Holden,
Thank you for your words. We are in Holy Week. This is the only time I can endure this city more. Most go to the countryside to visit their towns and families. There is a lot of tourism there.
Holden,
Yes, we are puppets. What strange puppets we are indeed! It is a punishment to feel ourselves as puppets. I once read that the prisoners in Auschwitz and Dachau who endured those killing fields were not the strongest physically but those who had a strong inner life. I see you that way.
Your colleagues may not survive without the comfort of their jobs but you will. Also one day your colleagues will tire of so much pressure, so many expectation of themselves, of abusing themselves to the point of insanity, of surrendering to pressures. They will tire of being the executioner and the victim, the jailer and the prisoner. One day like those prisoners of the concentration camps, they will not be able to stand up and walk. Zombies.
In our case let us enjoy the pleasure of being nobodies in this dizzyinng world.
It is because you have been doing your job professionally, as I see it, that they do not dare to do anything against you. Admittedly I also wanted to behave like a little dictator.
All this dictator behavior, in my view, comes from our so-called education that praises obedience so much. It is dangerous. We are domesticated by our parents, our school teachers and society in general to see obedient people as an example to be followed. We are taught to respect authority, to obey the norms and rules. It is dangerous that when a young man or woman always pay heeds to orders. That is the reason many commit atrocities only because a superior commands him/her to do so. I learned, better late than never, that disobedience is a virtue.
Yes, humans are disgusting. I remember when I heard the news in 1995 about the sarin gas attack on the subway in Tokyo. I learned later that strange cult called The Aum Shimrikyu or Supreme Truth was behind it. The leader was Shoko Asahara. I read later that his followers wanted to be better than most people. They wanted to be beyond the misery of the human condition. That is the reason they had no problems in spraying the sarin. If one loathes mankind, if one detests it from the bottom of his/her heart, if one sees cheat, hypocrite, murderers,cruel, manipulative, power hungry, predator humans, the surest thing is that sooner or later one can eliminate mankind without any scruples. Although most of their leaders have been sentenced to death the cult has a new name: Aleph and they have followers around the world.
Who knows? The human cockroach will be recycled from the face of the Earth and another experiment will start again. Madness forever.
Stay safe.