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Heart of Darkness ( To Don Raul)
« Reply #795 on: July 30, 2021, 10:12:27 am »
Don Raul,
Thanks for your message.I left that “Heart of Darkness” video  earlier in the day today because it is connected with this message and I could not send the message sooner.

Conrad wrote a book called Heart of Darkness which is rather well-known.He set the story in Africa. Much as I admire that book,I have to say that I do not believe that Africa should be called the Heart of Darkness.

That is because this land I am writing the message from is the true Heart of Darkness. By several common parameters many African nations are doing much better.

If I were a believer, I would have said that providence sent me to this place so that I could have the front seat when all hell breaks loose.

As good old Kafka writes:
Anyone who cannot cope with life while he is alive needs one hand to ward off a little his despair over his fate...but with his other hand he can jot down what he sees among the ruins, for he sees different and more things than the others; after all, he is dead in his own lifetime and the real survivor.”
I feel that in some way the people around me are zombies who are moved by just two things-desire for money and for babies.
I know people who have four kids or more while they are still in their twenties and who refuse to use any kind of contraception because their “God” does not approve of it.

Of course , God does not. Because as the Gnostics tell us ,it is not god but a vengeful deity.
Yesterday I experienced a couple of panic attacks while I was in the office and then I took some L-theanine and it seems to calm me down a bit. I do not know what the heck I am doing on this rock.

I seem strange to the others because I hardly talk with anyone about anything that is not work related and because I hardly ever get out of the house if I can help it. It’s because I can see the trauma and the  terror that awaits me in every place ,while others are too thick skinned to feel such things.

I think, in earnest, that you and the Gnostics have a point. Your theory is a much better explanation for the horrors all around me than what the church and the temple are offering.





Take care.
La Tristesse Durera Toujours                                  (The Sadness Lasts Forever ...)
-van Gogh.