,booming confusion. Are there any religious cults in Paraguay and do they try to exploit their members.

The human body asks for food. If it gets no food it is in pain and if it still does not get any food then it dies.What after that? Mr.Gary does not believe in reincarnation in the literal sense but he says that even if one dies and there are still other sentient beings who are around, the problem remains unsolved.

There are many people with fancy degrees working with MNCs who are optimists and over here, we are poor and humble folks and yet it us who are seeking the truth,however, bitter it might ultimately turn out to be.

These optimistic corporate executives are like the big dogs in the first few scenes who run away from harsh reality with the tail between the legs and we are like the small dogs in the last scene who continue to fight the bourgeois, fake and make-believe world. We seek the truth.

Take care.

https://youtu.be/NZ74oFctP_g
Title: Its Not About You-I wouldn't have Children with Anyone
Post by: Holden on May 24, 2021, 02:41:01 pm
This planet must be some kind of hell. A place to which souls are sent for getting tortured.
I do not know how long one could bear to continue to live in this world.

https://youtu.be/89FObkqroZY
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: raul on May 24, 2021, 06:49:16 pm
Holden,

Thank you for your words and the painting. I hope your colleagues at work are giving you a little peace, although I doubt it. The difference between you and them is that you fly to dangerous realms of the mind, in my view, while they and milions like them are stuck in this miserable human penal colony. While you plan a jail break, they embellish the jail. They do not understand that they are living the lives of convicts no matter how much money, career prospects, priviledged jobs, they have.

On the issue of religious cults in this country; there have been of some evangelical churches that were accused in past of squeezing money from their people.

One of them is Centro Familiar de Adoración, founded by pastors Emilio Abreu and Bethany Abreu in 1985, which has a huge temple in the capital. Years ago in Salto del Guairá (416 kms from the capital) the municipality instead of building schools decided to build churches for the Centro Familiar de Adoración. The cost was around $20,000 dollars in 2018.

Of course I do not forget the Catholic Church that up to 1992 was the official religion of the state. Although there are honest priests, nuns and parishioners, the problem as usual is the hierarchy.

What more can I say? Without the poor there would be no saints and blessed.

Sleep well and take your medication.

P.S.    1)“The longer you live the more you will realize the only things that truly exist in this reality are merely pain, suffering and  futility.” Taken from Naruto Villain Phrases
 
2)Émile Henry, according to Wikipedia,was a French anarchist, “who on 12 February 1894 detonated a bomb at the Café Terminus in the Parisian Gare Saint-Lazare killing one person and wounding twenty.Though his activity in the anarchist movement was limited, he garnered much attention as a result of his crimes and of his age. He was also seen as one of the first people of a growing group of revolutionaries (largely anarchist) who subscribed to the doctrine of the "propaganda of the deed", which would later take the life of many governmental figures.” He was executed at the age of 21 in 1894.

Unfortunately, I read, many anarchists were used by the European elites to cause harm but this guy´s words are interesting to read.

https://theanarchistlibrary.org/library/emile-henry-emile-henry-s-defense
Title: The Obscene Bird of Night (the actual text)
Post by: Gorticide :: Admin Elder Warrior on May 24, 2021, 08:23:35 pm
Senor Raul,

I was wondering if you have ever heard of this book, The Obscene Bird of Night, by Jose Donoso (of Chile) ... from 1970s?  Surrealistic experiments ...

I am reading The tension of paradox: José Donoso's The obscene bird of night as spiritual exercises (http://libgen.rs/search.php?req=Tension+Of+Paradox+%3A+Jose+Donoso%27s+The+Obscene+Bird+of+Night+as+Spiritual+Exercises&lg_topic=libgen&open=0&view=simple&res=25&phrase=1&column=def), as mentioned above, but I am very curious about the original text (in Spanish) ...

Humberto, who lives and works at a convent home for old women, loses his sanity as he becomes obsessed with black magic and his duty to protect a monstrous child.


There is actually an English translation, I think ... Can you believe the expensive taste I have?   Look at the price on Amazon for the hard cover (https://www.amazon.com/Obscene-Night-Verba-Mundi-Paperback/dp/1567920462/ref=sr_1_1?crid=1JBARGKS7R1V7&dchild=1&keywords=jose+donoso+obscene+bird+of+night&qid=1621901952&sprefix=Jose+Donoso%2Caps%2C276&sr=8-1).

(https://images-na.ssl-images-amazon.com/images/I/41B36Q9gPIL._SX318_BO1,204,203,200_.jpg)


The original in Spanish is more affordable.

(https://images-na.ssl-images-amazon.com/images/I/41iusRPzx8L._SX316_BO1,204,203,200_.jpg)

Un viaje por los laberintos de la identidad, la degradación y el olvido.  La novela cumbre de José Donoso.

La voz que narra El obsceno pájaro de la noche fluye infatigable de los labios del Mudito, como en un viaje desde el ser hacia la nada, elaborando un mundo destinado -por la maldición intrínseca de la existencia- al deterioro, la pérdida o la confusión de cualquier identidad posible.

Las viejas que pueblan la Casa de la Encarnación de la Chimba y los monstruos de la Rinconada ilustran cada matiz de la desesperación y cada uno de los ínfimos placeres cotidianos, anudando siempre al ciego instinto de la vida un inextinguible terror ante lo oscuro, lo innombrable, lo que ya no tiene forma.

ENGLISH DESCRIPTION

This haunting jungle of a novel has been hailed as “a masterpiece” by Luis Bunuel and “one of the great novels not only of Spanish America, but of our time” by Carlos Fuentes. The story of the last member of the aristocratic Azcoitia family, a monstrous mutation protected from the knowledge of his deformity by being surrounded with other freaks as companions, The Obscene Bird of Night is a triumph of imaginative, visionary writing. Its luxuriance, fecundity, horror, and energy will not soon fade from the reader’s mind.

