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« Reply #900 on: September 15, 2021, 07:56:20 pm »
Things They Will Never Tell YouArthur Schopenhauer has been the most radical and defiant of all troublemakers.

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« Reply #901 on: September 16, 2021, 03:03:48 am »
Don Raul,

Thanks for your message. Do people know about La Llorona over there and have you met anyone who claims to have experienced her presence.

This is for you:



George Roux - Spirit ,1885

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Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
« Reply #902 on: September 17, 2021, 06:48:47 am »
Holden,

Thank you for your message.

Here the Paraguayan digital newspaper Crónica.com.py told about a case of an apparition of the Llorona in 2019 in Coronel Bogado, department of Itapúa.

The article below in one of the paragraphs says that “apparently this is not the first case of paranormal apparitions in the department of Itapúa. This fact brought to light other stories in which there is also talk of a mysterious woman, dressed in white, who was presented to the inhabitants of Coronel Bogado.

“I can assure you that in the early morning we saw with my husband a woman dressed in white walking along the road. When we realized in a second with my husband what we saw, we stopped with the vehicle to look at him and he was gone, "explained Vanessa Martinez, who also had a paranormal experience in the area. The lady said that what she lived marked her forever so she expressed: "Until today I have her face engraved in my mind.”

By the way this reminds me of what I read about the Greek writer Herodotus,the father of history.  He visited Egypt in the fifth century BC. There he saw something very unusual.

“When the rich give a party and the meal is finished, a man carries round amongst the guests a wooden image of a corpse in a coffin, carved and painted to look as much like the real thing as possible, and anything from 18 inches to 3 foot long [0.5 to 1 m]; he shows it to each guest in turn, and says: ‘Look upon this body as you drink and enjoy yourself; for you will be just like it when you are dead’.”

In one of your posts you wrote: “I crave solitude like a drunkard craves a drink. My solitude makes me intoxicated and joyous-drunk on solitude.”

Death,a dark companion, has been and will always be at your side.

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Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
« Reply #903 on: September 17, 2021, 04:12:49 pm »
To Herr Hauser and Don Raul

There is going to be some kind of an inspection tomorrow in the office and so I would be spending the entire night making things look better.

Most of the time I am in a state of nervous agitation.

To die.To sleep.No more.

What I mean is it would be wonderful if I stopped breathing somehow.

In the world I have been a failure.I observe my failure. But my mind often takes pity on me and takes me very far away from my surroundings,from poisonous people.

I should have died already.TB might have got me or pancreatitis.Or my own hands.

Maybe soon-face to face with Savage God.
Why did Plath kill herself.The author of Savage God says she did not mean to.

Well,maybe she did mean to.

I do not know.

I do not find women attractive.I do not find men attractive.I do not find existence attractive.
Except maybe I like the noose a little bit.

Maybe once I am dead I would get to talk to Schopenhauer and Kant and divine Plato. I would like that very much.I would like to talk to them.

Aristotle was married.He even had a kid.Not Plato though.Kant did not marry too.

Good old Van Gogh he never got married too.I would be his age when he shot himself quite soon.

Is getting older than Van Gogh worth it?I do not know.

Can one be suicidal one's whole life and die of ripe old age? First time when I thought about suicide was when I was 14.

It think it was after a maths test.I went to our prayer room and kneel before a Hindu idol.It was dark.The room was. I mumbled some kind of prayer and yet even then it was clear to me that it was futile.

So,I started praying to the Savage God.

Yet here I am.Even after a couple of decades.

When I was in the eleventh grade we went to a family friend.They told us their neighbor's daughter,a girl my age,had hung herself from a fan because she did not do well academically.

Sometimes I wonder if I were in her place and she in mine,how things might have turned out.Would she have been as depressed and as much of a nervous wreck as I am?




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Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
« Reply #904 on: September 17, 2021, 10:19:32 pm »
Holden,
  You might be surprised to know that I am glad you are reflecting upon the contents of The Savage God.  This may help you feel less "pathological" in your day-to-day distress at the absurdity of our existential predicament.

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Good old Van Gogh he never got married too.I would be his age when he shot himself quite soon.

While Van Gogh never married, this does not imply that he did not pine away and long to be embraced with genuine affection and tenderness by a caring woman.  He just never found his mate.  Evidently a mate for Van Gogh does not exist in this world of ours.

Hansel does not always find his Gretel.

Please explore His Unrequited Loves at the Van Gogh Museum (vangoghmuseum DOT nl/en):

The story of Vincent’s love of women is mainly one of setbacks and rejections. There was no shortage of desire or need on his part, but Vincent was never lucky in love. How come it never seemed to work out?

