Thanks raul. I had some really bad inflammations for two months and now I am spitting blood occasionally, maybe from smoking a lot or something terminal. anyway I don't seek any medical operators, I do however take some random over-the-counter pills.
The poem of Pessoa you posted is so penetrating. he is not beating around the bush with some romantic s h i t.
Hope you are keeping yourself well as much as you could do.
be safe and drink a lot of Mate.