The story is like a great puzzle . . . invested with a vibrant, almost tangible reality. —The New York Times

Although many of the other “boom” writers may have received more attention—especially Fuentes and Vargas Llosa—Donoso and his masterpiece may be the most lasting, visionary, strangest of the books from this time period. Seriously, it’s a novel about the last member of an aristocratic family, a monstrous mutant, who is surrounded by other freaks so as to not feel out of place. —Publishers Weekly


at google books (https://books.google.com/books/about/The_Obscene_Bird_of_Night.html?id=nj1ii72MdtgC)

(The story of the last member of the aristocratic Azcoitia family, a monstrous mutation protected from the knowledge of his deformity by being surrounded with other freaks as his companions, The Obscene Bird of Night is a triumph of imaginative, visionary writing. Among its luxuriance, fecundity, horror, and energy will not soon fade from the reader's mind.)
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: Holden on May 25, 2021, 02:07:35 am
It is better for a man to be obscure and to attend to his salvation than to neglect it and work miracles.
Kempis
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: raul on May 25, 2021, 09:53:57 am
Hentrich,

Thank you for your comments. I hope everything is allright with your family.

I heard about this author from reading the literary supplement about some Chilean authors. 

In ebiblioteca.org you have the following link you want to download the version in Spanish: El obsceno pájaro de la noche

http://www.solidfiles.com/d/2750b2eea6/

As usual drive safely.
Title: Its Not Roses and Moonlight( To Senor Raul)
Post by: Holden on May 25, 2021, 05:05:29 pm
Senor Raul,

Thanks for your message.Much appreciated.

When I was a student I was always reading the books which were not the curriculum. The city I was in,had a place where one could find a lot of second(third,fourth..) hand book sellers.

In those days there were no smart phones and every Saturday and Sunday, I visited that place with my red satchel and bought as many books as my bag could contain.They were dirt cheap and my only friends in a place that could be rightly be  described as hellish.

You once said that when you were a kid your parents took you to attend the catholic mass a few times. Was the mass in Spanish or Latin?

Would you be so kind as to share your thoughts on “Paternity Court”:
https://youtu.be/2cylYYGXRQ0

One day ,it must have been 2004 or 2005, after working as a waiter,I took a crowded bus, so crowded that one could not even stand properly, and went to the city centre and was looking for books on the streets. A few days back I had read in the papers that Gunter Grass was visiting the city.
In the twilight, I was very close to a five star hotel(  the street book sellers were nearby), and Gunter Grass came out on foot, with a very pretty lady, who was quite young. I was just about 1.5 meters away.

But I kept quiet. I am an extreme introvert and I also did not want to disturb the couple.


https://youtu.be/GFSstdnfqjk
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: raul on May 26, 2021, 06:58:26 am
Holden,

Thank you for your words and the Tim Drum clip. I have heard of Gunther Grass but never read him.   
Paternity Court is a soap opera where the victim is Zayne, the baby, while the sad triangle of two boyfriends and a woman just want to have their minutes of fame on TV.  Just another example of our human selfishness or self-interest.

The times I went to a Catholic church the Mass was in Spanish. Here sometimes on TV I hear the priests and bishops use Guarani in the Mass.That reminds me of a little I read about the French Monsignor Marcel Lefebvre. He was excommunicated by Popel John Paul II. He founded his own society called The Society of St. Pius X and ordained his own bishops. He was the advocate of the so-called traditional Catholicism. He conducted the Mass in Latin.  Monsignor Lefebvre died in 1991.

It was a good decision to read books that were not part of the curriculum. That is the reason you are well versed with many renowned authors.

Stay safe.
Title: Some People are Just Born with Tragedy in Their Blood-Darko (To Senor Raul)
Post by: Holden on May 26, 2021, 03:47:33 pm
Senor Raul,
Thanks for you response and feedback.

If you have watched Donnie Darko, I can tell you that my high school years were even more weird.


I wish I knew Schopenhauer, Herr Hauser and you in those years. I was out of my mind. I wanted to understand the world around me. I wanted to understand myself and yet all I received were dull as dishwater platitudes.

I am extremely grateful to you and to all the members of this message world in helping the under the world and myself.
Better late than never, as they say.

The Society of St. Pius X and ordained his own bishops.-Senor Raul

Yes, they formed SSPX after Vatican II.

I hope your eyes are okay.

This is for you:

(https://i.ibb.co/KLfWKk2/h.webp) (https://ibb.co/0F6rsSC)
"On the Wire" by Harry Everett Townsend. (Smithsonian's National Museum of American History)



https://youtu.be/2PUFJmsCZLE

Take care.
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: Holden on May 26, 2021, 04:20:26 pm
We shall leave this world as foolish and as wicked as we found it on our arrival.  ~Schopenhauer
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: raul on May 26, 2021, 07:21:52 pm
Holden,

Thank you for your comments and the paintings.

I have not watched Donnie Darko up to now. This world is complex, tragic,bitter, strange and wretched as you yourself are experiencing right now. I thank you for all the comments you have made in this board.They have been most enlightening.

Of course many will say that your writings come from a deranged person but that reaction is understandable. You, Hentrich,Ibra and Silenus are bombmakers that blow up our fake buildings because they are built with lies in this death factory called Earth.

Stay alert.
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: Ibra on May 27, 2021, 04:12:15 am
Holden and Raul,

here is a a little lines to brighten/darken your day from the Ruthless Rhymes book (https://www.gutenberg.org/files/35051/35051-h/35051-h.htm)

The Stern Parent

FATHER heard his Children scream,
So he threw them in the stream,
Saying, as he drowned the third,
"Children should be seen, not heard!"
Hope you a good day



Title: To Mr.Ibra
Post by: Holden on May 27, 2021, 04:31:02 am
Mr.Ibra,
Thanks for your message.I hope you were not in the region where  fighting has been going on between the Israelis and the Palestinians & that you are safe.
I also hope that your relatives are not pestering you any longer about getting married( though I doubt it somehow).

Would you care you suggest any history books about the spread of Islam and Mohammed?
Take care.
Title: For Senor Raul
Post by: Holden on May 27, 2021, 04:37:30 am
Into the wild — 'Rather than love, than monney, than faith, than fame, than fairness, give me truth.'
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: raul on May 27, 2021, 06:48:35 am
Ibra,

Thank you for the little lines from the Rhymes Book. I hope you are allright wherever you are.

Stay safe.

P.S. I posted these songs by Mistro a few years ago in the board. I took them from a Spanish youtuber with lyrics in Spanish. You and the readers of this blog will find these songs painfully truthful.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rC0Uw2D_ok8
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: Ibra on May 27, 2021, 09:15:17 am
Holden,

hope you are getting some respite off the daily grind by literature at least.

I am far from this war between Israel and Palestine. the thing is, although there are some victims, they made it a total sensation on the media. the Israeli prime minister will secure his position and Hamas leaders will fill their pocket with money. and Civilians (the cattle), to the hell.  I keep away and aware of people who have moral indignation, they are more dangerous than the run-of-the-mill criminals.

I am not a fan of the process of Analysis anymore, the water will follow its course. Ideas such God, Nationalism, Race, Class-Consciousness, Morality, Progress, an Humanism have a meager meaning to me. I watch the news on social media (twitter) and people are psycop-ed to madness.

I didn't read any English book about history of Islam or Arabia. we studied that in school and we learn it by osmosis in middle east. the new generation will be globalized in an American image as every other place.

stay well,


Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: Ibra on May 27, 2021, 09:20:51 am
Senor Raul,

Thanks for  your well-meaning message. I am alright, I might have to take some kind of work in the next month or two as my savings are evaporating . I eat a meal a day, and smoke a lot of cigarettes with the coffee.

thanks for the song and your vignettes here in this board. much appreciated.

stay safe


Title: Horror( To Senor Raul)
Post by: Holden on May 27, 2021, 04:50:59 pm

Senor Raul,

Thanks for your message.I hope you are doing well.

I find that horror is,generally speaking ,a rather honest genre. There is always a sense of doom within me.

Recently, I came across a few stories which were written by Lovecraft but not published under his name. He was poor and sold stories for very little money.
His married life was very sad. I wish his wife were supportive.

I can see why he would have welcomed his death. There is nothing to be had in this world. My sleep pattern has gone haywire. I remain awake in the night and feel tired during the day.

I like Lovecraft’s mannerism.
Take care and please do keep writing.

https://youtu.be/RfYAXMwCpk0
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: Holden on May 28, 2021, 08:04:11 am
I do not think the working conditions are as bad in the US today as were depicted in The Jungle by Sinclair in 1906.
But over here, things are about ten times worse. But yes, not everything here is  like how it is in the book.
Unlike in the book,there is no hope in the idea of Socialism.


Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: raul on May 28, 2021, 11:34:45 am
Holden,

Thank you for your concern. I am not doing well but that´s normal. But here I am because the will to die is weak.
I will write in the board as long as I can. If you do not hear from me that means that for whateve reason I am gone.

Last week I read ABC Color in its digital form that the Paraguayan police might have helped in the famous case of the British girl, Madeleine McCann, who disappeared in Portugal in 2007. That is what Comisario (chief of police) Nimio Cardozo said to the press. Here he said that important data of an international **** network was seized.

Hours later the same newspaper reported that an employee, Felix Quińonez Paiva, working for a company was killed by motochorros (biker thieves) in an armed robbery. He left two children orphaned and his father is in a wheelchair. This is nothing unusual.

Reading or watching the news about car accidents, floods, civil wars, murders, rrapes on TV is enough horror. We even experience horror when we cross the streets because we try to avoid being hit by a car or a bus.
We read the history books like the one you recommended me (The Bad Popes by E.R. Chamberlin) and you only see endless battles, butcheries aka crusades, plagues, fabricated famines, assassination attempts, fabricated economic crises, revolutions,kidnappings, plandemics like the one we are suffering at this precise moment.

This reminds me of what I read somewhere:
The selfish intent to preserve peace initiates wars and hatred is born to protect love.

Certainly as you say there is nothing to be had in this world. We have been thrown into a demonic world.

Stay alert.

P.S. In reddit I found this poem by Carlo Michelstaedter you and the readers of the blog may like:
I am alone, distant, different
another sun, another wind
my life is a prouder flight through other skies…
But it is here, now, that I wait,
my life, why does it not live,
why does nothing happen?
What is this light, this heat,
this confused buzzing, this earth,
this sky which hangs so heavily above us?
The appearance of things
is strange to me;
An enemy to me, this nature,
Enough! I want to go, escape
this nightmare plot which is life!
My life! My sun!
Title: It goes without saying that I wish I were dead
Post by: Gorticide :: Admin Elder Warrior on May 28, 2021, 06:07:17 pm
Senor Raul,

Thanks for the download link for the book, The Obscene Bird of Night.

I am not much in the mood to type words as I am in great pain from bad sprained foot.
I climbed over a fence during the night and injured myself.  Now I must crawl for awhile (or use crutches).

It goes without saying that I wish I were dead.   :-\
Title: Get Well Soon
Post by: Holden on May 29, 2021, 07:07:12 am
Herr Hauser,

I hope you get healed soon and that the pain is not very severe.I hope you are taking ample amount of rest and medications in order to feel better.
You can spend the convalescent period reading and thinking.You are a gifted man. I do not know if in your school, there was a separate section of the gifted kids , but if you were in a school with a separate section for gifted kids you would have certainly been in that section.

I think you might have read everything that Lovecraft published under his own name but he contributed to a lot of stories which were published under the names of other people( he sold them the stories, he gave up his intellectual property rights as he was poor and needed money for basic necessities).You might want to look that it up.
(https://i.ibb.co/BfJkjRs/51-Nyo-du-ZL.jpg) (https://imgbb.com/)

An interesting movie:
https://youtu.be/1KHY7K1_qaI

Take care of your injury and I hope you get well soon.
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: Holden on May 29, 2021, 08:01:38 am
For Herr Hauser:
https://youtu.be/5rOiW_xY-kc
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: raul on May 29, 2021, 08:09:06 am
Hentrich,

I hope you recover from the sprained foot as soon as possible but it will take time.

It is not a pleasant experience. I myself suffer from arthrosis and I can only walk with one foot. In due time, if I am alive, I will have to use a walking stick.

Walk carefully.
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: Gorticide :: Admin Elder Warrior on May 29, 2021, 08:24:15 am
Oh, Senor Raul, I greatly sympathize with your only being able to walk with one foot.   It certainly limits what one is able to do.  I had broken the leg which the current foot injury is on the end of (back in 2012 while residing in el Barrio de Historic Freehold (https://xhentric.wordpress.com/the-book/12-the-steppenwolf-rediscovers-downtown-freehold-el-barrio/)).

