Senor Raul,
Life is a bad dream. Most people find it very difficult to relate to the difficulties of the others.This is a world of shifting sand. Most live for an orgasm. Orgasm is their God. Something exists rather than nothing. But that should be so is a question that is endlessly fascinating. The something which exists is the cause of all our pain and all our agony. The hospitals here are full of patients dying a painful death.
Who wants to go to the hospitals to see what the life really is like ? Nobody.They want to go to the bordello instead. Also,even the people who work in the hospitals,I mean the nurses and doctors, they grow callous over time. Man is an animal that can get used to any kind of hell .Misfortune is not the exception, it is the general rule of life.
Existence is a puzzle. As you know, over here in India, a lot of folks believe in the reincarnation theory. Even if I was not"Holden" but someone else, it makes very little difference.So long as one is sentient ,there will be endless misery. What I'd really like to be is a rock. I would just be there . I am sick and tired of endless becoming and wish to just "be".Of course, you and I are not the only ones who find existence painful.
One death occurs every 40 seconds due to suicide. People vote with their feet. The difference is that you and I, we describe the misery of our existence, of Existence itself.Most people try to hide it. They like to put on a show. They like to pretend that they are having a jolly good time.They like to act tough. Well, life knows how to break even the strongest amongst us. The only reason I am still around is only because life has not turned its full wrath over me yet. Once it does, when it does, it is most difficult to resist the call of the void. But really, there is no void in nature. No hiding place. I repeat, there is no hiding place.
Keep well.