This is a very subtle area, the metaphysics of sexual love.  I am not ashamed that I can be dazzled by some women.  Yes, I do understand the line in Umberto Eco's  The Prague Cemetery:

see ----->
 https://www.google.com/books/edition/The_Prague_Cemetery/jTEhlj09LbIC?hl=en&gbpv=1&bsq=sack

From the bottom of page 74 to page 75:

"The beauty of the body is only skin deep. If men could only see what is beneath the flesh, they would be nauseated just to look at women: all this feminine charm is nothing but phlegm, blood, humors, bile. Consider all that is hidden in the nostrils, in the throat, in the stomach . . . And we who are repelled by the very thought of touching vomit or ordure with the tips of our fingers, how can we ever want to embrace a sack of excrement?"

I also left a longer excerpt on this message board:  A Haunting Passage From Eco Umberto's The Prague Cemetery

The thing is, we are all these sacks of excrement, and sometimes we just might gaze into the eyes of one of these sacks of excrement and behold beauty, charm, strength, and even compassion.  We might kiss the neck and embrace ... and feel some kind of relief from our common existential dread.



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Things They Will Never Tell YouArthur Schopenhauer has been the most radical and defiant of all troublemakers.

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Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
« Reply #905 on: September 18, 2021, 07:30:03 am »
Holden,

Thank you for your words and the article. It is a sad story. What I found bitter is that the baby suffering from the Down Syndrome was rejected by his mother. In time he will suffer this loss acutely. This is a world of pain.

I trust your inspection goes well. From my point of view your bosses have not fired you because you have been very efficient at work.

In time you will stop breathing. Indeed all of us will stop breathing or as they say in very formal medical English we all will cease to function. You say you have been a failure. This insane world is a failure. Not you or Hentrich or a few others.

Most people think they are truly living their lives when in fact this life is a nightmare. We are just demonic puppets thrown into this world to suffer all the worst diseases, agonies,accidents, mutilations,tortures, in this wretched existence.

We are children of hell. We are the children of ignorance. We are the children of aberrant desires. We do not want to confront our own miserable nature. We do not want to look at ourselves in the mirror. Had we been born with the heads of rats we would still deem ourselves very beautiful. In each one there is a killer. We just restrain ourselves because we know that punishment awaits us.

In short life is not attractive. But homo sapiens sapiens is a very resilient species. We were made that way. We are slaves programmed to cling to life.

I hope you are able to talk to Schopenhauer, Kant, Van Gogh, Aristotle, Plato and even Jesus if he existed. But it is a mystery what happens after death. I read that in the Amazon, the Yanomani blended the ashes of the dead into meals, to liberate the spirit of the dead and help them on their passage to the afterlife. That could have happened to you if you had been born in the Amazon. In this digital age you could become a hologram, brought back to life in 3D. This is only for celebrities and the super rich.

Stay alert.

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« Reply #906 on: September 20, 2021, 03:30:06 pm »
Don Raul,

I hope they have not injected anything into you body that you do not wish to have.There is a man here who rides around in his motorcycle around 10: 30 pm every night .His bike has no silencer and that noise- blast really hits me hard.

I have got ear muffs now so it is a little bit better. Last week there was a big Hindu festival and  a lot of people were bursting crackers. No sense of civility at all.

They would do everything one could possibly conceive to make one’s life quite painful.
I had ordered some snacks on-line and it was mentioned on the cover that it is oil-free,only later did I realise that, in fine-print ,they are mentioned that it contains cotton-seed oil.

They do everything possible to fatten us up. Just like the lambs are fattened before slaughter.
Well, I for one, would not be eating it.

Sugary drinks and fat-laden food is all around.

Take care.
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« Reply #907 on: September 21, 2021, 09:48:00 am »
Holden,

Thank you for your response. I hope you get a little peace at night specially.

According to https://www.vacunate.gov.py/index-listado-vacunados.html 2,543,590 people took the vaccine.

The authorities will do everything and anything to inject the vaccines into people´s bodies. That is the reason the government imposed the lockdowns, closed the borders, ruined people´s jobs and paused all kinds of medical consults, etc. Their aim is to vaccinate 4,900,000 people.

In the Paraguayan Supreme Court of Justice no lawyer can do his/her paperwork if he/she does not provide the vaccination card. Although it is illegal many companies force their employees to take the vaccines or they will be fired from their jobs. Two weeks ago I heard that between teachers and employees,10,000 people, in the Ministry of Education did not take the vaccine so these teachers, specially, will not be allowed into the classes.

Next month we have elections for mayoral candidates in the country and some gatherings are with maskless people. I am sure when the election is over they will come back with their variants.

Here too sugary drinks and fat-laden food have been all around for years. Years ago I drank these sugary drinks and ate lots of fat. Now I am paying the consequences.