See A Blizzard of Consciousness (https://xhentric.wordpress.com/the-book/13-a-blizzard-of-consciousness/).
Title: Strange Life (To Senor Raul)
Post by: Holden on May 29, 2021, 01:43:32 pm
Senor Raul,

Thanks for your message.I am sorry about your physical ailments and hope that you will get well soon.

The reason I prefer the horror genre is that my life is closest to that genre,in Lovecraft I find the frenzy and restlessness which mirrors my own terrified soul.I understand that not everyone likes Lovecraft and the genre of horror.

I might have once read that  the most sold genre is romance,the likes of Mills and Boon and Harlequin and most of those books are bought by women. I think you know that Lovecraft made very little money while he was around and his work was mostly published in cheap pulp magazines.

Take care.
Title: To Mr.Ibra
Post by: Holden on May 29, 2021, 01:44:46 pm

Mr.Ibra,

Thanks for your message. I wanted to ask you if you find the genre of Horror interesting.
Take care.
Title: Obscure Lovecraft Stories?
Post by: Gorticide :: Admin Elder Warrior on May 29, 2021, 10:12:55 pm
Quote from: Holden
I think you might have read everything that Lovecraft published under his own name but he contributed to a lot of stories which were published under the names of other people (he sold them the stories, he gave up his intellectual property rights as he was poor and needed money for basic necessities).You might want to look that it up.

Holden,

Thank you for the heads up on the Lovecraft stories I might have missed.  To be honest, although I had a collection of Lovecraft's stories, it was only after interacting with you that I returned to the stories with more serious attention. 

Is this edition from Library Genesis (http://libgen.lc/ads.php?md5=AB70428F99A0DEF2BCF501C47F82C0E0) one which would contain the obscure tales you mention?

- Haywire Hentrich


Post Scriptum
(new post: Low Desire Society (I am my own liberator) (http://whybother.freeboards.org/what-now/precariat/msg10797/?topicseen#msg10797))
Title: The Curse of Yig
Post by: Holden on May 29, 2021, 11:35:05 pm
I am afraid those stories are not in there.Some of them are here( but not all):
https://www.hplovecraft.com/writings/fiction/

The stories which have the suffix( With X...)
But all of them are not here. I would continue to leave links here.
One might like to start with :
https://www.hplovecraft.com/writings/texts/fiction/cy.aspx

What Lovecraft writes is not pedestrian fiction but philosophical fiction.
Title: What Lovecraft writes is philosophical fiction
Post by: Gorticide :: Admin Elder Warrior on May 30, 2021, 01:20:49 am
Quote from: Holden
I am afraid those stories are not in there.Some of them are here( but not all):
https://www.hplovecraft.com/writings/fiction/

The stories which have the suffix( With X...)
But all of them are not here. I would continue to leave links here.
One might like to start with :
https://www.hplovecraft.com/writings/texts/fiction/cy.aspx

What Lovecraft writes is not pedestrian fiction but philosophical fiction.

Thanks for the clarification.
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: raul on May 30, 2021, 07:23:56 am
Hentrich,

Thank you for your words and the link to xhentric.

Yes, ten years  ago when I was crossing the avenue in Asuncion in front of a well known public secondary school I slipped on the oily pavement and I fell. Luckily there was very small traffic. A pedestrian helped me stand up and cross the avenue. Since then I have been walking with a lot of difficulty specially when I have to get on/get off a bus.

I think that I am still fortunate because I have seen severely disabled people in the streets.Old men in wheelchairs or walking with their hunched backs, young women walking with twisted feet and hands, old ladies with only one arm, blind men, with walking sticks, trying to cross the streets, their situation worsened by having to wear face masks.

Stay safe.
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: raul on May 30, 2021, 07:25:28 am
Holden,

Thank you for your message. We all have physical ailments. You are already suffering much from TB. I hope you have your medication available.

These physical ailments remind us that we are confined to a body that in time decays, rots and turns to ashes. That in itself is horror. We are doomed and that is not a pleasant subject. But again humans have been programmed to feel pleasure with sex, food, pisss and shiit to make the human farm bearable. We accept this awful status quo.

The thing is that all of us were cute babies and now we are rotting slowly but steady.

I hope to die painlessly but that is not going to be the case.

Indeed the romance genre is what most women buy and watch on TV also. I remember decades ago when I hear people talking about their favorite Brazilian, Argentinian or Mexican soap operas. 

It is sad and tragic that Lovecraft died very poor and nowadays his books are making millions.   

Stay well.
Title: And Yet ( To Senor Raul)
Post by: Holden on May 30, 2021, 10:34:15 am
Senor Raul,

Today was my weekly off and I spent my time studying mathematical logic.I like to think that my brain is changing gradually ,that it is becoming capable of  understanding deeper concepts which it could not fathom earlier.

I spend many hours trying to understand a single mathematical idea.

At the same time, I am quite aware of the fact that , I might die the very next moment and all that would left of my mathematical studies, might be some hardly noticeable groove in my brain ,if that, and it would not be noticed by the post-mortem technician, if that process takes places at all.

Most probably, they would just burn my body, and along with it my brain. Some unknown tongue of fire would lick the groove in the brain and will reduce it to ashes.
And yet,I repeat, and yet, I wish to continue to learn mathematics and philosophy as much as is possible, in the light of my terrible life circumstances.

Take care.

https://youtu.be/bHAVFbCeMj8
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: Holden on May 30, 2021, 10:44:16 am
Herr Hauser,
I hope you are feeling better now. I hope you get well soon. You are a truly great thinkers and I hope very much that you would continue to think and share your precious thoughts with us.
Take care.
https://youtu.be/k4V3Mo61fJM
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: raul on May 30, 2021, 06:39:48 pm
Holden,

In my view you should keep studying mathematics and philosophy regardless of what can happen tomorrow. That is what matters.

I am afraid the post-mortem technician will do his work as fast as he can with you, with me or with any other deceased person that arrives at his table. We will be just a new name in his long list. He will never run out of work.

