When I got back from visiting my father at the hospital, I immediately started pecking away at some algebraic exercises. After having met the doctor who cut open my father's stomach and performed the difficult operation unwinding the intestines that had somehow wrapped around each other, the full reality of my "deadbeatness" sunk in. How different one individual human being is from the next!
I guess I'm feeling like quite a "bum," albeit, a bum who tinkers with mathematics, but a bum just the same. I am not depressed at all about it. It feels good to survive such catostraphic introspection.
I think I will stop taking myself so seriously and just observe myself tinker away ... So many exercises to go through ... so time consuming ... I don't have a destination ... How odd I feel in comparison to Herr Doctor.
- Your non-working working-class highly functioning non-functional skinny-version of Ignatius Reilly
By the way, I prefer the Japanese term "hikikomori" over the term "deadbeat".
While reading an article, in JapanToday,
Society's shut-ins are getting older, I wasn't the least bit surprised to read an apparently non-Japanese commenter reply:
In the US or Canada, the family could involve the police working in conjunction with emergency health care professionals for forced removal of the family member suffering this condition. These individuals would be cuffed by police and sedated by a doctor, and taken to a mental health facility for 2-3 months for rehabilitation. While this may sound completely invasive and sounds like it goes against human rights, this process could greatly shorten the period of time individuals suffer this condition and the suffering for the whole family. Wouldn't this be better than 10 years of agony for the entire family?
Tim_Fox wrote; "In the US the police working in conjunction with emergency health care professionals for forced removal of the family member suffering this condition."
Interesting worldview.
When we look at the USA and see they have the planet's largest prison population by far.
Why would Japan look to the US and their putative adversarial model to work in this unique culture?
Excuse me, I can't resist hijacking a few comments from JapanToday as I am feeling like I am something they haven't come up with a label for yet. I'm not quite Hikikomori, but something leaning in that direction. There are those who theorize that government relief funds have enabled many more men to walk away from traditional roles as workers, husbands, fathers, and just exist as solitary low feeders. I am sure there are many who resent such a lifestyle and wish they could whip us into shape.
Also see
Hikikomori: The Postmodern Hermits of JapanAt least I am learning from the Dolciani series some things I was never taught in college. What a pleasant surprise this is. Maybe this humble approach will be secretly more fulfilling than obtaining a degree, a degree which left me feeling empty, or as though I may have been duped, or worse, duped myself. No more self-deception! No more delusion! I shall learn something!!!