{∅, {∅}, {∅, {∅}}} : Rage Against the Meat Grinder

Nothingness + biology, thst is, Sex with Death = Perpetual WHAT?

We can trace "how we got in this predicament" back to our parents.

Let's pretend we are retarded geniuses, that is, we have hunches, and while we might explain the mathematics, we are so burdened by the more fundamental and primitive urgencies of our own animal existence - our own personal existential crises (plural) - that we hardly can organize our inner life.

In other words, we try to apply arithmetic laws (involving time) and rewind the clock in our imaginations, thereby following cause and effect from one birth to the next, throughout the generations.

When we do not reproduce, our "biological train ride" is over.  We are, often thankfully, a dead branch on the Tree of Life which will spawn no more conscious sentient lifeforms so vulnerable and easily manipulated by force or control of natural resources (encaged, farmed).

As Holden has made clear, we usually underestimate the gravity and severity of our ominous predicament.

I escape the dread, fear, anxiety through engaging with "doing mathematics" as well as trying to apply mathematical concepts to my style and attitude when approaching a little coding project inspired by the old mathematics texts I cherish, or, to be more precise, worship.   

By the way, how can there be sex without biological life forms.  I mean, all biological creatures are born from Sexual Orgasmic Union, but it takes Two to Tango, so to speak, so where, might I ask did these first two come from ... keep going back in your imagination until you reach a point of infinity ... since the magnitude of the generations are hinted at in Hindu religious terminology, as far as eons and incarnation cycles, not to mention the Native South American civilizations calendar cycles and celestial cycles of worlds.

It's all so unreal though.  Even in  Pure Mathematics, Infinity is not a number, but a point.  Its nature is more geometric than numeric.   Infinity is an unreachable Point where dimensions bend into a spiral of sorts.

I have thought a great deal throughout my life, so there is a strong oder of contemplative life philosophy in my approach to mathematical ideas.   Maybe there is a "religious devotee" flavor to my enthusiasm for the abstract realm of mathematics a million miles from the phenomenal world, but I have a strong suspicion that this abstract world might map over to the natural systems studied by physicists (and it does, of course).

I want to experience this connection.  I have taken my existence seriously, and I think I may have been able to leave some notes that Holden (and his own school, perhaps) could benefit in studying for many years, maybe a decade (or two?).

One can daydream, right?

How did Schopenhauer get around this riddle?   He said that time is a mental faculty (he agreed with Kant).  he called it the "ideality of time."  In other words, time-and-space are hardwired into the wetware of our physical nervous systems.  [and yet physical implies space-time ?]

I don't see how this anwers the fundamental question a child might ask: which came first, sex or death?

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In an email to nephew I came out with this, which I think is related:

strange and trippy world

I wish I were just a head, yet even within the pains the animal body experiences, there is a great sense of relief as consciousness submerges beneath the threshold, merging with primordial Thing in Itself.

Why do we allow ourselves to be so terrified by the phantasmagoric samsarsa that we are caught in by the nature of our biology itself, the sex+death = perpetual aimless dissatisfaction.