Stay alert.
Title: Approaching the Fire Spitting Dragon ( To Senor Raul)
Post by: Holden on May 31, 2021, 04:37:02 pm
Senor Raul,

Thanks for your message. I wanted to ask you about the War of the Triple Alliance ,I read that it resulted in a lot of deaths.Also, is dueling legal over there?
There is just too much pain and suffering in this world.Only a monster could have devised it.

I hide in my room and I get these thoughts which are conventionally called negative. Yet, there is a great deal of truth in them.
Did you ever see Stroessner in person. Like,for example, when he came to your town for making a speech or something.

Over here, people are very, very rude and are never polite. Not in the slightest.

When romantic love  is out of the equation, things become a tad simpler. Then, there is more clarity. Truth ,unlike the bien pensant understanding,is not a fluffy bunny but a fire spitting dragon and only the bravest of men( like you),could approach it.

Take care, and please do keep writing, if possible.
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: raul on June 01, 2021, 06:32:59 am
Holden,

Thank you for your response. I hope to write as long as I can.

Dueling is legally forbidden in this country. The War of the Triple Alliance or the Paraguayan War started in 1864 and ended on March 1, 1870 when Marshall Francisco Solano López was killed in combat by the Brazilian army.
Yes, the war caused much devastation and practically destroyed mostly the male population.

I only saw Stroessner in pictures, posters, in newspapers and on TV. My sister saw him once in a school activity in the late 1980s. He ruled the country from May 1954 to February, 1989 when he was overthrown by General Andrés Rodriguez, whose daughter was married to his younger son, in a military coup. This reminds me of something I read about him.

On September 11, 1973 the Chilean military overthrew President Salvador Allende who supposedly killed himself and many artists, politicians,dissidents, activists, communists, were killed or disappeared by the army under the command of General Augusto Pinochet.

One prominent politician fled to the U.S. His name was Orlando Letelier who was killed in Washington D.C. on September 21, 1976 by a car bomb planted by Michael Townley, a U.S. national and also agent for the National Directorate of Intelligence (DINA, in Spanish) following orders of General Manuel Contreras. The thing is that the assassins were able to fly to the US bearing Paraguayan passports. General Pinochet asked Stroessner for his assistance and so he duly did.

Years later General Contreras was sentenced to 526 years in prison and died six years ago and Pinochet died in 2006.
Indeed only a monster could have devised this sinister world. There is only suffering and pain as you say. This prison stinks.

But you cannot utter these truths to most people because they will reject what you say and tell you to go and see a psychiatrist. Or they will tell you that you need to ffuck a girl and so things will be allright.

Some say: “do not trust the pusssy” because It is Satan´s black hole. The pusssy is the enemy.  But most of us love the pusssy. We love to dig in there and do naughty things whose result end nine months later.

Take care.
Title: Torture Machine ( To Senor Raul)
Post by: Holden on June 01, 2021, 04:50:33 pm
Senor Raul,

Thanks for your message.

Maybe in the future the human beings would be so dumbed- down that they might  not even be able to continue to maintain the skin deep civilization that exists now.

The whole of the existence is some kind of machine that keeps torturing us and there is no way of throwing a spanner in the works.
When I am alone in the room and I am reading or doing maths, it is not so bad, but the moment I am in presence of another human being, my spider sense starts to go crazy.

You know in the corporate/business world, they go on and on about the value of “Networking”, well, I spit on their network.The people who are on this message board are the only ones who are a part of my network and I do not give a rap about others.
I wanted to ask you if you have visited Jesús de Tavarangue,if yes, how did you find it?

 Schopenhauer says,when a couple is copulating, they are saying yes to existence in the most resounding manner and that is the beginning of all misery.

Take care.
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: raul on June 02, 2021, 10:28:28 am
Holden,

Indeed, Holden, life is hell. We, human beings, are demonic creatures.

When I read horrible news such as massacres, trafficking of human organs, women murdered and buried in ditches, doctors killing their patients, children being sacrificed,etc., I understand that these events happen on a daily basis because we are ruthlessly selfish. There is no compassion inside us.

I admit I hurt many people and honestly in some cases I do not regret what I did. I wish I spent my life being a kinder person. This world is not a paradise. This world is a prison.

As you say, existence is a machine that keeps torturing since we have come into this world. There is no escape.
But again these truths are hard to swallow. That is the reason you and those like you will always be deemed as losers, cowards, misfits, outcasts, outsiders and whiners.

Human life is not worth continuing. If I am to follow the Gnostic view I consider myself a projection of my creator, the Demiurge, and I am a demonic creature but on a smaller scale.

I understand that I will face the consequences for every miserable act of cruelty I committed. As the Bible says, “For whatsoever a man soweth, that shall he also reap.

Stay safe.
Title: To the Best Doctor in the Whole of Paraguay
Post by: Holden on June 02, 2021, 04:25:11 pm
Dr. Raul,

Thanks for your message. The rainy season is here and all night long the rainstorm rages.

I ,again, thank you for introducing me to Gnoticism. There is no doubt that it is about a thousand times better than all the mainstream religions.

They are vaccinating everybody here too against the virus ,I only wish, it were a vaccine to put me down for good,I’d be more than happy to take such a vaccine. Maybe the same injection they give to the horses who never win any races.

 I have lost all the races,all of them all,by a mile.

Well, it a way, they did try to kill me, more specifically my mind. It is only the medicine given by Dr.Hauser and you,Dr.Raul, and others here, which has revived it.

I very much hope that you would continue to provide me with medication for my mind, though, I,being poor, have little or nothing to pay you for it.

Take care.
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: raul on June 03, 2021, 08:35:46 am
Holden,

Thank you for your words. As I have said before I am just a scribbler.

On the issue of Gnosticism you must thank Jacques Lacarriere, a French author, who wrote his book for those interested in this difficult subject.

You and Hentrich, Ibra and Silenus and many others wrote on important topics in the board. I am sure many are grateful to all of you.
As to rainy seasons and rainstorms you are a survivor and you have gone through many things in your life. In military terms you are a combatant.

