{∅, {∅}, {∅, {∅}}} : Rage Against the Meat Grinder

Hello Holden,
  One cannot run from oneself. Yes, I've had to learn that in the past. No matter where one goes, if you are not observing the contents of your thoughts and feelings - if, you are not understanding why you are thinking that there IS someplace to go that will free from the miseries and drudgery of life - then there is no understanding, only warm wishes and idle hopes. I for one cannot live life high on the drug of Hope.

  We can understand the childish impulse of religion/spirituality because of this. We can understand why the telling of stories could be an adaptation of our species in order to bear What Is. Different stories for different tribes (cultures), yet many of them revolve around a delusion of freedom and rest from a weary world. We hide away in the mythical Other, a dreamworld free from misery and enslavement, so conveniently polar opposite of What Is.

Yet, as you say, we may further the illusion by actually physically moving to a different location, thinking that the Other, the Paradise/Utopia can be found. And when we finally rest our feet and look around, the spell of our dreams is crushed by the Sameness of the reality of our predicament. Our feet are as sore here as they would be had we never left. The drudgery continues.

A primate animal who lives in two different worlds at once. What can one do but laugh when the biologists call this an "adaptation?" If anything, it shows our specious cowardliness. I can see this because I am one of them.

very poetic prose, there, Silenus. 

You have got the tiger by its tail.

Senor Raul,

Sorry for the late reply. I was extremely agitated and not in position to write anything at all.
Thanks for the touching video. I would not want to live that long. In fact, I have reached the clear conclusion that the sooner I am gone, the better it would.But before I am gone I would like to write as many pessimistic messages as possible.




I know that you do not believe in a Good God.If you don't mind my asking -were your parents religious? Were they Protestants or Catholics?
Did you go to the Church every week and when you were a kid, did they take you also with them?

What do you think of the Roman Catholic Church?

Please take care.

A song for you:

Holden,

Thank you for the song. I hope you have a little tranquility now.

This is not a healthy world. If it were most of the psychopaths would be in prison or at least fleeing. But most of us are complicit in this hellish game called life.

“Don´t give up on life”, some say and they say to deny that this world is unbearable. Consciousness is a lethal poison. As usual the question is: what is the purpose to all this, the drama of our human existence?

My folks were Catholics but they at some time in their lives became part of a spiritualist movement called in Spanish Escuela Científica Basilio. I don´t know much about them.
I must have been to a Catholic Mass four or five times. What can I say about the Roman Catholic Church? Unfortunately the message of the Galilean was distorted. The truth shall set you free, the Galilean fisherman said. The truth is not in the interest of those in power.

By the way I read that the Knights of the Apocalypse were a secret society whose members were pious Roman Catholics, and it was allegedly established in 1693. Their members´ goal was to save mankind. Whenever the Anti Christ is born, they hunt Satan´s offspring and murder him in the cradle. Allegedly, they have killed several children
already. Is this true? Who knows?

The current pope some time ago abandoned the title of Vicar of Christ. Some bloggers I follow claim that this pope was part of the coup d´etat against Benedict XVI in 2013. They say he is part of the globalist agenda which means one religion, one world government and one currency.

Stay alert.

Mr.Ibra,

I hope you are as well as is possible in a world such as this one. In your neck of the woods, hundreds of thousands of people have lost their homes,their personal belongings-everything. In my country, as I am sure you know, there is a great deal of poverty.
I like to call it The Thousand Year Old poverty. The poor have always been here. They will always be here.

I experience partial peace only when I am on my own. Writing, thinking, doing maths. And above all waiting, not for Godot, for but for the Grim Reaper.

Please take care.

Senor Raul,

While I was taking my post-dinner walk, engrossed in this book called Lila suggested by Herr Hauser, I began to think about Kafka.
You see,Kafka,like me,worked in an office, for the whole of his life except for the last couple of years when he was too weak to work any longer.
He had no time to write anything during the day due to his official responsibilities.

He writes: “I need solitude for my writing; not ‘like a hermit’ — that wouldn’t be enough — but like a dead man”.

In the day,I am too agitated. In the night,I ccould be fairly confident that I would not be disturbed by the phone ring or the door bell. When he returned from the office, he slept for a few hours and woke up as the night approached.



He wrote in the night and that helped him to salvage a little of his sanity. I do not wish to be a writer like him,but I wish to learn a little mathematics,if I could. So,this is the thought that came into my mind,while strolling with Lila    -I share the ailment with Kafka- tuberculosis-could there be a possibility that ,like him,I too could get buried,with my books, beneath the shroud of the dark and silent night?

Take care.

Holden,
thanks for your messages. Syria is relatively  small country around 25 million in 2010 before war commenced. about half million died, 10 million scurried outside like locusts.

seeing people like the animals they are, cuts the bull-S-H-IT of human language. as Mr Raul always reminds us, that it is kind of a farm here on Earth. I heard many refugee children and the adults had been kidnapped and  organ-harvested in the last 10 years inside and outside of Syria.

we have many troops here from many countries. War, is always a good business model. good for employment, good for technological innovation (ironically ), good for milking tax money from the citizens to the masters. I mean if one is a Master, what not to love about War.

Life is tough with societies such yours and mine, where one is castigated daily if he had no wife or kids, that is why i stay overseas and can not go home.

hope you stay healthy.

For Senor Raul: