{∅, {∅}, {∅, {∅}}} : Rage Against the Meat Grinder

Mental, spiritual, hmmm... physical?

I think also that "stimulation" is a better word than fun. Fun sounds vague. Stimulation is, at least, more specific. It means something. Some kind of electrical impulses sent through the brain that I will decode as some kind of pleasure. Then it is a quest of stimulation. Though a specific kind of stimulation that is pleasurable to me.

I will discover something new.. Something old in me. I don't know. Maybe it is about time that I begin to explore the hedonistic side of me. Maybe I'll start playing with alcohol? Not on a deep level, but as a starting point to self-discovery..? What have we to do here. I like where you're going with mathematics and computers. I'd be nowhere near that field as far as my knowledge goes, but I'm going to start playing video games again like I used to when I was a kid. Video games and alcohol. Sounds fun. Sounds... stimulating. At least right now. After that, if I start chasing women again, I may go in with an attitude of not giving a fudge. No longer seeking love, only pleasure, fun, and stimulation. All of my goals always get sidetracked from distractions of attempting to build these long lasting relationships that just fall apart. I won't deny that I have a weakness to having relations with the opposite sex. But what I can do is feed that hunger, if it comes, but stop equating sex with love. I think I am coming to a point of understanding that I don't need love from another. I think this whole time, I thought I did.

So... sex, games, and alcohol. I may be onto something...

tbc