MISSING H-66 (2002) : green 500-page hard-cover record book missing
*** along with entire set of [14] European-style notebooks with various courses fit for professors to instruct a class with. One professor offered to purchase the notes I compiled from his lectures. I refused. That set went missing while i was out in Seattle checking on nephew's sanity - mom sold house, all my possessions [including library] in basement. Maybe The Techgnostic Scribblings, which would have my name all over it, throughout the series, might have gotten mixed up with the books "donated" to the church on the corner of Manalapan Ave and Main Street Freehold USA North America Earth (by the way, that is the answer to "where on earth could they be?")
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I know I have been a fool.
Twice the fool for documenting my foolishness.
To preserve the ordered chaos
in chunks of logbooks ... mad experiment
the outcome of which I won't likely be alive to witness.
Maybe the academics will find such a raw approach disturbing
to their false sense of "passing the torch" -
or even having ever been passed such a "torch."
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H-67 (2003) : DIARIUM [scratch-pad] #67 {
36 salvaged packed tight ---> computer architecture flip-flops
Prince Mishkin Idiot behavior wooing unattainable
and then cool tangent into Latin and Greek IDEA
(p23-27 of 36)
very deep, inspired by woman.
I mistook Muse for romantic feeling, but
was mostly just more symptoms
of my Dostoevskian-Idiot-Prince status
holy fool, "touched in the head," clown of the town
--- but Nothing that is so, is so.
I upload these willingly as a celebration
of such a thing as "an inner life" -
Still, with respect, my apologies if I was rude.
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H-68 (1995/2003) : Volumes of the Hex :: 1 (50 pages salvaged)
[
not uploaded for privacy] H-69 (2003)
: Volume III of Volumes of the Hex (66 pages salvaged) {
Secret Swedish "dippa" recipe;
Letter to Black Elks Club on Throckmorton Street
about "Basic Call to Consciousness"
Crazy Ghost becomes Fantasma Insano
rudimentary Spanish/English;
}
H-70 (2003) : 4th Hex {
some of what was censored above
comes around full circle, polished;
Please ignore corny rhymes;
Notes on Quinn (Daniel) |---> B =?= H;
}H-71 (2003) : 5th Hex Overview Umbrella
{ [38 pages]
good Spanish/English basic guide;
p6. Discussion of "mental illness"
(Pirsigian [philosophical] view of)
otherwise, corny rhymes;
SCHOPENHAUER ++DISCIPLE;
} H-72 (2003) :: 6th Hex : MOON DAY (26 pages)
H-73 (2003) : The Seventh Volume of the Hex (29 pages)
{
p4: definition: dread := inward passion;
}H-74 (2003) : The Eigth Volume of the Hex (44 pages)
{
gortbusters: ground zero
}H-75 (2003) : "Negativistic" (22 pages)
{
peculiar research:
negativistic personality as Steppenwolf?
Spain vs Indio;
anthro: division of geno-types?;
// pardon my ignorance
}H-76 (2003) : hex XH-77 (2003) : DIARIUM Scratchpad #77 { //
could be of practical use *** math survival guide helpful reminders for speaking
"Spanish" i.e., using hand gestures
eye contact and facial expressions }H-78 (2003) : World WithinH-79 (2004) : Wonder Continues (39 pages)
{
research during breakdown;
}Diarium-80 from [Red Bank, NJ] 2004
:----> Lost (in 2009) out in King County, outside of Seattle, Washington
(lost at bus stop, then freaked out)
Diarium-81 (2004) : My Cosmic Work (48 pages salvaged)
H-82 (2003) : Mentalistic Mayhem (73 pages salvaged)
{ Notes from BEYOND CIVILIZATION
(reading D.Quinn in welfare motel, // no longer exists
Farmingdale, NJ);
- fuzzy copy ... template for empire gb;
consider "lost" as I botched the 2015 copy }H-83 (2004) : The First and Last of My Nation { (44 pages)
83:1 "Schopenhauerian Ko Mu So"
also, conspiracy paranoid theories
that took courage just to wonder about
*** Thanks Herr Vonnegut for S-5++ ***
p24 : { a person cannot indefinitely avoid
his true self. Anxiety intrudes; }
83:2 p26 "
How to get through a life
not worth living ...";
83:3 etc ... more dumb rhymes
and phenomenological pig-shiit;
gem --> p40 : be prepared
to be defeated by life;
p42: Rational Recovery?
}H-84 (2004) : The One Who Knows Himself (42 pages)
H-85 (2005) :: DIARIUM #85