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Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
« Reply #1095 on: February 06, 2022, 11:05:18 am »
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Don Raul and Herr Hauser,

About three weeks back on Sunday, I did some mathematical exercises.My left arm and shoulder were feeling a bit stiff. But I thought the stiffness would disappear soon.Little did I know then that it would intensify, so much so, that I would find myself writhing in agony on the floor at 3 a.m.

What were my thoughts while I was in pain at  3 a.m. ? There were none. I was quite close to losing my consciousness.I just wanted it to stop. I just wanted it to allow me to draw in a breath properly.

I had a few painkiller in the house but they did as much good as trying to use an air-gun to hunt down a T-Rex .

This T-Rex was the biggest and the most vicious of them all and had my neck ,firmly, in its jaws.

I also had no liquer in the house, because, I have been a teetotaler for many years, for all intents and purposes.

So, the whole night long I just awkwardly squatted on the floor and waited for the Sun.But there was no Sunlight to be had,only darkness.

Though I stay far away from my parents, I had my mum’s prescription for painkillers (who is a cancer survivor).I ran with it to the pharmacy, first thing in the morning, and I am quite certain the would had outpaced the fastest of the Olympians. I got the medication and it did me as much good as recurrence of my pancreatitis would.

Well, the pain was DEBILITATING-I could not write, I could not read,heck, I could not even brush my teeth. I saw a doctor over a video call and he prescribed me some medicines.

In the evening, I first went and bought a six-pack FIRST( because I had zero confidence that the prescribed medicine was going to do me any good, and, soon, I was going to find out that I was right, much to my dismay).Then, I bought the medicines and came home.

The decision to get a beer and not hard liquor was a conscious one because I had no intentions of welcoming back my old buddy Pancreatitis, that is not to say that beer CERTAINLY won’t trigger it,but I thought beer would be a safer bet,because if the old buddy decided to revisit me while my right arm was still on fire, then, I would have jumped from the nearest ,tallest building-no kidding.

Well, so I came back home and first took the medicines, hoping against hope that they would work and I would not have to resort to alcohol. Not a  chance. Well, I **** open my first beer in a really long time. It was rather strong.

Now, did it lessen my pain? I do not think so. What it did was this- it intoxicated me and so, my brain, stopped paying as much attention to the pain as it was paying earlier. With its attention diverted, if only for a while, I finally managed to sleep.

(To be continued…hopefully)
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Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
« Reply #1097 on: February 07, 2022, 04:00:18 am »
People are always angry at anyone who chooses very individual standards for his life; because of the extraordinary treatment which that man grants to himself, they feel degraded, like ordinary beings.
-Niètzsche
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Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
« Reply #1098 on: February 07, 2022, 06:51:40 am »
Holden,

Thank you for your words, the article on Schopenhauer and the quote. It is very sad that you are going through a very painful health situation. I hope this T-Rex,as you call it, stops having your neck ,firmly, in its jaws.

I can only remember this quote taken from Ecclesiastes:

Ecclesiastes 4
2 And I declared that the dead,
    who had already died,
are happier than the living,
    who are still alive.
3 But better than both
    is the one who has never been born,
who has not seen the evil
    that is done under the sun.

Take care.
 

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Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
« Reply #1099 on: February 08, 2022, 09:57:19 pm »
For Don Raul:
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Don Raul,

Thanks a ton for your message.Your messages are a source of clarity in an otherwise confused world.I met four doctors ( three on-line, one off-line), the first three maybe just viewed me as a source of revenue and prescribed medicines which might as well have been candy-they made no difference at all.

After seeing three doctors, I, more or less gave up. I did not want to see any more doctors. But for once ,my mum’s pestering helped me out. She kept asking me to see another doctor and I finally did. This man was an honest and straight-forward man and prescribed me a strong nerve pain-killer which finally brought a measure of solace to my pain-wrecked body.The pain was so severe that I was forced to sit like a pretzel.

Before seeing the fourth one, I was using strong beer as my crutch because it helped to mitigate the pain somewhat. I first tried what is called “light beer” with low alcohol content but it did not help to get a handle on pain, so I had to resort to strong beer.

My flat was a mess as I could not do any house-work and the floor was beer cans-strewn.

Thank Jupiter for the honest fourth doctor who took pity on me and prescribed an appropriate pain-killer.

Take care.

