Hentrich,
Yes, today is a good day to die. I wish I could detach my consciousness from my body too.
Why do so many mothers lie to themselves? You should add fathers too in the question. We are brainwashed, as you, know from the moment we come into this slaughterhouse. Few dare question their parents´ beliefs. It took me a long time to realize this bitter truth.
Life is very complex and deep. It is a big mistery. Why is there consciousness?, Why do children in many parts of the world die of contaminated water, why did the Spanish flu cause 75 million deaths just before and after that butchery called WWI, why did the tender and kind creator not give us the cure for these terrible diseases?, Why are we given genetic diseases and mental and emotional disorders? I ask myself.
As to whether God has a plan for this miserable world, well, you are seeing it in the events now. Famines, plagues, pests, natural disasters, droughts, wars, conflicts, floods, are the part of the plan. As I am not Christian, Jew or Muslim, I do not follow their view that this world is a paradise. Does this madness called life seem like the plan of a loving creator or ETs who want us to live happily on this Earth? Only malevolent and incompetent entities could have created this madness. Should the God of the mainstream religions not be held responsible for children who are born with autism, palsey, blindness, deformities? What about the elderly who are suffering from Alzheimer and Parkinson?
In my view all this existence and above the presence of the homo sapiens could be just an accident. This idea is very difficult for millions to accept since most of us, including myself, have been conditioned by the mainstream religions.
We, humans, are driven to find meaning in what happens no matter how ruthless, cruel and brutal this world is. Most people are able to find peace after terrible events. Above all we have an amazing capacity to compartmentalize what does not make impact on us. I am not telling you anything new. You all know this.
Finally, I have no idea about this Quora forum. But like you I loathe this Creation and Being. This is all madness. You can respond that. But it is for you to decide.
Stay safe and take a nap.