{∅, {∅}, {∅, {∅}}} : Rage Against the Meat Grinder

Deleuze jumped out of a window.His body shattered-turned into a vertiable rhizome.
To be in so much pain that one would rather jump out of a window...
You know Herr Hentrich and Senor Raul that I was born in a Hindu family.In the government records they ask us to write a religion (no you don't have an option to write atheism)-you must write Hinduism or Islam or Christianity or Sikhism or Buddhism or Jainism.
So,nominally I am a still a Hindu(though a Schopenhauerian atheist in reality).As a kid,till the age of 9 I stayed with my maternal granny-she used to tell me a lot of bedside stories.She was a practising Hindu.She used to tell me about reincarnation.Supposing she was right I must have done something in my last life which caused me to be reborn.I am quite likely to do such a thing again-what could it be?It might be that my heart was full of hatred for someone.I am a hateful man.Or did I treat an innocent cruelly?Very much possible.Whatever it might be-I am sure that the hatred within me is still very strong.There is no salvation for a hateful man like myself.I am not like Buddha or Schopenhauer or like you Herr Hentrich.I am destined to live on for a very long time.
To be born again will be the most painful experience but there is very little I can do about it-destined to suffer and to die and yet to be born again.
It's maddening ,yes?There is no escape-not even in death.