{∅, {∅}, {∅, {∅}}} : Rage Against the Meat Grinder

Senor Raul,

Thanks for your message. I am sorry about your sad childhood and hope that you are feeling well.Life is terrible.No two ways about it. A lot of people feel that they were abducted by the aliens when they were asleep and the aliens conducted a lot of weird experiments on them.

The truth is ,we were abducted when we were born and the painful experiments continue ceaselessly till we drop deal. Dead like a dodo.
Most of life makes no sense to me ,precisely because it is senseless.Probably what were demons to the ancients ,have been transformed into aliens,now.

Strange dreams the whole night long. With no rhythm or reason.Maybe with a reason so deeply buried ,that I cannot understand it.
People would continue to procreate so long as they can. If Mr.Gary were more pessimistic, then he would see that. I see that. It is quite evident. It would take a natural calamity to wipe us out. It would not happen involuntary.

Some say that he like Schopenhauer, well, he is not. If he is like any philosopher at all, then, he is like  Eduard von Hartmann.
Lovecraft believed that if would have been better if he belonged to the 18th century, and I suspect that I might have felt better, if I were born around Schopenhauer’s birth year.But maybe not. Maybe I just abhor all the historical periods and all of the possible birth places.

Chickens have very bad lives. Especially the ones born in industrial farms. They suffer a great deal of torture. All this pain could literally drive one out of his mind ,were one to focus upon it relentlessly.Hence, the distractions.

I cannot bring myself to speak a single word to anyone. I am terrified of human beings because they are the worst monsters that Existence were vomited out. Sometimes I think I might just about take a snake over a human being.

Conard in his book “Heart of Darkness” described Africa as probably the least civilized place on the face of this planet. Well, I am afraid it is not Africa. It is where I am. They are just like robots who understand nothing except for consumption and reproduction. They eat and pump out babies.That is all. That is all they are concerned with. The anomalies are required to hang themselves from the nearest tree.

It might literally be the ninth circle of hell. Even the so-called animals are far more civilized. If you throw them( animals) a biscuit,they might look upon you with gratitude. But people here are such that if you were to give them a biscuit,they will look at the act  as your weakness and would try to devour your flesh too.Yes, it is that bad here.

As a kid ,I went to the circus a couple of times, and I saw the animals which were skeletal because they were never fed properly and the owner was always obese.Half the population in the world is undernourished and the other half is obese. Here, in the cities, you would be hard pressured to find a single man who is not over weight. They are eating all the time. Making a babies all the time. All the goddamn time.

I won’t mind leaving this planet one bit,not one bit. This place we are in is a veritable torture chamber. There is no other hell. I am in the very heart of darkness. Darkness without end.

Most of the movies push an agenda. The agenda of promoting mindless consumption and reproduction. I rarely come across a movie in which the protagonist is without a romantic interest.

Well, I am interested in horror. Because that I what I see all around me,even within me.Pervasive really. Even when I sleep, the horror is present in my dreams. Such weird nightmare.I am always in pain in my nightmares. Frightened and running.

Take care.