{∅, {∅}, {∅, {∅}}} : Rage Against the Meat Grinder

Senor Raul,

Thanks for you message. I hope you are doing well.Life is a painful business and it is very difficult to put up with it. People like to make babies ,both within and without the wedlock. In fact, in some countries now, more babies are born outside of the wedlock.

Are there any haunted houses in you city and do you feel strange in anyway when you pass by them by?
Here, the government is trying to privatise all the State Owned Enterprises.
I have been thinking about the difference between syllogistic logic and the propositional one.

While I greatly admire Mr.Gary, unfortunately, so I believe, his logic is fundamentally flawed. Flawed, in that, people would continue to make babies till the very end and would never stop voluntarily.The spirit of fornication is everywhere.

Did your Uncle, the catholic priest, ever perform an exorcism?
It think Capitalism and Socialism are both flawed because existence itself is flawed.
I feel like I am in the bizarro land with no way out. Hemmed in from all sides.

Some days are particularly bad,like today. People are the worst.Worse than the animals. The absolute worst. Are there any mental asylums in you city and have you seen the insane, out for a walk or the like.

My neighbour,who is a small time actor,without any work and  I think,he spies on me. If anyone comes to find me, he joins them in banging the door and tells them to stay back, till I finally relent and meet them.

Do you think I should put a dummy camera above my door to give him the message that I am observing him.Dummy camera looks like the real one but does not capture anything.I stay in a cooperative housing society and if put up the dummy camera ,do you think he might complain to the authorities about it?

Take care.

Holden,

Thank you again for your comments. Indeed life is a painful business. It has always been and it will always be.
It is true, as you say, that in some countries like here, more babies are born outside of the wedlock. It is really a tradition. My cousin, a year older than me, has a 10-year-old boy, another 25-year-old son and another daughter. As you say the spirit of fornication is everywhere.

Last week in Concepción, a city in northern Paraguay, a 24-year-old guy was kidnapped supposedly by a subversive group. This group allegedly asked for a ransom of $ 200,000. The family, not a wealthy one, agreed to pay that amount but yesterday the young man´s body was found near the border with Brazil. In my view we have another example of state-sponsored-terrorism. These murders do not happen at random and it was not the first one. Many police officers, judges, lawyers, state officials are complicit.

I watched Testigo, (Witness), a documentary by a Colombian photojournalist, Jesús Abad Colorado and in one of the interviews he showed a picture he took of a young mother in 2002 holding her baby. This woman was killed by Colombian paramilitaries. The grandmother took care of the children and in 2019 the photojournalist went back to the house to show the pictures to her baby, now in her 20s. The thing is that the daughter is now pregnant. Is this not a sign of deep vitalism among peoples?
Again what is the point of being against abortion if people are going to die mutilated, raaped, maimed, murdered?

As to the haunted houses here, I heard in some historic places people hear the sounds of dead people a long time ago talking. Some of these historic places were military barracks dating back to the War of the Triple Alliance (1864-1870). In October 2018 in downtown Asuncion, an entire family was murdered and some journalists reported hearing screams in the house where the tragedy happened.

Here many years ago state companies were privatized but there is no need to privatize them now because actually most of the key ministries work for powerful business groups.

There is a psychiatric hospital but I have never been near there. The insane are not there but in the streets obeying every single word the government decrees.

Your neighbor, that actor, does not realize or does not want to realize he is really stalking you. Other people would go to a police station and file a complaint. You are way too kind. I suppose buying a dummy camera has its costs but I am sure if he sees it he will stop bothering you. And if your neighbor complains about it to the authorities you have a good justification to install that camera.

Stay alert.

For Senor Raul:

Senor Raul,

I could not write sooner as some senior officers of the organisation were visiting my city. I was thinking about something. That there could very well be a parallel universe in which you would be where I am and I would be at your place.

In a world which is so complicated that it has entities that are self-conscious,they might imagine that they are in a “physical world”.

May be all the configurations that exist in mathematics, also exist in physics. There would be other universes in which I did do away with myself.

When I am experiencing deep and relentless anguish and I am pondering whether to continue with this life of suffering and misery or to end it with a bare bodkin, maybe, at the decision point,” reality” tears into two-I breathe and write this message to you in one of them, in another, which is also as real as it gets, the bare bodkin is red.

Many years back, while I was working as a waiter, the fiance of a cousin of mine made fun of me when I told him that I wanted to understand why we have dreams and all,I don’t remember properly, but the upshot of his message to me was that everything is mechanical and and while he is super-bright (and hence a top- notch doctor),I am barely better than a doorknob and hence, a waiter.

It is true that ,at that point of time, I could not have countered his arguments.

I was little better than a tramp.

They have two kids now(twins).
And I understand a wee bit better than I did then.

Take care.

Holden,

Thank you for your enlightening words and the video clip.

Some people are asking me if I already got the vaccine. I told them that I am afraid of the vaccines and that I only have few years to live so I will await my end when the time comes.

The vaccination is being distributed full time now because the Ministry of Health received a donation of Pfizer vaccines from the United States. The Catholic bishops are also in the campaign for the vaccination. In 14 days children with medical underlying conditions will get the vaccine.

Although the world shows us every single second its savagery and its lack of compassion and solidarity most men and women will never be amenable to antinatalism. The will to life is very strong. They will never accept that life is a curse. They will never accept that life is slavery.They will never accept that we are laboratory rats.

We are children of aberrant desires. If the urine smells bad, then the sperm is sticky. Sperm is the excrement. Our instincts and needs were imposed on us. They are part of our genetics.
We will see, as we grow older, the wrinkles in our skin in the mirror.

Many ask, I heard very often, why God allows the perpetration of so many atrocities. I learned, better late than never, that if we suppress the laws and judges we will see that we are really demonic beings. We are complicit of torturers, executioners and jailers.

As I said we are the children of our father, the demiurge but on a lower scale. I would like to flog some people but I cannot do it because there is a penal code and later incarceration. I am sure you know many of your colleagues want to do the same to their bosses or superiors. 

The demiurge is a miserable son of a bbitch, an abuser, a torturer, a sadistic ill-begotten creature.
We, human beings, because of our survival instinct we adapt to this malignant existence and we become monsters. I do not see goodness in myself. I only see predation. Does Earth not consume or bury us after yeas of agony and suffering?

Is Earth a peace-loving mother? Not only do bugs suck blood but also human beings. Predation and exploitation are the law. The Demiurge is the cosmic predator.

There is a flaw in existence itself.

Stay safe.

Quoting Holden-to-Raul:

Madness is deep. It is unfathomable. People who have the eyes to see are deemed insane.

Take care of your eyes.

There is a double meaning here that is melting this world's idea of itself.

The world we "see" [representation/maya] is not the world we "be" [will/IT/"The Protoplasmic Thing-in-Itself"].