In my last post I forgot to add that the sexual drive has been very well designed by the masters of this human farm/laboratory. The masters are as indifferent to us as we are indifferent to ants. We are here to be crushed and exploited. We are seeing it right now.

The fact of being alive is pure horror. We see horrible things every single day due to the fact of having been born in Horror Land called Earth.

The alternative news I post is just one more confirmation of the reality of this criminal world. I am also a criminal but on a smaller scale.

Stay well.
Title: Atlantis ( To Senor Raul)
Post by: Holden on June 03, 2021, 05:08:21 pm
Senor Raul,

Thank you for your message. I hope you are doing well.

I was wondering if you are familiar with Ayn Rand.While I do not accept here ideas hook,line and sinker, I think that our little message board is some what similar to Atlantis described by her,in that, we reject the social mores.

Generally, it is the Capitalists who are portraits as villains and until a few years back, I might have done so too,however, I can tell you for a fact that there are many workers who hardly do any work and threaten their colleagues because they belong to powerful trade unions.

https://youtu.be/jz_iA9c0KkU

It is all without hope. People, I have found to my dismay, are even worse than how Rand portrayed them in her books.
They do not want to study themselves and try to pull down those who wish to study. Crab mentality.

Well, I hope they do not harm you, because you are having a quite unique mind and they do not like to come across an honest and a sincere mind like that of yours.

Stay safe.
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: raul on June 04, 2021, 06:46:10 am
Holden,

Once again thank you for your words and the video.

Many years ago I saw a movie about Ayn Rand but I don´t remember the title. I wish I could read like you but that is not possible anymore.

Here workers in the public sector do hardly any work but they are part of trade unions. That is how the system works. They are untouchable because they only answer to their political godfathers. Also during this plandemic most of the public employees work only part time and yet they collect their fully salaries while most people lost their businesses or jobs.

We are a doomed species. We, humans, commit evil acts that even the Devil would not commit.

These words: Know thyself means nothing to millions of people around the world. The system under which we were born only wants you know how much you have in your pocket as you well know.

Once we are born we are burdened with impositions. We are given a name, a number, a chip in our IDs, a religion, a nationality, a gender; we are inserted in a school where we will be trained/tamed to become a compliant workforce until we one day end up in a coffin. From day 1 we have become living corpses. And now it is worse, vaccinated living corpses.

I think sometimes that humans are just a glitch in the universe.

Take care.
Title: Colour Out of Space ( To Senor Raul)
Post by: Holden on June 04, 2021, 05:55:25 pm
Senor Raul,

Thank you for your message.I have read a great number of works by Lovecraft and to be honest, the world he depicts is far closer to reality than what one gets to see in the run of the mill movies and romantic comedies.

These days even the horror movies like to be politically correct. Even many horror novels. Lovecraft was not politically correct. He was truthful.

In the movie version of Colour Out of Space, when the toxic alien meteorite hits the farm- house of the protagonist ,he is making love to his wife. Maybe there is some symbolism there.

It tells me that while human beings are busy with their day-to-day affairs,like a bolt from the blue, Noumenon rears its head and men cannot resist it. It is way to powerful. In fact, they owe their very being to it. Only they like to put a bourgeois garb over it as they find the experience to standing in front of it, face to face, unbearable.

In Hinduism,they say that suicide is futile. Say,if someone kills himself because he is poor,then, his soul would be reincarnated again and he would have to face poverty once again. He can kill himself again but the same thing would keep repeating until he learns his lesson.

I personally think that universe is far more weird than this simplistic depiction of the Karmic process leads one to believe.
No, it is not so simple.
Take care.

https://youtu.be/0HRdYscA8xU
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: raul on June 05, 2021, 07:56:16 am
Holden,

Thank you for the video but it is not available here.

Mill movies, romantic movies and horror movies are designed to be socially and politically correct. That is the way to brainwash people. Remember, those in power know the impact of Hollywood specially on people. Most people find truths difficult to swallow except for a minority.

On the vaccination issue, what can I add? Here most people believe what they MSM feeds them and that includes some neighbors, relatives and my sister. My sister told me she will get the vaccine. Well, there is nothing I can do about it.

I talked to one neighbor about the dangers of the vaccine but he never listened. Last week he told me his father got the vaccine. That made me sad but I understand. First the impact of the propaganda machine of the Paraguaya MSM is very strong and besides to them I am just a jobless nobody unworthy of paying attention.

In my last post you asked me if I visited Jesus Taravangué. No, I have never been to that place. But I have heard of the artists and the place many times. I know very little about this country, geographically speaking.

You also said you hope people do not harm me.The damage has been done because once I was brought to this world the misery started.

Stay safe.
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: Holden on June 05, 2021, 11:55:58 am
"In some sense, gravity does not exist; what moves the planets and the stars is the distortion of space and time." ~ Michio Kaku
Title: La Tristesse Durera Toujours( To Senor Raul)
Post by: Holden on June 05, 2021, 07:17:18 pm
Senor Raul,

Thanks for your message.

I talked to one neighbor about the dangers of the vaccine but he never listened. Last week he told me his father got the vaccine. That made me sad but I understand. First the impact of the propaganda machine of the Paraguaya MSM is very strong and besides to them I am just a jobless nobody unworthy of paying attention.-Senor Raul

The problem is people never recognize an exceptional individual because there is a huge chasm(intellectually/spiritually) between them and him. Much as they would try ,they fail to recognise his true worth.

They do not know that you are one of the most honest and profound thinkers alive today in the world. It’s their loss.The Goddess of History will not absolve them.

Take Lovecraft, he always sold his work for very little money and lived most of his life in poverty.Also, his wife stayed with him for just about two years. If memory serves,she even sent him divorce papers to sign, but he belonged to a once aristocratic(in the truest sense of the term) and genteel family and had a lot of self-respect so he refused to sign it. They were never officially divorced but he also never went to see her again.

I think after he died and his work started to make a great deal of money and became extremely popular, his so-called wife crawled out of the woodwork and tried to encash his new-found popularity.(She did not even come to attend his funeral).

Lovecraft was a serious and studious man who wanted to plumb the dark depths of reality and existence, and this lady comes along, plays with him sentiments and feeling and leaves him even more of a wreck than he was before.