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Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
« Reply #1101 on: February 10, 2022, 08:00:00 am »
Holden,

Thank you for your comments and the video clip. I am just a scribbler in this board.
I am glad you found a doctor who prescribed you the medication for your body in pain. In this world you are only a client and not a patient. Business is business. We are seeing it now with Big Pharma.

I hope this medication gives you the possibility of doing the activities you were doing before.

Stay safe.

P.S. I transcribe the following from a blog called Gnosis Eterna in Spanish.

The Bible
John 12:25-New International Version (NIV)
Anyone who loves their life will lose it, while anyone who hates their life in this world will keep it for eternal life.

Translation
Thursday, May 28, 2020
EARTH IS THE REAL HELL
Earth is the real hell. The material world created by the Demiurge Jehovah Satan is the prison of our spirit, which is used to feed this demon and his parasitic archons.
Earth is Sheol, the underworld or lower world described by ancient philosophies and religions.

The place where souls are tormented day and night suffering the miseries of the flesh.
From birth, the human being is already condemned to death. The individual begins to deteriorate in the process of decomposition of the flesh, due to the imperfection that permeates matter. All living beings, especially humans, are full of diseases and condemned to prey on each other in order to survive in this hell, from the mineral kingdom, through the animal kingdom and then the human, to finally end up being swallowed by the Demiurge , which is given a great banquet at the end of each cycle of the world (Creation and Destruction).

That is why the importance of freeing our spirit chained to matter. The only real purpose that every human being should have is to fight to escape from the material prison in which they have been condemned.

In the Bible, we can see that King David himself implores the Demiurge Jehovah Satan not to allow his soul to be abandoned in Sheol (Earth).
Psalm 16:10
New International Version
10 because you will not abandon me to the realm of the dead,
    nor will you let your faithful[a] one see decay.



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Nietzsche Movie for Don Raul
« Reply #1102 on: February 11, 2022, 11:20:42 am »
Full Nietzsche movie for Don Raul( It's not top-notch):
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Message for Don Raul
« Reply #1103 on: February 11, 2022, 02:09:18 pm »
Don Raul,
I have posted a message for you -you would have to login to access it.

Take care.
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Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
« Reply #1104 on: February 11, 2022, 07:15:35 pm »
Thank you Holden for pointing out In the Presence of Schopenhauer.    Another Soul Brother, that Michel Houellebecq is.   I will check out the pdf and possibly even get through a Dark Night of the Soul a little more smoothly reading this.

What you are experiencing could be "life teaching you not to want it," but knowing this does not decrease that raw, intense, indescribable pain.  We each have different pain thresholds.  I wish I could save you from your experiences, but we each seem only capable of offering deep and genuine compassion.   I would surely miss your presence in this bizzare world, and I would reread the things you have written.  You, Holden, are very worth reading.   If your arm continues to prevent you from writing, please consider recording your contemplations, even if only to bring you some relief in groaning.

Remeber Cioran's suggestions.  Some days he could only lie down and groan in emotional agony.   If there is one thing that can kill our sense of humor, it would be intense physical agony, I think.

Maybe you won't be able to get out a giggle until some effective pain relief is administered to your poor agonized animal body.

May you find relief soon.

Things They Will Never Tell YouArthur Schopenhauer has been the most radical and defiant of all troublemakers.

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Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
« Reply #1105 on: February 12, 2022, 11:07:54 am »
 

The earth, said he, has a skin, and this skin has diseases. One of those diseases, for example, is called “man.”-Nietzsche
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To Don Raul
« Reply #1106 on: February 13, 2022, 03:05:38 pm »
Don Raul,
I have posted a message for you -you would have to login to access it.

Take care.
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« Reply #1107 on: February 14, 2022, 09:17:37 pm »
That was a very consoling read, "In the Presence of Schopenhauer" ... Thanks Holden.

Among some of the gems: "The healthy beggar is happier than the sick king."  ;)

I see that Arthur Schopenhauer was a kind of "freak of Nature and Circumstance" ... He was most certainly a non-mass man.

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Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
« Reply #1108 on: February 17, 2022, 10:39:46 am »
For Don Raul:

Men who think deeply appear to be comedians in their dealings with others because they always have to feign superficiality in order to be understood.

Friedrich Nietzsche
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Re: A Question for Herr Hauser and Senor Raul
« Reply #1109 on: February 17, 2022, 11:42:28 pm »
For Don Raul:
Nature is Satan’s garden. - Antichrist, Lars von Trier
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