Stay vigilant.



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« Reply #908 on: September 22, 2021, 04:20:44 pm »

Don Raul,

Thanks for your message.

I was thinking about your embrace of the idea of Gnosticism and I think there really is something to it.

I can often perceive glitches in the matrix.One needs to be observant though.This is a very wicked world.It eats people up by the millions.

It also vomits out abominations.I try to keep quiet but often one is required to speak out.Things never end well.There is always some kind of disaster lurking.

Disasters are in our DNA. They cannot be reasoned away.

There is always one around the corner.In Gnosticism, they talk about the wellspring of forgetfulness. The idea is that one tends to forget one’s essence. I tend to agree with the idea. I have also noticed that I become more forgetful than usual when I am surrounded by people.When I am all by myself, I am, generally, not very forgetful.

That there is something fundamentally wrong with this world is beyond dispute. But the optimists do not agree. Well, I do not much care for them.

Men are far worse than animals. There is no innocence in them. They seek money and material wealth and I find all this quite incomprehensible.

Workplaces are particularly bad because they are full of egotists. Everyone blows his own trumpet.Insanity.

The dogs around here bark all night. No peace for them too. They keep fighting each other.
Every night I see weird nightmare ,some of them are frightening,others are just weird. My mind keeps churning away even while I am asleep.

I wonder if you have ever met anyone in Paraguay who believes in Gnosticism. Probably not because most of the people are looking for job and maybe a promotion or two ,not Gnosticism.

There is this thesis around that the demiurge especially goes after those who are trying to find gnosis. It wishes to discourage them. While it makes sure that those who just want women and wine are amply rewarded.

I like to describe the Earth as Death-Country and later I realised that I did not come up with that phrase. That it is a rather common description of the world in certain sects of Hinduism.

During the day, I feel as if a lot of evil mental entities try to attack my mind continually and one could withstand such offensive volley only for so long.

They say that Gnosticism is dead and buried and yet who knows, it might very well end up replacing the mainstream religions in the future.

You know how people say one gets to see a bright light when one is having a near death experience? Well, I might not like to get close to it. Maybe I would walk away from it. Into the darkness. Into Nothingness.

Take care.
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Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
« Reply #909 on: September 23, 2021, 05:24:47 pm »
Holden,

Thank you again for your message and the article. I will read it.

I hope the authorities in the city keep the dogs away from your place. Here too from time to time we see dogs barking all night.  I also hope your colleagues stop abusing you verbally. Your colleagues´mouths are worthless. In time their mouths will become unusable. They have not learned yet that life is a cruel game. Most of us, including me, are merely following the rules that our societies gave us to distract us from the bitter truths of existence.

I apply a medical term often used with eyesight. We have a very myopic view of life.

This world was not made for peaceful or pacifists. We have been thrown into this mass grave called Earth. Are we not all just gravediggers in this human farm?

Once my father dragged me to the toilet and made me almost eat sShit because I used a rude language all the time. I must have been 7 or 9 years old. I hope someone did that to your colleagues in due time. I admit that I am not feeling empathy today.

Do you happen to know a gynecologist there? I read that Soviet Little Father, Stalin, banned abortions in 1936. Did he feel guilty? No, I speculate he became practical. He did not want to empty the Soviet paradise. Millions of slaves were/are needed. Stalin was as peaceful as dove. He did not pull the trigger. He just signed the death orders and his henchmen dutifully complied.

I saw some scenes from a Korean TV series, Voices, where the protagonist, Mo Tae Gu, a cold-blooded psychopath,fond of killing people with kettlebells at night while in the morning he worked in a company. For the protagonist killing is just a game and even his father is terrified of him. Finally the protagonist is captured by a detective and a woman police officer with special abilities and confined to a mental hospital where  Mo Tae-Gu was shot all over his body with several weapons by the patients, and as he was lying in blood,a doctor hit him with a meat-mincing hammer in the face and died. I find the protagonist extremely fascinating.

I interact with few people here but I guess there might be a few people interested in Gnosticism. Their lives may not be easy when you are surrounded by hard core optimists. Most of people, as you say, are looking for job or trying to keep the ones they have. Survival comes first.

Gnosticism is a deep subject and I am only scratching the surface. Gnosticism is not dead. It has been lurking for two thousand years. I read that a Gnostic teacher, Marcion, suggested “that the whole material universe was the creation of this non-Christian Old Testament god, and that all the matter within the cosmos was evil. Christians were to have as little as possible to do with this fleshly realm; they were to shun sensual pleasure and live lives of extreme asceticism. This also meant that Christ, the son of the true God, could not possibly have defiled himself by assuming creaturely form. Instead, he adopted the position known as Docetism, whereby Jesus had only appeared to take on a physical body: the "likeness of sinful flesh," as Romans 8:3 (one of Marcion's approved texts) helpfully put it.”