What does he do? Did he try to retaliate ? No.Such behaviour was beneath him.He was a noble man. He went back to his work.To his books. To his ideas.

You know Aristotle is always talking about the final cause or teleology. I am not sure if there is something to it. But if I were to suppose that he is right for the sake of argument, I would say that, my life goal is to die on my desk chair while I am tying out a message like this one to you or  Herr Hauser or one of our other friends here on this message board because that is when I am closest to the values I care about and am furthest from being a phony.

Take care and please do not worry about what people say or think about you. You are one of the greats.

A song:
https://youtu.be/r8Y3lQ-WUL0


https://youtu.be/1fNlBn8KRng
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: Holden on June 06, 2021, 06:58:25 pm
I am trying to make sense of this painful existence.But maybe there is not teleos after all.
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: raul on June 07, 2021, 06:55:37 am
Holden,

Thank you for your words and the videos.

I am no exceptional being. I suppose I realize just a little more about situations than most of my fellow human beings. I admit that at the beginning I followed the official narrative but as the months passed I realized there were many things that did not add up.

In 2009 I remember we had the hysteria about H1N1 and like good lamb to slaughter we went to get our vaccines. It is clear that this event was the first stage in the culling. Had I known what I know now I would have never taken the vaccine at that time.

The good thing about the plandemic is that many people realized all the lies they have been taught all their lives. Lives=lies.

Still people will never understand that the MSM is not to be trusted. It is just another example that our world is not honest at all.

Here I think comes this psychological term cognitive dissonance much used nowayadays.

In Wikipedia, I read, cognitive dissonance is the perception of contradictory information. Relevant items of information include a person´s actions, feelings, ideas, beliefs and values. Cognitive dissonance is typically experienced as psychological stress when they participate in an action that goes against one or more of them. According to this theory, when two actions or ideas are not psychologically consistent with each other, people do all in their power to change them until they become consistent.

Well, teleology is a big word.The definition is that teleology from the Greek words telos, end, aim, or goal and logos, explanation, finality, is a reason or explanation for something as a function of its end, purpose,, or goal as opposed to as a function of, say, its cause.

In this vast universe, do we, the homo sapiens sapiens, really matter? I think we are just pawns or puppets.

One of the authors, Andrew Philip Smith, who wrote about the Cathars, said the following:

“In an apocryphal saying, Jesus said, ‘The world is a bridge. Pass over it, but build no house upon it.’ Logion 42 in the Gnostic Gospel of Thomas echoes this: 0‘Become passers-by.’”

I think that we must not leave any prints on this world and become passers-by but that is difficult because it goes against our human nature. Most want to make a difference in this world.

I think the term exceptional applies to you, Hentrich and many others. That is the reason people like you, social pariahs, will suffer until you give your last breath.

That is why they want you,in your case, to find a lady, get married, have a baby, get a promotion,etc.
Then at last most of your colleagues/family members at work will say:

Now Holden is one of us. If you were in the USA people would sing in American English:
Holden, For He´s a Jolly Good Fellow!, For He´s a Jolly Good Fellow! For He´s a Jolly Good Fellow!
Which nobody can deny!

Again in order to survive in this universe of maniacs we must have a heart made of steel. That is the reason most people become dehumanized for seeing so much horror.

Death is horror, diseases are horror; and yet we have been designed with pleasure sensors to make this human farm grow.

Life is pure exploitation at all levels and nobody escapes even those who are in power. But we accept this status quo.
We accept this pisssing, Shittting, drinking, eating, ****, and sleeping. And yet we bring children into this living cemetery.

There are people who are cancer sufferers. I think we must also say that we are life sufferers.

Stay well.
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: Holden on June 08, 2021, 11:51:08 am
https://youtu.be/ZGG_QJjnRbA
Title: Godel and Lovecraft ( To Dear Senor Raul)
Post by: Holden on June 09, 2021, 12:22:42 pm
Dear Senor Raul,

I hope you are doing well,I ,as always,am not. I study mathematics under the constant mental turmoil because of the haunting thought I might be rendered unemployed(with no safety nets) very soon or  I might be imprisoned on fraudulent charges.

In the afternoon today, like in a Kafka novel, three evil people came to the office and were knocking and making noises but I never opened that door. The nosy neighbour entertained them and when in the evening, I came out ,for just a second, he too immediately out of his flat and told me that there were people looking for me.

I have decided that I would stay hidden for as long as possible. I think when the time comes I can do away with myself,but I do not wish to do it violently. I mean, that I do not wish to hang myself or jump from the 16th floor or anything like that.

When the time comes, I want to do that Godel it. He and Lovecraft are men whom  are greatly admire.  When Godel was quite young he decided to focus on the kind of mathematics which would have philosophical implications. I want to be like him to as large an extent as possible, given that I am poor as a church mouse and my father did everything possible to keep me away from mathematics.

I think Lovecraft and Godel would have liked to meet each other.But of course, Lovecraft was long dead when Godel came to the U.S.,however, Herr Hauser was about 11 when Godel was still alive and really close to him geographically.

Take care please.

https://youtu.be/kV1SOyAye4I
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: raul on June 10, 2021, 10:01:06 am
Holden,

Thank you for your words and the video with Lovecraft. It is most interesting.

I hope you are enduring your health issues. It must not be easy for you there specially with the threat of becoming unemployed and being imprisoned on fraudulent charges, as you say.

I hope you keep studying mathematics and reading Lovecraft and Godel as you wish.

I am not doing well. But given the circumnstances we are living right now that is normal.

Like you I often think of doing away with myself in a peaceful manner. Using a razor edge on my throat or my wrists, crossing the avenue with lots of traffic, putting my head in an oven inhaling gas, etc? The other available choice is to get vaccinated and probably I will be gone in a few days.

In a kind of twisted way that is the easiest and cheapest choice and above all it is provided by the government.How considerate of them!

Besides in the vaccinations sites there are well-meaning nurses eager to push the liquid into our bodies. There is almost no difference with the nurses that were part of T4, the euthanasia plan in the Third Reich.What a beautiful world!

Here the vaccine menu includes Sputnik, Astra Zeneca, Sinopharm, the India vaccine, and probably they will get Moderna and Pfizer.Although the MSM attacks the government for the delays in bringing the vaccines, things are going to schedule. Now it is the turn for pregnant women. There are Paraguayans going to Miami, USA to get their vaccines there. It is a kind of vaccine tourism.

Stay safe.
Title: Lovecraft II
Post by: Holden on June 10, 2021, 12:32:32 pm
Senor Raul,

Thanks for your message.I hope you feel better.I think there is something very strange about this world. That is a big part of the reason why most of the people might think I am not normal. Because I think the world is not normal. I like the fact that Godel was considered as an extremely strange man because he did not conform with the petty norms.The only reason they put up with him was because he was head and shoulders above them,intellectually. I think if Lovecraft had managed to study serious mathematics then he would have ended up becoming very much like Godel. The gorts have tried to pervert his ideas and but now I see right through the mind-numbing perversions. I think they have done something very similar to Godel,what Godel thought was done to Leibniz.

Well,you see your life is very precious because you are a proponent of truthfulness and a lot of the guests over here look forward to reading your messages.

It is a very weird world.I wonder if you have ever suspected anyone of spying on you.

Take care.

https://youtu.be/ABp8zPjTGKQ
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: Holden on June 11, 2021, 03:01:22 am
Truly great men must, I think, experience great sorrow on the earth.  ~Fyodor Dostoevsky.
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: Holden on June 11, 2021, 04:11:38 am
“No one recovers from the disease of being born, a deadly wound if ever there was one. Yet it is with the hope of being cured of it some day that we accept life and endure its ordeals. The years pass, the wound remains.”

Emil Cioran
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: raul on June 11, 2021, 07:57:03 am
Holden,

I think that most readers look forward to reading your messages and Hentrich´s.

Thank you for your words. I remember the expression in Latin: ‘mens sana in corpore sano, healthy mind in a health body but in my case sick mind in a sick body. This is the frailty of human life.

I suppose some may have spied on me. They must have wanted to know if I work, or have a regular job, if I am married or have a girlfriend or something like that. Relatively this is a small country and the capital is even smaller.

Here you don´t need detectives to find out if your wife or girlfriend or lover has a love affair because neighbors are good snitches. Here for the spies we have a term in Guarani pyrague or hairy feet.

As you say the world is not normal. It has never been. You have realized this fact unlike many who remain blind and deaf.

There is something sinister in all this. We, human beings, are very strange creatures. We worship death and you may see that in the skulls in the caps worn by SS officers, the so-called Fiancees of Death, Spanish troops under Dictator Francisco Franco, the deaths squads in our neighboring country, Argentina in the Dirty War (1976-1983), the satanic rituals, or what we are witnessing right now. We are the jailers and executors of our own fellow human beings.
One thing is sure and that it is better never to have been born.

When I speak that Earth is a human farm I think the archons have many farms in many planets. Why should we think that we are the only captives in the universe? We are property.

To the archons, who are not Sisters of Mercy, some say, we, humans, are a cosmical pharmacy and we can see the seal of the archons in the pharmacies, the caduceus which is the representation of a staff with two entwined snakes and two wings at the top. It is also the medical insignia.

Some say we are biological machines and in our machine as it happens in a CPU the memory remains. Memory is linked to consciousness that is similar to the spirit. What is beyond death if there is something more beyond? Our suffering selves in our physical bodies will die and these selves will continue to suffer in another body.

Suffering is endless and as you say many times before we are in the wheel of Samsara.

Stay alert.
Title: Land of Mammon Worshippers ( To Senor Raul)
Post by: Holden on June 11, 2021, 12:31:42 pm
Senor Raul,

Thanks for your message.What happens to those who kill themselves according to Gnosticism?If the lover of a wife visits her when the husband is in the office,then would the neighbours inform the husband about it immediately over there?

Here people are really bad and could be termed as a brood of vipers.They want to bite even those who like to mind their own business.They just pray to Mammon.That way they are monotheists. A lot of people think they are polytheists.Well,they are not.They just pray to Mammon.
This is for you:
https://youtu.be/EXs2-TY9qok
Take care.
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: Holden on June 12, 2021, 12:52:03 am
It is improbable that our ‘knowledge’ goes much further than what is absolutely necessary for the preservation of life. Morphology teaches us that an animal’s senses, nerves and brain develop in proportion to the difficulty it has in feeding itself. - Nietzsche.
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: Holden on June 12, 2021, 07:07:03 am
Senor Raul,

If I abruptly disappear then please know that it is because I am in such a position that I cannot write any longer, not because,I don't want to.
Title: Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
Post by: raul on June 12, 2021, 07:48:00 am
Holden,

Thank you for your words and the video. I hope you are able to stay away from the brood of vipers.

In your post you said that you wanted to be like Godel because he decided to focus on the kind of mathematics which would have philosophical implications.

I think that you have a mind of the highest caliber in trying to study mathematics with philosophical implications. Unlike most of us who have, well, minds of the lowest caliber. And our caliber, let me say, is in another place of the body. Our interests are mundane and shallow.

I found the following in Jacques Lacarriere´s book on the Gnostics:

What means exist, then, for breaking this lumbriciform cycle, for wrenching oneself free of the mentality of a qualified amphibian and shattering the vile mirror that eternally throws back our own reflection and hides from us the true splendours of the hyperworld?

It is possible to reject the beguiling trickery of the world by abstaining from procreation, and the majority of Gnostics did this, refusing to insert the absurd parenthesis of life between prenatal nothingness and death. It is more difficult to abstain from feeding oneself.

All ascetic disciplines, no matter how austere, involve a minimum of nourishment. The greatest saints defecated, just like everyone else. One might, therefore, think of a simpler and more radical solution: suicide. But this solution is the absolute antithesis of the Gnostic attitude. Not one of them, at any time, preached suicide. The aim of the Gnostic is not the conjugate extinction of life and of consciousness, but the mastering of the one and the other, the attainment of a hyper-life and a hyper-consciousness.

What you write reminds me of a story I was told decades ago about the infidelity of a woman. A husband was very jealous of her wife and so he put iron bars on the windows to prevent anything or anyone coming to see his wife when he was away. It turned out that the woman´s lover found a way to copulate, so to sp