There is no water tight formula, of course. There are very dark urges and forces inside of everyone. They are very powerful too. They cannot be controlled consciously. Ghost stories don't cut it for me. Maybe the only thing that kept me out of trouble during my very crazy adolescence was my constant urge to read. To read books like "Darkness at Noon".
That urge to comprehend the true nature of existence of the will is very strong in me indeed- if I do say so myself,much like Schopenhauer.
There are other dark urges which my breast harbours. They can wreck havoc if they can have their way. I would be lost completely.
I understand better than most Schopenhauer scholars the true nature of the force that drove Schopenhauer so steadfastly to pursue philosophy.The reason why he read so very voraciously. He is perhaps the most well read philosopher ever.
Long before I ever knew anything about Schopenhauer I was laying ,dazed, with Kafka's The Castle in Calcutta station, roaming around in the streets of Calcutta with a copy of the Catcher in the Rye firmly held against my chest ,as if to ward off evil forces.
I don't want to lessen the consciousness of the insanity of existence,I want to heighten it even more. That is the only thing that keeps quiet the dark urges threatening to erupt like Mt.Etna from deep inside of me.
I must entire study the diabolical/historical forces minutely like Schopenhauer or end up becoming a plaything of the historical,diabolical forces.