As you well know that for two million years this planet has been home to several species of humans, many living at the same time. Homo denisova, Homo rudolfensis, Homo ergaster, Homo neanderthalensis and Homo sapiens. They roamed Earth. This laboratory has existed for a very long time. Homo sapiens has prevailed. But for how long? To survive in this wretched world?

Disasters are in our DNA, you write. Indeed we have come to this world broken. Insanity is all around us.
In the blink of an eye we will all return to dust.

Stay alert.

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Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
« Reply #910 on: September 24, 2021, 10:09:15 am »
For Don Raul:

24 September. My sister said: The house (in the story) is very like ours. I said: How?
(From Kafka's Diary)
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« Reply #911 on: September 25, 2021, 04:22:25 pm »


Don Raul,

Thank you for your response.

Yes, it so happens that I do know a gynecologist. She is one of my first cousins. She is not intellectually gifted in the way Schopenhauer was, but she is street- smart.Also, she could easily play a Greek goddess in a Hollywood movie.She is that pretty.She got into medical college because a certain number of seats are reserved for women and her step-dad pulled a lot of strings for her. Also, like I said, while she is not intellectually gifted, she is far from being dumb.

Anyway, in the college she had so many suitors that she could not even count. The professors were very generous with marks.She married one of her seniors there.
Now, they have twins studying in the best school the city has. They run a pretty big hospital and are minting money.

The reason she makes so much money is not primarily due to her skills as a doctor but because she has a “no questions asked” policy.

So, a concerned father might walk into her hospital at 3 am in the night with his teenage daughter who is in the family way, and she (the cousin) would take care of the business.She would not ask any awkward questions. But she would name the price for her services and discretion.

I do not think Hinduism has ever been concerned about abortion the way Christianity is.

You say Stalin banned abortion and you are  right. However, I would like to add that he did not do so with regard to the women he impregnated himself.

“Stalin apparently forced Nadezhda to have ten abortions.”
From this article:
https://www.rbth.com/history/329366-stalins-women-shared-bed

Coming back to what was talking about, my parents are estranged from that side of the family now. And I am estranged from the whole of world and everything in it.

I do not know why any one would believe in God.Maybe a child would.
As a child I was taught this chant and recited it religiously every night before I went to bed-

We meditate on the glory of the Creator;
Who has created the Universe;
Who is worthy of Worship;
Who is the embodiment of Knowledge and Light;
Who is the remover of all Sin and Ignorance;
May He enlighten our Intellect.

I recited in Sanskrit,and the meaning was only partially clear to me then.

Folly. They try to manipulate kids. What a curse this existence has been for me. Men, most of them, are extremely petty and vindictive.

I remember reading One Hundred Years of Solitude by  Márquez while travelling in a train.It was summer then, and it was very hot. I remember looking out of the window and looking at the barren landscape devoid of any life and finding it beautiful in an austere kind of way. Marquez ,of course, writes about a place which is close to where you are. His words were imbued with pain and anguish.
I could see the same pain in the barren landscape the train was snaking its way through and when I looked in a mirror in the train washroom, in my own eyes.

It must have been around 2007. Quite a while back. Years have come and gone, but the anguish that was with me then, has faithfully stayed by my side, all the while.

Take care.



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Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
« Reply #912 on: September 27, 2021, 06:50:09 am »
Holden,

Thank you for the article about Stalin. I read the other article about our simulation hypothesis.It is very interesting.
I hope your neighbor, the actor, is giving you some peace and the bikers stop making so much noise at night.

Yes, Stalin, the Soviet god, was a very creepy creature. Svetlana, his daughter, went to live in the U.S. in the 1970s where she died in 2011. In fact one of her husbands was from India. One of her granddaughters live in Portland, Oregon.

You write why anyone would believe in God. Maybe a child would. The problem is complex. But the thing that is the way we, homo sapiens sapiens,have been wired or designed. We just follow our genetic programming.

Yes, most men and women are petty and vindictive. I won´t lie. I am also petty and vindictive. There are people for whom I would not shed a single tear. And others would not shed a tear for me either. That´s life.

Take care.

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To Don Raul and Mr. Ibra
« Reply #913 on: September 28, 2021, 01:06:34 pm »
My throat is acutely sore and I am feeling weakened. I would write to you as soon as I feel better,maybe in a couple of days.

Take care.
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Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
« Reply #914 on: September 29, 2021, 02:17:18 pm »
Holden,

Thank you for your response. Please write only when you feel better.
Take care.