{∅, {∅}, {∅, {∅}}} : Rage Against the Meat Grinder

Thank you for your message.I am at present reading about Merleau -Ponty's thought.I wish he wrote about suffering too more explicitly.While there is certainly some truth in what he writes ,he too, like most writers/philosophers chooses to ignore Schopenhauer.

You are right.Schopenhauer and our ideas would always remain marginalized.Too radical because of merely being very close to the truth.I ,for one, certainly don't presume to understand the whole of the existence. Most of it is Greek to me.
Being a creature of flesh and bones is a perilous business.Knowing how Schopenhauer was treated for most of his life, how you have been treated, really helps in clearing my perspective.

There is a lot of mayhem going on in India at the moments. People taking out political processions and all and yet it does not interest me in the slightest.As a teenager I went from one pharmacy to another looking for "sleeping pills" for I wanted to overdose on them.Time is dragging me along.

 

It's all too heavy to discuss, but I am certain these kinds of riddles are at the root of many psychatric disturbances.

-Herr Hauser

 But isn't  that the sort of the raison d'etre of this message board. I mean, discussing topics which are deemed "too heavy to discuss" by the bien pensant.

If the eternal recurrence is anything, it must be orgasm

I am taking about four anti-TB pills to kill the microbes that caused TB and my libido has certainly been weakened, which I consider to be a blessing.When we talk of eternal recurrence, I don't  mean it literally,just to be clear. But it is certainly not beyond the realm of the possibility that something really weird is driving this universe.We may not see or understand it and most probably its evil from our perspective.

That is, were I drowning in the ocean, at some point I would have to "transfer" consciousness from this animal body to the Ocean Itself.

-Herr Hauser
If existence is like the Groundhog day,then, we might have no way to tell the difference between doing something for the first time and for the millionth time. I know that you don't feel as shaken as Lovecraft but most of the time, I just feel overwhelmed by all that surrounds me, particularly people,and so I find it rather easy to see where he is coming from.Thank god he did not have a kid.

Sometimes I weep for apparently no reason at all, and while earlier I might have looked for a particular reason for it now,I am just reminded of Seneca — 'What need is there to weep over parts of life? The whole of it calls for tears.'

People think I am weird because most of the time I have nothing to say to them and I find they are boring and irritating.But at the end of the day, here I am with a body I lug around wherever I go and I don't know if there is such a thing as salvation at all. At the very least I would like to remain away from the hospitals. They are torture chambers really.