I hear a symphony ...
Experiments in Nihilism: Reading silently Mitchell Heisman's suicidenote.pdf with the voice (inside your head) of "the demon inside Reagen" - AKA Captain Howdy (Pazuzu).

The implications of life’s meaninglessness have not been elicited with sufficient ruthlessness. My methodology is honesty to the point of absurdity; honesty without mercy; honesty unprejudiced by morals, aesthetics, faith, or hope.
When all illusions have been dispelled, at the end of overcoming subjectivities, biases, and prejudices towards life, one encounters the possibility of rational negation of self-interest; rational self-annihilation; rational self-destruction.
The experiment in nihilism is to seek out precisely those truths that are most deadly and destructive to me. To will death through truth and truth through death.
Stop making sense!