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as I reconstitute for the fourth time
Nation of One:
--- Quote from: I ---As you know by now, Schopenhauer encourages us to stubbornly enjoy our mental faculties in solitude. Hell, it could be the best revenge against those who would prefer to see us out of our heads with panic and anxiety.
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from Invitation to Explore Linear Algebra
Also:
--- Quote from: I ---I want to achieve some kind of balance, where literature and philosophy merge into one, where the demarcation between mathematics and programming gets fuzzy ... and I don't want to adhere to any schedules.
You know, as much as I agree that we all would have been better off never having been born, it is because I know how easily one can be put in a cage without access to books or computers, or even how difficult it is to lead the life of a scholar when homeless without a place to hide, store books and notebooks, I guess I am blessed to be so very content when I can just set up shop in some little room.
(speaking to Holden during last few hours of year 2015) : I know from our discussions that you also appreciate just being able to lock yourself away in Hikikomori mode.
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Further along ...
--- Quote from: I ---I can just hear a psychoanalyst referring to my mood swings as manic-depressive mental illness, but I don't give a damn what they call it. I am generally depressed, but I am doing some personal research on depressive realism to encourage myself to validate these dreary moods I experience when reflecting on the problems of existence ... and when I get all "manic" with mathematics and programming, well, it is much less pathological to channel this energy into returning to studying mathematics than to chasing oblivion with vodka. I can see in my mind's eye all those poor wretched bodies chasing a hit off a crack pipe, and I shudder at the horror of the human condition.
What is it do you think I am chasing when I seek to deepen my understanding of mathematics I was exposed to so many years ago?
When I visualize a vector in 3-dimensional space, for the moment at least, it doesn't seem to matter that existence itself is malignantly useless.
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Another keen insight by Holden (hiding in the Linear Algebra thread):
--- Quote from: Holden ---You say you no longer speak like you did in the H.Files. That you are no longer possessed. But could it be that the only difference is that now you are possessed by a demon of a higher order? (Maybe the earlier demon drove you to speak in the recorder & this one drives you to do math?)
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... a symbolic attempt to claim my mental space ...
https://youtu.be/LGVDjCxJ8vQ
--- Quote from: Holden ---I know that your are obsessed with abstruse, arcane, oracular math symbols.Could it be that the mathematical equation and the code you put here are actually “SATANIC VERSES”? SATAN the Ultimate Dissident?
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?
--- Quote from: I ---Maybe we will discover a novel approach to this supposedly unfathomable phenomenon we call mathematics. What if the whole idea of professional mathematicians is, like the old priesthoods which claimed to be the only door to divinity, prevents the novice and mediocre enthusiast from approaching the realm of mathematics as a self-ordained mathematician?
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(May 2016)
Nation of One:
Brave New World, indeed: 1
John the Savage
https://youtu.be/raqVySPrDUE?t=39
Classism ... programmed, coerced classicism.
https://youtu.be/raqVySPrDUE?t=320
https://youtu.be/raqVySPrDUE?t=431
Sent to Iceland for unorthodox behavior?
Isn't Iceland great? Is this not where Bjork is from? She is terrified of the derangement going down in Rat Race Divided Snakes of Amerika.
:-\
John the Savage gets a phone call about his mother and leaves:
https://youtu.be/raqVySPrDUE?t=451
classic literature
https://youtu.be/raqVySPrDUE?t=466
world controller school ?
https://youtu.be/raqVySPrDUE?t=524
https://youtu.be/aGCdLKXNF3w
There seem to be parallels to The Scarlet Letter
Holden:
I am acquainted with the book.To tell you the truth, I neither identified with the "civilized" hierarchical society depicted in the book ,nor with the savages who still continue to have babies the natural way.
I could ,to a large extent,relate with Winston (of 1984).
I hope you are feeling better.
Nation of One:
No, sorry to say, Holden, I am simply becoming more emboldened with less and less to lose. I have to stand my ground even if I may be standing the wrong ground. What is going to unfold, others seems to be dictating, but I am honest enough to say I do not know what is going to happen next; but if my mother (and I?) are not careful, we will become permanently estranged.
I feel similar to Henry Fool when he said he wished to "blow a hole through this world's idea of itself."
That is, I want to teach respect, especially to those who have so disrespected me. On some level, I understand how under-appreciated I have been. When do we wake up from this bad dream?
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0aaW_VMMa2E&t=13s
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=l62At70Kvyk&t=6s
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lGn05CDBc5g
Holden:
You are a lion,a German lion, they cannot tame.
As for the dream,well, I do not think it ends. You know I think Kant would be quite a bit like Schopenhauer, if he were not so Gortish.
I do not think we never wake up. Even when I am wide awake during the day, I quite often can detect a dream-like quality in my experiences.
I think when my physical body dies even that would be an experience full of “unreality”. Schopenhauer and Cioran could put up with such long lives only because they were solitary.I’m quite sure people can drive one insane rather easily.
Take care.
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